Chapter Two
It was weeks after that, did I start noticing the subtle changes my body was undergoing. Unbeknownst to me, I was pregnant. I took a test, then another, and finally a third one. All of them said I was pregnant.
I freaked out. I was alone at the time; all of the Cullen's went hunting, so I had time to think about it. I thought long and hard about it, and I came to the decision to keep the baby. It was my baby, Edward's baby and mine. Something we created together, and I knew that no matter how Edward reacted I was going to keep my baby.
Alice must have had a vision because Edward came jolting up the stairs after a couple of hours. She must have seen my breakdown.
" Bella! Are you alright?" He took me into his arms, and held me tightly.
" I'm fine Edward." I reassured him. " Though- I," I started to tell him, but the look on his face, expectant and full of love, changed my mind. " I missed you madly." I said smoothly, full of admiration. He smiled an apology and kissed me deeply.
I sighed sadly before falling into the kiss.
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I had felt terribly guilty for not telling him the truth. It wasn't like I lied to him because I had missed him madly. But it wasn't what I needed to tell him. What I needed to tell him was far too important for me to put off. We'd only been going out for a few months when we made love.
I knew that I'd have to tell him soon, or else Alice might see it, and tell him, before I got a chance to. I just had to do it at a spur of the moment. I didn't pick a specific date, just in case Alice got some visions.
Then the day in the meadow happened. The day before school started, and I still hadn't gotten around to telling him. I was terrified of how he would react. I knew he loved me, but did he love me enough? Enough to let me keep a baby?
I didn't know how to say it so I just blurted it out.
" Edward." I started out, taking a deep breath before continuing. " I'm pregnant." I waited for his reaction. He froze in his movement, his eyes straying down to my stomach, which was a little bigger than before, since I had kept this from him for so long, and he released the air in his lungs.
" W-what?" His voice wavered and it was hoarse.
" I'm sorry." I said right away. Why was I apologizing? Because I was carrying our love child, or because I hadn't told him? Which ever it was I was apologizing.
" I- I don't know what to say Bella." He stuttered over his hoarse words. His eyes had turned black, and he lithely stood up, before running into the woods. He just left me there. In our meadow, miles from his car. I don't remember much after that, though I do remember calling his name with tears streaming down my cheeks.
Of course he would leave me. Of course he would leave me. That's all I could think. " He's gone." I found myself saying. How could Edward love someone like me? He couldn't, and I knew that now. Somewhere I'd know it, somewhere in the back of my mind. It had been a nagging thought, just sitting there, waiting to prove me wrong.
I faintly remember someone calling my name but I didn't respond, I just sat there in a daze before I finally remember losing consciousness.