-Chapter 2: Whisper
YAY! Chapter Two!! Soooâ€special thanks to both Chrissys for betaing this fic! Special thanks to my reviewers, hope to get more of those, and ON WITH THE FIC!
It was December. Sirius and Severus had several more "personal" encounters, but each time, someone distracted them before they could really talk about what this meant.
The Marauders had started a new task that they couldn't really practice in the Shrieking Shack (it would be too noticeable if they kept disappearing off grounds every night), so instead, they used a room that the house elves called the Room of Requirement. They were trying to figure out how to get Remus to be able to turn in and out of a werewolfâ€at will.
This required sacrifices on Sirius and James' parts, as they were strong enough to hold Remus back, if indeed, they did trigger his inner-wolf to come out, and in many trials, they were successful.
Remus gave a loud howl and attacked Sirius (who was in his dog form). James immediately turned into a stag, and held his antlers forward, in case Remus got sick of fighting Sirius.
Remus swiped at Sirius, who ducked, and swiped at Remus and connected with his face.
"Get the potion!" James roared to Peter, who quickly snapped into a rat, and then climbed up on Remus, who (while still a werewolf) was very humanishly nursing his wound. With a quick swift of Peter's paws, he poured a liquid in a small vial down Remus' throat.
He howled loudly and Sirius tackled him to the ground to keep him down.
And then Remus was human. With a crack, Sirius too was human, and laying on top of Remus, both absent of clothing.
James, not noticing the two's absence of words, announced, "Excellent! We've got the potion to make Moony human!" he grinned broadly, and then looked down at his foot, where Peter (as a rat) was starting to doze. "Wormtail, whenever you wish, you may stop squeaking around my shoes."
As James gave Peter a slight kick and laughed as Peter tried to scamper over to his clothes, Sirius gently touched Remus' face. "I hope I didn't hurt you." Sirius whispered.
Remus smiled. "I'm fine now. Plus, this means that I can take a potion and turn into a werewolf whenever I want."
Sirius grinned. "Now you're almost like me."
"Well Sirius, I don't want to be you, I want-"
But Sirius would never know what Remus wanted, for Peter had just transformed back into a human, and James was laughing as Peter modestly tried to put his pants on.
Sirius sighed and rolled off of Remus, and crawled over to his own clothes. Remus quickly did the same. Peter gave a slight questioning look at Sirius and Remus, but then shrugged and put on a shirt.
James, however, was having a hair-messing attack.
"Are you okay there, Prongs?" Sirius asked, looking slightly alarmed.
"Lily agreed to go on a date with me tonight." James said quickly, fixing his hair and then did an action that looked very much like head banging.
Remus smiled. "Prongs, Lily doesn't like you messy hair. You should comb it."
"But if I don't mess it up, it will still stay messy!" James said desperately, now trying to flatten his hair (but was unsuccessful).
Sirius' stomach rumbled. He hadn't eaten since yesterday at dinner. The whole day he had been doing homework and finishing the potion and had no time to eat. So, he announced, "Prongs, I'm really sorry, but I've got to eat. I'm STARVING."
"Do you mind if I join you?" Remus asked.
"No, not at all, Moony." Sirius replied.
The two wished them good luck, and left Peter to help a very helpless James.
"Did you notice anything different back there?" Sirius asked as they walked down the Quidditch field after eating.
"What do you mean? The Great Hall looked normal." Remus replied.
"No. When we were in the room. Not the room itself, but the people in it." Sirius said quickly, blushing slightly.
"James sure was weird, wasn't he?" Remus laughed. "I can only imagine how his date is going."
Sirius laughed too. "And Peter giving Prongs fashion advice is just too funny.
The two laughed harder. Then after some thought, Sirius said, "I do hope Wormtail didn't ruin the date too much."
Remus pursed his lips. "You're right, I wonder what they're doing right now."
Sirius gave a half smile. "Actually, I wasn't asking you about James being weird. It was more about what happened when we turned back to our human selves. What were you going to say?"
Remus was silent. "Sirius, follow me. I want to show you something."
"Remus, don't change the sub-"
"I'm not. Follow me and I'll explain everything when we get there."
And Remus took off, Sirius chasing after him. They ran to the top of a tall hill, out looking the lake, and a half moon reflecting off of the lake.
"Now will you tell me what you were going to say?" Sirius asked with a smile.
"I don't exactly know what to say, but when I saw that you and Snape started to-well, talk, I didn't know what to do. It was like my stomach had turned inside out. It was like when I had seen Amos kissing Olivia, only this one was worse." He paused and said rather quickly, "Do you have feelings for Snape?"
Sirius blinked and in surprise, he said, "No."
Remus smiled and moved in a little closer, their hands brushing up against each other. "I just woke up one morning, thinking about you. I thought you were everything I wanted to be." His eyes burned into Sirius' as he took his hand. "But then I thought about it, and realized that I wanted you, to be with you." Remus admitted.
That was all Sirius needed to hear. He let go of Remus' hands, put them around his neck, and kissed him, the moonlight illuminating their every move.
Sirius walked down the 3rd floor corridor, humming the Salem Witches' latest single, "You've Put a Spell on Me," when he met up with Severus. "Hello Snape." He said as calmly as he could.
"Black, don't you have something else to do besides wandering the hallways?"
"I could say the same for you." Sirius replied. "Ooh, baby, you took my heart with the flick of your wand." He sang.
"What's that?" Severus asked, mortified at the song.
"It's a new song. I can't seem to get it out of my head."
"You must be in a good mood then." Severus commented, attempting to start a bit of a conversation.
"Yep." Sirius gave Severus a smile and continued walking, singing, "Don't you put me right, ooh, you're mine tonight."
"Fine." Severus said. "I guess I'll talk to you later."
"Sounds like fun." Sirius said casually and then sang, "You can't leave me, you've put a spell on me!"
"You know, I'm beginning to worry about you, Sirius." Severus began.
"Don't say that!" Sirius said, looking stricken.
"What's wrong with you today?" Severus exclaimed.
"Nothing! I've never felt better, actually. So justâ€leave me alone." He said, instantly regretting the words coming from his mouth.
"Oh. So we aren't speaking anymore?" Severus asked, trying to keep his voice calm.
"Um." Was all Sirius could say.
"Wasn't I- Didn't we-You-"Severus stuttered.
Then it clicked in Sirius' head. "I-I-I need some time. I'll-get back to you-later" he trailed off and then walked as quickly as he could away.
"Sirius!" Severus yelled, but Sirius kept walking.
"Padfoot? Are you alright?" someone asked.
Sirius lay on his back in the grass, and ignored the voice.
"Sirius Black, I order you to listen to me!" the voice said clearly with a smile.
"Peter, what do you want?" Sirius asked, sitting up.
"Well, I couldn't help but notice the way you were running out here as fast as you could, clumsily, crashing into people and doors. So, I thought I'd come say hi. Oh, and wonder if there's any way I could help your situation."
"Well, hi." Sirius answered.
"Okay, what's the matter? This morning, you were singing, 'You've Put a Spell on Me', which is by far one of the cheesiest songs ever made."
"I thought rats liked cheese." Sirius tried to fight the urge to smile.
"Its commonly misunderstood: Mice and rats don't exactly like cheese, its just that back in the Middle Ages, that was the only thing they had to use to exterminate our race. BUT that's not the point. You look as if you got in a fight with a hippogriffâ€only without the cutsâ€and everything elseâ€except you look terrible" Peter trailed off.
Sirius tried to get the meaning out of these words, but couldn't and finally smiled. "I wish that hippogriff would have torn my face offâ€then I wouldn't have to look anyone in the eye again." He answered rather femininely.
"You want to hide that pretty face?" Peter mocked. "Really, Sirius, what could you have done in order to ruin your mood?"
"I guess I really hurt someone." Sirius admitted.
"Does this have anything to do with you and Moony's newfound relationship?" Peter asked gently.
"How'd you-"
"He was singing that same song this morning, too." Peter replied. "Plus, it was obvious last night when you were about to shag like the dogs you were."
"Wait. You noticed-"
"I may not be incredibly bright, but I'm not stupid." Peter said. "I know all about that stuff. I may not be in a relationship, but I know what makes one."
"Right." Sirius looked at Peter, almost in a new light. He was still the slightly overweight blonde haired boy, but he still looked different. Maybe he never noticed how much Peter had matured, and he had ignored the factsâ€at least up until now. "Well, there's someone else who I'm slightly confused about." Sirius confided, knowing he'd regret this rather (what he'd call) wimpy conversation later.
"I doesn't matter." Sirius replied. "But this person was really hurt when I was less than friendly to them."
"Well, duh." Peter laughed. "Would you be preaches and cream if someone you thought was a friend-or possibly more-ignored you?"
Sirius thought about it. "I know." He said slowly. "But the problem here, is that I think I share those same feelings for that person."
Peter nodded. "I can understand that. But shouldn't you talk to 'that person' about it?"
"I don't know, Pete. I just want to ignore it all and lock myself up in my dorm."
Peter frowned. "But if you do that, I don't think that'll help at all."
"I don't care." Sirius said slowly. "I like both of them, and I don't know what I want. It's like choosing between Chocolate Fudge Brownie ice cream and Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough. You know you'll miss one if you don't get that flavour, but you can't help but wonder what the other one has to offer."
Peter frowned. "I've never heard that analogy before."
"Well, it made me feel better." Sirius answered. "And I guess that's what counts."
"Oh, I don't know which potion I took, but its made me all dizzy, and all I see is you." Remus sang as he passed the Transfiguration room, where Severus had just exited. He gave a curious look at Remus as he shot him a "So-there" look.
"What was that about, Lupin?" Severus asked in disgust.
"You've been thinking you're the one, but you're not." Remus said smugly.
"What's that supposed to mean?" Severus asked, shaking his head.
"You don't have him anymore." Remus said quietly, so only Severus could hear him.
"Who?"
"Sirius." Remus smiled and licked his lips, singing, "Oh now that you've got me, we'll always be together."
"What are you talking about, Lupin?" Severus asked, in a far tighter voice this time.
"Just stay away from him, Snape. Whatever delusion you had in your mind when you started talking to him, ignore it. Its sickening."
"You know what? You're sickening. You told me to stay away-on the train-just so you could get to him, isn't that right?"
"Look, just leave him alone, leave me alone, and we'll all be good. Don't you ever think about doing anything with him, because I'll be watching you closely."
"I don't know what you're talking about. I can't believe you would think that I, of all people-"
"I know you all too well, Snape." Remus answered, and glared at Severus. Then, he walked away.
Only then did Severus take in a loud gasp, and run straight to the Slytherin Tower. There was no way, no possible way that Remus and Sirius had gotten together. There was no way, not when they were THIS close to-no, Remus had to have been joking. But yet, there was that little voice in Severus' head that told him that all this timeâ€it was just a lieâ€just a dreamâ€and would never be realâ€no matter how much Severus had wanted it to be true, not matter how much Severus had longed to hold Sirius just once, it would never happen.
Catch me as I fall
Say you're here and it's all over now
Speaking to the atmosphere
No one's here and I fall into myself.
This truth drives me into madness.
I know I can stop the pain if I will it all away.
If I will it all away.
Don't turn away (Don't give into the pain)
Don't try to hide (Though they're screaming your name)
Don't close your eyes (God knows what lies behind them)
Don't turn off the lights (Never sleep, never die)
I'm frightened by what I see
But somehow I know that there's much more to come
Immobilized by my fear
And soon to be blinded by tears
Fallen angels at my feel
Whispering voices at my ear
Death before my eyes
Lying next to me, I fear.
She beckons me, shall I give in?
Upon my end, shall I begin?
Forsaking all I've fallen for, I rise to meet
The end.
N/A: Excellent! 2nd chapter done! Nowâ€evil grin It gets even more dramatic. What can I say? I'm listening to Evanescence, you can't deny they're a tad dramatic (read the Omlet of Desire by Silver Phoenix 25, there's a brilliant section of Evanescence going bankrupt, so they make great songs specifically for HP ff writersâ€its perfect. If you've got any comments, review or send them to tatubabe2000(at)yahoo(dot)com
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Ashii Black