Okay so I got a lot of hits on these past two chapters, but pleasepleaseplease leave reviews! And please review respectfully. I got an anonymous review bitching about Severus being beat up in chapter one and Bellatrix not being the same age as the Mauraders.
PLEASE REMEMBER THAT I WROTE THIS FOUR YEARS AGO!!!!!! Of course it's not correct because HBP and DH hadn't even come out yet! However, I felt as if it was a good enough story to take the time to post up here. Not to mention…three of the characters are homosexual…you want to tell me that's incorrect too?
But Lexa, thank you for your criticism/inability to identify yourself. I do appreciate your concern but um…sod off.
Thanks Archea! Its been 3 or 4 months, since I last updated, sorry bout that but school has been rather hectic.
ON WITH THE FIC
Chapter 5: Lies
"Sit there and tell me that you went to bed early." Bellatrix ordered when Severus entered the room. She was sitting on his bed, as if scouting to find out where he had been.
"I was out." Severus said calmly. "I don't need you pretending that you're my mom."
She laughed. "Well, you sure as hell need one. What does your mom do again? Prostitution?"
That hit a nerve. "Shut up about my mother, Bella. Look what your cousin is: a traitor." He spat, more hurt about Sirius not showing up than "The Most Ancient and Noble House of Black".
Bellatrix stood up abruptly. "As far as I'm concerned, the only cousin I have is dear Regulus." And since when did you start caring about that filthy little blood traitor?"
"Since now." Severus shot back.
"One of these days, Severus, I will show you who Bellatrix Black really is."
"I'm sure you will. Why not now? Is she too scared?"
Just as both took their wands out, Rodolphus walked in. He stopped dead in his tracks upon seeing Bellatrix and Severus looking ready to kill each other. "What are you two fighting about?" he asked.
Bellatrix laughed. "Something not worth it, but entertaining nonetheless."
Severus sighed and dropped his wand. "Bella, just leave it be and quit asking me questions I'll never answer."
"Fine. I'll figure it out myself." She replied hotly and stormed off.
Rodolphus glanced at Severus. "Do I even want to ask? Where were you last night, anyway?"
Severus sighed, and began to tell the best lie he had ever come up with. "I've been getting these strange love letters from someone, and I don't know who. In the most recent letter, they told me that they wanted to meet me by Hagrid's hut. I sat down just outside the Forbidden Forest, waited, and fell asleep waiting. As far as I know, the person never showed up."
Rodolphus laughed. "So you refused to tell Bella and she got angry?"
"Well, yeah. Then, we started insulting each other's families, but that's the general idea, yes." Severus replied.
Rodolphus smiled. "You know how Bella is. Her parents didn't call her Bella Fire for nothing." He grinned at Severus.
Severus laughed. "Whatever. I just lost my temper. I stayed up late last night for nothing. I really need to sleep." He confessed.
Rodolphus shook his head. "You know, Muggles are trying to prove that lack of sleep is unhealthy."
Severus laughed. "Muggles are just so stupid!"
"Yeah they are." Rodolphus agreed. "So, are you going to find out who that person is?"
"If they send me another letter, I'll try and trace the handwriting." He replied.
"You mean you don't have the other ones?" Rodolphus asked.
"No, I threw them away. They were really stupid." Severus replied.
Rodolphus nodded. "Anyone who sends Secret Admirer notes aren't going to be too bright."
"But I'll be sure to tell you if I get another one. Then we can trace them to the person. I'm very angry that the person didn't show up. Otherwise, I wouldn't care."
"I agree." Rodolphus replied, half listening. His eyes had fallen over to out of the window.
"What are you looking at?" Severus asked. He walked over to the window and looked out. "Geez, they don't waste any time, do they?"
Lily and James were making out by the fountain. Sirius and Remus were sitting near them, talking quietly, and Peter was talking to Barty.
"Do they have to make out in front of everyone?" Rodolphus groaned.
"Well, of course they do! Potter would do anything to show the school what he has, just to prove he gets whatever he wants!" Severus said rather passionately.
"Forgot how much you hated him, Sev." Rodolphus said, with a smile playing at his lips.
"I hate them all." He commented.
"You have a lot of anger." Rodolphus said.
"Course I do. Do you have any idea what they've done to me? They hang me in the air like a flag!" Severus said, trying to keep his cool.
"Yeah, I guess they can be pretty cruel to you. I guess you just have to man up and actually fight them next time." Rodolphus said, rolling his eyes.
"You know they follow me. They just love to make my life miserable. No matter what I try, I can't seem to get them to leave! I can't stop thinking about him! He's everywhere! He's haunting me, Rodolphus." Severus said, making a Freudian slip.
"Who?" Rodolphus asked.
"HIM!" Severus yelled, completely losing it. "He's everywhere, his fancy hair, with his many girlfriends, effortless good looks, showing off with his little friends! I thought he was different, but no. That was just a lie."
Rodolphus blinked. "Okay Sev, out of respect for our friendship, I'm going to pretend you didn't say any of that. You think we could get Evans to dump Potter?"
"It would just make a big scene and it would inflate his large head." Severus replied.
"Taking that literally, it could work."
"I wonder how we would go about breaking up Lupin and Black." Severus replied.
"They do act quite gay, don't they? I would love to see them apart."
Severus grinned. "So would I."
"Well, what are we going to do?" Rodolphus asked. "Let's get started on it!"
Severus laughed. "Okay, let's do this."
Sirius sighed. He couldn't even show his face to him last night. And how could he? Remus had asked him to lie last night, and he couldn't do that. Not to mention, he and Severus had had mad passionate sex. What was he supposed to say? Oh, sorry, I thought you were my boyfriend. I still want to be friends though.
The words sounded stupid even in his head.
He sighed again and glanced at James, who seemed to be shining. His hair was at his messiest, and had this stupid grin he couldn't take off. He seemed to be humming a very familiar song.
"Prongs, will you cut that out?" Remus asked, raising his head from out of his book and putting on his glasses.
"Oh, you've put a SPELL on me." James sang horribly off-key.
"Where'd Wormtail go?" Sirius asked, looking up from his parchment.
"He was talking to Crouch when I last saw him. He probably got him to do his homework or something?" Remus replied casually.
"You mean you didn't give him your homework?" Sirius asked in mock-shock.
"He didn't ask for it." Remus answered.
The tension between the two was like ice. Sirius was trying to be calm about it, but Remus was full-out ignoring him. James didn't notice it, at he was too busy flying on cloud nine. And, of course, Sirius could never talk about this to James. To top it off, Peter wasn't there. Great. Just great.
Sirius stretched out on the bench in front of the fountain. "Guys, I'm going to leave. I can't concentrate out here." He said, and stood up.
James smiled. "See you."
Remus nodded and went back to his book. Sirius grabbed his things and walked down the stairs to where the Whomping Willow was. It seemed different, Sirius could smell it. Other people had been here.
He glanced around to make sure no one was there, and transformed into a dog.
Sirius curled up by the tree, and nuzzled the flowers. He sneezed and then laughed (as much as a dog can laugh). It felt good to not have all of his human emotions.
He sniffed the air. Someone was coming. He stood still and began to clean himself.
Severus walked down the steps and froze when he saw the large dog looking straight at him. Severus was terrified of dogs, as he had been attacked by one when he was younger.
But this dog ran up to him, wagging its tail. It sat down in front of him, staring up at him innocently.
Severus smiled and said, "Move it."
He walked down by the rock he had slept on the night before and realized the dog had followed him. "Get away. I don't have any food for you."
The dog sat down next to him and lowered its head as if to say, "Scratch my head."
Severus very cautiously did so, and the dog closed its eyes in happiness. "Where'd you come from, anyways?"
The dog gave him a blank look. Severus smiled. "Guess you can't tell me. But you're a beautiful dog, who'd abandon you?"
The dog barked. Severus figured it was his imagination, but it sounded as if he had said, "Remus."
"What was that?" he asked.
The dog put its head in his lap. "You're probably lonelier than I am, to have chosen me as a friend." Severus said sadly, petting the dog.
It looked up at him with a pitiful face, and then licked his cheek. Severus blinked. "What's your name, anyways? You seem to be a male dog, so I'll call you Orion." He smiled.
The dog seemed to have shaken his head in amusement.
"You do realize how much you act like a person, don't you?" Severus asked.
Orion barked. "Oh well." Severus said. "Do you want to come home with me?"
Sirius froze and then nodded, wagging his tail extra hard.
"Well, let's go. I'm going to sneak you in." Severus muttered a charm, gently held onto the scruff of Sirius' neck, and led him away.
Sirius realized that he was invisible, as no one was paying any attention to him. Severus led him up to several flights of stairs, and then to a portrait of a scary looking ghost. "Sevitas Maleficum." Severus whispered, and the portrait swung open.
He walked up stairs to his dorm, and sat on his bed. Sirius sniffed his hand and sat on the floor in front of him.
Regulus and Rabastan walked in to the room. They stared at the dog. "What's that?" Regulus asked.
"A giraffe. It's a dog, dumbass." Severus responded, rolling his eyes.
Regulus stared at him dumbfounded. "You own a dog?"
"I thought you were scared of them." Rabastan said.
"I am, but this one is friendly. He came right up to me and put his head in my lap. Plus, he's not one of those wussy little yapping dogs. This one seems well trained and not violent."
Sirius barked. Regulus and Rabastan smiled. "That's a big dog. How are you going to keep him fed and watered?" Regulus asked.
Severus blinked. "Well, I found him near the Forbidden Forest. Maybe I could keep him there?"
"That might work." Rabastan said. "He is a pretty good-looking dog. Come here boy!" he called.
Sirius stayed put next to Severus.
"Wow, he's loyal too. I hope you can tear him away from you." Regulus commented.
Rabastan ignored him. "I'm sure he's just being a stubborn ass." He moved forward to pet Sirius.
Sirius growled quietly as Rabastan came near him. He backed away behind Severus. "I don't think he likes you very much." Severus commented.
"Whatever. He's just a dog." Rabastan muttered, clearly wounded.
Sirius growled louder. Severus sighed. "I think I need to take him outside."
He led Sirius out of the room, and whispered, "Don't let them give you a hard time."
Sirius looked at him softly and followed him. As they passed James and Remus, Sirius quickly took off so they wouldn't see him. Severus laughed and chased after Sirius.
People began to point at Severus and admire his dog. "Snape, where'd you get the dog?" a boy asked.
Severus smiled. "I found him." He replied and kept running.
Sirius barked and ran over to the rock by the Whomping Willow and sat down. Severus bent down. "I'll be here later tonight to pick you up. Stay here or come back at sunset. Do you understand what I'm trying to say?"
Sirius nodded. Severus smiled. "You act like such a human…" he said and walked away.
As soon as Sirius made sure Severus wasn't there, he transformed into a human, grabbed his robes, slipped them on, and ran to the Griffindor Tower.
"Hello stranger. Where have you been?" James asked, looking up when Sirius came into the Common Room.
Sirius flushed. "I've been doing a lot of walking lately." He replied.
Remus glowered at him. "Alone?"
Sirius laughed. "What do you think?"
James grinned. "Who's the lucky girl this time?"
"James-no-I haven't been walking with anyone!"
"Sure." James grinned. "Maybe walking is too vague of a word. What lucky girl have you been snogging and god knows what with?"
Sirius' eyes widened. "No one." He answered firmly.
"Prongs, leave him alone." Peter spoke up as James opened up his mouth to make another comment.
James looked stunned. "What?"
Peter sighed. "Clearly, Padfoot doesn't want to talk about it. There's a reasoning behind it. While I personally don't know the reason, there has to be one." He answered.
Remus blinked and turned to James. "Did he just make a good point?"
James stared at Peter. "He did…and Peter, where have you been, anyways?"
Peter turned as red as Sirius was. "Doing-homework." He stuttered.
"With pencils or hands-on?" James asked, grinning.
It took Peter a while to get the joke. "NO! Like, actual homework. The Ravenclaws have an archive of assignments, essays, and finals to help study or copy off of." He replied nonchalantly.
"Why haven't we got an invitation to use them?" James asked, offended.
"Probably because they hate us." Remus replied.
"Yes, but they apparently like Peter." Sirius responded.
"Maybe Peter's smarter than he looks." Remus answered.
"No, he's the same Peter." James finished.
"I love you guys too." Peter said, slightly confused.
James grinned. "Sorry Wormtail, couldn't resist talking about you."
Peter nodded and started writing. James stared at him. "Are you really doing homework?" he asked in amazement.
Peter looked put off. "Of course. Why else would I have my textbook opened to chapter 9?"
James shook his head. "Padfoot, we're going to have another Moony in the group if this keeps up."
Sirius shifted uncomfortably. "Maybe. At least we would have two people to copy off of when we decide to blow of assignments."
"Ooh excellent idea. That's what you're best at, Sirius. Always thinking about what's ahead."
Sirius smiled. "Does that make me a prophet?"
Remus then spoke up, several hours of rage finally coming out. "No, it makes you a liar. You tell lies to yourself until you get what you want. It's a greed. Lie until you're safe from yourself, and it doesn't matter who you hurt in order to get there."
Sirius flared up. "Who's the liar? Look at what you wanted ME to lie about!" Sirius exclaimed. "To pretend to care about someone who cares about me, and then squash all of his feelings! How can you say that I'm the liar?"
"If you didn't care about Snape, you couldn't care about lying to him!" Remus hissed.
James blinked. "What the f-"
"You're just jealous!" Sirius roared. "You're jealous that I've got choices! Well guess what, Remus? The joke is on you. I fucked him last night!"
Remus froze. Peter spilled his ink all over his paper and James laughed. "You've got to be kidding me."
Sirius turned to him. "I wish I was."
A voice in Sirius' head began to speak. "Lie to me" urged the voice of Severus. "Humor me and meet me by the Quidditch field in an hour."
~End of Chapter 5~
Bound at every limb by my shackles of fear
Sealed with lies through so many tears
Lost from within and persuing the end
I fight for the chance to be lied to again
You will never be strong enough
You will never be good enough
You were never conceived in love
You will not rise above
They'll never see
I'll never be
I struggle on and on to feed this hunger
Burning deep inside of me
But through my tears breaks a blinding light
Birthing a dawn to this endless night
Arms outstretched, awaiting me
An open embrace upon a bleeding tree
Rest in me and I'll comfort you
I have lived and I died for you
Abide in me and I vow to you
I will never forsake you
N/A: I'm getting angsty on your ass! It just seemed as if the fic was getting a little to happy. And come on, I just want everyone to be miserable and sad by the end of this.
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~Ashii