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A Whole New World
Chapter 9: A Hated Feeling
Special guest stars: Tanya Denali and Jacob Black
EPOV
There was something bothering me in my gut.
How did I feel about Bella's engagement? Terrible
Jacob, who I've never met formally, was a basic character. A man Bella would like.
He's gruff, tall, tough, big, shaggy hair, copper skinned, "dreamy and handsome" (Bella's words not mine).
But, I hated it.
I hated the way Bella would sometimes go on rants about Jacob.
"Jacob did this…Jacob did that" she would say. I DON'T CARE ABOUT YOUR JACOB!...I only care about you...I wanted to say that so badly
I realized these past few days, that I was slightly jealous. Okay not slightly jealous tremendously jealous. It was painful this jealousy…it wasn't like when a guy would flirt with Tanya, that was just anger, since Tanya was obviously dating me and it was the fear of being betrayed by her. But jealousy, was something you can't control at all, it was a bitch…
I now comprehend that I like Bella.
Much more than a friend should like another friend.
I felt my phone buzz in my pocket and picked up hoping it would be a beautiful, funny, talented, smart brown eyed girl, but I knew it wouldn't be. She hadn't actually called me since last month.
"Hello" I said as I picked up
"Hey!" said a booming voice from the other end
"Emmett…what do you want?" I said frustrated from the phone call since it had pulled my thoughts away from Bella.
"I was going to invite you to my surprise party tonight" he said slowly
It took a while for me to comprehend what was wrong with that sentence. Wasn't it his surprise party? I thought to myself…I sighed; I don't even want to ask. I mean it was Emmett I'm sure he planned the whole thing himself.
"I don't know Emmett, I'm helping my mom clean out the house" I said quickly, I really wasn't in the mood to go out tonight
"Aw…come on!" Emmett whined
"No, Emmett" I said firmly
…silence…
"Emmett?" I asked thinking he had hung up
"…Bella will be there" Emmett added, probably thinking it would help…it did. I hadn't seen her for a while, what the heck? I'll go.
"Fine, Emmett, maybe" I said and sighed once again
"Yay! Bring Tanya along too!" Emmett cheered into the phone and hung up.
Oh yeah…Tanya…sometimes I would get so caught up in Bella, that I would forget. That I had a girlfriend.
BPOV
Yet another strike…
Flashback to just 10 minutes ago….
Ugh! There are those cowboy guys. Why do I seem to be bumping into them so often? They, once again, made their grand entrance. I sighed, turning my attention to Jacob.
"So tell me about you history" Jacob said while he took a sip of his margarita
"What history?" I asked as I took a sip of mine
"Ya know…boyfriends, crushes…anyone I need to know about?" he asked casually
"Jacob, what's your problem?" I said getting angry now "Your list of girlfriends is longer that your height"
"I'm just wondering, come on! You can trust me" he persuaded
"Jacob, please let's not talk about this" I demanded
"Aw, come one Bella. Anyone?" he asked
"Jacob, let. It. Go" I replied firmly
"Okay, what about your group of friends…anyone…special?" he questioned curiously
I stopped.
"Jasper…" he threw out "Emmett…"
I just shook my head looking at my drink as if it were the most interesting thing in the room.
"Edward." He said quickly while finishing the list of boys in my group of friends
I just looked away, with a small smile playing on my lips. But then it turned into a frown. I wasn't exactly friends with him now, definitely not best friends like we used to be.
"It is Edward, I knew it" he said confidently
I sighed in frustration.
"Yes, it is Edward. But, it's fine. At first everyone thought we were together, but guess what?! We're not! He has a girlfriend and I'm engaged!" I was hysterical now
He just stood there.
"Of course we used to be best friends, but it's seems as though people have their own lives…" I added quietly
He nodded and looked away obviously feeling awkward in the situation.
"Jacob?" I heard a female voice say from behind me…let me guess…one of Jacob's ex-girlfriends?
"Clarisse?"
The pretty women nodded and they hugged…for quite some time…
"Bella this is Clarisse, Clarisse this is Bella" Jacob introduced me to Clarisse
"Hello" I said as politely as possible.
She just smiled and waved slightly.
"Oh! Jacob this is my boyfriend, Nick" she said pointing to the man next to her.
"Hey man" Jacob said as he nodded his head towards him.
"Nice to meet you" Nick replied
"So, Clarisse, dance with me?" Jacob said in a soft voice. I rolled my eyes, of course he was flirting…
"No, Jacob I really should get going" Clarisse said obviously getting uncomfortable.
"Awww…come on. For old times sake. Just one dance" he pleaded while taking her hand
"Let go of her hand" said Nick growling slightly. He really shouldn't have down that.
I saw the glint in Jacobs eye. Uh oh!
"Do you have a problem with that?" Jacob stated the obvious menacingly
"Yeah I do" Nick said smoothly. Bad idea, kid.
Jacob pounced on him and punched him repeatedly. Clarisse ran to saw her loved one. While I just stayed in my seat and turned my head away.
I shook my head taking another sip of my drink.
I didn't care what he did anymore…
End flashback—
"So what I'm still a rock star
I got my rock moves
And I don't need you
And guess what
I'm havin more fun
And now that were done
I'm gonna show you tonight
I'm alright
I'm just fi-"
I quickly picked up my phone, while Jacob was driving the car apologizing about the whole Clarisse thing claiming that he was drunk…then why is he driving? I thought to myself.
"Hello" I said into the phone in a monotone
"Hey Bella! Are you coming to Emmett's surprise party?" Alice asked clearly excited for the party
"Alice, it's late. I'm going home" I said and sighed.
"Come on! You have to come!!!" Alice whined
"No…I've gotto go. I'll call you later. Goodnight" I replied and hung up.
"What's wrong?" Jacob asked while keeping his eyes on the road.
"Nothing, my friend's having a party that's all" I replied
" So…let's go" he said
"No, really it's fine" I said
"Where is it?..." he said
I sighed
"Turn here" I pointed to the next turn.
"Will Edward be there?" he asked. I groaned
"Maybe"
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EPOV
Emmett had just come down the stairs, pretending to be surprised. He wasn't the best actor.
I was still upstairs leaning on the railing with Tanya by my side…
She looked like she wanted to start a conversation, but I wasn't in the mood. I just kept staring at the front door waiting for a miracle to appear.
Suddenly the door opened and in came…the most beautiful girl I'd ever seen. Bella.
She had her had slightly curled and was wearing a simple royal blue dress that made her look…delicious.
I smiled slightly, but it was quickly erased when Jacob Black came through the door. Putting his arm around her waist.
I felt Tanya's stare on me making it uncomfortable for me. I grabbed her hand and walked downstairs to greet the guests.
There was our group of friends around the couple.
"This is Alice, Jasper, the birthday boy Emmett, Tanya, and-" she looked at me for a second before saying my name "Edward"
Jacob took Tanya's hand and kissed it for about thirty seconds before he let go. "Never have I seen such a beautiful lady" he said. I scoffed; obviously he hasn't looked at his own fiancée. I quickly erased the thought, Tanya was my girlfriend, I couldn't think of a friend in that manner.
Jacob, then, looked at me, sizing me up. Probably thinking me of competition, I wished I was competition. However it was already over, there was no way of Bella actually being mine.
"Nice to meet you" I said while holding out my hand, although I had met him before, I hadn't actually formally introduced myself. And I wanted to be polite; I mean this was the man who had Bella for the rest of his lucky life…
He shook my hand firmly while wrapping his stupid arm back around Bella's waist. "I'm Jacob…her fiancée" he added in while kissing her forehead.
"Come on, Bella! Let's dance" Emmett said enthusiastically as he snatched Bella's arm and tried to drag her towards the dance floor.
"Jacob, would you like to dance?" Bella asked sweetly before Emmett could pull her away.
"No, thanks, I don't dance" he said while winking at her.
She looked confused, but shrugged it off.
"Come on Edward, let's dance" she said while walking me to the dance floor. I wasn't in the mood to dance, but might as well please her, by trying to enjoy myself.
"Bella! Do you remember that dance we did and the graduation party?" Alice asked excitedly
"Of course" Bella replied and started to do the funky dance they had made up.
"I want to learn!" Tanya added in, eager to learn it.
"Bella, teach her the dance!" Alice said while screeching as Jasper tickled her.
Bella for a few seconds looked uncomfortable, but nevertheless taught Tanya the combination. But, Tanya being Tanya put her own twist to it, while showing me. I wanted to tell her that was not the way to do it, but instead I just smiled and pretended it was cute.
After a few minutes of dancing there was a sudden song change, it was a slow song this time.
"Bella, this is for you" I heard Jacob say while he walked towards Bella and held her to him, slowly swaying to the music. Eventually we all copied them, swaying as if there was nothing to care about, but yet there was thick tension in the air.
BPOV
I swayed to the music, along with Jacob. And hugged him tight, although he was a tough guy that I knew could protect me, I never actually felt safe in his arms.
The only pair of arms that have actually made me feel protected was Edward…
How I missed his hugs, kisses, presents, kindness. Even if they were all in a friendly way.
I've known for a little while now that I like Edward, it was a few weeks before Jacob proposed. He was helping me re-paint my room. We had gotten into a paint fight and we had everything in a mess. But it was fun. The way he would sometimes put his arms around me and swing me around in a circle. It made me feel safe.
However, I had to get back to reality. I 'loved' Jacob, and he loved Tanya.
After a few moments I locked eyes with him.
It was filled with mourn, guilt, determination, sadness, and a glint of something else, something that was smoldering and hard to look away from. My eyes were on the verge of tears. What was wrong with me?
I hated this feeling that I had. Yet it was pleasant and happy, I didn't know what it was.
Jacob made me break away from Edwards eye contact to look at him, he slowly leaned down and kissed me softly of the lips.
I never really enjoyed Jacobs kisses, but they were relaxing, but not tender and sweet.
I was definitely not in love with Jacob Black.
EPOV
I locked eyes with Bella.
Her eyes were filled with grief and sadness. I felt it was my job to comfort her, but I knew that it was Jacob's responsibility. I felt Tanya look up at me, I didn't care. I couldn't help but stare and Bella.
But then I saw it.
Jacob leaned down and kissed Bella. It felt like one hundred pounds dropped on my shoulder, my eyes grew wide, I couldn't stand it, I didn't think I could hold it much longer.
I couldn't do this anymore, I took Tanya's hand and we left the party.
It was raining. But I didn't care I was numb.
Tanya didn't seem to care either, I just kept walking, my pace fast, I knew Tanya was right behind my from the clacking of her heels.
"Edward…" she whispered
I didn't want to hear it. I didn't want to do this. I needed to take a break from reality.
A/N: Kind of an abrupt ending, but I couldn't write anymore. Sorry!
I'll pick it up next time!!!
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