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Ashii
Chapter 4: Away From Me
Sirius jumped up out of the bed, his mouth open in a silent scream.
"What, you honestly think that the boy could fuck that good?" Severus asked, his eyes shining. "You can't deny that you liked it and you've wanted me since the ride to Hogwarts."
Sirius didn't know what to do. He was in deep shit. "How'd you-who did-what spell?"
"Oh baby, you've put a spell on me." Severus sang and rubbed his still somewhat sore left arm.
"HOW'D YOU DO IT?" Sirius roared.
"A man you'll be hearing a lot about in the near future. See, I've never been too good at glamours. Otherwise, I wouldn't look like I usually do. This man showed me so much. I guess you could say it was a real eye opener."
"What was?"
"Meeting him." Severus grinned. "He told me he could get me anything I've ever dreamed off. He proved that Potter's theory was true. All dreams come true. That's the origin of greed. But I only what two things."
"And what would those be?" Sirius asked in a shaky voice.
"Your boyfriend dead…and you with me." Severus answered calmly.
"What's gotten into you?" Sirius asked. "You're not normally like this…"
He blinked and then Severus' face seemed to transform before his very eyes. No longer was his face hard and had a smirk on it, but his face was confronted in terror and confusion. "Sirius? What happened? I can only recall….oh my god are you okay? Did He hurt you??" Severus asked.
"What? What is going on? One minute you're Remus, the next you turn into your body and act like a jackass, and now you don't know what happened?" Sirius yelled.
" Oh Sirius, I'm so sorry! I promised my soul to Him. I told him I'd do anything for you and – and-" his voice quaked at his confession.
"You'd-do-anything-" Sirius sputtered. "For me?"
"Yes." Severus trembled. "And it was stupid to tell him that. He lied to me, told me things."
"I can't believe that this man thought that I would so easily ignore Remus."
"He possessed me! He used the Imperius Curse on me! I was trying to fight it, I wanted you to love me without you thinking I was Remus! I swear, and I didn't want to hurt you or mislead you, I just told him I wanted to hurt Lupin."
"Why did you-"
"He threatened me. Lupin threatened me and told me to stay away from you." Severus replied in a low voice. "I was angry. I let my emotions take me over. And I didn't mean to do what I did, but I've promised my soul to him and I can't get away. Please Sirius, help me." He begged.
"I-I-what can I do?" Sirius asked.
"I know you don't want me as much as Lupin, but can you pretend? You could save my life."
"What about Remus?" Sirius asked curiously.
"I-I don't know. But will you do it?" he begged.
"I don't know if I can." Sirius admitted. "It'd be really hard and I just can't pretend something like that."
Someone knocked on the door. "Padfoot, are you in there?" James' voice asked.
"Yes, hold on." Sirius glanced at Severus and hissed, "Put your clothes on and hide in the bed. I'll close the curtains."
"Oh god." Severus breathed and his behind the curtains.
"Stay. Still." Sirius ordered, threw on his night gown and opened the door.
"You all alone in there?" Peter asked.
Sirius' voice trembled as he said, "Remus wasn't feeling well. I hope that potion didn't mess him up."
"Well, there was nothing toxic in it." James said. "We've got O's in Potions and we have our own potion stash. I'm pretty sure he'll be just fine."
"I agree. But I just hope nothing like that would ever happen. I'd feel responsible."
"Because we were." Laughed James. "Listen, don't worry about Remus, he'll be fine. And he'll be back soon."
"Look! We've brought food!" Peter exclaimed and a loud thud sounded as something hit the ground.
The boys all dove for it and Severus heard them chomping down food that smelled fantastic.
"Sirius, why are the curtains closed?" Peter asked. Severus' eye twitched.
"I'm working on a little present for Snivellus." Sirius said with a grin in his voice.
"Ah, excellent! Let's see it!" James exclaimed with a great smile on his face.
"No, no, it's a surprise. But I think you'll enjoy it very much."
Severus brushed his hair with his fingers and continued listening.
Peter laughed. "I'd love to see what that scumbag would do with what you've got planned."
"Don't call him a scumbag!" Sirius snapped and a very awkward silence followed, except for a faint squeak from the bed, as Severus had nearly fallen off of it.
"What?" James asked, blinking at Sirius' outburst.
"Scumbag just sounds a little…good for Snivellus." Sirius replied.
"You're right. Peter, you idiot, Snape is so much more than a scumbag. He's also a loser, git, ghost humper-" James started.
"That was funny." Sirius laughed.
Peter seemed to have jumped in happiness at mention of the ghost-humper. "You- you drew him – HUMPING the Bloody Baron-" he choked after every word due to his laughter. "And you – hung it in front of the Great Hall!" Peter fell on the floor.
James looked proud of himself, but Sirius chuckled and said, "Peter, don't wet yourself there. I'd really rather not see a pee spot in this dorm and I'm sure no other students would like it either."
This only made Peter laugh harder. James started laughing at poor Peter, who started choking on his food while laughing and pretty soon, both boys were laughing so hard, they were hiccupping, which only made them laugh harder.
"Come on you two. It isn't that' fu- AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!"
Soon, Peter and James were screaming too. Severus opened the curtains slightly and he too was ready to scream.
Remus' head was of a dog, badly beaten, and seemed to be barely breathing.
"Moony?" James stuttered.
"Is he going to die?" Peter asked as Remus collapsed onto the floor.
"I don't think so. Let's just – Priori Incantem." Sirius said, and the wolf head disappeared.
"Sirius, you said he was sick, but not mangled!" James yelled.
"I- I- I- don't know what happened!" Sirius yelled back.
The three were in such chaos, nothing was being done to Remus. So Severus decided to take action. He transformed into a healthy Remus and opened the curtains.
The three boys gasped. "Who are YOU?" Peter asked.
"You have no need to know who I am, only that I am here to make your friend look as healthy as me again. This man has been badly damaged by the darkest of the arts. He must be tended to quickly or he will fade into death." Severus said calmly. "Now, will you allow me to help?"
Peter jumped back, James looked at Sirius' bed curiously, and Sirius was looking at Severus as if he was nothing short of a god.
He muttered a few spells, replaced Remus' missing blood, healed his wounds, and began trying to figure out what else was wrong. "Inervate." He whispered, and Remus shot up.
While James and Peter didn't know who Severus really was and while Sirius knew who he was but couldn't find a trace of him, Severus was pretty sure that Remus saw him perfectly. A look of disgust spread to his face. "You did this." Remus hissed.
Severus froze. "No, I didn't, you great prat. I just saved your life."
"What sort of game are you playing at?" Remus yelled. "I told you to stay away!"
Severus glanced at Sirius for a cue for help. Sirius just sort of glanced back at him. Remus got his wand out and held it to Severus' throat. "Never bother us again. I'm not like James or Peter, or even your precious Sirius. When I'm angry at someone, they pay. And I've NEVER been this angry before."
Severus whipped out his wand as well and in a swift movement, he too had his wand to Remus' throat. "Drop your wand." He hissed. "I saved you only because you matter to him."
He stared at Severus, trying to decide what to do.
"Put the wand down." Severus said.
A hand touched Remus. "Remus, this man saved you." Sirius said.
"You know EXACTLY why he saved me. To save his own skin."
"But he could have walked away." Sirius said. "And he's not afraid to kill you."
"I'm not afraid to kill him!" Remus yelled.
"I don't believe that." Severus snarled. "You could never take another human's life."
"Please, both of you, drop your wands." Sirius begged. "Remus, he saved you, and you," he turned to Severus, "your work here is done."
Severus wrinkled his nose and Remus bit his lip. They both lowered their wands, and for a moment, it seemed as though they would tackle each other, but they stood back.
"No go back to where you came from. I would like to speak with you at midnight. You'll know where to find me. Remus, I will explain all of this. James and Peter, forget this ever happened. Obliviate!" Sirius yelled, and James and Peter blinked blankly.
"Severus, I will talk to you soon. Please be by the Whomping Willow at midnight. I will talk to you later then." Sirius said in Severus' head, so only he could hear it.
Remus stared at Severus as he turned and walked away, and Sirius grabbed Remus' hand and dragged him over to a one-eyed witch's statue. "Dissindium" Sirius whispered and the witch moved out of the way to show a hole. They went through the hole, closed the door, and sat down.
"Explain to me why Snape was here." Remus said quietly.
Sirius sighed. "He was incredibly angry at what you had told him, talked to some wizard who said he could get him anything if he would promise allegiance to him."
Remus blinked. "WHAT?"
"He hasn't done it yet…at least, I don't think he has, but this man possessed him and then transfigured him to look like you."
"And – what did he do to you?"
Sirius shook his head. "I saw right through the disguise" he lied. "He went very weirdish and then the man disappeared. He turned back into himself and then begged for help."
"Something about Snape and begging in the same sentence doesn't sound right." Remus said.
"He's actually a very sad and depressed boy, Remus. Don't be so hard on him."
"What did you do after he begged for help?" Remus asked, staring at him suspiciously.
"I did the only thing I could do. Listen. This man he's been dealing with burned a tattoo into his arm. I don't think this is the last we'll hear of him."
"No, it probably is just the first we'll hear about this man. Did Snape tell you what his name was?" Remus asked.
"No, he didn't." Sirius said thoughtfully.
"Well, there has been an increase of Dark activity in the wizarding world, according to the Prophet." Remus said thoughtfully. "You think this man has anything to do with that?"
"I think so. If he's gotten Snape into this, no doubt he's got my cousin or anyone else that's in his little group interested in joining." Sirius added.
"Definitely. You think its time to do some research?" Remus asked.
"On this man?"
"Yes, I'm sure we could narrow it down to about five people: manipulative, evil, and incredibly insane."
"That's half the Slytherins." Sirius said dully. ""We'll never find out who he is."
"Oh yes we can. We've got Snape. Get him to give you information."
"Do you mean just – use him?" Sirius asked, staring at Remus.
"You don't care about that, do you?" Remus asked innocently.
"Well, it sounds as if I'd have to pretend to like him or something."
"What he doesn't know won't hurt him." Remus replied.
"But that's the thing…I think it would." Sirius answered. "If he finds out I'm only being nice to him – "
"Since when did you care about his feelings?" Remus demanded.
Sirius glanced at Remus guiltily. "Since last year, when I learned he wasn't the heartless bastard we thought he was."
Remus stared at him. "So last night was just a lie?"
"No! Never!" Sirius went to touch Remus' hand, but he backed away.
"Make up your mind, Sirius. I know you'll choose the right one, but do it soon, because I may not be able to wait. I need to go finish my essay on vampires. Have a good evening."
"Remus, please!" Sirius called, but Remus took no noticed of him.
He checked his watch. It was 12:01 AM and he was as close to the Whomping Willow as one can get without the Whomphing Willow doing what it was named for, and Sirius was no where in sight.
Severus sighed and sat down, wondering where Sirius was.
His mind flashed to the more intimate time in the Griffindor Tower. Every stroke, every kiss. It was perfect, exactly how he wanted to it be. But there was just one problem…it wasn't him who Sirius wanted to be with at that moment. It wasn't his name Sirius kept calling out during their lovemaking. It was Remus Lupin.
Severus thought about Remus' warnings. He had a feeling that Remus' hatred for him wasn't fully directed to he and Sirius' relationship. No, there had to be another reason, something he had no idea about. And the main problem was that Remus was the less hated of the Quartet, the nickname most Hogwarts students gave the four of them. He and James had hated each other since they had first met. Peter annoyed him – he was incredibly clingy. Probably a great guy, just not too good at doing things himself…well, perhaps masturbation was an exception, but overall, he couldn't do things himself. Severus had hated Sirius just as much as James, sometimes even more; he had betrayed the Black family. Bellatrix and Regulus were quite saddened to know that Sirius had no interest in hating Mudbloods or marrying a Pureblood.
But he remembered the very day he had silently fallen into the prefects bathroom.
He hit his head and was too dizzy to pull himself out of the water. Right before he passed out, he saw a boy standing over the water. He felt someone jump in, and then he woke up to someone smacking him.
Sirius had given him rescue breathing, because he hadn't been breathing when Sirius pulled him out of the water. He was panting when Severus had woken, as if he had really worked hard to save his life.
Severus had been incredibly embarrassed. For a while, he was completely silent until Sirius spoke up. "Are you okay?" he asked, still breathing rapidly.
He had managed to find his voice. "Would I tell you if I wasn't?"
Sirius' face turned red. "Fine. I'll remember that next time you need your ass saved-"
Severus couldn't stand it. "No – Black, I'm okay. Thanks…for saving me. You didn't have to do that."
And it went on from there. Severus remembered that they had talked for hours, spilling out everything on their minds. They had clicked so well, both were shocked at it. They had agreed to go meet again sometime.
It was completely silent. No one was coming, and it was nearly one o'clock. Why did he think Sirius would be any different after tonight?"
He blinked. Sleep was starting to take him over. Before he fell over and got lost in his dreams, a single tear fell down his cheek.
I hold my breath as this life starts to take its toll
I hide behind a smile as this perfect plan unfolds
But oh, God, I feel I've been lied to
Lost all faith in the things I have achieved
And I
I've woken now to find myself
In the shadows of all I have created
I'm longing to be lost in you
(away from this place I have made)
Won't you take me away from me
Crawling through this world as disease flows through my veins
I look into myself, but my own heart has been changed
I can't go on like this
I loathe all I've become
Lost in a dying world I reach for something more
I have grown so weary of this lie I live
I've woken now to find myself
In the shadows of all I have created
I'm longing to be lost in you
I have woken now to find myself
I'm lost in shadows of my own
I'm longing to be lost in you
Away from me.
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Ashii