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"So, what did you and Matt talk about?"

"What's up with you and Damon?"

"How do you like it here so far?"

"Wow you guys. Slow down." They swarmed me all at once and all I could do was smile at them. "I thought we came to relax?"

I really didn't want to have to explain to them about the guys. I barely knew what I felt myself, it was so confusing. On the left, we had Matt…sweet, safe, reliable Matt. I knew with him my heart would be safe and well cared for. I would also be happy and not have to worry about him leaving me. On the right, there was Damon…dark, dangerous and way out of my league. I knew with him I was bound for heartbreak many times. But the way I felt when I was near him, it was something out of this world.

I guess I couldn't be ma at Jake anymore. Because if this feeling was how it felt to imprint, then I was glad he was happy. All I ever wanted was for him to be happy and even though I had wished it was with me, I knew being with Phiona, was 100 times better than anything we could have ever had. I would have to send him a letter, letting him know that I had forgiven him and wished him all the happiness in the world. I wasn't ready for a phone call yet because even though I forgave him, it was still too soon to act like nothing happened.

"Well yea, but we also came to bug you. The girls are dying to get to know you and now there is an epic love triangle and we want to know how your felling about it" Elena joked as we all settled down on our towels.

Bonnie was engrossed in some old brown leather book and a memory pulled at the back of my brain. It had weird symbols on the cover and on the back, there were letters and number engraved as if it was saying something, but I couldn't read it. I felt like I had seen the small book before, but I couldn't remember when or how. She also didn't seem willing to share info on the book since she kept it partially hidden in her lap.

I didn't really want to discuss with them my private life but being quiet was what got me into trouble back in Forks. Maybe if I was more open I would be so hurt next time I decided to give it out.

"Ok Fine, but only because I am confused and since I barely know the guys, I could use some insight. Matt and I talked about that time I got chased by the clown at his 8th birthday party and I broke my arm. Then I kissed his cheek. Next, I don't know what's up with Damon and me. I ended up drunk at the party and threw myself at him, but he rejected me, so I went home. Then this morning he attacks me in the bathroom, giving me the hottest kiss, I ever had."

"I think you and Matt would be great together. You guys are one in the same and I could see you guys together." Of course, Elena would say that, she always saw the good in people. But part of me wondered if she just didn't want me with Damon. Was it because she wanted to protect me? Or was it because she secretly wanted him for herself?

I see the way she looks at him, as if she wished he were the one she was with. There is a hunger behind her brown eyes that never shows up when Stephan was around. Although she acted as if she hated Damon and wanted him gone. He looked at her almost the same way and I stung with jealousy, which was a first for me. But then when he was around me, his eyes never really left me and the hunger behind his eyes was 10 times more than what he threw at Elena.

"Well I think Bella would be good for Damon. Clearly Damon likes her, did you see how he looked at her and Matt when he agreed to drive her here? The fire coming out of his ears was enough to burn down a building. Elena you should be happy that Damon is over you. I think your cousin can handle herself and I say go for it!" Of course, Caroline would point out the things best kept secret. I like that she doesn't have a filter but the look on Elena's face made me wish she'd stay quiet.

I knew that if anything happened between Damon and I, Caroline would be on our side. I think Stephan would too if I told him just how I felt about everything. He seemed like a reasonable man and I' betting if Damon was with someone he would feel better about him and Elena. His eyes only filled with worry and sadness whenever the two were near each other.

"I don't think so. Damon doesn't seem like the type to go for shy girls. I bet he's the type who would go for...well someone like you Caroline." Bonnie and Elena started laughing and Caroline looked smug. "You two..." There was a secret here and I wanted to know what it was.

"You might as well know if you plan to choose dark and dangerous…" Caroline cut off Bonnie. "When he first came to Mystic Falls. We had a thing for a couple months and then I broke up with him after I didn't hear from him for about 2 months. But you have nothing to worry about, there is nothing between us now. It's Elena you should watch out for."

"Caroline you assume too much. Don't listen to her Bella. I love Stephan, I feel nothing for Damon, other than hatred. Damon has done nothing but be a pain in my ass since he came to town. He doesn't nothing but stir up trouble and then cause more trouble when he tries to fix his mess. But that doesn't mean you should go for Damon, he is cruel. Matt on the other hand is a sweetheart and I think in time you could really fall for him, right Bonnie."

Elena gave her a pleading look and that just made me think she wanted him single for herself even more. This was a love square I really didn't want to get involved in. But I just couldn't help myself when he was around me. It was like we were being pushed together.

With Edward, I was drawn to his aloofness and the fact that his family welcomed me to the point where I felt like they were family. And Jake had always been my best friend. The best friend who helped to heal my very broken heart, only to break in more in the end. I liked that they were both different, it made me feel like I fit in when everything around me never made any sense.

"I think we should stay out of Bella 's love life and let her make her own mistakes. Whether she gets too close to Damon or Matt is up to her. But if I did have a say, Matt will always be the best choice." Bonnie never looked up at us as she said those words. She also seemed to spit out Damon's name as if he was the devil or something. You can just tell she doesn't like him and it made me wonder what he did to her to make her hate him so much.

I was glad she wouldn't interfere with what I did but I was also now annoyed that it was 2 people pushing me toward Matt. Why couldn't they just let things flow like the wind? Whatever happened, happened. It shouldn't have mattered who I was getting close too, it just should have mattered that I was alive and well and having some fun.

"Matt will always be the best choice for what?" Stephan and the guys came back, Damon in tow. His voice was curious and part of me didn't want to tell him what we were talking about. His eyes though said he already knew what was said and he looked too pleased with something.

"That Matt would be the best choice to go camping with. Bella was just saying how she would love to spend the weekend in the woods like we used to do when we were younger. I said Matt would be the guy to show her a good weekend." Elena was too quick to answer. Of course, it was what I was thinking about doing.

Camping sounded perfect in a normal environment. And although it would be nice to have Matt there with me, I kind of wanted to do it alone. If Charlie said no, then I would invite the whole crew. The more the merrier is what Aunt Jenna used to say all the time when we were younger. She was always so chipper, and you couldn't help but have a smile on your face the entire time you were in her presence.

"When did you want to go?" I looked up at Matt who was standing next to Damon. I momentarily got lost in the way Damon was staring at me. His eyes were cloudy, and he looked curious. When he glared at Matt, I couldn't help the bubble of laughter that came out of me.

"Maybe we can all go next weekend?" Stephen's voice jerked my gaze from Damon's and had him going to sit next to Jeremy. It was the furthest spot from me and I knew exactly why he had done it.

Only Caroline was ok with me being near Damon. I was not precious cargo, or someone play thing that they can do with as they pleased. I had been through more than they knew and even though I would never tell them, they needed to stop acting like I couldn't handle myself. I was an adult and if I wanted to have some fun then that was up to me and no one can say otherwise.

I looked at the group and nodded, then faked reading my book. Everyone began talking about our camping trip next weekend and all I could think about was the kiss Damon gave me in my bathroom. It made my blood sing and I couldn't wait for it to happen again. My lady parts began tingling and I could feel moisture pooling. Thinking of how his hands felt on my body and how his kisses left me wanting more, made my skin burn.

I stood up and could feel eyes on me, I wasn't sure whose they were though. I slipped out of my dress and made sure my bikini wasn't out of place before laying on my stomach on my towel. I could hear some chuckling behind me along with a slap to someone's head. I put my headphones on and blasted some music before really reading my book.

I munched on chips and other snacks I had brought with me. I didn't know when we would be heading home or if anyone had brought lunch food. I just knew there were ginormous coolers in the back of everyone's cars.

After a few chapters, I closed my book and turned off the music, putting both items in my bag. I could feel how hot my back was and knew if I didn't get in the water or turn over, I would be burnt and in pain for several days before my skin started peeling. But it didn't bother me much since I knew I would have a nice soft glow after.

When I looked around, everyone but Caroline was gone. She was lounging on her towel under the umbrella, looking through her phone. She had on a pair of dark purple sunglasses that swamped her face but looked good on her. The glassed went with her tiny black bikini with dark purple straps. Her blonde hair was in 2 French braids and she was currently sporting some black and dark blue highlights.

"Where is everyone?" I watched her jump a little before looking my way.

"They went to the waterfall, I didn't want to go. I am way too pale for my liking and am in desperate need of a tan. If you follow that path up the hill, in about ten minutes you should arrive at the bottom of the waterfall." I nodded and headed to where she pointed. Her eyes held something else though and I wondered for a second if she was hiding something from me.

I knew everyone was hiding secrets from me and didn't want to clue me in on them. But if I looked closely at Caroline's eyes, I can see the pain there. I knew she wanted to tell me what no one else would but I knew she was bound by honor not to say anything.

So, I smiled at her, thanked her, and waited. I knew I would eventually find out what everyone was hiding, I just had to let them tell me on their own.