Ahsoka's Lovers

Chapter 5

Ahsoka walked into the diner and sat down at the counter, puzzled about what she'd just witnessed back at the padracing stands. She imagined that those boys were still arguing over who had the most experience with her although she knew none of them really had that much. Lux had spent the most time with her, Nyx had the most intimate time with her, Kidd was her first crush and she still had the flower he gave her although it had died.

"What can I get ya sweetheart?" the waitress asked.

Ahsoka just looked up but wasn't sure what to order yet.

"You look like you've had a rough day."

"Oh, in a sense I guess. I've had worse days though." Ahsoka said as she thought about almost everything that happened during her time as a Jedi. Of course then Lux popped into her head and how her feelings had grown and changed for him during their various encounters.

"You look like you could use some hot Jawa Juice, and perhaps, an ear to listen." The waitress said.

"That sounds great!" Ahsoka said with a smile on her face.

The waitress poured some Jawa juice into a mug and placed it before Ahsoka.

Ahsoka took the mug in both hands and took a nice long sip. "That's so good!" She said.

"Now, hun, what's gotcha all hot and bothered?"

"Oh, well, you're gonna think I'm crazy." Ahsoka mentioned.

The waitress chuckled. "Try me!"

Ahsoka smiled. "Well, okay then. So I decided to take my boyfriend to the podraces today because I thought we'd both enjoy some time out for once. And when we got there, we ran into a former, well, not exactly boyfriend but…."

"Boyfriend, we'll just call him a former boyfriend. You're young enough, he was a boyfriend."

"Okay, former boyfriend. He and my current boyfriend started arguing about who knew me the best and who was best for me and all that. So I went to get some food at concessions when who shows up, another former boyfriend."

"Wait, three boyfriends? For a youngster you've had a busy past."

"You have no idea!" Ahsoka joked.

"Alright, go on."

"Well, I tried to keep Lux, I mean that former boyfriend away from the others so I wouldn't cause any more trouble. But of course, them being boys, they found me and him and then they all started arguing about me. And so I then walked here and here we are now."

"So let me get this straight, you have three guys fighting for you right now? Smart boys, I can see why they'd fight for you. But three guys and you're, how old?"

"I'm 17 years old."

"17. I'd been with about 4 guys by that time, but then again, you seem to have much more class than I did. You seem to have tightly grounded morals which don't take that as a bad thing."

Ahsoka smiled. "Thanks!"

"So hun, I take it you came here to seek the answer of which strapping young lad is the lucky one right?"

"Well, sort of; but mostly to get away from the confrontation." Ahsoka replied in somewhat of a joking tone.

The waitress chuckled. "Well, I can't tell you which one to pick but I do know one thing after having 4 guys fight over me at one point."

"4 guys?" Ahsoka questioned. "That must have been horrible."

"Well, actually I rather enjoyed it. Like I said, you have tighter morals than I did when I was your age. But anyway, you told me about 3 guys, but you only mentioned one of their names. The reason I bring this up is because you mention the name 'Lux' and not the others which tells me that this name is very special to you. Does that ring true?"

Ahsoka thought about it for a minute, she didn't realize that she had only mentioned Lux's name, she didn't think she'd said anyone's name. She began to think about all that her and Lux had been through. It was such a strange time for her. She was no longer the little scrappy student who was always making mistakes and getting into trouble. Well, not everything changed. But she was in the midst of learning how the universe operated and how people and cultures functioned in the wake of both the Republic and the Separatists. Of course she had met Lux during the middle of the Clone Wars and in support of opposing sides. Despite the fact that ever since she had met him to the time of Steela's death, she had many allies but she felt so distant from them a lot of the time. She always had the thoughts of Lux. The way he smiled at her as she was about to leave Raxus, or the way he talked about his father on the gazebo in that extravagant garden. She began to wonder how different her life would have turned out if she'd gone back to Onderon after walking away from the order to find Lux and stay with him. She began to realize that the primary reason she didn't was because she had lost most of the hope that she'd ever had that she'd take such a huge risk of finding someone that still wouldn't feel that way about her. But what was happening today was proof enough that he did want her. But then she thought about Nyx. She really did love Nyx and he was a fresh face in the aftermath of the incident that she called the perfect storm, also known as, the betrayal of Barriss and her once beloved Jedi order. The thoughts of Nyx made the pain of that perfect storm seem so insignificant. And what about Kidd? That was so early on in her padawan days. She was still so naïve and hasty. It was honestly the time when she was most happy during those early days. She was so far away from the most traumatic time of her life. Thinking of Kidd brought those happy feelings back, when she was so full of energy and always smiling and driving her master crazy at times. She then began to feel sad. Those times were gone and they were never coming back. She shook her head to bring her back to reality. "What was your question again?" she asked the waitress.

"I said, is there something significant about the name Lux?"

"Oh, well yes, we actually fought together in the war. He was on the opposing side at first."

"Then your undeniable beauty brought him over to your side right?"

Ahsoka chuckled. "Well, not exactly."

"I'm just teasing you my dear. I noticed that you spaced out for quite a while there. I'm guessing you've taken some time to think about each one of those boys and in your mind, you know which one you want to be with, don't you?"

"Well, I can't say for sure. All three of them mean something significant to me." Ahsoka said with a sad face.

"Well, you can't be with all of them, that would be an insult to each of them and in the end you wouldn't be able to handle the pressure of making all three of them happy, no matter how strong you are."

"I guess I just need to give it some more thought."

"Here's a way to do that. Keep in mind I've done this very thing before. Play an old fashioned game of hide and seek with them. Whoever finds you first knows you well enough to be with you." The waitress suggested as she winked at Ahsoka.

"But how does that mean they know me well enough?" Ahsoka asked.

"Well obviously whoever knows you the best will know where to find you."

Ahsoka placed her hand on her chin. "Hmm, this could give me plenty of time to think about things as well."

"Exactly! Those boys will go crazy looking for you."

"Thanks! How much do I owe you for the Jawa Juice?"

"Ah that one's on me, but that's 5 credits for the advice." The waitress joked.

Ahsoka gave the waitress a little half smile.

"Good luck hun!" the waitress then called as Ahsoka turned to walk out of the diner.