Warning! There is mild sexual content! Reader Discretion is advised!
I readied myself, for what I was going to say.
No.
I looked down on her, we never released from our hug. She looked desperate, broken, and crestfallen.
I can't pull myself to say it...
"I don't know."
This shocked Monika for a bit. She was definitely expecting a "no".
"W-wha?"
"I... don't know. I don't understand you..."
She gave an confused look at me and looked down. I sighed and rested my chin at her head.
"Monika, you are a really sweet girl. One time, you are the most sweetest sweetheart out there, the next a pissed monstrosity that frightens me to the very bone... I really don't know if I do like you or not... you're just so unpredictable. I run analyses you all the time, trying to crack the enigma that is... you..." I run my hand down her soft and vibrant hair.
"Do you know why I was angry at you Val?"
"No. I don't."
"Okay, let me explain... To start off, well, you are a denser than oil... seriously. You can't even tell when a girl is literally throwing herself onto you! And how you don't even understand what goes on most the of time infuriates me! I try to get your attention but acting all "tsundere", but you just ignore me! That's what makes me so angry towards you!"
"Oh. I'm sorry. I don't experience have with talking with girls... and I don't know how they work. Even if you are a tough nut to crack, you are kind, caring, and dare I say it, beautiful."
"What do you mean, Val?"
Gah. Anything to get her off my back and this crummy situation...
I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. I knew in this situation, I had to flatter her.
"Well... Your supple breasts, how they match your body, your luscious hips, which swing with such... vigor. Your gorgeous soft hair, radiating warmth all the time... And your face, oh! How so elegantly crafted it is! It glows brightly with your seductive smile, and finally your eyes. Your emerald-green eyes. How they shine in the brightest of lights! Yes, Monika, you are a gift from the gods!
Monika was absolutely stunned from the looks of it. Her eyes have dilated from surprise and her face was redder than the color red itself! I move a lock of hair behind her ear and caressed her cheek. She smiled like an idiot, a smile brighter than usual and giggled. I gave her a kiss on the nose, to which she responded... in an unexpected manner...
She pushed me down onto the sofa, her arms being on each side of my head.
Uh oh.
Her breasts were pointing downwards onto my chest. Her body was a few inches from contact. And didn't help that I could see the curves of her breasts from her red dress! It was ridiculously slutty!
Damn it! I didn't finish what I was going to say and... and... And she's really close and lustful...
I take a look at her face, she breaths were ragged and heavy, her emerald eyes now tainted with lust and desire.
Oh SHIT! Something must've turned her on! I have to end this now!
"B-but! I don't really see-"
I could've sworn that we were a few centimeters away. She lunged towards me, to which I flinched. I felt a sweet and pleasant taste on my lips... it was soft... I was melting over how serene it was. I felt as if all my troubles were washed away from a rainstorm. I liked it.
Wait... Is she...? No...
I reluctantly opened my eyes, to which I saw... her kissing me...
No!
I abruptly pulled her away from me. We took the chance to catch our breath, panting over what just happened.
"T-that felt great."
I didn't respond to that, I was trying to think this whole situation out.
This can't be happening... This doesn't feel right...
"I kind of want to do it again..."
Monika cups my face and takes a good look into my eyes.
"W-wait! Mon-"
And she rams her lips into mine and moaned blissfully into my mouth. The whole sensation was as if I the whole world was crumbling down and we are the only ones in it. Just the two of us.
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No. It's still wrong! I can't let this happen!
We pull away from our kiss. We were breathing heavily just to support ourselves at this point.
Monika raises her self by a few centimeters and moves up to my neck.
"I knew you liked me, Val. Who wouldn't? The way you described me makes me feel... precious."
I could feel her hot breath on my neck, it was tickling me and was pushing me to do more.
"Now. Let me make you feel precious too..."
She bit into my neck. I foolishly thought that she was a vampire or something, but I quickly realized what she was doing. She was sucking onto my neck, she was giving me a love bite. I felt euphoric, it was some sort of high! My mind was racing at million miles per second... I felt as if I was losing control, and something in me has awoken.
I growled in how sensational it felt. She continued sucking, until she grown tired of it, to which I took advantage.
I flipped her over in manner of milliseconds, my body weight pinning her down. I grabbed a hold of her wrists and held it down.
At first, Monika was surprised on what I did, but quickly adjusted to it. She grinned devilishly at my actions.
"Well, cowboy. I wasn't finished with my wo-"
I interrupted her, I hungrily took her lips into mine, ravaging it. My tongue was barred from her mouth, to which it begged to be let in. Monika obliged and my tongue attacked hers. Our tongues were dancing and fighting each other, struggling for dominance. No words could describe what we were feeling.
At this point, all my sane actions held no sway. The shrouded carnal beast inside of me took a hold of me, and I was forced to look.
She tried to move her hand from grip, to which I let go. That hand traveled downwards and...
A piercing headache assaulted me. We got out from our make-out session early.
"Why did you do that?!" Monika questioned impatiently. It was obvious that she wanted to continue.
The pain I was experiencing intensified, to which I had to clutch my head in order to support myself from falling.
"Valkyrie?" Monika was worried about me, but her lust for action was still present in her eyes.
The pain, however was grounding my rational self into me. I felt that the carnal beast has finally dissipated. As soon as my arousal went down, my headache ceased.
"Valkyrie, do I need to get you water? Medicine?"
I let go of my hand on my head, and dismissively waved it off. "No... I'm fine but-"
"Good." She lunged towards me in surprise and pinned me again, her pins were displaying a monstrous amount of strength. This time, she was more confident. Her hands seductively ventured throughout my body. My arms, my chest, my body... none of which were spared from her touch.
With more effort then needed, I broke out of her hold and switched sides. I flipped Monika over and pinned her down again.
"What are you waiting for? Make your mark on me."
"I-I can't..."
"Wha-what?"
I've got her attention! Take. The. Chance. Now! Do it! It's the only way out of this!
"Look Mon, I still don't know my feelings for you! I like you a lot, but..." I gulped, before I deal the final blow.
"I see you as a sister, rather than a lover."
THERE! I said it! Fuck!
"B-but... you did all that... I thought you-"
"I know. I'm sorry."
"You don't like me..."
I... don't know.
This ceased all of her lust, it had been replaced with the heart-broken expression from before. She was on the verge of crying and quietly wept.
I can't feel bad. Besides, you are just a figment of Tommy's memory anyway.
...
"Get off of me." She orders me. I let go off her wrists and got off her. There was awkward moment of silence as she brushed herself off and gained her composure.
"From now, on. You will stay away from me. Do you understand? I don't want anything to do with you. I'm taking you out of the literature club, so I won't have to see your sub-brick face ever again."
She stomps to her coat and puts it on.
"You've killed every emotion I had for you. I actually... didn't like you. I loved you. But now, you see me as... that." She turns around to see me. She had the most nastiest of scowls I've ever seen. "You know what? Go fuck Natsuki, Sayori, or the bigger boobed Yuri, you asshole. I don't care. I'll NEVER love you again. No. Matter. What. WE ARE DONE!"
She opens the door. It was still pouring outside. "Goodbye." She slams the door.
...
Is that it? I feel... so bad. Not even words can describe how I'm feeling... I broke her heart and in turn she broke mine... Should I've said yes? Should I've accepted her feelings and return them? But that would lead up to... sex.
I collapsed on the sofa. I looked up at the ceiling.
God damn it. Is it my fault that my morals got in the way? Would things be different, if I actually... loved her?
No. She would only be a distraction to my mission.
But... it didn't feel right when I rejected her.
It will, when you get Tommy out of this hell-hole.
No... it doesn't seem like it...
I got back up and took a look outside my window. It was still pouring, and from the looks of it, it wasn't going to stop in a while. I looked down, there was someone there... my eyes widened at what I was I seeing.
Monika was outside my doorstep curled into a ball, her knees tucked in and her face hidden. She was visibly shaking...
Fuck. Fuck! She's heartbroken, because of me! Gah! I'm such a fucking idiot! Damn it!
NO, you aren't! You did the right thing!
...
I sighed.
Sometimes, to accomplish your goals you have to take a leap of faith.
Damn it! How would that help you on your goal to save Tommy?
Until I find out what make's this memory repressed, then I can save Tommy! That can wait!
No it can't! Going to her will extricate things! Remember Tommy is fighting right now!
Yeah, well he's fighting for this as well.
Are you really going to back-stab Tommy for all of this?
I open the door. Monika shakes and stands up.
"Stay away from me." She said with false confidence. Her face was red from the crying. The tears were still streaming from her cheeks.
"No. I won't."
She backs off slowly and starts a dead sprint, a desperate attempt to outrun me.
Leg day was kind to me, even though I was sore, I was able to catch up with her. I take her wrists and pin her to the wall near my house. Her legs were quivering in response.
"Listen to me-"
"NO! ALL YOU SAY JUST HURTS ME!" She screams as she fights her way out of the lock.
"Please! Just listen-"
"NO FUCK YOU! JUST LET ME GO!"
"Just lis-"
"YOU ASSHOLE! YOU FUCKER! YOU-"
I thought I would do this ever.
Her eyes widened on what I did. I closed my eyes and let the pleasant sensation pass onto me.
I was kissing her.
I was kissing Monika...
I was genuinely kissing her. No lust, no passion, just love.
Her lips were just as soft as it met mine. The feeling was amazing! It felt as if all my troubles evaporated! It felt real!
Although it took a me awhile to realize, I let go of her wrists. She finally kisses back, with her arms around my neck.
I felt lust sweep into me. I felt it taking over again... that beast in me rampaging to take control.
My hands became adventurous, gliding across her sides and hips. It eventually found its way to her buttocks. I didn't care any more. I had enough playing the repressed role. I want to become the dominant one now. And I want to conquer you.
I gave her butt an experimental squeeze, to which she squealed and broke our kiss.
"B-but you said... You didn't like me that way..."
"I know. I made a mistake. I don't like you, nor do I like you as a... sibling. I love you. Monika. I love you to my very soul."
WARNING! CONTINUED INTERACTIONS WILL RESULT IN DESTABLIZATION.
Fuck that, I don't give a shit anymore.
"I-I... I love you too, Valkyrie. No matter how hard I try, I'll always love you."
We kissed again in the downpour. Nothing was going to stop us. Nothing. Sayori, Natsuki, Yuri won't. This machine won't. And not even Tommy will stop our love.
WARNING! WARNING! DESTABILIZATION IMMINENT!
Are you fucking insane?! What about Tommy?! ARE YOU REALLY GIVING THIS UP FOR A DIGITAL LOVER? You are betraying him!
So what? Tommy likes this world and so I do I.
The world around started to collapse. We didn't care, all we needed was each other.
...
No... This still isn't right! I can't let Tommy suffer because of me!
FAILSAFE ACTIVATED! RESTARTING TO LAST KNOWN CHECKPOINT!
I found myself in a void. It didn't matter if I closed or opened my eyes. I still couldn't see anything. Static noises started to pop my ears. I opened my eyes... everything was so blurry...
Where am I?
It took a minute for my eyes to re-adjust and the static noise stopped immediately. Nothing has changed, I just woke up in front of my AP Calculus homework. I was on number 14 on the review sheet.
Great. I fell asleep. Wait... what happened? Everything was just a haze... I don't remember how I even fell asleep...
Who was I with? I remember holding someone...
I take a look at my homework.
'Find the limit of this function.'
This is easy!
*Brrrh*
My phone vibrated, in response to a text message.
I picked it up.
Great. It's from her.
It was Monika.
"I'm coming over. We need to discuss about the festival."
I felt a weird sense of deja vu. I also felt an overwhelming sense to say no.
What festival?
"No, now is not the time" "Later, maybe tomorrow or at school" "I'm doing homework"
"What? What homework is it?"
"Don't worry about it Monika" "We'll talk about it later" "I really need to focus right now."
I don't know why, it felt a lot easier now than it was before... Did I do this before?
"Okay, okay fine." "I'll text you tomorrow. And don't forget, schools open tomorrow! The day-off got canceled!"
"Got it" "See you then"
Huh. That's convenient... but I've got to write a poem.
Great.
I got a piece of loose-leaf out and started writing.
Love
Love makes you do crazy things.
Love can make you forget.
Love is a catalyst for danger.
A danger for friend and foe alike.
Kings, warriors, commoners all draw a hand at the fair lady.
Only for her to draw her to war.
Even though we strive for such a accomplishment.
It can rob of us of our most precious tool.
Our sanity.
*Brrrrrrrh*
"Hmm?" Someone was calling me. I take a closer look and it was Yuri's number. I picked it up.
"Hello?"
"H-hi Valkyrie..."
I smirked. I don't know why, but I felt like joking around with her.
"Who's this?"
"A-aah!" She was startled. "Is this the wrong number? I'm sorry!"
"Hahaha! I'm just busting your chops, Yuri. What's up?
"O-oh. I just wanted to say which chapter you were up to... I'm sorry if I bothered you!"
"Jesus Yuri, you apologize a lot don't you?"
"Sorry!"
I rolled my eyes.
"Yeah-yeah. Don't worry about it. Right... the thing is Yuri, I was busy doing AP Calculus homework. So, I didn't really get a chance to read the book."
"I-I see..." Her voice sounded depressed.
"Aw, don't be like that Yuri. You didn't let me finish! Why don't we read the book together during literature club? You know point interesting things out and stuff..."
"Ah. That's a great idea!"
"Yep! Anything else you wanna talk about?"
"Y-yes I do... I'm very, very sorry but, I bought the tickets early- by mistake! The movie is going to be tomorrow right after the club meeting..."
Something tells me that she didn't really do it by mistake... but whatever.
"It's fine! We'll just go together."
"J-just the two of us right?"
"Yeah? Why?"
"Don't worry about it..."
Agh. Let em use it, they like saying it.
"Okay it's settled! Tomorrow it is right?"
"R-right."
"Cool. Anything else, Yuri?"
"No, thank you Valkyrie."
"Don't mention it."
I hung up. It wasn't raining anymore, it was rather cloudy. I checked the time and it was 9:51.
Anything else I need to do? ... Nope. I guess I'll hit the hay.
I closed my eyes. A strange static noise filled my eardrums. It was low and it didn't really bother me. I eventually drifted off to sleep.
"Wake up, my love."
Huh? Where am I?
I groaned drowsily. I looked around, it wasn't my room. Rather, I was sleeping in a queen-sized mattress, rather than the twin-sized bed I'm used to sleeping. I got up and my lower area was sore.
Wait a minute... Why am I naked?!
"What's wrong, Val?"
I looked behind me to see Monika on bed with me.
WHAT?!
She too was naked, I can see her... well everything!
"Val?" She was getting worried.
"Huh? Oh, good morning my uh... love!" I said with fake enthusiasm.
She kissed my cheek. "It isn't quite a 'good morning' when we don't have a little fun on bed right?" Monika said with slutty passion. "You ready for round two?" She said as she bit onto the crook of my neck.
OH
SHIT!
I woke up with terror.
"Wha-wha-what's going on!" I yelled as I panicked.
Nothing happened, so I was able to calm down. I tried to remember what exactly happened at that dream, but I can't remember any of it. It was like a night terror.
I thought people who couldn't sleep and little kids get that... I can sleep just fine and I'm not that young anymore...
All I can remember is someone biting onto my neck...
In fear, I touch my neck to see if it actually happened...
My eyes widened. There was a bite mark on my neck!
Where did this come from?!
I got up and went into my bathroom. I took a closer look at the bathroom mirror and it wasn't really a bite mark. It was more of a...
A hicky.
How did I even get this? I don't remember anyone biting onto my neck like that!
My god, it looks really obvious! How am I going to hide this?! I can't turtleneck through out the whole day!
Wait. What time is it?
The time was 7:12.
Great. It's time for school!
I let out an exasperated sigh. I washed up and brushed my teeth. I went back to my room and put on my uniform.
I really desperately need a break day. And it's a Wednesday.
I made eggs and with buttered toast, got my shoes and bag on, then I left the house at 7:32.
No one was waiting for me. Good.
The commute to school was boring and uneventful. Thank god, I needed something that wouldn't be so stressful.
I got in first period without a hassle.
Here comes the boring school day...
It was lunch-time, or break-time, or whatever.
Me and Tommy were sitting together once again.
"Hey Val. Why are you hiding your neck like that?" He said as he brought his tray up.
"Huh? Oh, don't worry about it." He knew I was covering up something.
He grinned.
"C'moon. It can't be that bad. 'Sides, whatever it is, it can't be bad as a Vietnam scar..."
Wow, Tommy's charm also carries over here.
"It's fine..."
"Don't be like that Val! I'm sure it isn't that bad."
"No."
"C'mon."
"No."
"I won't stop saying 'c'mon'. C'mon."
This is getting childish, he isn't going to let up.
"Alright fine." I show him my "hicky".
"Ahaha! So Monika made the first move huh?!"
"Wh-what?! No! She wasn't anywhere near me and we aren't even in a relationship dude!"
"Oh really? Then how did you get that?"
"I... I woke up with it."
I thought he was going to play devil's advocate, but he caught me off guard.
"Damn, that's a shitty bed you have then..."
I think he knew I wasn't lying.
"I guess."
"Sooo... What's the news with you and Monika?"
"Why are you quote on quote "shipping" me with Monika?!"
"I dunno. Probably cause you're the talk of the school. I heard something along the lines of... 'a transfer kid beat my ass and told me leave him and Monika alone!'" He sarcastically mocked.
"Oh... Uh... I can explain..."
"I know, I know. You wanted her all for yourself."
"But-!"
"Look dude, the girls in the classes are gossiping on how they want a man that could defend himself and his girl! And how they keep moaning over that they missed a chance on you!"
I raised an eyebrow. What?
"Bullshit. How come I never heard of that?"
"You tell me, don't you keep to yourself in classes?
"Yeah..."
"Well there you go! Your own question answered."
"I still don't buy it. You're busting my balls aren't you?"
"Little bit, yeah."
"Hilarious."
...
"So uh, this basically confirms that Monika, is the perfectionist and only wants the best?"
"Yep."
"So I'm the best?"
"Yep."
"I'm better than everyone else that want to be with Monika."
"Yep."
I stared at him with half-lidded eyes. "Cut the shit dude. I can tell you have a bet going on."
This caught him off-guard. "I-I don't know what you mean..."
"Ohoho! This is rich! You made a bet with Sayori that if I get with Monika you win the bet!"
"Okay, Okay you got me..."
"Haha yes! But that leaves Sayori's side. What her side of the bet?"
"Uh... I don't know really... she's really tight-lipped about it. And she never is tight-lipped about anything. Sayori always tells me everything to me... ever since we were kids..."
This reminded me of Sayori's poem from yesterday. I should probably tell Tommy about that line.
"Yeah... Well... y'know Tom, people have a lot more complex lives then at first glance. They shroud it like a secret. Sayori isn't a exception Tom, she might be hiding something."
"Wait. You might be right! She might be hiding something..."
"You read her poem from yesterday right?"
"Yeah, it was about sunshine and rainclouds, and how they make up her day."
"There's a particular line on which she wrote, I think goes... 'If it wasn't for you. I would sleep forever.' I don't really know what that means. But I don't like it."
"Me too. That's a line that seems out of place... Sayori is always full of sunshine. She would never be sad or anything."
"Maybe. But keep an eye on her. There might be something wrong about her."
"I will. I promise that I will always keep an eye on her. She's my best friend and I won't let anything happen to her."
Damn it Tom. Open your eyes a bit more...
The school alarm rang.
"Hey Tom, I'll meet you the club. Keep an eye on her. She's my friend too y'know."
"No problem, Val. Like I said, nothing will happen to her. I'll do anything to help her."
I smiled and nodded.
I made my way towards Study Hall. I'm not sure why, I felt as if someone was watching me. Or some group was watching me. Maybe I'm going paranoid...
This memory is slowly making sense, I think. I feel as if I gotten closer to fixing this memory...
It wasn't long until I made it to Study Hall. I opened the door and looked around for Monika.
I found her sitting alone, with a somewhat annoyed look. She visibly loosened up when we made eye contact.
"Hey Monika. How's it going?"
"Could be better. Some girl took the piano! Some bs reason on she needs to take the test, and that the instructor is going to check on her soon."
"Aw that sucks. So what are you going to do?"
"I don't know. What are you going to do?"
"Hmm... probably read."
She playfully rolled her eyes. "Really, Val? Don't you know how to have fun?"
Ouch.
"Yeah. I do! And this is coming from the perfect "sweetheart" of school! Don't you have fun by helping the school in every extracurricular activity?"
She pursed her lips. "Yeah, it's fun! Better than reading a book all the time. Nerd."
"Well you know what! I'm not your friend anymore."
She lost color from her face.
"Wh-what?"
"Oh. You don't get the joke do you? It's a elementary school thing. Whenever someone says something, 'mean' we 'don't ' be 'friends' with that person anymore. But ultimately, we crawl back to them anyway. I just mocked the practice."
"Oooh..." She nodded with understanding. Monika immediately turned pissed, she punched my arm. And to my surprise it actually hurt... somewhat.
"You idiot! I thought you meant it for real!"
"Well, that's the point of the joke! You have to make it seem convincing!"
"You know what. That deserves a punishment!"
Aw c'mon!
"Aw c'mon! But-"
"No buts! You're coming with me to the computers!" She took my hand and literally dragged me there.
Well shit.
Monika lets out a sigh.
"Okay. So what are we doing?"
"I dunno. You dragged me here."
"Well, what do you for fun in the computer?"
Play video games with my friends on discord?
"Uh... play video games...?"
"That's it?"
"Yeah..."
"No offense Val, that's pathetic. I'll show you what I do for fun!"
"I swear Monika, if it's flash games then-"
I was interrupted with the site I was seeing. It was a website full of visual novels.
Oh god, no! I don't want to read visual novels!
"Wait a minute. Aren't visual novels, mangoes?"
She giggled at my mispronunciation.
"Man-ga. No! It isn't, Val! Visual Novels actually immerse you into it, and it has choices!"
"Sounds interesting... but on a vague scale."
"Aw come onnn! It'll be fun!"
"Fine... which visual novel are we going to do?"
"Hmm... why don't do this one?" She pointed at one with a demon cat-girl in it.
That's a weird combination. Where do people think of these stuff...
I knew I was in for a treat.