Hello everyone, it's been a very long time since I've even been on this cite to read stories I still follow, let alone write or post anything. I have a few things to say, but for the sake of not wanting to eat up anyone's time more than I have to, I'm going to keep things brief...try too lol, everyone who's been with me for a while knows my tendency to drag things out. Anywho, here we go.
Over the years, I've been through a lot. Who hasn't, right? Writing for me was always a haven, something I did as a way to deal with my emotions, life experiences and just the monotony of everyday life/existence.
I lost my drive to write for a while for a multitude of reasons. First it was because I just fell into a bout of depression, then it was because I crawled out of it. Eventually, I didn't feel I needed to write anymore because I found that small measure of happiness that few people ever do...then, I abruptly lost it. Now...I think I'm going to pick up writing again as a means to cope/self heal. I won't go into any details of what's happened in my life. Afterall...this is the internet.
But enough about me. Now to the important part.
Surprisingly enough, I've actually gotten a lot of good reviews over the years on a few of my fics. To be honest, I never thought to make anything of my writing, but many of you gave positive feedback and really tried to get me back into writing in small ways. It...it really made me feel good when times got tough.
Sadly, however, I will not be continuing any of my current fics. In fact, In a few days or so, maybe a week- I'm going to delete whatever I can and start fresh. Change my pen name too. If any of that is even possible, it's been so long since I've been on fanfiction I don't know how to work anything, so I got some research to do. I know this is going to really suck for some of you out there who really hoped I would finish what I started because you liked where things were going, but, well, a lot has changed. And many of the fics that I started and never even posted...I just don't have it in me to complete them. I honestly don't even remember where I was going to go with half of them at this point. It's just been too long.
But, there is some good news. I'm not going to promise to pump out weekly chapters of anything, but I think I'm going to start writing again. I'm on nightshift again now, and...well... it's a very long and lonely night on my days off now that I've accepted and truly realized I'm by myself again.
I'm going to be looking to see what all I can do with this profile as far as deleting things and changing my pen-name. I just need a fresh start, you know?
If any of you still follow me, or read my stories, and would like to adopt them. Reach out. I'll respond as soon as I can with everything I remember about the stories you pm me about.
I don't know what I'm going to write just yet. But I've been brainstorming some ideas about Bloodborne, Elden Ring, Tokyo Ghoul, and The Legend of Zelda. I don't think I'll be doing any Naruto fics anymore, or Rosario+Vampire for that matter. Not to say they aren't great story platforms, but I want a fresh start. And the mindset I had, the maturity that I had when I started those fics are no longer there, or they've grown respectively. I started writing some of my fics when I was in Middle-school/freshman in high-school. As a 27 year old now, writing fics with certain elements with the age groups that I was writing then, would just be weird, you know? It was already weird when i started writing it lol. I intended to grow up with my stories, but ugh, we all know how that went.
So yeah. That's the short and sweet of it. If you've made it this far, I appreciate you taking time out of your day to read the memoir of an anonymous writer, and if I end up having to create a whole new profile, than I'll update this one with my new pen-name and we'll go from there. Happy reading everyone, and thank you for your support over the years.