A/N: These are a bunch of little headcanons derived from prompts given to me by Maxi (mostly, I came up with a couple on my own). I've compiled them into installments to avoid adding a bunch of really short chapters. As always, if there's something you'd like to see feel free to leave it in the comments or send me a message. Thanks and enjoy!
I also need Shay being super insecure like they're snuggled up in bed for the night and suddenly Shay just asks "do you mean it?" and Rafferty kinda pulls back a little so she can look at Shay's face and she asks again "I mean really mean it" and Rafferty just looks at her point blank and says "I'm not her" in reference to clarice because they never really talked about it and Rafferty got most of the story from Dawson but she knows what Shay's thinking and then she says "I mean it, I love you, really" and she kisses her and repeats "I'm not her" and Shay says "I know" still not entirely convinced so Rafferty makes her look at her and says "I love you, and this, what we have, I wouldn't trade it for anything, anything" and Shay gets it then. because what Allison is telling her is that she wouldn't let go of Shay even if it meant getting her fiancé back and that tells her all she needs to know
Also also, I want to see Rafferty pick Shay up. Like they're making out somewhere and Raff just like scoops her and Shay goes with it, wrapping her legs around her waist and her arms around her neck and Raff's got her hands in her hair and just other general hotness. It would also be adorable if she couldn't hold her that long so they end up falling into a giggling heap on a couch or a bed or something idk.
Another thing I need? Rafferty shoving Shay against a wall and kissing the shit out of her.
Rafferty's push would stem from pent up emotion and feelings, as would the kiss, it would be more passionate than lustful and Shay would be totally taken off guard for a few seconds before her mind catches up and she fists her hands in Rafferty's jacket and tugs her closer and then uses leverage to flip them so Rafferty is up against the wall instead and she kisses her hard before moving down to her neck at which point Rafferty's eyes and mouth open and her face just reads "holy fuck this is glorious I'm so screwed (literally)"
Shay sees Devon while with Rafferty? What happens?
Okay that's kinda hard cuz I can't remember exactly how they dealt with the robbery like if they filed charges or what happened but I totally see Shay becoming livid, just like suddenly ice cold and Raff just stops and is like you okay and Shay's like remember that girl I told you about that robbed me blind? And Rafferty makes the connection and immediately tightens her grip on Shay's arm because she is not gonna let Shay go off right now even though she herself wants to cut the bitch but surprisingly Shay doesn't move. She just keeps staring. And then Devon looks over and just smirks. And Raff is just all soft spoken and says "come on, she's not worth it, let me buy you a beer" and Shay turns with Rafferty still on her arm and she just breathes out all of the tension at once and then kinda smiles and shakes her head at herself and Rafferty is like "what?" and Shay just says thanks and Rafferty has no idea what she even did and when she asks Shay just says "for loving me" and then they go be all cute and fluffy together.
I am also going to need a scene where Shay is ragging on herself for not being loveable like, her talking about how Dawson has Casey and Severide has Lindsay and how everyone has someone but her and she's alone and unlovable and she might as well just go adopt a dozen cats and become the stereotype and she's just on this whole mega-rant in front of Rafferty and Raff is just standing there falling more in love and Shay keeps going and is pacing while she rants and at some point Rafferty just laughs out loud and calls her an idiot and Shay's all "Oh gee thanks for having my back ya jerk" and Rafferty just tugs her closer and kisses her right on the mouth and then Shay's like "yep, yeah, definitely an idiot. how long have you-" and Rafferty just kisses her again because she's an adorable insecure idiot and it's the greatest thing ever
Another ex of Shay's crosses paths with Shafferty and she's like super hot, badass chick and makes Rafferty feel a little insecure. What happens?
I totally see Rafferty being territorial. Like this chick walks up and is like "Leslie, hey" and Shay's all hey back and hugs her but keeps her eyes on Rafferty the entire time, just like totally gauging her throughout the entirety of the encounter. And Shay introduces them like "this is my girlfriend and this is so and so and then just kinda casually goes like "we used to date a while back" and Rafferty just like sizes the chick up and just kinda nods and says oh, and then the ex is like "well you certainly got yourself a cute one" and Shay gets all defensive and just like starts talking her up first just agreeing and saying something like "when do I date ugly people?" or some shit but then going on and on about how awesome a paramedic Raff is and Rafferty just kinda getting this smug look and she never really gets a chance to be insecure in the moment because shay is just so proud.
First time being intimate?
Okay, let's see well there are a couple ways I see this. The first is the rough and tumble way I've mentioned before where the two of them just kind of lose control and end up boning fully clothed in a back room at Molly's. It doesn't really matter how they end up there, just that Shay's got Rafferty pressed against a wall and her mouth is on her neck and her hands are everywhere and Rafferty is loving every second of it. It's fast and hot and desperate and before either of them realize it Shay's popped the buttons on Raff's pants and is finger fucking her like there's no tomorrow and the dirty talk. Dear god the dirty talk. Shay's breathing into raff's ear and telling her how wet she is and how hot she is and Rafferty is just clinging to her and mouthing her neck and shoulder and then she can't take it anymore either and suddenly she's reaching for Shay's pants and it doesn't take long before they get each other off but they're interrupted before they can go again or take it to someone's bed and they both look just so incredibly freshly fucked and disheveled and Shay looks so fricken smug and yeah.
Shafferty's been together a few months, Rafferty's fiancé's death anniversary comes…
I think Rafferty doesn't mention it. I think she doesn't want to drag Shay down or for her to think that she hasn't fully moved on so she keeps quiet about it. But Shay knows something is up. She can tell Rafferty is being more quiet than usual but she's actually more clingy too. She holds on just a little bit tighter in the days leading up to the anniversary, snuggles just a little but closer and Shay suspects but she's not gonna bring it up if Rafferty doesn't first. But she does ask Kendra, to confirm her suspicions, and once she knows she goes out of her way to love her just a little more than usual. it's nothing obvious, just an extra kiss in the morning, more hugs throughout the day and whispered I love yous every chance she gets. and when the day finally comes Rafferty doesn't have to say anything other than "come with me". so they go to his grave and Shay stands back and let's Allison have all the time she needs and when she's ready she introduces Shay and tells her fiancé how amazing she is and how loved she is and how if she was ever going to end up with anyone other than him it only could've been her.
Rafferty has a hobby that Shay would never have guessed and Raff was a little embarrassed
Knitting. Shay shows up at Raff's during one of their days off and found her sitting on the couch with a ball of yarn and a couple needles absentmindedly working away on what looks like a hat of some kind. When Shay asks about it Rafferty says she picked it up while her fiancé was in the hospital to keep herself from going crazy, busy hands calm mind or something like that. A week later Rafferty gives Shay the finished hat as a gift. Shay wears it everyday straight for a month because and when Rafferty tells her to please stop Shay refuses because she's never had someone knit her anything before. she also tells everyone at the firehouse that Rafferty made it and when next Christmas rolls around Thanks to Gift requests Rafferty has a nice chunk of supplemental income she uses to buy Shay something extra special and far less warm *winkwink*
GAME NIGHT!
what do you mean game night? game night does nothing for me. It's like what are they sitting around playing fucking canasta drinking expensive scotch? I don't even know what canasta is but rafferty probably fucking does. And she probably puppy dog eyes Shay into learning it and so now they play like once a week and sometimes Shay brings home a cigar and it's quality too and Rafferty has no idea where she gets them, but she brings it home and smokes it while drinking scotch and playing canasta and it's probably the most ridiculous thing you've ever seen.
Poker night with Severide, Lindsay, Dawson and Casey… Rafferty is REALLY good.
They never play strip poker. Not ever. Not since the first time Rafferty came to poker night. She robbed them all blind, completely, well except for Shay. When Shay extended the invite Rafferty mentioned that she used to be quite the card shark and when Shay pressed for details Rafferty totally told her about this time in college when she destroyed the other people on her floor at a game of hold em and didn't have to eat cafeteria food for a month because of it. So Shay tells her to keep her mouth shut about it and she promises not to say anything either and then Rafferty just completely wipes the floor with everyone. The best part is, though, that Shay totally could have given her a run for her money because she figures out Rafferty's tell after only like two hands. It's probably because she stares at her face all the time and also that she's become so accustomed to reading her like a book (in brail, with her fingers) she practically has her memorized. But yeah, they never play strip poker. Because they'd rather be robbed of their money than their dignity.
Puppy sitting! Rafferty is puppy sitting and calls Shay to help because she's bored.
Yes, okay, this I can do. Because dog sitting is probably the easiest job there is. Like, you go to someone else's place, take care of their pet, eat their food, and get paid for it. And Rafferty really wants a dog (that's why she used a dog with the runs as an excuse when that attorney was looking for Shay) but because of her job it's really not a good idea because she'd be gone for huge chunks of time and it wouldn't be fair to the pet so when her friends go out of town for a weekend she volunteers to watch their dogs. This weekend it's a pitbull mix and a heeler mix and they're totally awesome. So she takes them for their morning run and makes herself coffee and goes about her routine but it's mid day and she's still restless and so are the dogs so she calls Shay and asks if she wants to go with her to take the dogs to a park and Shay is gives her the runaround but Rafferty knows she's just being lazy and is probably still in bed even though it's after noon. So Rafferty shows up at Shay's with both the dogs and Severide lets her in so she just points them in the direction of Shay's room and they go flying through the door and up onto her bed and after a startled scream Shay just yells out an amused but trying to sound angry "Allison!" and when she makes it to the room she finds Shay sitting up, hair all mussed, with two dogs in her lap and she's just like "well come on then. you're here, you might as well get in too."
Drinking. They just spend a night watching a show they both like and make a drinking game out of it and they end up getting drunk.
They agree to each pick a movie for the other to watch. They don't have to be good or anything, they're just bored and think it would be amusing to see each other's taste in movies. Rafferty goes first as Shay pours them each a whiskey neat. Rafferty picks the silence of the lambs and it's pretty enjoyable but by the end Shay is still pretty bored. She suggests that this time they make it more interesting and make a drinking game out of whatever film she picks. Allison agrees. Big mistake. Huge. Shay decides to make Raff watch a lesbian film and knows exactly which one to pick: "And then Came Lola" It's decent, as far as the niche genre goes but it's the drinking game part it's perfect for. She starts listing the rules for when to drink but saves the best one for last, "Drink every time someone says the name Lola". They shake on the terms and start the film. Four minutes later the film is paused and they're both doubled over in laughter, empty glasses on the table next to them.
planning a party. it's… Severide's birthday and Rafferty promised Shay she'd help set up. Shay is panicking because the guys she rented the keg from are running really late
Onto the party planning thing. I think Rafferty would be there strictly for moral support. Like, she's cool with everyone from the firehouse but she really doesn't know Severide all that well so she made Shay do almost all of the planning and kind of just sat back and made supportive remarks whenever she felt they were needed. When it hits crunch time Shay is the farthest from relaxed Rafferty's ever seen her. People are supposed to get there in an hour and the keg still hasn't arrived and Shay isn't sure when she should put the food in the oven because she doesn't want to wait too long but she also doesn't want it to be cold by the time people get there. Rafferty tries to calm her down, she calls the keg guys and gets their word they'll be there in 30 minutes tops, but she's still running around all frazzled so Rafferty decides distraction is the better tactic and ends up making out with her until the guys show up with the keg. And then again after.
Rafferty's youngest sister comes for a visit and she introduces her to Shay.
Um… Rafferty's little sister is still in college, but they look almost identical. Like creepily so. Shay shows up at Rafferty's early, not realizing her little sister is already there and totally outs her by letting herself in and yelling "Honey I'm home". I mean, she doesn't really out out her because her family has kind of always thought she was gay and she'd told her sister she wanted to introduce her to Leslie but she hadn't explicitly stated that Shay was her girlfriend. So shay walks in and both Rafferties turn around and Shay is like oh, did I ruin the surprise and Allison just sighs and shakes her head and her little sister is just like damn sis you have good taste and shay is just like holy crap there are two of you. And they totally all get along great and Shay actually really latches onto the idea of being an older sister and by the end of the night she's basically adopted mini rafferty as her own sibling and is giving her all kinds of dating/romance tips and Allison is just laughing her ass off and questioning Shay's ability to give advice about guys and Shay is just like shush I'm imparting wisdom and it's just a whole bunch of loving familial hilarity.
Shay meets and older brother!
Shay is terrified of meeting Rafferty's older brother. Like, legitimately terrified. She's not sure why, Raff has told her multiple times that he's super laid back and easy going but Shay still changes outfits three times and keeps trying to sneak drinks when Allison isn't looking. But when he finally gets there Shay relaxes. Because he is sweet and although he's very tall and kind of physically imposing he makes her think of a big ol' teddy bear. He tells her thank you, because he's never seen his sister so happy but he also gives her the you hurt her I hurt you speech. Shay decides she's going to hug him and tells him so and when they do she realizes he really is a big ol' teddy bear.
Something Shay is afraid of and Rafferty thinks it's cute, until Shay almost has a panic attack…
Fucking spiders. Rafferty is completely unphased by them, she's more afraid of things without legs like snakes and fish and eels, but Shay is absolutely terrified. Tiny ones aren't so bad, she can kill those herself but if their bigger than a centimeter or two that's when the trouble starts. She can't get within like 4 feet of them or she starts retching and if she actually has to find a way to kill them (because she's the only one home) she throws up every time. It's a combination of being terrified she might accidentally touch it and the crunching sound it's body makes she smashes it. So Rafferty teaches her how to shoot rubber bands really well. Like the strong thick rubber bands that really snap and have good pull to them. And she teaches her to hit moving targets and now whenever Rafferty isn't there to save her Shay can shoot the spiders from across the room and make someone else clean them up later.
Shay teases Rafferty about her former "homophobia" every time Rafferty teases her about spiders. it's kind of a "aw you're so afraid of the tiny thing" "aw you're so afraid of guys with fashion sense" trade off but it always shuts her up.
Someone in Rafferty's family is not cool with her dating a woman.
It's her mom. It's definitely her mom. Her siblings couldn't care less and her dad has made it clear he just wants her to be happy, but her mom just can't wrap her head around it. She loved Allison's fiancé, was so happy he was going to be her son-in-law, and is completely baffled as to why her daughter would suddenly think she was gay when she was head over heels and set to marry a man just a year before. But Allison brings Shay to family dinner anyway. Her siblings welcome her with open arms, especially the ones who've met her before, and her father sizes her up before nodding his silent approval. Her mom tries really hard to dislike Shay, like really hard, but she just can't do it. Because Shay has a good steady job and a beautiful face and she wants to settle down and have kids some day and there is nothing about her that would indicate she's been or would be bad for her daughter in any way. So when they leave she gives Shay a hug and tells them both to show up again next week if they're not working.