Chapter 6

daydreams

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a/n:

Written: May 4-12, 2023

I DON'T OWN SPIDERMAN OR STRANGER THINGS

TW: Strong language, gay, and platonic Mileven.

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Wednesday, April 1, 1987, -- Hawkins high school

Michael Wheeler

What happened to him…? Who... was he…?

"Mike Mike!! Come on you want to be late?" El nudged me, departing me from my thoughts.

"I-uh-sorry.. I was thinking." I said.

"Oh… Oh! Is it about a someone?" El asked, smirking.

"No! Shut up!" I blushed.

"Fine whatever let's go!" El stated, grabbing my hand.

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"You guys are so cute!" Dustin said.

"Yeah! I know you guys were going to endgame since y'all locked eyes." Lucas stated, proudly.

"Yeah, whatever man.. too bad you and Max weren't endgame!" I threw back at Lucas.

Lucas became quiet and stared at his food as if it was a void to get lost in. Dustin looked at me and then Lucas with disbelief. "…." The whole table grew silent.

"You idiot!" Will whispered as he slapped the back of my head. (In a playful way) "Yeah but I am your idiot..." I whispered back, leaning forward. I watched as Will's cheeks became pink. I moved my glace from his eyes to his lips.

"Mike…?"

"Yeah.." I say moving closer to him.

(theres just inches in between us, I want you to give in)

"W-What are you d-doing?"

"I don't know…"

I lean closer until our noses are almost touching, I open my mouth and close my eyes.

"Can I?"

"WAKE UP!"

"S-Sure"

"MIKE"

I connect our lips. His lips taste like sweet, sugary, strawberries. We slowly start to depart our lips. Our foreheads touching, blushing like a madman, and breathing like crazy.

"Will I-"

"Mike, safe it!"

Tears start to fill my eyes. 'Did I just lose my best friend?!' I thought.

"MICHAEL WHEELER!!!!"

"Mike stop!"

"Stop what?" --(Kind of reminds me of that 1 tt trend)--

"Stop pretending."

"Pretending?"

"Look around you!"

I do as he says and all I see is faceless people. "What the-" I turn back at Will and he's gone. The room starts turning dark.

"MIKE! LET'S GO!"

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I shoot up as if I just woke up from the dead. I look around and the worried look of my friends faces. I stare at El and slowly moving my glace. I saw Dustin, Lucas, Max, and him. I look at him and he looks at me. I slowly start breathing faster. Was it not real? I did not kiss him?

"Mike… are you okay?" El asks. "Uh yeah I think so…" I respond.

"What the hell!" I glare at Lucas, "You almost gave me a heart attack!"

I laugh. It's nice to know that my friends do care about me. "Well, it's good to know you are fine man." Dustin said as he patted my back. "Bye trash-mouth!" Max stated. "Max!" El scolded.

Max has healed a bit since what happened. She acts fine like normal, but I know deep down she's scared. But she's way better since what happened. The doctors discovered at she was only half blind so they made her special glasses that can help her. And she no longer needs a wheelchair to move around.

Once 'everyone' is gone I sigh. "Was it seriously not real? Did I not kiss him? Is it just my mind…?" I mumble, turning to the side and seeing Will is still here.

"Will? Did you just hear that? I swear I am not-!" I ramble.

"Not what Mike?" He asks.

"What?"

"What, what?"

"Did you not hear me?"

"No…?" I sigh in relief, "Is something wrong?"

"NO! I mean no…"

"Ok well lets go to lunch!"

I feel a lump starting to grow in my throat as I nod.

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I watch as Will at a corny joke Dustin made.

"Ur so gay," El whispers into my ear. I feel my cheeks slowly turn rose. "As if you aren't." I whispered back at her. "That's lame." She whispered to me. "Lame?" I raise my brow. "Whatever.." She turns away. "You know I don't even know how you were so okay when I told you…" I say and El turns to look me in the eyes. She looks down at the floor and takes my hand. "Let's go somewhere else." She tells me and I nod.

I came out to El back in January. We had been having way more problems than before and that 'spark' that once there was gone. Deep down I always knew that I didn't love El, at least not in the way she wanted. And since we just got her back, I didn't want to dump her. But she called it quits in January. We got into an argument and we both said things we couldn't take back. A couple of days later we had a talk and decided to just stay friends and we understood each other a bit more. El came out to me as pansexual and told me she liked Max so I told her I was gay and liked her brother, Will.

(How do I find the words to tell her I am in love with Stacy's brother)

She understood why I was leading a 'fake' relationship with her, and I understood her side. We did decide to remain fake dating though. As it would help both of us…

(I could pretend to be your boyfriend so no-1 at school would bully u)

But we did say we could still try and date others… It took some time to get back to normal, but we did end up doing it. I am glad we did it though. She was the first person I ever came out to, and our relationship is the healthiest it's ever been. But I have always wondered, how did she take the news. I know she needed some time and space, was that all?

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"So…" I say while taking a seat at the bleachers. "It hurt." El started, "Because no matter the sign I always said 'no he loves me' I always tried to convince myself. At some point I thought I was the problem… maybe if I was prettier.. or smarter you could say those words to me…"

"El it was never your fault-" "Mike let me finish." I nod.

"But when you came out to me, I felt some sort of relief… It hurt but it relieved me because it was that moment, I realized it wasn't my fault you couldn't tell me you loved me.." El went on, "And it also took some guilt that I had for not feeling affection for you in a romantic way… It took some of the guilt I felt for liking Max, as you helped me realize that I wasn't alone..." I look at her with sympathy.

"Though it hurt I was and still am, grateful to know the truth… and even if it was the end, I wouldn't trade our memories together for anything... I don't regret it; I don't regret us, and I don't think I ever will because you taught me something I needed to learn…"

"Wow um wow…" I say speechless. "I never know you felt that way... I guess I never thought about how I could have hurt you…"

"Hey! It's fine! You had your own stuff to deal with…" She says. "But its not fine El! I never thought about how my actions could have affected others! Which is selfish!!" I shouted. "Hey calm down. We fine now, I am fine!" El said, "Let's go back inside, okay?" I nod.

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"Hey lovebirds!" Lucas states as we walk in. I roll my eyes. "Where you go?" Will asked. "Probably to make out!" Dustin says.

We continued to talk until Lucas pointed out the time. "Fuck! Its 4:30 I need to go to Basketball practice." He spoke. "Bye loser." Max said playfully as Lucas ran to the gym. "Oh shit..!" Will mumbled, "I must go! I am super late…!" "Will… are you sure you don't want to go to my house? Me and Max are having a sleepover!" El stated. Will shook his head, "You know my father I'd be a worse pickle coming home tomorrow than I'd be coming home now.."

"I seriously don't know how you can't stand that bitch!" Max shouted. "Max!" I said. "What it's true! Will is sixteen already can't he stop?" She replied. "Seventeen.." El said.

"Uh?"

"It's seventeen.. Will is seventeen... Remember he told us this on his birthday?"

"Oh… oh! Will I am so sorry!"

"It's fine! Its an honest mistake… that everyone can make."

"Will-"

"I have to go! See you guys tomorrow!" He said.

"Bye…" I said as he walked away.

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words: 1498………………. I love this! Sry it's been a while since I updated most of my stories, but I am hoping to come up with some new chapters on most of my stories! I have just been busy…