"Blood. . .so much blood."

"Tears. . .why was there always tears. It feels so warm. . .and yet so cold."

The world was so dark and he could hear nothing but the distant screams. They were cries of the helpless, locked in a place that should never be opened. Hours. . .days. . .years passed by. He did not move, he did not speak and could only hears the screams. He tried to endure them, but the longer he laid in the dark the more his soul began to decay.

The screams gradually got louder and clearer. After what seemed like an eternity he began to understand. They were calling out to someone. . .someone they loved, someone they feared? The name was familiar, but he did not know why.

"Tsukune. . .Tsukune. . ." the voices said over and over again.

"Pain. . .so much pain. Why do they have to suffer?" he asked himself.

No matter how much he wanted to. . .he could not cry for them. Someone had told him not to, a long time ago. He could not remember her face, but could only hear her cry out his name.

"Tsukune. . .Tsukune don't cry. I forgive you." her caring voice echoed in the darkness.

"I forgive you Tsukune." another said softly as a falling snow petal.

"We all forgive you." he could hear a little girl say in a whisper.

"We all love you." a more mature and womanly voice called out.

"It's not your fault." a voice full of pride said.

"Tsukune. . .Tsukune caused them to suffer? I can never forgive him."

Something far greater began to trouble him, something he could not remember. He tried to call out to them, to find them but it only hurt more. The pressure on his chest began to build causing an unbearable amount of pain. His throat started to constrict, starving him of air. All of his muscles were strained and his fists were clenched tightly. The girls began to quietly cheer him on.

"You can do it."

"Come on Tsukune."

"Fight it."

"You can do it Tsukune."

He did not understand. We're they calling out to him. . .was his name Tsukune? Had he been the one to cause them so much pain? Suddenly the pressure around his neck was released and he could speak again. A flash of memories erupted in his mind, mostly faces and names.

"That's it Tsukune, keep going." the first voice said urgently.

He knew the voice. . .Moka. . .had she been important to him?

"Moka. . .we can't hold it back any longer!" the prideful voice called out.

"Kokoa?" Tsukune wondered.

"We have to!" the mature voice said.

"Rubi?"

"For Tsukune!"

"Mizore?"

"Tsukune!"

"Yukari?"

Why? Why were they helping him. What were they protecting him from? Something was wrong, something was missing. . .someone.

"Where is she?" he asked them.

"Who? Who Tsukune." Moka asked.

"Where. . .where is she?" he asked much weaker.

"Kurumu? She is. . ."

"No! Where is she? Where is Moka?" he asked helplessly.

"I'm right here Tsukune, everything is going to be alright." she told him softly.

"No! No, no, no. . .where is the other Moka?" he asked pleadingly.

The most vicious and ear-splitting roar echoed through the darkness. Screams of the others faded into nothing and the evil began to get closer.

"Tsukune hurry!" Moka pleaded.

He redoubled his efforts of trying to escape, but he could not move at all. More heart shattering screams and then silence.

"GET AWAY FROM HIM! Tsukune hurry. . ." Moka screamed and then there was nothing.

There was only him, the darkness and an unforeseen foe. It's overwhelming power burned and lashed out at him. Even through the intense pain he struggled to free himself. An overwhelming amount of anger swelled inside of him, but he could do nothing.

"You were always so weak, so helpless." a familiar voice taunted him.

He stopped his struggles in sudden realization. His anger turned into confusion and his fear turned into disbelief.

"Moka. . ." he said into the darkness.

The silver-haired and red-eyed beauty appeared in his vision and looked down at him. More memories crashed painfully into his mind and he grunted in pain.

"Moka. . .you killed them?" he asked in horror.

She began to laugh maniacally and gave him an evil grin.

"Why? Are you worried about those shells of the people you cared about? Or is it something. . .more?" she said happily.

Something was wrong, he could feel it deep down, strings were pulling on his heart.

"No! You are not Moka!" Tsukune yelled at her and continued to struggle free.

She bent down low to him with and evil grin and stared him down. Tsukune returned her glare and stressed his muscles to the limit. He began to notice that her appearance was changing. Her hair was getting shorter and her eyes turned brown.

"You are right. I am not Moka. . .I'm you."

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Kurumu rushed to Tsukune's side and quickly fell to her knees. She lifted him up and pulled out the succubus's claws and roughly shoved her body away. She then laid Tsukune down on her lap, holding his head tightly.

"Tsukune! Tsukune, please wake up! Don't fall into the darkness!" Kurumu pleaded with him.

Her hand were covered in blood as she held his head. Her tears ran down her face and fell onto his.

"Please, Tsukune! Please!" she cried.

She looked down at his peaceful face and without warning his eyes shot open. When Kurumu saw his eyes she let out a wail of despair and choked on her sobs.

"No Tsukune! No!" she screamed staring at his lifeless pure white eyes.

It was all like a horrible flashback filled will all of the terrors she was afraid of. Moments later his entire body tensed up and he stopped breathing. Kurumu began to panic and the blood drained from her face. She did not know what to do, she was a miserable wreck and was shaking so badly.

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Two Years Ago

"Tsukune. . .please talk to me! It has been over a year. . .please say something!" Kurumu pleaded with the ever silent man that she loved.

Tsukune only stared off into the distance unresponsive. She shook him roughly and stared into his eyes but he always looked right through her. No matter what she did, he never said anything. She cried for him, she praised him, she threatened him, she loved him, she hated him, she tried to seduce him, but nothing she did ever helped. Every time she looked into his eyes she saw nothing but the darkness that she feared so much. She kneeled down and cried on his lap.

"Tsukune. . .please. Please say something. . .if you don't. . .I am going to die!" Kurumu cried.

She could feel it deep down, she was fading away. There was almost nothing left of her. She was a breath away from being put out like a candle. It hurt so much that she was always constantly crying. She hardly slept she was so scared. His eyes. . .he had the eyes of that monster whenever he slept. But she had endured, living on nothing more than the slightest sliver of hope. An instant before she had given up, she felt a warm hand on the side of her cheek. Tsukune lifted her head up and looked her into the eyes, keeping her last string of life from snapping.

"I don't understand." he said simply.

"What?" she asked confused and trembling.

"What is wrong?" Tsukune asked without emotion.

"I am dying Tsuknue." she said softly.

"Why?" he asked in the same unemotional tone.

"I am a succubus! I live off of love and sex!" she cried.

There was a long silence and Kurumu prepared to give her goodbyes.

"I can only give you one of those things." Tsukune said, his words giving her a new grasp one the hope she had about lost.

Kurumu slowly looked up into his face and he looked back down at hers. He gently wiped a tear away with his thumb. That simple act held a lot more meaning for Kurumu than he could ever imagine. To her it was evidence that he could still be saved, that he was still holding on. For her it was the only sign of love she had received in a long time. From that day forward she never lost hope again.

Dear Diary

Tsukune saved me, he has given me more time to heal his heart. Lately he has been talking to me! He answers my questions and everything! He has also been going on walks every morning! I think it is good for him to get some fresh air. (Tear stains) Even through all of that. . .he is still the same and I am still hanging on by a thread. But I won't ever give up hope. I love you Tsukune.

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Many Years Ago

"Look mommy, look!" Kurumu called out to her mother Ageha.

Ageha look down at her precious daughter and smiled. She was pointing to a nearby couple holding each other very closely. Kurumu was so cute and full of energy all of the time.

"Eww! They are kissing!" her daughter said giggling.

"That is because the are in love." Ageha told her daughter sweetly.

"Love? I thought love was when you make cookies for me." she said confused.

Her daughters innocence and naivety made her laugh. Kurumu made a pouting face, she did not like being laughed at.

"Yes darling, that is also love." she told her most adorable daughter.

"I don't get it. Do kisses taste like cookies?" Kurumu asked.

"Sometimes. . .but love is everywhere." Ageha explained.

"Love is in the cookies I make for you."

Tsukune. . .I will do anything for you. I do love to cook for you.

"Love is in kisses."

Oh Tsukune. . .your kisses really do taste like cookies.

"If someone truly cares for another, then they will tell them that they love them." she told her eager listening daughter.

"You will know what love is when you meet you destined one." Ageha said.

"My destined one?" Kurumu asked.

"He will be kind."

Tsukune. . .even though I tried to kill you, you saved me. . .you saved me from Moka.

"He will protect you no matter what."

Even after having your heart shattered. . .you lived on for me, to protect me.

"When he tells you that he loves you, you will know that he is your destined one."

Please Tsukune, just tell me those three simple words.

"My destined one will tell me he loves me a thousand time a day!" Kurumu shouted happily.

Ageha laughed and took her bouncing daughter by the hand.

"You will meet your destined one, I am sure of it." Ageha thought to herself.

"Dear Diary

Mommy told me about love and my destined one. She won't tell me when I will meet him, but that when I do I will know. He will be kind and always protect me. He will have one light blue eye and one purple eye to match my eyes and my hair. He will tell me that he loves me everyday. I would do anything to find him, to be with him. I love you, my destined one."

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Kurumu looked down helplessly at her destined one laying on her lap. Even if he had never told her those words that she so desperately needed, she knew. She knew that she was his destined one and that she could love no one else as much as him. She had always known. Her blood soaked hands caressed his cheek. His body was getting colder and colder. She cried and cried her face covered with tears. Then something inside of her snapped and her anger began to rise. Her momentary shock had subsided and she knew what she had to do.

"No Tsukune! I won't let him take you from me!" Kurumu screamed.

She held his head and kissed him, pouring her love into him.

"Still tastes like cookies." Kurumu thought smiling.

His reaction was immediate and he began to breath again, but his eyes still remained the same.

"Wait for me Tsukune I'm coming." Kurumu said softly.

Kurumu's tail snaked out from underneath her skirt towards Tsukune.

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Taukune laid there paralyzed looking cold and hard at the evil replica of himself. The harder he struggled the more vicious the smile was on the abomination in front of him. It was all a game to him and Tsukune was the pawn.

"What do you want!?" Tsukune said angrily.

"Me? I have been locked away for a long time. When your holy lock broke, it was her that sealed me back up." he said staring off into the distance.

"When I get out of here. . .when I gain control, I am going to kill her." he told Tsukune.

Tsukune cried out in anger and strained even harder a his invisible bonds. His muscles burned in agony but the pain was nothing compared to the thought of losing Kurumu.

"Why? Why try so hard? It would be so much easier if you just gave up." he taunted Tsukune.

"I won't let you kill Kurumu!" Tsukune yelled furiously.

The evil monstrosity let out a booming laugh that echoed through the darkness.

"You can't stop me, you never could. You are just as helpless now as you were the day that they died." he mocked.

Tsukune stared at him with pure hatred, only amusing him. There was a sudden change of expression on his face but his wicked smile soon returned.

"She is on her way. . .how foolish." he said and walked back over to Tsukune.

"It is time for you to see the truth, what your. . .destined one, hides from you." he said.

Tsukune watched as he lifted his hand, poised to strike. Silence reigned all around them and without warning he plunged his hand through his heart. In an instant a blinding white light erupted from his chest and engulfed him.

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Three Years Ago

"Rubi Tojo. A brilliant witch who was greatly loved by her friends. May she rest in peace." her tombstone read on top of a beautiful hill of sunflowers.

Storm clouds were swirling in the air and a light breeze drifted through the sunflowers. Kurumu and Tsukune were the closest thing that she had to a family. It was their duty and responsibility to take care of her after she had died. They both decided that the sunflower field that they had first met was the best place for her to rest.

It was the only funeral out of all of their friends that they had attended. The snow village and Gin's wolf pack had taken care Mizore and Gin and allowed no one to visit. Only Sun was allowed to see Gin, but only because no one could stop her. Yukari's parents had taken her and vanished without a trace. Kokoa's and Fong-Fong's body had never been recovered and Moka was absorbed into Alucard.

They had stood there for hours and the sun was setting. Kurumu had cried the whole time, but Tsukune had not shed a tear. He could not, he had promised Moka that he wouldn't. As the last rays of sunlight fell upon her tombstone, a single sunflower petal drifted up from the ground and dance before Tsukune. He watched it as others joined it. He could almost see Rubi's beautiful face saying her goodbyes. Then they were gone. . .just like his friends.

"Dear Diary

Why is this world so cruel? Why did they have to die? What are we supposed to do? Why!? Why!? Why!? Why couldn't it just be me? Why couldn't I be the only one to love him? Why does he love them all? They stole his heart from me, and they died with it! Why can't I be happy, why!? He is my destined one. . .it is not supposed to be like this. I love him."

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A Few Days Ago

Tsukune was laying in a bed at the Wong families mansion with Kurumu sleeping silently beside him. He was unable to sleep so he devoted himself to finishing Kurumu's diary. He pulled it out of his hiding spot. He had spent every waking moment and a few sleepless nights writing. After a few hours of writing he had finished the book. He only had one thing left to do.

"Dear Diary

I have just finished rewriting Kurumu's diary. She is sleeping next to me even now. She is so beautifully breathtaking and she is so cute when she is sleeping. I truly believe that she is my destined one and that we will be together forever. It's is so hard for me and I am scared but I will tell her one day how I feel about her. That I love her. I love you Kurumu."

"I love you too." Kurumu said in her sleep.

Tsukune only smiled and wrapped his arm around her. She snuggled up closer to him and he hide the diary again. Here, with Kurumu, he felt complete. His thought turned towards there child and the one thing that Kurumu never gave up.

"Hope. . .Nozomi." Tsukune said quietly.

He could see a smile appear on Kurumu's face and he laid back down with her. He lightly kissed her on the lips and wished her a good nite.

"Mmm cookies." Kurumu said in delight still sleeping.

"Nozomi. . ." he said one last time before falling asleep.

I think I outdid myself in this chapter and if I had to pick this would be my favorite chapter so far out of all of my stories. I also wanted to shed more light on what happened in the past. It is all coming together very nicely. My favorite part about writing this story is the diary. Oh do I have big plans for that diary, just maybe not in this story.

I hope you all enjoyed this chapter. As always I enjoyed writing it. I know I left you a cliffhanger last chapter (which there still is) so I give you this chapter.

Thank you for reading and reviewing!