Hello, beauties!

Sorry for the delay. My life has been busy with delivering projects, studying and working.

This all talk with Chimon got really long. But I love how their relationship went so beautifully (see further notes at the end). I tried my best to portray a gay relationship (the doubts, the insecurities, the challengings) for it to be at least a little representative. I hope I didn't do a crappy work. Feel free to ring me in the comment section if you want to recommend something or have constructive criticism.

Warnings, as always:

- English is not my first language. So, feel free to warn me of any mistake you find along the way.

- You can also find it on Wattpad and AO3 under the same name. So, you can choose whichever platform you're more comfortable with.

- SMUT, a lot of sex talk and bad language (I'll stop with this warning, it's becoming repetitive xD).

Previously...

"So, yes, I was straight. I don't know. I think I'm bisexual. I was searching about it a little bit, and I think that's what I am. I've never felt attracted to guys before. I mean, I could find them handsome but no attraction. Even now, I normally don't. The first time it happened was when I was shooting Bad Buddy, but I thought it was because I was so invested in Pran that I was confusing his feelings as mine. I remember that was the first time I watched gay porn and was able to get off with it…"

Chimon's mouth opened again.

"Are you for real? Meung, I need alcohol for this conversation!"

They moved the party to Chimon's house, grabbed some snacks and beers and sat on the floor around the living room table.

"Start spilling the tea: how is it with Ohm? How is…" Chimon grinned, "the dynamic between you two?"

Nanon smacked his head.

"You're asking who bottoms and who tops. Stupid!" he shook his head.

Chimon laughed, rubbing the back of his head, drinking more from his beer.

"I mean, I'm curious. Doesn't it hurt?"

Nanon smiled shyly. He drank a little more from his beer to help with the answer.

"Depends. Sometimes, it can hurt. I'm not the most experienced person in this business, but, for me, the majority didn't hurt. Maybe a slight discomfort at the beginning. It will depend especially on how relaxed you are and the person you are with, I think… My first time didn't hurt as much as I was expecting… Only a little in the beginning, but once I let go of stupid thoughts and focused on him it didn't hurt. Well, now that I think that was our second time if I count that disastrous first try. Anyway, if you trust them and feel comfortable with them and if they are nice and take time to prepare you, it won't hurt per se. At least, I think so… I only had Ohm."

"So that means that Ohm…" Chimon chuckled, "Who would have thought Ohm would be the one in control!"

"I mean, just because he tops me, it doesn't mean he is the only one in control!"

Nanon paused, frowning his eyes at Chimon, intrigued, "But why do you say that? I think the general public thinks the opposite."

Chimon shrugged his shoulders.

"I mean, maybe who doesn't know Ohm and your relationship from the inside would think that. But you're more dominant, a little more authoritarian. Not in a bad way… You like things to go as you want, and Ohm is much more flexible and sometimes more understanding."

"Hey!" he exclaimed, a little offended.

Chimon widened his eyes at him.

"What! Do you think you're perfect? If you rationally grasp the point of the other person, amazing. But for some reason, if the point of the other person doesn't make sense to you, you won't change your behaviour or say sorry. Even when you say sorry, it sounds less genuine and more like a formality. Ohm is different. Even if he reacts more than you and in a more childish way, he will come back, and he will nevertheless genuinely say sorry and shape himself a little just because the other person is feeling in a certain way, even though he may not understand the reasons behind that. That's a capacity that you don't have."

Nanon smiled, feeling a certain amount of what he was questioning if it was pride over the person Ohm is.

"Also, you are slightly more competitive than him, and you mind losing much more than him."

"I think people get a little scared of Ohm because of his intimidating face and eyes. And he has some more barriers when he meets new people. He's less sociable than I am. But when he gets to know the person, he is actually very sweet, loyal and caring." Nanon completed, "Don't you think?"

"Certainly!" Chimon leant to Nanon and whispered, "Except on the bed...".

He winked his eye at Nanon, and they both laughed through Nanon's rolling eyes.

"But I am also rough, okay?"

"The fuck, Noo! Are you a cat?!"

We were both looking at his scratched back in the mirror. The thin lines of red marked his tanned skin, some shining still with fresh blood.

"Sorry, tee… I lost myself a little there." I kissed the mark of my teeth on his shoulder, "But to be fair, I didn't hear you complaining." I teased him, though I felt somewhat guilty seeing his skin under my fingernails.

He gave me a sly smile with those lips I love and answered me in his clear voice.

"How can you know those moans weren't from pain?"

I reached up to his lower lip, taking it between my lips.

"Were they?"

He smiled against my mouth, and I felt a tingle under my stomach.

"I was as lost or even more lost than you." he turned to face the mirror again, "Imagine if I had to take out the shirt for work… This would be a nightmare for the make-up team!" he laughed.

"Does it hurt?"

I asked, feeling crawling in my chest a mix between said guilt and a strange satisfaction of marking his skin for the first time.

"Now, a little." he smiled at his reflection, looking as satisfied as I was.

I reached my hand again to the scratches, and Ohm pulled me by my waist.

"And these?" he asked, passing his finger through the love bites he left on my chest.

These… Felt good. Maybe as good as marking him. His satisfied smile told me he liked to see these marks on me as much as I liked to see mine on him.

I pouted my lips and reached my arms to his neck.

"It hurts! Maybe you should kiss the pain away…"

That was such a bad line. Still, Ohm smiled brightly at me. I love this smile: his eyes become small like semi-moons, and his nose cutely puckers. He laughed shortly but with excitement and nuzzled his face against my neck, hugging me tightly. The feeling of his naked body against mine made me feel all warm inside.

This feeling… It feels like home…

"Is this too much detail?"

Chimon laughed, looking at Nanon pouting. He rushed to wave his hands in front of his face.

"No, no, I want to know! This is a very interesting conversation." Chimon grinned at him, "Ah! You mentioned your first time was disastrous… What was that about?"

Nanon swallowed another sip of his beer.

"Aham... Basically, I was wanting to…" Nanon's cheeks became flushed, "To give myself to him for a while. Since he started to finger me. But I was having such a difficult time accepting my… New? Or just my sexuality, that it took a lot of time until I accepted him to fu—... Aham… Penetra—" Nanon chuckled embarrassed, his cheeks now totally red, "I'm sorry. I'm not used to talking about this with someone other than Ohm."

Chimon smiled fondly.

"It's alright, Non. You don't have to talk about it if you don't want."

Nanon's eyes widened in despair, and he negated it firmly with his head.

"No! I want to answer your questions. It feels good to be thinking about this again, and even more sharing it with someone apart from me, myself and I!"

Chimon laughed shortly, and then there was a pause of silence between the two boys. Without a warning, Nanon pulled Chimon for a hug. He held his friend tight, feeling his gratitude expanding and exploding in his chest.

"Thank you, Chi. Thank you for being here exactly the same way you were before. Thank you for being so excited… Thank you for acting so normal, for making this seem so normal."

"Because it is, and I'm happy for you…"

Chimon felt a punch of pain in his heart, understanding how his best friend must have felt lonely and guilty. They separated, smiling at each other, and Nanon felt lucky to have a friend like Chimon.

"Sooo… I think we both need something stronger for this very interesting conversation! I want to know all the details. Let me see if I have something downstairs."

Chimon stood up.

"Do you have any preference? I mean, besides Ohm."

Nanon grinned.

"Bring me whatever."

Chimon grinned his way out of the door of his bedroom.

It feels like home…

Home. Only the thought of this feeling was enough to switch the panic button in Nanon's brain. He tried to get away from that thought, and his mind wandered back to that moment.

His body seemed to still remember the warmth of Ohm's arms around him like a tickling sensation. He loved that: the cuddles and kisses, the laughter and teasing after sex. Oh, and the sex…

I looked back at Ohm, smiling through the pleasure I was feeling. Our eyes met. It only took a couple of seconds for Ohm to stop all the movement and look up, breathing deeply once, twice…

I couldn't control a whine that ripped its way through me.

"Why did you stop?"

Between breaths, he answered, not looking at me, "I am almost coming. I don't want to, yet."

This made my heart beat faster, pumping more blood through my body into the centre of it. I smirked, keeping my eyes glued to Ohm, who was trying his best to control himself. The bed was touching my knees and hands, supporting my weight as I was enjoying the satisfaction of the power over Ohm's condition. Without waiting or a warning, I started to move my ass on Ohm's dick.

I could sense the warmth of one of his hands resting on the middle of my back. The other came to my hip, squeezing only a little. His head was now facing down.

"I don't want to come yet." Ohm said, between his teeth, raising his eyes to me without lifting his head.

I bit my lip when only his eyes rose to me. The way he was looking at me was so thrilling! It excited me to see how much he was trying to control himself. And damn, I was liking the challenge! I ignored him, continuing the movements in and out Ohm's dick.

He hissed and, in a snapping strength moment, the hand resting on my back pushed me into the bed, while the one on my hip squeezed hard, pulling me against him. I was pinned down on the bed, my face glued to the bed and my hip to him. He wasn't allowing any other movement from me.

"I said. I don't. Want. To come. Yet.""

Ohm's tone was low and wild. It made me feel all giddy and excited. I laughed a little, trying to look at the man, who just one minute ago was pounding me like there was no tomorrow. His hand traced the drops of sweat that rested on my back. He started thrusting once again, slower this time.

Then, he looked at me, and his eyes became darker. I could feel my cheeks heating up. This overwhelming but good feeling of him managing my movements and trying to grasp some of the control was driving me crazy. I closed my eyes, and my mouth opened in a smile of pleasure.

"Fuck." Ohm murmured.

The waves of the sound coming from his mouth almost didn't manage to surpass the moaning escaping freely from my open lips. Apparently, it was too much for Ohm. He didn't last longer than seconds.

Suddenly, he took himself out of me, leaving an empty feeling to which I hissed. Between deep moans, Ohm ripped the condom off his dick, stroking his length only a couple of times before coming on my back. His release was warm and made me feel electrified as if I could feel his orgasm through me. While he was coming, he tensed his grip on my hip. At that moment, I was sure I would get a set of bruises the next morning, and I was happy about that.

Nanon jolted his head when he heard Chimon closing the door behind him. This definitely was not the time to think back on a situation like that.

Chimon walked back towards him. He settled down a bottle filled with a tawny brown liquid on the table and poured a small amount of the liquid into the two glasses.

"So, you were telling me about your first time."

"Well…" Nanon gulped the small amount of liquid that was right away refilled by Chimon, "It took a long time for me to accept him to… Fuck me." Nanon's voice reached less volume to the end of the sentence, his cheeks still slightly red, "Even to finger me, I thought I would lose something if he did it as if I could be any gayer for him than what I already was…" Nanon laughed sarcastically, "But maybe it is like he said: that time was necessary, and maybe it wouldn't have been so good if I hadn't given myself that time. So, I fingered him first as he had done it to himself before-"

"What? He did it to himself before? I have always known Ohm was an explorer!"

"Yes, you should try it sometime, asshole! Can I finish my story?" he continued without waiting for a response, "Anyway, with each time, I became more and more curious about how it would feel. So I decided I wanted to try anal sex first."

Chimon raised his hand like a school kid and saw Nanon's eyeballs rolling.

"What?"

"Before you continue Khun professor, how does it feel?"

Nanon shook his head slowly, in disapproval, but with his fun dimples showing.

"Sometimes, I wonder how you turned out to be my best friend…"

Nevertheless, Nanon thought for half a minute.

"It feels different from the orgasm that you get from jerking off or having sex… Well, without involving your ass." He laughed, "It's curious because you can have more… Or at least, a different kind of pleasure. When you come, it feels like a whole-body sensation, not only a dick sensation. The orgasm is quite different. It's…" Nanon smirked, "It's better, in my opinion. It seems like it bursts through everywhere. Oh! And also, I can go for another round faster. I can come more times than normally I can."

Nanon came closer to Chimon.

"Oh, and meung, it leaks! Like, you know how before you come, you get a little bit of liquid out, right? But when he fingers or fucks me, it's much more."

Chimon laughed.

"What the fuck? Like a fountain?"

"No need to exaggerate! Not that much." Nanon winked at Chimon.

"But if it feels so good, how come your first try was disastrous?"

"My first time with fingering was nice. Like heavenly nice. But until it reached the heavenly part, it was much harder than fucking, honestly! I was very nervous. The first time we tried fucking was similar…"

"Ah! Hum…"

"You have to relax, Non… Or else I can't do anything."

I know, you crap! I'm trying! What a fucking day, seriously…

We have postponed this so many times now. Mostly me. It would seem that I'm doing it on purpose. But no, I really want to be the first one to do this. We had agreed one week back to try anal sex. But our schedules have been erratic, and today was no different. I've been so tired all the time. Today is just a very bad ending for a very bad week.

Even my body hurts, and I'm having some belly discomfort today. It's nothing too much. I think it's just because I'm maybe a little too nervous… I did clean myself as I normally do with the instructions on that website I and Ohm found. But that's another thing! Now, it won't be only his fingers… What if I didn't clean myself well enough? I didn't have that much time to prepare myself. It feels like I arrived home just now. And to top that: he is a clean freak!

"Non, let's stop it. We will return to it tomorrow. It's okay…"

There won't be tomorrow! Tomorrow, we have to wake up early, and it will be more than four days without each other as he is going to the countryside for shooting. It must be today! I grabbed him, trying to hide my pain whimper as his head was pushed a little more into my ass. I could feel that I wasn't relaxing at all, though I was trying, and I was getting more and more frustrated about it.

"No. It will be today. I'll be fine. Just get on with this thing!"

Ohm's eyebrows got closer in a frown.

"I won't."

He tried to get away from me, and I still tried to hold him, but it didn't take long for me to feel the head of his dick popping out of me. I pushed him away from me, trying to cover his eyes, and hurriedly checked if his dick was dirty. Fortunately, the condom was completely clean.

"Enough, Nanon! What are you doing?"

He pulled my arms away, finally releasing himself. Only then I noticed he was not hard anymore. That realization just hit me. I fucked up everything. I just felt like crying…

"Nanon, what the hell is happening with you? «Get on with this thing»... Are you for real?"

I turned my back to him, curling my body into a ball, feeling my cheeks heating up and one or two tears falling free. The next minute, his body was pressured against mine, his hand on my waist.

"Non… I'm sorry. Did I do something wrong?"

"What are you feeling?" I asked.

I needed to know.

"What?" it was quiet in the room, and I could hear my heart trembling, "Non, I'm feeling a little confused. And worried. A lot. Why do you want to rush it? It seems like you want to just check a box. I don't want to do it like this… Sorry if I was rough. Are you still hurting?"

He tried to squeeze me against him.

"Non, you crazy ass! Come on, turn around!"

I turned to him and started ranting:

"I want to do it today. You are going away for four days straight; it was supposed to be today. We've been pushing it because of the schedule, mostly me. It seems like I don't want it. But I do! I really do! Yes, I'm still scared about it. And today, I'm feeling so bad, I'm so… I can't relax! Even my belly hurts. But I clean myself, really! Why? Why can't I relax? I'm so tired of this shit! This whole week! It's just..."

I hated this feeling! A mixture between overwhelming and a lack of control so big I cannot stop myself from crying. And it always happens with him.

"Oooh, my big baby!" he held me between his arms, and I felt automatically a little calmer, "Tomorrow or four days from now; I'll wait as long as it is necessary."

My head was resting on the muscle of his arm, against his chest as my hands were.

"Don't tell me you can't be patient!" he added with a smirk.

After just a pair of minutes of sobbing, my breathing slowed down, and I felt my eyelids heavier.

"But I want…" I mumbled in return.

"I know. It will happen. Just don't rush it. You had insomnia in the last three days. You are very tired and stressed."

He kissed my forehead, nuzzling his nose against it. I smiled and felt my whole body delivering itself to the cloud of sleep.

"My crazy kitten… Look at you. Now, rest."

Nanon finished with an involuntary smile on his face, feeling his whole body warming up like a warm embrace.

"Maybe it was better than what it seemed at the time."

Chimon laughed.

"Meung, you guys are disgusting! Even the alcohol is unbearably sweet! So then, did you manage to do it?"

Nanon laughed along.

"Yes, then we spent those four days apart. We didn't have that much time to message. But we did it anytime we could, and he teased me a lot. So, if I was wanting it before, after those days, I was almost not standing the wait." Nanon blushed a little, "So, when it happened, it was like a space between my reality and my fantasy. Strange as it seems, it was really good because I was really relaxed. I had times when I got more discomfort after this one. After that first try, we talked a lot about my insecurities and his, so I was much more relaxed and comfortable."

Nanon laughed, one memory coming straight back to him.

"You know one thing I enjoy about being with a guy? Or maybe with Ohm?" Nanon asked, without waiting for an answer, "I am much more comfortable about asking for what I need."

I walked towards the kitchen, from where the sound of clinking glass was coming. Ohm was there, shirtless, with his hands covered with soap bubbles. Humming some song, he continued to wash the dishes, oblivious to me.

... To be continued ...

I can't help but mention again: drink in moderation and in safe spaces. If you think there is a possibility of you getting drunk, remember to have a conscientious friend with you so you won't be in danger.

Regarding this chapter, it would be too long if I didn't cut it in two. So, the next part will conclude this scene with Chimon. However, it won't be named Chimon's Talks anymore.

Thank you for reading! I really hope to hear from you.

Hugs!