A/N: Here is the newer version of chapter 2. Hope you will like it.

Summary: Dearka has gone missing on one of his mission. Miriallia has found out about these 3 months later, when Kira and Lacus come to Orb. How will Miriallia handle this news? Who is this blond hair man that looks exactly like him and also has the same surname as Dearka does? And why is Miriallia's name on the top five, must killed, list?

Main Paring: Dearka X Miriallia.

Disclaimers: I do not own Gundam Seed or Seed Destiny.

Chapter 2

A middle age brunette woman was doing the dishes in the kitchen when she heard heavy footsteps coming from the corridors. The young brunette with blue eyes came in and walks towards the kitchen counter. The older woman turned around she greeted one of her three daughters.

"Mother, I'll be going for a bit and I won't be home for dinner tonight. Tell dad not to wait for me alright", Miriallia said. She was about to leave when her mother called her back and asked about her lunch. "I'll have them outside. Besides, I still have something things I need to do before my next deadline".

With that said, Miriallia drove out from her parent's house and head towards the city.

Two weeks ago, Miriallia Haw, who was travelling around Europe, was forced come home to the Orb Union when she failed to meet her first deadline for her next photo collections. She pleaded her manager for an extension of that deadline and was ready for her manager's ear-perching scolding. To her surprised, her manager did no scold her and agrees with her extension.

"I'll give you one more month for your first deadline Miriallia", Kristy, her manager said over this phone call. "You better give me something by then or I will really wring your neck off that lovely neck of yours".

"Thank you Kristy. I am truly grateful to have a manager like yourself", Miriallia said.

"How many times have I heard that line already", Kristy said. "Call me again when you are ready got your discussion. Remember, only one month and that's it".

"Roger that Kristy". Miriallia said before the other end cut the call. "Better rest up before starting work then". She said, and ended up moving back to her parent home.

Miriallia Haw has finally decided to begin her search for new inspiration for her collection after her three days stay at her parent's home. She decided to drop by her condominium where she used it as her little office and placed where she keeps her camera and tools for her work. The brunette opened the front door into her two-room condominium and found out that her home is still clean from what she saw two weeks ago upon coming home. Her home was a mess right before her hasty flight and she has thanked her sibling for the cleaned up when she went and stayed with her parents.

She walks into her unit, closes the door behind her and left the keys by the counter before walking to her bedroom. The moment she opens the door, she sighs in defeat. Her bedroom was how she has left it and only one word could describe it, a havoc.

"I guess they did not bother about my room when they clean the living and the guest bedroom", she said, while closing the door behind her.

She walks pass her equipment and the fox sculpture that that was on the couch and walk towards the balcony. Miriallia steps out onto her balcony and looks at the beautiful view of the city and smiled. "I guess the view is the only reason that I have bought this unit down".

A light breeze greeted her face and played with her hair while she was enjoying the quite moment until her mobile vibrates inside her jean's pocket.

She took it out and saw that it was unknown caller. "Hello, this is Miriallia Haw speaking".

"Hello Miriallia? It's me Kira", Kira said from the other side of the line. "How are you do-"

"Kira, is it really you?" Miriallia cuts in and covers her mouth in delight. "How are you doing? How is Lacus doing? When did you come back to Orb?" She pouted when she heard Kira chuckled from the other side of the line. "What are you laughing at Kira?"

"Nothing! I'm just glad that you are doing fine by yourself", he said.

Miriallia felt that something was wrong with Kira's voice. His tone is cheerful but somehow sad. "Is something wrong Kira?" she asked. "You seem… depressed".

Kira was silent for a moment before he spoke again. "Are you free at the moment Miri?" he asked. "I have something important to tell you. It's about Dearka".

Miriallia sigs and said, "if you are trying to pass a message from him then you can forget about it Kira", she said. She could help to be annoyed whenever the subject is about Dearka, even though she knows that Kira was never that kind of person to help others to pass messages. "Tell that idiot to sai-"

"Dearka is… missing Miria".

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Miriallia did not know what to think.

Is Kira trying to be funny or something? But Kira would never take a person's life for this kind of a sick joke. Unless… Unless Dearka was the one that's making him do it.

Yah! That's it. Dearka might be the one that's behind all this sick jokes just to force me to meet him, she thought. I'm sure I'll be seeing him later with the others. I'm sure of it.

Miriallia could see the coffee shop by the corner and Kira, Athrun and a silver hair man was waiting for her arrival. She could not find a certain blond hair man no matter how hard she looks for his presence.

He must have gone to the restroom, she thought, trying her best not think of what Kira had said earlier.

Kira was the first to spotted the brunette when she first steps into the café. "Miriallia, over here", Kira called.

Miriallia smiled and make her way towards the trio. She realized a brown cupboard box sitting beside the silver hair man's feet. She took her seat beside Kira. "Athrun is here as well?", she said in a trembling voice. "I never know that you free today. And this is…"

"Allow me to introduce Miriallia. This is Yzak Joule, a ZAFT Commander and also … Dearka's ex-superior", Athrun said, stopping in-between when he mention Dearka's name.

Miriallia senses the depress atmosphere around her friends and frowned slightly. She sighs when she notice her own frown. "So what is it that you want to talk to me about?" she asked. " It's really a lame joke if you are going to say that that idiot is missing".

"Miri, what I said earlier is no joke". Miriallia look at Kira with a shocking look.

"Kira please! This is really going too far just for-"

"This is not a joke Miriallia Haw", Yzak shouted, as he glared at the female Natural. "Dearka Elsman is missing. I also wish this were his sick jokes. But this … this is reality. Dearka's really … gone". Yzak choked as tears began to trickle from the side of his eyes. He took a deep breath and continue, "We have tried our best and still are trying to search for him. But… what are the odds?"

Miriallia just looks at them with same shocking expression and tears were forming at the edge of his eyes.

"I'm sorry to say this Miriallia, but we have known Dearka for a much longer time than you have", Athrun said while comforting his friend as much as he could. "None of us wish fir this but Dearka is really gone. He had sacrificed his life saving his other comrades from danger on their last mission".

"Just give me a moment Athrun", Yzak said, after he's calm down slightly. He brought up the brown cardboard box and gave it to the brunette. "These… are his remaining. I think … it would be better if you were the one to keep them as his momento".

Miriallia look at the box and accept it with trembling hands. Her tears were trickling down when she opened the lid and saw his smiling photo. She took a deep breath and looks through the things. There was a brown wooden box and three photo journals, her photo journals. Dearka had collected every edition she has published and every one of them was the limited collections.

She covers her mouth as she sobs harder. She felt Kira's arm on her shoulder, trying to comfort her. She gave him a sad smile before taking the wooden box out and opened it. Inside was filled with letters and two fabric pouches. She took out one of the pouches and opened it. Inside was a nametag with his name inscribed on the tag.

"These were gifts from our senior when we graduated from the ZAFT Military Academy", Athrun said. Miriallia look at him as he continue, "Our senior gave each of us two sets of the name tags. It seems that he was wearing one of them when he-"

Athrun stops as his tears began to form at the edge of his eyes.

Miriallia took a deep breath. "Wouldn't it be… better if his parents were the one have his things?" she asked in a trembling voice.

"His parent has claimed what they needed to claim" Yzak replied. "These were the remaining and … I know that he would wish for you to keep them".

"I see", he voice was quivering when she said it. "Thank you Yzak". Miriallia has tried to be strong, trying to stop herself from breaking apart. But this is too much for her. She clutches onto the nametags as her tears falls. "Dearka! Dearka!" she cries.

"Miriallia…". Kira placed his hand on her back.

Miriallia quickly grasped onto Kira's uniform and cried in silent. Kira could feel that his brunette friends body was shaking as he held onto her shoulders.

"Dearka! Tolle!" she cried.

For the second time in her life, she had lost someone dear to her, someone she had not thought she would come to care for so much. Tolle, for her was different since they have been going out before the wars strike and killed him. She had broken down that time because wars were the ones that separate her and her first love.

But Dearka, to her Dearka was different. She was afraid of him the first time they met but she had managed to bod with him in an unexpected way. She had thought that their short relationship was over when he had decided to go back to the PLANTs. She had though that he would not be contacting her anymore but he still did. From time to time, he would leave a short message in her e-mail box. It might be some insignificance chats but it always lights up her days, especially while she's on a slump. But now, she would not be able to receive them anymore.

Miriallia would not have a chance to hear his voice again or see him again. "Dearka! Why, Dearka?" she cried.

Kira had wanted to comfort her but he did not know what to say. He is afraid that he would say the wrong things at the wrong time. So he decided to keep his silence and allow the female brunette to cry her heart out.

After a while, Miriallia has finally calmed down. But she was very pale and dismal.

"Do you want to go back to your family's place Miri? I could give you a ride back", Kira offered, after exchanging a few look with both Athrun and Yzak.

Miriallia gave him and the others a weak smile. "Thank you for the offer Kira but I wish to be alone for a while. I'll manage my way home once I've think things through", she said. She stood up from her seat and took the cupboard box. "Thank you for your trouble Yzak". Miriallia began to leave the café with a downhearted look.

Kira had wished to call her back but Athrun stop him before he has the chance. "It's the best to leave her alone for now Kira", he said.

He then stood up from his seat. "I'm afraid that she might do something to harm herself", Kira said left the café.

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She do not know how long she has been sitting there or why she is sitting there. All she knows is she is by the cliff side looking at the ocean and next to her were the remaining things that were left behind by the person she loves. Miriallia look at the things once more as tears began to form and trickled down from the side of her eyes.

"Are you really gone Dearka?" she whispered. When there was no reply she covers her face as she cries. "Dearka!"

Miriallia had tried her best to not believe in this reality and think of it as a bad dream. But no matter how hard she tried, she could not wake up from this dream.

That's because, this is no dream. This is reality, she thought.

A light breeze played with her brown locks as she stares into the endless sea before her. Miriallia took out the letters that was kept in the wooden box. She quickly recognizes his messy writing as she began to read through the letters.

Miriallia,

How are you doing in Orb? It has been quite a while since I have seen you. I heard that you have become the world famous freelance photographer. Your name has even reached the PLANTs' magazine. Your first photo showcase was held in Martius City and I was actually there to see them. Your photos were really great and I was deeply touched by them. I have also bought one of your journals that have your signatures in it. I guess I have somehow become your fan.

I have taken a few picture of my own but they are not as great as yours. I wonder will I be as great of a photographer as you are one day. I really hope we can have photo collaboration together, one day.

Take care.

Dearka

Why did you not say so in your emails you idiot, she thought. Miriallia put the letter back and took out another to read.

Miriallia,

Happy Valentine's Day. Have you received any chocolates from your admires? Well, I have received some from the girls around here. Most of them were friendship chocolates so please don't misunderstand. I have a gift for you, although I'm not sure how to give it to you. I'm not sure I even have the courage to give it to you. If I do, I really wished to put it on around your neck myself.

You might ask what it is. Well it's a DOG COLLAR! Ok that joke was really lame and I know it. Anyway, it's a necklace. My mother had given it to me when I went on my first mission as a part of the Le Crueset team. She told me that it was a lucky charm but she also wished that I would give it to the female that I would come to love. I wonder would you accept this necklace? I really hope you do because I love you and hope to be with you forever.

Dearka

Miriallia took out the other fabric pouch that she had not yet opened. She opened it and saw that it was a beautiful medium polished amethyst crystal set in a custom fine silver wire wrapped pendant. More tears came as she held onto the necklace back and continue to his last letter.

Miriallia

This is my tenth letter that I have written so far and I don't have any courage to send any of them to you. I was afraid that you would not reply any of my letters and simply just chuck them aside. I guess I'm really a coward. So much for being one of the ace pilots on the ZAFT. Anyway, how are you doing? I have seen your latest photo showcase and they were great. I've even bought the latest edition of your photo journal as well. I'm acting like a fanatic again.

I have somehow been transferred to Kira's team and being promoted as his captain. Thought its only temporary but I could see that Kira is not very good with handling the team, so I'm sent here to help him out. Yzak, my former commander, was really pissed off with this but he just has to bear with it since it's only a temporary transfer.

Anyway, this might be the last letter I will be writing since I would be going on a joined mission with my former commander, Yzak to investigate the Mendel Colony. I hope that I would be able to share the experience with you when I come back though I'm not allowed to reveal much. Also-

Miriallia stops when she realized that it was the last letter that Dearka had written before he was gone. She holds onto the letter and sob quietly. She feels really broken because she has lost two of her most loved person. She hugs her knee and cried.

The brunette has planned to visit the PLANTs on her next photo showcase and maybe meet up with Dearka and Kira. But it seems that her plan will never come true anymore. She would never see the blond hair coordinator again, never hear his complains about Yzak again, never ever had a chance to say her true feeling to him anymore because he is gone.

Miriallia look up at the sky as tears were still streaming down from her cheek and her eyes were lifeless. "I really wanted to see you Dearka!" she said. Miriallia walk closer to the end of the cliff and look at the ocean below. "I wonder what it will feel like if I took a step forward from this cliff", she said in a hollow tone.

Miriallia took a step forward and plunged into the sea below. Even though she knows how to swim she did not bother in saving herself as she sank deeper and deeper into the ocean.

Where are you Dearka? the brunette though as her vision blackened

She felt someone tugged and carried her out from the water. "Why did you choose to kill yourself Miriallia?" a familiar voice said but whom. Then everything become silent as she drift into a deep sleep.

Miriallia did not know how long she was out cold until she felt something cold was place on her. What is it?

"Miri, can you hear me?" the familiar voice said. The same voice she heard before she fainted.

Miriallia slowly opened her eyes and saw someone looking at her. "Dearka?" she asked.

The person shook his head. "It's me Miriallia. Do you recognize who I am?" the person said in a soft voice.

Miriallia adjusted her viosion and slowly she was able to see who it was that was looking at her. "Kira?" the brunette coordinator look at her worriedly. "Where am I?"

"You are in your room at your condominium Miri. How are you feeling?" Kira asked.

My home? I'm … alive? Miriallia thought as tears began t form by the side of her eyes. Why am I alive?"

"Are you hurting anywhere Miri?"

"Why am I alive? Why did you save have to save me Kira?" she asked sadly. "Why did you stop me from seeing him? Why?"

"Of course I will save you". Kira was shocked but his expression quickly turns to a warm smile as he continues, "You are my friend and I do not wish to lose any more of them. I'm sure he will want you to keep on living the life that you wanted, both Tolle and Dearka".

Miriallia look at him then she pulled her cover over her head and sob in silent. "Dearka!"

Kira placed his hand on Miriallia's head to assure her that he will be there for her when she needs him.

== Continue in chapter 3 ==

A/N: Quite a dramatic change for this chapter but the plot was not you will like this chapter. It's shorter compare to the previous chapter. Hope you will like it. Please review in and tell me what you think.