Cherishing You
Genre: Drama | Romance | AU | Incest | Modern Days
Rating: M
Pairing: (mainly) Levi x Eren, and some other pairing which will be added as the story progressing.
Summary: Having separated from his brother ever since he was a baby, Eren didn't remember the face of his older brother aside from his baby photos. He soon found himself slowly attached to the new guy who appeared in his family's bakery during the first day of his moving.
Disclaimer: I don't own Shingeki no Kyojin, but this fanfiction is mine. ©AsakuraHannah
A/N: Hello, I know I haven't been updated for a long long time, also the anime is ending. Sorry for the very late update. Life has been up and down, so it's hard to focus on this piece. I can finally focus on this ff again. I won't abandon this fic. Oh yes, I have to remind you that I haven't watched the latest anime yet. So yeah. Eren is still in his early short-haired boyish stage. Enjoy reading ^^~ Some M rated smut you might enjoy after a long absence~~ :)))
Chp 18: Better
'Time… How much time does he have left?'
The question kept on lingering inside his mind. He was on his way back from the convenience store near his school, taking a crosswalk, not watching his surroundings. A blaring sound distracted his mind. Eren stared at the blaring truck in front of him.
'Ah… My time… Must it end now?' Eren closed his eyes.
In a swift moment, he felt himself being pushed roughly backwards. Eren felt a sharp pain shoot through his body as he hit the ground. Gasping at the pain, Eren's green eyes snapped open to find the man he had been longing to meet for several days was now on top of him. Levi's was glaring daggers at him.
Shrieks were heard. People started to gather around them. Some of them quickly walked away, not wanting to get involved. A few of them continued peering at them to see if they're alright. Eren's ears filled with lots of questions and some even snapped a picture and took a video of them.
"Kid, are you alright? Are you hurt anywhere?!" A man kneeled beside Eren, asking in worry.
"We can call an ambulance if you're injured." A woman beside him added.
Eren looked at them and shook his head. He waved his hands in the air, trying to calm them down. "No need. I'm… Okay. Sorry for the ruckus." He mumbled, feeling self-conscious about the situation. He's still alive. His body was aching from the sudden charge. He must have several bruises on several parts of his body. Eren winced when Levi abruptly grabbed his collar harshly.
"ARE YOU CRAZY?! Do you want to die so badly?!"
Eren gave a sharp breath. He felt Levi's hand around his neck tightened. Eren sniffled, his hand grabbed Levi's hand roughly, making the raven hair startled at the rough manner.
"YES! I WANT TO DIE! THIS IS INSANE!" He could care less about his outburst in the middle of the street. A few people realized that Levi was the person who knew Eren well enough to reprimanded him. Some of them felt relieved to know that Eren wasn't alone. They started leaving the two alone and went back to their previous activity.
The night lights of the bustling city are painful before Eren's eyes. It could have been a romantic situation, but no. Things don't always work out in his favor. Eren clenched his fists, glaring daggers at Levi.
Levi was about to retort back when Eren pushed Levi off from him.
"I'D RATHER DIE IF YOU'RE NOT BY MY SIDE! WHY?! WHY MUST WE BE BROTHERS?!" Eren shouted on top of his lungs. Tears running down his chin, glaring at Levi in full rage.
Levi gritted his teeth, he pulled Eren into his chest, cradling his head. He ignored Eren's cries, punches and tried to break free from his arms. Levi wrapped his arms tightly around Eren, not wanting to let him go. His eyes shone with pain yet love towards the brunet. He felt like his heart shattered. Levi almost lost him. Eren could die. The dark-haired man would rather they fight other than losing him like that.
"Don't do that again…" Levi whispered, calming his crying brother. Levi's trembling hand created a circle on Eren's back, soothing him down. He closed his eyes, feeling glad he could still hug him in his arms, feeling those heartbeats and the warmth of his body against him, not the lifeless cold Eren in his arms. "DON'T YOU DARE DO THAT AGAIN!" Levi said with a hoarse voice, holding back his own tears.
Eren continued to cry, muffling his crying inside Levi's embrace, wetting his shirt in the process of wiping his tears. Levi could forgive him for that. He was tired of everything. He wanted their relationship to be smooth and never stop loving each other. He had butterflies in his stomach the moment their eyes met for the first time. The moment Levi spilled his coffee on Eren's uniform jacket made his heart clenched. If that never happened, they might not meet each other. Everyday Eren waited for Levi to open the shop door, being more diligent with his work, knowing how a neat freak Levi can be over small things. He kept wanting to switch his schedule with Mikasa just so he could meet Levi in the store.
It was heart-breaking knowing that the man he loved turned out to be his brother related by blood. The DNA test could be wrong. Eren hoped they never had the test. The green-eyed boy clutches Levi's shirt tightly.
"I won't do that again if you never leave."
Levi ran his right hand to ruffle his hair, kissing the top of his head. "Never, Eren. Never." He promised. Until his heart stops beating, he'll never leave. Even if Eren grew tired of him, even if they have a bigger fight. Levi will never leave. Levi might be so much older than him, Eren might be in his adolescence phase, but Levi is a man of few words. He will never break this promise to Eren.
Levi pulled Eren's right hands, curled into his own, pulling the brunet's chin up with his other hand to make those beautiful green eyes look up at him. "I promise you this. I won't leave anymore." Levi promised, wiping Eren's tears with his left thumb. The older of the two pulled Eren's hand closer to his lips, kissing Eren's fingers. "Until my heart stops beating."
Eren choked a sob as soon as he heard him. He clung to Levi like his life totally depends on it. "Neither do I." Eren whimpered.
'I'll never leave someone I love anymore.' Both whispered the same thing inside their heart.
Love was never easy to deal with. Levi had known from the start that no one would be able to cope with him and his antics. This boy, though… His eyes shifted to the sleeping boy on his couch. He was just asking Eren what he'd wanted to drink and had prepared some of his warm soothing herbs. Now though, Eren had curled up on the sofa in his living room. He sighed and set the tray of hot drinks on the coffee table.
Levi took a seat beside Eren's head. He stared at Eren for a moment before he brought his fingertips to caress his bangs. "You're an odd one. You broke down my wall just like that." Levi mumbled to himself.
Silence washed through them. Levi's thought went back to an image of dotting a baby in his arms. Who would have thought that the love of his life could be his own brother. Realizing that his mind was trailing somewhere, the man quickly pushed that thought aside. He pulled out his phone, checking what's on social media, or if he had some sudden work to do. He was surprised when he saw a video of their previous event had been uploaded by some irresponsible people.
"The fuck?!" Levi cursed at the video. He recalled the event in his mind. The raven was walking with his mind full of heavy clouds. He was trying to focus on his work instead of the report in his hands. During his way home, it was Eren who distracted his thoughts. Much to his horror, it wasn't such a nice scene. There, in the middle of the crowds, the boy who had broken up his wall, the brunet who shone the most in the crowd, stood rooted in the middle of the crosswalk. With the blaring truck before him. A view that almost stopped his heart from beating. He ran as fast as his feet brought him, desperately shouting Eren's name. The boy doesn't seem to hear him though. Until Levi had to push him away from the coming truck, sending both of them crashing to the pavement ground.
Levi looked at his hands. He didn't dare to think what if he had been late for a mere second. The raven curled his hands into fists. He could save lives. So many lives in his hands. Including Eren's life. Which is almost out from his reach. Levi pressed his hand covering his eyes, clenching his eyes shut.
"You're here."
Levi snapped his eyes open, eyeing those beautiful eyes of Eren's. Levi took Eren's left hand within his, brought his hand up and kissed Eren's fingers. "I'm here." Levi whispered, giving him a firm look.
Eren sighed, but not getting up. "You saved me from the blaring truck. I thought it was a dream."
"Even in your dream, I'll save you, Eren." Levi slid down to the floor, kneeling beside the sofa and ran his other free hand to caress Eren's hair. He stared into his eyes for a moment and leaned down to kiss Eren's temple. "And I'll continue to save you everywhere you go."
"You're mad at me." Eren mumbled, not eyeing Levi when he said those words.
"I am! You disappeared and kept secrets from me. Of course, I'll be mad. That's human emotions. But above all, my love never faded." Levi rubbed Eren's back, calming him.
"I'm sorry. I thought leaving you might make you happier than being with me."
"I'm not happy, Eren!" Levi exasperatedly retorted. "You should know that being apart from someone you love is painful. I want us to work on our relationship together, not falling apart and running away. Our relationship is our future, Eren."
"I want you to be my future." Eren pulled on Levi's shirt sleeve, his voice cracked. Now his eyes daring to look into Levi's. He got up and supported his weight with his left elbow, eyebrow's frowning.
"Then don't even think about being away from me. That's what you did to me. Do you understand that now? Be an adult, share your thoughts and problems with me, not running away. That's how love works, supporting each other. When you are in shambles, I'll be there for you. The same thing will happen when I'm the one in shambles." Levi caressed Eren's cheek with his fingers, staring deeply into his eyes. "You'll be there to support me." He whispered.
Sometimes Levi forgot that Eren's age is far away below him. Eren needs guidance, just like Levi needed one for his own wall. Maybe, the other side of the wall might not be that bad after all. If he climbed up the wall and looked down, he could see Eren was climbing on it just to reach for him, in his own way.
"I'll cherish us." Eren whispered, touching Levi's hand that was on his cheek. He remembered exactly what Marco had shared with him. Eren kissed Levi's palm, eyes never leaving that man's beady eyes.
"Please, cherish the time you had with your loved ones. Time is more important than anything." Marco whispered and ruffled Eren's hair.
That word made Levi surprised. He stared at Eren for a moment before leaning closer to him and pecked Eren's lips. Levi closed his eyes and pressed his forehead against Eren's and continued Eren's words, "I'll cherish you; I'll cherish us, I'll cherish our moments together. But more importantly, you should cherish yourself more."
Levi pulled Eren off from the sofa. Eren complied, settled down on Levi's lap and let the older of the two hug him in his arms. Cradling him like he used to when Eren was still a baby. The difference is, now, Eren is his beloved lover, irreplaceable, too important to lose and too important to forget. It doesn't matter what his past was, as long as the brunet is within his arms, he could live forever.
Neither of them is willing to let go of each other. Eren closed his eyes while Levi continued showering him with kisses all over his face.
Mikasa gasped, she fumbled on her almost dropped phone, staring at the phone screen in horror. The update about the accident just now made her world spinning.
"Armin…" She called out to Armin who was recently visiting the Jaeger's Bakery.
The blond spun around to notice Mikasa oddly pale. "Mikasa? What happened?" He briskly ran to her direction within the cashier table after putting the tray of bread for his grandpa's request.
"Armin… Please tell me the one I saw on the phone is… not Eren—" She took a deep breath. Her hand grabbed the nearest paper cup and poured herself a drink. She guzzled the water down, trying to calm herself down.
"E-EREN?!" Armin screamed; eyes widened when he saw the clip of the video. Much to his relief someone pushed Eren to the corner of the pavement right before his best friend got hit by the truck.
"What the hell just happened…" Mikasa rasped, feeling her whole-body trembling in fear of losing someone dear to her. She wiped the sweat on her temple, suddenly feeling she might pass out soon. Mikasa grabbed on the table corner, taking a shallow breath, she saw stars before her eyes.
"Someone saved him in the nick of time." Armin said, watching the whole video on the social media platform.
Hearing what Armin said, a gush of relief washed over her. She raised her trembling hand, asking for her phone. "Give me my phone, I'm calling him!"
Armin quickly passed the phone to her. Mikasa punched her brother's number and pressed the phone to her ear, impatiently waiting for the dial tone to change into Eren's voice. But it never reached him.
"He's not picking up!" Mikasa impatiently put her phone down. "What is he thinking?! He's not even answering his phone!"
"Let's just hope he's alright. I mean, someone did save him. Maybe something happened to his phone. They did crash pretty hard." Armin explained, rubbing Mikasa's back, trying to calm her down.
"I don't want to lose another sibling…" She whispered, eyes watered, trying to compose herself.
"He'll be alright." Armin said, trying to reassure her that the brunet is safe. It must be hard for Mikasa to bear everything alone. Armin looked down to the phone, the video had repeated several times already. He tapped the screen to turn off the video.
'Eren, you better be safe.' A little bit of guilt crept into his gut. He shouldn't be mad at him like that. Eren was confused. He was at loss. And Armin was being such a bad friend.
"It's the convenient store near his school." Mikasa suddenly spoke up after she paid close attention to the surroundings in the video.
Armin nodded. "Alright, let's head to the dormitory."
Eren moaned, Levi was sucking on his neck, adding marks on his skin. He blushed as the man's hand started roaming around Eren's body. "W-wait…" Eren gasped at the feel of Levi's hand on top of his manhood. "W-wait, I'm…" Eren sucked on his breath the time Levi's fingers massaged around his buldge, giving it a few jerks. Eren moaned and started squirming at his touch.
Levi chuckled. "So young… You're pretty quick to react." Levi mumbled, eyeing Eren's expressions. He drank the sight of his boyfriend groaning and moaning at the soft teasing touches. "Eren…" He called his name, pressing his lips to Eren's ear-shell, licking on his lobe before tugging on it with his lips. Levi's hand movements were getting slower and he smiled albeit Eren was being impatient.
"Levi… Come on… You're being mean." Eren stuttered meekly, shyly distancing himself from the building up pleasure.
Levi chuckled. "Does that feel good?" The raven smirked, feeling satisfied that the brunet groaned impatiently.
Eren blushed and looked away from those teasing eyes. "Uhh… Yeah…" He mumbled. Being dishonest wouldn't do any good in a time like this. Eren took a sharp breath, Levi was pumping on his hardened member. "Aah- L-LEVI—" Eren gasped, groaning when Levi's hand moved faster.
"Slow or fast?" Levi asked smugly.
"Faster—" Eren rasped. His hand swung to grab on Levi's hand that was working faster to stimulate more pleasure on his hardened member. "Aaahh—" The brunet closed his eyes, trembling as he felt his pre-cum starting to stain the front of his shorts. Levi's hand felt so good. His hips jerked the time Levi tugged harder on his member. Eren gave a sharp gasp the time Levi pulled down his shorts, revealing a hard-on manhood, standing proudly in front of Levi's face.
"W-what?" Eren looked down, blushing hard when he saw Levi leaned down to lick the pre-cum clean. Eren jerked at the feel of Levi's hot tongue swirling around the tip of his dick.
"L-Levi… That— Mmmm…" Eren whimpered when Levi continued sucking down his shaft. Eren hissed when he felt that tongue lapping at his hard member like a damn lollipop. The low groan coming from Levi's mouth sent some kind of vibration around Eren's dick. The brunet mewled and grabbed Levi's hair. "Aah… I'm-I'm cumming!" Eren moaned out loud, jerked and came. Levi quickly put the tip of Eren's cock inside his mouth. Drinking his cum as to not let any single droplets stained his clean sofa. Eren moaned while he ejaculated right into Levi's warm mouth.
"Ummnn…" The brunet panted, blinking several times. He looked down slowly, feeling himself finally come down from high. "Levi…" Eren bit his lower lip as he watched Levi licking his cum clean.
"You're sweet." Levi whispered, eyeing Eren straight into the eyes.
"I… Uhh…" Eren stammered, blinking a few times before he covered his steamed face with his hand. "Oh, my God. You did not just…" He groaned, flushing brightly.
"I did. I gave you a blowjob." Levi smirked at Eren, pulling away Eren's hand that was covering his face. "And enjoy it." Levi added in whispered.
Eren looked into his eyes, both of them staring at each other for a few moments before Levi captured Eren's lips. The man sucked on Eren's upper lips; his tongue went inside to meet Eren's. Eren let out another moan, fingers fisting on the edge of Levi's shirt. Levi's tongue swiped across his own, dancing around and teasing Eren. Eren could taste his own cum, he flushed brightly between the kisses. The brunet pushed Levi away for air. Levi slowly broke the kiss, licking Eren's lips before giving his boyfriend a final peck.
"What about you?" Eren whimpered.
"Huh?" Levi arched an eyebrow.
"You are… You haven't cum yet…" Eren blushed upon asking him that.
Levi smiled. "You want to return the favor?" Levi chuckled when Eren's red hue reached the tip of his ears.
"I… I can…" Eren mumbled, slowly tugging on Levi's trouser.
Levi looked pleased. Eren tried to unbutton his trouser. He grinned at him while ruffling his hair. "Do what you want." He pulled Eren's hand and kissed it, and then guided it to his crotch. Eren felt Levi's member was already hard after the blowjob he gave Eren. His hand twitched, cheeks adorned with a red color hue.
"Y-You're hard."
"Only by blowing you, yes." Levi kissed the top of Eren's head as the brunet slowly pulled his zipper down. Levi was excited to watch how the inexperienced Eren fumbled to unbutton and pull down his trouser. His heart beat faster at the feel of those curious fingers wrapped around his hard member.
"Have you ever touched yourself, Eren?" Levi asked while caressing Eren's hair.
"O-Of course I have." Eren blushed brightly at the question. "W-what kind of question is that?!" Eren stammered, eyeing how huge Levi was. His eyes widened at the sight. He couldn't possibly fit inside… him.
Levi's dick twitched at the answer. Oh, how he would love to see that. "Then you should know which parts feel good." Levi said, trying to guide the boy.
"I…" Eren paused before looking down, trying to focus on the task at hand, hiding his already red face. "I know…" Eren mumbled. Eren started to move his hand up and down Levi's shaft, earning a guttural growl from the raven. Feeling his confidence went up, Eren slowly moved his hand faster. Once in a while playing with the tip as he saw the pre-cum starting to form on top of it.
"That feels good, Eren. Good job." Levi panted, smiling, and continued encouraging him. "Keep going." He gasped as Eren's hand wrapped around his sacks and played with it for a few moments. "You're so good at this." Levi said, groaning. Those innocent hands could practically make him cum right away.
"Levi…" Eren called his name, eyeing him. Levi looked down and his member twitched by the sight of his brother staring up at him. His mouth was so close to the tip of his hard member. Levi was ready to explode.
"Dammit, Eren…" Levi sucked in his breaths, trying to hold himself back. He grabbed himself and wrapped his hand around Eren's hand, jerking himself a few times. Levi groaned and leaned himself forward. He was so close to reaching his peak. His breath hitched as his hips jerked. His left hand grabbed Eren's shoulder for support.
"W-Wait, let me—" Eren took a sharp breath, his eyes closed when Levi's cum sprayed all over his face. "Aaah—" Eren gasped, licking the cum that was dripping down his mouth. Eren opened his eyes, blinking a few times at Levi's member, which still occasionally shot his cum towards his direction.
"Ooh… Sorry, Eren." Levi panted after he was spent, chuckling on Eren's messed up face. "Damn. You're a mess." He laughed at his brother's pouty face. Levi looked around and pulled out some tissue from the coffee table. He smiled as he cleaned Eren's face off from his cum. Levi leaned forward to lick the semen that was splotched close on Eren's mouth. His tongue created a wet trail towards Eren's lips. Eren leaned in and started deep kissing his brother, moaning at the feel of Levi sucking on his tongue. Eren flushed at the taste of Levi in his tongue, he couldn't help but groan, gulping the taste down his throat. Levi drew back and stared deep into his green eyes.
"Thank you. It was great." Levi gave him a smirk.
Eren pressed his lips together, not knowing how to reply. "I, I was going to do the same as you did to me." Eren stammered. He then pouted as his plan was unsuccessful.
Levi snorted and kissed those pouty lips. "No need to copy someone else. Find your own style." Levi gave him a look, smirking.
Both of them stared at each other before Eren chuckled.
"I love you." Eren said.
Taken back to what Eren said to him, Levi felt his heart getting warm. "I love you too." He hugged his brother tightly. He was glad that he went on top of the wall to meet Eren on the other side of the wall. He'll never let go of him. Forever.
Levi stopped his ride in front of the dormitory. Both stayed silent for a moment. Eren looked at the dormitory building and shifted his gaze back to Levi.
"So, uhh, you know where my dormitory, now." Eren said, grinning sheepishly, trying to break the ice.
Levi rolled his eyes and turned off the car. "Well… I guess you're right. Things happen for the better." He mumbled and walked out of the car.
Eren quickly followed outside, pacing to the dormitory while searching for the keys.
"EREN!"
Eren jumped in surprise and spun around to see Mikasa running towards his direction.
"M-Mi—"
"Thank God you're alright!" Mikasa shouted and hugged her brother tightly.
Eren confusedly eyed her, putting his hands on Mikasa's waist. "What? What's wrong? Why are you here?" Eren asked in full of confusion.
"Eren is safe." Levi said, noting that he was there with him.
"Levi!" Armin shouted in relief once he saw him. Armin quickly ran towards them. "So, it is you who saved him! We've been worried sick!"
"Saved me?" Eren raised an eyebrow, eyeing Mikasa and Armin. "Don't tell me…"
"Someone uploaded the accident on Facelook." Armin showed him the video from his phone.
"WHAT?!" Eren shrieked.
"We're worried sick and your phone cannot be reached." Mikasa gave a sigh.
Eren's eyes widened when he saw the video. "Did mom and dad know about it?"
"I haven't told them." Mikasa looked at Armin. "We both rushed to the dormitory, but you're not here yet. Who knows what they'll do when they find out."
Eren gave her a horror look. "They better not know." He mumbled before he realized something. "Wait, so, you mean, you also know about this, Levi?!" Eren gapped at Levi, his eyes accusing the man for not telling him.
"While you're asleep, I saw the video on social media, sleeping beauty." Levi gave him a look. "That's why as an adult, I have to drive you back safe and sound." He smirked.
Eren groaned. "Gosh… my parents are gonna have a heart attack if they find out."
"Why did you switch off your phone? Is it broken?" Armin asked.
Eren took his phone from his pocket and showed the phone's screen had cracked.
"Oh gosh, Eren. I'm glad you're safe!" Armin wrapped his arms around his best friend.
"I'm okay, Armin." Eren smiled.
Armin gave him a sad look. "I'm sorry. I was so harsh to you; I hope you can forgive me. I should have helped you out, and not let you down. I failed as a friend."
"What? No, Armin! Don't say that! You're my best friend. I also make mistakes." Eren returns the hug to the blond. Armin didn't say anything, he felt too emotional to say any words. Instead, he just hugged his best friend tighter.
Mikasa smiled at them.
"I'm glad things are getting back to their original place." Levi gave them a smile.
Mikasa looked at him. "Thank you for sending him back to the dormitory safely."
"It's my duty. I'll head back." Levi nodded to Mikasa and ruffled Eren's hair. Eren looked at him and broke his hug with Armin.
"Drive safely." Eren said and gave his boyfriend a terse smile.
Levi smirked and waved at him. "See you tomorrow, brat."
The three of them watched the raven-haired man drive off.
"I bet, things are getting good with you and Levi?" Mikasa asked her brother.
"Huh? Oh… Yeah…" Eren blushed.
Armin gave him a knowing look. "Something must have happened before you came here. Lucky your phone cannot be reached." Armin sent him a wide grin and snickered.
Eren spluttered.
Armin put his hand in front of his grin. "I'm staying overnight in your room, you need to give me the details."
Mikasa groaned. "I don't want to know about my brother being deflowered. Oh, my gosh." She turned around and walked inside the dormitory.
"I HAVEN'T—" Eren spluttered, his red as a tomato.
Armin guffawed. "Come on, let's get inside. You have lots of stories to share with us." He pushed Eren inside the dorm.
"W-Wait, Armin!" Eren squawked. He felt like it's gonna be a long night. He inwardly groaned.
To be continue…