Disclaimer: I don't own any of the beautiful creatures. Even though I do in my dreams!

I woke up to a very peaceful morning...and the smell of coffee.

Damon was nowhere to be found in my room, but in his place was a nice breakfast. There were pancakes and eggs with bacon and a steamy cup of coffee. He must not have left long ago because the food was still hot and the heat from the coffee mug seeped into my cold hands. A note with a flower were beside the cup. I took a sip of the coffee before I read the note.

Bella,

Did you know you talk in your sleep? I thought it was adorable that you kept saying my name. But the way you said my name made me wish I wasn't such a nice guy with you…if you catch my meaning. Anyway, I went home to shower and change. I hope I can make it back before you wake up. If not, I made you breakfast and had Bonnie put a charm on the house. The Cullen's can't go in unless you invite them. Hope this helps.

See you soon, Damon.

p.s, you should grab me more often as you did in your sleep. You keep doing it and one day you're going to wake up to the best feeling you can imagine.

I spit the coffee out of my mouth and could feel my face heating up. I couldn't believe in my sleep I was so brave as to touch him without a care. But he liked it so why should I be embarrassed? I would have to try touching him while we were awake and see what he would do. Would he want me to touch him or would he want to touch me?

I smiled thinking of a plan and silently thanked him. Then proceeded to eat my breakfast and drink my coffee. I was surprised that he knew how I liked my coffee, either someone upstairs told him, or he paid too much attention to what I put in it. I liked my coffee sweet but not with added sugar. I added caramel syrup flavoring and milk to make it a tan color, the color I wish my skin was. I laughed at myself before I took the time to reflect on what I told Damon last night and knew that wasn't even the worst of it, the real pain didn't happen until my 19th birthday.

I wondered how he would react to what I will tell him, I wondered how I would tell him. I knew that he needed to know my past if he was going to stay with me and saw where this thing went. He needed to know everything about my past, so he could lean and not do those things. Plus, I felt bad about keeping this from him and wished to tell him, to get it all out the way. I wanted him to hear about this from me and not from anyone else. Just like I wanted him to tell me his past and to have to hear it from someone else.

I heard enough about him from others that I was sick and tired of their opinion about him. Damon showed me he wasn't anything like what Elena told me. Her jealousy proved time and again that she wanted Damon and she felt no one else deserved him. Did she like it when he was bad and that was why she tried to keep me from him, because I made him good? Damon deserved someone who brought out the best in him, not the worst, and I feared Elena did nothing but bring out the worst.

When the two of them were together they did nothing but fight. All they did was fight over who was right and who was wrong. No one else would join their argument because no mater whose side you picked, it only angered the other. It was like they were an old married couple with the way they fought, and I was scared that it would get to appoint that he would harm my cousin. Sometimes Stephan would have to get in the middle of it and pull her out of the room. Then Damon would storm out the house and not comeback for hours. That's when I would get to him and bring out the best side, the side that was making me fall in love with him.

I shook my head to clear that thought. I was not good of me to fall in love with another vampire. Although this one as more to my human nature, I knew in the end I would just get hurt again. Damon was not the guy you fell for but dated for a year and then went separate ways. I wouldn't try to change him either because even though I knew he would never love me, he was a great guy. He was kind, caring, and bad to the bone. He was the kind of guy you wanted to get out your system and then be with the guy after him and no matter how much I wanted him to be the next guy for me, I didn't see Damon settling down any time soon.

I thought back to the letter and finally registered the first part of it I talked in my sleep. It was something I always did with Edward and sometimes Jake. With them I talked about life and would occasionally call out their name, but not once did they ever tell me I said something sexual. Maybe I wasn't as attracted to the as I thought if my sleeping self didn't even try to attack them. I was curious about what I said.

Did I say something embarrassing? Was it dirty? Did I confess some dark secret I didn't know I had? I knew this was going to bug me until I talked to him later. I really wondered if I said anyone else's name since I knew I tended to do that a lot as well. I couldn't remember my dream from last night or if I even dreamed.

I remember this one time, I had stayed over Edward's house and I had just fallen asleep after getting rejected for the millionth time. I was extremely tired since we had gone for along hike earlier. I guess I said some interesting things because when I woke up, Edward looked pained. He didn't want to tell me what I had said because he knew that it would cause an argument, but I needed to know what I had said. I needed to know that was so bad that my boyfriend couldn't even look me in the eyes.

He even left me to eat breakfast alone and it was Emmett that had told me what was going on. I had called out for Jake and kept saying how I missed him and wished he would visit me. To me that seemed innocent, Jake had been my best friend and when I started dating Edward, my best friend came around less and less.

Shaking my head out of the painful memory, I knew I would just have to be happy knowing he stayed the night. Him staying the night meant I didn't say something stupid.

When I finished eating, I took a nice long hot shower. I made sure to shave, just in case I decided on something that showed off my legs. Or in case I thought of doing something with Damon later. The kisses we shared have been getting longer, steamier, and more urgent. I felt as if at any moment I would burst with my need for him.

I wrapped a towel around my body and used another one to towel dry my hair. I cleaned up my mess and I cleaned off the due and fog from the mirror I got lost in my thoughts.

What did the Cullen's think of my hair? Did Alice like how I dressed now? Did Edward notice the changes in my body? So many more questions filled my head. Why did I even care what they thought about me? I was the only one who should care about how I looked, and I thought I looked fine.

I walked into my room and stood in front of my full body length mirror. I don't know how but I had gained a considerable amount of weight since I arrived. My body was filled out a little more and I was curious how I had gained the weight since I wasn't stuffing myself with food. Yes, I ate, even eating more than normal. But not enough for the changes to be noticeable yet. I liked the changes though, my body looked more natural.

My breast wasn't so small anymore, my ass not to bony, and my libs didn't remind me of sticks. My stomach was still flat but was shaped better and I could see a 6 pack start to outline itself. The hallows under my eyes were gone and my face had a healthy glow. My body even had a slight tan to it, so I wasn't so pale. I found myself appealing and desirable, I felt like I could be wanted now. Not only did that boost my self-confidence, but it also gave me hope.

I stuck on a pair of navy blue lace underwear and the matching push up bra. Then got into a pair of black mini-jean shorts and a white tank-top. Slipped into a black and white plaid shirt and left it unbuttoned. My jeans weren't extremely short, but short enough that Charlie's head will probably explode. I painted my toe nails and nails black with glitter polish on just the index toenail that had my toe rings on it. While they dried I listened to music and relaxed on my bed. I felt like a total girl for once and it felt nice. When my nails were dried, I slipped into white flip-flops.

I left my bangs out when I pulled all my hair into a messy bun. I stuck the rose Damon left me into my ponytail to make sure it was secured then made sure I had no fly away baby hairs with hair spray. I added a small amount of eye-liner to the top and bottom of my eye and a light amount of navy blue eye shadow to create a small Smokey eye. I gave myself one last look in the mirror before heading upstairs.

I washed my dishes and put them away before heading to the living room. Dad was there with Billy, Jake, and his girlfriend. Jake stood up when I walked in and his girlfriend gave me the death glare. I just shook my head as I turned my attention to Charlie.

"Your awake." Dad said and gave me a quick hug. I smiled and nodded at him. I could see that he wanted to comment on my outfit but this new Charlie thought twice about asking me to put more clothes on. He was finally understanding that I was an adult and even though some of my clothes were a little risqué, I would never wear something that would embarrass him or myself.

"Yea. I smelled coffee and I couldn't resist. Did Damon come back?" I asked sitting between dad and Billy. I could see Jake looking me over from the corner of my eye. "Did you guys have fun last night?"

"Billy really loves it here. He called about ten minutes ago to see if you were up or not."

"How long are you guys staying?"

"As long as you need us too." Jake spoke up and his girlfriend looked murderous. I guess she doesn't want to be here as much as I don't want her here. Or maybe she didn't want Jake and I near each other, did she not know she has nothing to worry about? "You look good Bells."

"Thanks. And next time you want to have sex with your girlfriend, I have the names of a couple hotels. I'm going to go find Elena, don't wait up." Dad nodded before their gaze turned to Jake and started on him. I could hear yelling from upstairs.

I laughed as I packed a small bag and made sure I put really revealing sleeping clothes in there. I wanted to see how far I could push Damon tonight, would he reject me if I was sober?

There were feet on my stairs and then Jake appeared at my door. I didn't even get a chance to say something before his lips were on mine. I pulled back quickly and slapped him, which cause me to yell in pain. He tried to apologize but I wouldn't listen. I just grabbed my bag, my keys, and my phone before leaving.