Disclaimer: I own no one even though I severely want to own a sexy man with Blue Eyes.

The warm water is a little much on my heated skin, but I don't want to move from the safety of Damon's arms. He's holding me close as we sit against the side of the spring. He made a little indent into a portion of the wall to make the perfect sitting, relaxed spot. I don't how he did it, but he even had tiny jets shooting hot water into the spring.

I can tell he's asleep because he's too relaxed and slightly snoring in my ear. I want to wake him and let him take me again, but I know he needs the sleep, so he can gather his strength and thoroughly have his way with me gain. We had gone another round after I lost my virginity to him and although I was sore, I wanted him again.

I loved every minute of this though despite the nagging feeling that this is wrong.

Wrong that I wanted him again. I wanted him as hard as he was still in me. I could feel him hard as a rock inside of me since he never pulled out. I felt so full even though I was empty inside, was this natural or something to do with our mating? I especially wanted him to bite me again, even though I really know it's wrong. He didn't drink from me but a part of me hopes he does next time, if there is even a next time. Wrong that if people found out, they would be hurt. Wrong that I didn't care what anyone thought.

I want him so much it hurts. I just want to begin moving my hips and...

"Bella...Bella wake up. Have you been asleep this whole time?"

I woke up to see the faces of my friends. Everyone was here and looking at me like I'm crazy. We're still at the beach but I'm not at the spring, I'm on the blanket. My bathing suit was still intact but running over my hands where it had broken, I thought I felt a new seam. How the heck did I get here? My mind automatically screamed it was all a dream and it made me want to cry.

"I guess so, why?" I was confused as I sat up. My skin wasn't burnt like it should have been if I had been asleep out in the sun all day. There was also a tender soreness between my legs and I knew what happened earlier wasn't a dream. I smiled and they all looked at me like I was crazy again.

"You're so red, if you burn you need to have someone put Aloe-Vera lotion on your back. Or you can do what I do and soak in a tub filled with milk, oatmeal, and fresh Aloe." Caroline said, and everyone started packing up their stuff. Oh, I knew exactly who to ask.

"Thanks. Did you guys have fun?" I asked as I packed up my stuff. I looked at my legs and arms and I did see some redness, but I knew from how cool I felt that this was not from the sun. My hair was soaking wet as well and I was surprised no one mentioned it.

"We did. Damon's throwing a party at his house which is why you don't see him. He left early to spread the news and set everything up." Elena offered and kissed Stephan.

"When was he here? I didn't see him." I asked trying to sound innocent and it must have worked because no one looked my way.

"Maybe about half hour ago. He found us in the woods and told us the plan then left, I'm surprised he didn't stop and say hi to you." Caroline chatted on about things no one really cared about.

I was excited about the party. Not only would I get more drinking experience, but I'd also be able to see my blue eyes and watch as I made him burn for me. Tonight, I was going to let my other self out tonight and see where she took me. I knew just the outfit I wanted to wear with the perfect heels and I knew Alice would be proud of what I chose.

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Matt was nice enough to drop me off at home. I felt bad that I cheated on him, but we weren't in a relationship and Damon already said we wouldn't last. I tried to tell Matt about my feelings for Damon, without telling him I was talking about Damon, but my words were all jungled together and we ended up setting a date for Tuesday.

I think the date was his way of giving me one last chance of choosing him. I was willing to give him the chance because no matter how strong I wanted Damon, part of me needed Matt to give me a reason to choose him.

After checking on Charlie, I went downstairs to get ready for the party.

I took a nice hot shower to relax my muscles. I was still sore and even thought the hot spring helped to relax me, after spending an hour in the car, made my body ache. I made sure I shaved well because what I had planned needed me to be squeaky. I had read in a book that men in this age, like a clean shaved girl because they didn't have to worry about picking hair out their mouth. Plus, they had a better chance at tasting the juices than if there was hair.

After my shower I towel dried my hair and added a strawberry leave-in conditioner to it before toweling it again and running my comb through it. Then I put my hair up into a bun for now, I would deal with it later. I didn't want to have to deal with wet hair while I was trying to get ready.

I texted Charlie and told him I was spending the night with Elena and I'd call him in the morning. He of course told me to have fun and that he loved me, which surprised me. Moving to Mystic was doing wonders to our relationship, I felt closer to my father than I ever had, and I rarely called him Charlie anymore.

I slipped into a bathrobe and went upstairs to grab a quick bite to eat. I knew I was completely covered so it was ok if I went upstairs in nothing else. Besides this was my house and although I knew Billy would freak if I walked around in tiny shorts and a sports bra, no one else would bother me about it.

Jake and Phiona were in the kitchen at the table, talking in hushed tones and Billy was cooking something at the stove. Phiona was on Jake's lap but her expression said she was pissed off. I kissed Billy on the cheek and grabbed a glass of water.

"What smells good?" I asked being polite even though the smell wasn't that tempting. It smelled as if something was burning but the house wasn't smoky just yet. I knew Billy wasn't the one to have started cooking but he was the one who was attempting to save it.

"I'm making spaghetti." Phiona said with a smile. To anyone it looked like she was just being friendly but the look in her eyes said she was trying to out due me. I chuckled and nodded. There was no way, she could ever out cook me or out due me in anything.

"If your cooking, why is Billy at the stove?" I finished my water and pulled out an individual combination pizza.

"He offered." She said with a shrug and Billy coughed. I turned on the oven and waited for it to pre-heat. There was just no way that I was eating whatever she was making.

"Anyway...I'm staying at Elena's house tonight. I'll be back tomorrow around noon, so we can all wash clothes. I already put names in an order, so no one fights over the washer. Phiona I decided to be nice and let you go first, don't make me regret the decision." I said as the oven beeped letting me know it was done pre-heating. I put the pizza in and went downstairs, setting the timer on my phone so it wouldn't burn.

I slipped into a white lace push up bra with the matching bikini bottoms. I then threw on a very short white dress that I would never have worn before I moved to Mystic. If I bent at the wrong angle I would expose myself in a way I only wanted one person to see. The dress had lace capped sleeves and was very low-cut in the front while the back had no coverage. While the dress was skin tight, it was breathable and moved with me, so I didn't feel the least bit suffocated.

I ran upstairs, surprised to find no one around, but I was surprised to see their food still cooking. I checked my pizza since it was nearly a half hour later. It was perfect, so I took it out and set it aside to cool off. I shut off the oven and drank more water, I was so thirsty, and it surprised me. I went back downstairs and finished getting ready since it was getting dark.

I packed a quick bag of flip flops, jeans, and t-shirt with clean underwear and bra. I grabbed my toothbrush and toothpaste along with all the extra essentials. Once that was done I did my make-up of eye-liner and eye shadow with waterproof mascara, all black, to create an exotic Smokey eye. A hint of white and silver was thrown in there as well and tried my hand at using liquid highlighter and contouring my face.

I left my hair down and blow dried it to give me the just thoroughly fucked look. I grabbed a pair of black killer peeped toed ankle boots that tied in the front from my closet and ripped off the price tag. I put those on, grabbed my bag, keys, and my wallet, and headed upstairs double checking by that I locked all the doors.

I threw all my stuff on the counter and ate my pizza. Jake walked into the kitchen and just stared at me. His eyes were dark, and I knew he wanted me physically even though he was in a relationship. I don't know why I did it, but I winked at him before bending down slightly over the counter. I could hear the growl coming from his chest as he moved to the fridge, obviously trying to hide something. Phiona walked in next, look from me to Jake then back to me and back to him.

Her eyes turned black and I knew she was angry. But the question was, who was she angry with. She said something in their language and then they were fighting. It was funny hearing them speak in another language, trying to not let me know what was going on. She just laughed throwing it in my face that she was accepted by the tribe and would always know more than me.

You could hear them arguing in their room while Billy laughed as he watched TV in the living room. He knew everything they were saying, and I was sure that not only did he not like Phiona be he hated even more that he was stuck with her in the family until the day he died.

I finished my pizza and left the house unnoticed. I felt kind of bad for him, having no choice in loving her. A part of me knew he was happy with her and that she was what he needed for his future but a part of me also wondered if he got screwed in the imprint department.