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The next two weeks was filled with school and packing. I needed to be moved out as soon as I could but with school all morning and naptime right after, I was pressing my luck. I was just so tired, and I knew it was due to my pregnancy. I was ok with my naps and heck I was even ok that I didn't have morning sickness, but I wasn't ok with the heartburn. I had to be weary of everything I hate and made sure it was never even the tiniest bit spicy.
Dad was kind of sad to have me go but he was happy that I was finally taking charge of my life. He did think I was a little young to be moving out on my own, but he was happy hat I was happy. I knew he hated me living so close to the Cullen's, but I didn't know if he was more upset that I was going to be living so close to them or if he was happier that I wasn't moving in with Damon. I knew he approved of Damon and approved of us dating, but I don't think he would have been ok at all if I moved into the boarding house.
I promised to come to dinner every Sunday and visit as often as I could. I even told him he could stop by my new place as often as he wanted, and he made sure to let me know he was going to take me up on that often so don't be surprised if he showed up every night. I made sure to have him promise to call me before he showed up so that I could at least make sure I was home. Of course, he kept asking why Damon hadn't been around in 2 weeks and I just told him that he was visiting some friends in Louisiana and I knew nothing about what he was doing.
I knew he had a lot of questions, but he was being polite by not asking me the. I think he could sense the sadness in me from being away from Damon for, so long. Stephan had told me, dad kept bugging him about Damon. The main question that caught my attention was, is he coming back? That question I couldn't get out of my head, but Stephan assured me, as he did with Charlie, that he was indeed coming back. He just wasn't sure when he would be coming back.
He told us that Damon's friends were in more trouble than they thought, and he had to extend his trip. When dad tried to press for more information, Stephan made an excuse to leave. I think he was becoming overwhelmed with everything Dad kept asking him. I couldn't picture Stephan lasting much longer against my dad's interrogation. I just ignored everything and concentrated on what needed to be done. I already had a slight bulge and I blamed it on the freshman 15.
The girls, even Rosalie, were happy about this baby. They couldn't wait to take me shopping and to help me decorate the nursery, and it made me so excited, even though I missed Damon terribly. Esme said the guest house would be done by the time I had everything packed and ready to go.
The first time I asked about Damon to Elena, she looked at me sadly and said he left. He didn't say where he was going or when he would be back, she just knew that he kept in contact with Stephen. I cried hard that night but when I woke up I promised myself that I was not going to cry over any guy ever again. So, I started looking at the world more brightly and I was going to do it until the day I died.
((It's the cottage from Breaking Dawn with my twist))
The cottage was perfect for me, it was beautiful and small, just how I dreamed it would be. Moving in was easy because it already felt like home and Alice had already seen to a new wardrobe which would work well when I got bigger. I didn't have much clothes to add but I knew I didn't need them anytime soon because I would barely fit in them in the upcoming months, so I put the box away. Since all my shoes had heels, unless they were my flip-flops, Alice bought some comfortable shoes for me but still, she left a few places for them in my closet.
Elena went to work putting what little pictures I had up around the house and Caroline filled my fridge with healthy foods. She made sure I literally had a healthy serving of everything and I just knew these were friends I would always have. Bonnie charmed the place, so if you weren't human you needed my permission to enter and at any time I can revoke the invitation. I know she did it mostly to protect the baby, but I think she also did it in case Damon came back and I didn't want him near me.
Emmet and Jasper made sure I had plenty of electronics to keep me occupied, but I secretly think they did it, so they had something to do when the girls came over. I had the latest surround sound and flat screen tv I could ask for and the fastest in radio technology. I know they knew I wouldn't need anything hut I think they wanted me to be ok after everything and I think they thought all this would make me less lonely. Or maybe they wanted to make up for all the time they missed in my life and them suppling me with all this fun stuff was a way to get me to truly forgive them. I guess even after all the 'I forgive you' they still didn't believe me, my how the tables have turned.
Everyone else pitched in and made me an incredible library with all my favorite authors. I would, of course, be spending most of my free time in there. I even caught a few titles from English class and caught the names Romeo and Juliet a few times along with my original copy of Wuthering Heights, I would have to thank Edward for that later. He was the only person I knew who would do something so sweet like this, even if it was a bit romantic as well.
The nursery was beyond beautiful. It was all in pastel colors so no matter the sex, the baby would fit right in. The walk-in closet was kept empty so that I could be the one to fill it with the money Esme and Carlisle deposited into my bank account. There were plenty of blankets and wipes and tons and tons of newborn diapers. Everything was there from bottles to a bottle warmer to a trash can for the diapers, to furniture, it all left me speechless. Alice said Rosalie did the whole thing herself and she threatened bodily harm if anyone tried to help.
This family I had created made sure I had everything I would need so that if Damon never came back. I knew I would be ok and it was all thanks to them. I knew in my heart though that he would come back, I just didn't know when. Even Rosalie took a place in my heart now and I knew I had to let her know that she was a good friend.
I was left alone that night to think and to catch up on homework. It was nice to really have a place that was only my own. Tomorrow I would go to school, then to my doctor's appointment, and then I would get to come home and relax. I guess I was more tired than I thought because soon, I was falling asleep on the very comfortable couch.
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The days flew by in a bluer and before I knew it, it was September and my birthday was 2 days away. I didn't dread my birthday as much as I use to because now I would grow old with my little nudger. I would have this other human to keep my company the rest of my life and it too would grow old with me. Of course, I still had all my friends but 90% of them were vampires so I don't really count them.
Carlisle says he has never seen a pregnant woman this healthy, and of course go through months of pregnancy so fast. It's kind of nice knowing I won't have to spend 9 months waiting for the baby. I have about 3 months left and then I will have this tiny person to look after, school doesn't seem so bad. Carlisle has been here every Monday to keep track of the changes in my body which were really fascinating to him.
I let him run whatever test he wanted, so long as me or the baby weren't harmed. He read about ways his kind can have a baby and I was really fascinated by that. The reality also hit that if I had sex with Edward while I was human, I could have conceived his baby. And then I would either be dead while it ripped itself from my body or I would be one of them. I was so glad now that he didn't want to go that far because I was so not ready to be immortal. I mean sure, I would like ot live forever, but I think I would want a few more kids first. I was so sure this was what I was meant to do in life, and I knew if I was "dead" it wouldn't have been possible.
His theory for my little nudger is...since Damon drinks human blood daily then it is enough to keep his bodily functions functioning like a normal human. Which is why Damon, Caroline and Stephan can cry, pee, sleep, feel warm and soft like humans, and enjoy eating human food and drinks. Because of their genetic make-up, why not be able to produce as well but he wasn't sure if it worked for females though because there hasn't been a pregnant female vampire yet. He's been working on more stuff like this and Stephan and Jasper love talking to him about it.
Sometimes I go to the main house because Carlisle has a room set up for me there, it's creepy. It smells just like a clean hospital room and it makes me sick which is weird since I had absolutely no pregnancy symptoms. Carlisle thinks it's because the baby grew threw the first trimester so fast my body couldn't process morning sickness. But then he thought that week I had a bad cold was my morning sickness. He now thinks I wasn't sick, but my body was changing for the baby, which makes sense.
I didn't tell anyone that I was letting Damon feed from me. I think they wouldn't understand why I did it. I think they would have too many questions, too may demands. I just knew I liked the feelings it gave me when he sank his teeth into me. Especially when we had sex, the orgasms were off the charts and would make me pass out from the force of it. It did make me wonder if Elena let Stephan feed from her if he needed.
A couple days ago, I got a letter from Damon...I haven't opened it yet. Most of me is scared but behind the fear, there is a part of me that hopes his letter is good news. I can't bring myself to open it no matter how much everyone says I should. I made Stephan take it and hide it until I was ready.
I guess a week still didn't make me ready to read it but the surprise I got sure as hell made me want to read it now. I was so not prepared for this no matter the scenarios the others and I had come up with about Damon Leaving.