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Brooklyn struggles to come to terms with her actions as she confides in someone….

"Brook, are you alright my angel?" Concern laced Castiel's voice as Brooklyn quickly thought of an answer.

"I'm alright, Cas, I just couldn't sleep as I had a nightmare and woke up drenched in sweat so I decided to clean up before coming back to bed." Her voice slightly trembled as Brooklyn hoped her angel wouldn't question her answer. To her relief he didn't but she heard a shuffling sound behind her causing her to spin around colliding with Castiel. His blue eyes reaching around her heart as he tilted his head at her seeing his angel's face twisted in an expression of shame. But why did he think that?

Brooklyn stood before her angel feeling his angelic essence surround her as she involuntarily averted his gorgeous blue depths. She didn't deserve him, not after what she did with Aiden; she deserved to be thrown straight into Hell. Here before her was this pure innocent being that held nothing but the purest unconditional love and devotion for her and she repaid his undying love by sleeping with Aiden. She didn't even deserve to be alive, she felt so dirty and tainted after what she did.

The dark haired seraph gently took her in his arms holding her tightly against his body feeling the torment and self loathing she harbored towards herself. He gently kissed her forehead hoping she would open up to him as Brooklyn knew she could tell him anything as that was what soulmates were. They were confidantes, friends and lovers making the other feel whole.

"Brook, what is really wrong? Please tell me, my angel. I want to help you…" Castiel pleaded with his angel to open up to him but was met only with the sound of her soft sobs.

Forgive me Father for I have sinned….

I have deceived the one I call Castiel, soulmate and lover….

Brooklyn repeated the pleas for forgiveness over and over in her mind as Castiel held her in the shower. The seraph suspected it had something to do with the events surrounding their kidnapping and sale to Judas and her subsequent captivity. Castiel could only wonder what was going through her mind as she held tight to him.

"Please forgive me, my angel…" she murmured into his chest. Castiel gently tilted her chin upward looking into those pale sad orbs feeling his heart aching at the sight of his angel so despondent and depressed.

"Did you say something, Brook?" He tenderly asked as she slowly shook her head before closing her eyes and leaning back into his warm body. They remained interlocked in one another's arms until the water began to turn cold. Castiel quickly stepped out retrieving a towel to dry Brooklyn off. The young angel braced against Castiel allowing him to lovingly dry her wet skin feeling his lips pressed against her skin as he moved the towel upward. Brooklyn fought to plaster a smile on her face only able to crack one side of her mouth upward when her angel's eyes met hers. Castiel went to retrieve some clean clothes for her returning with her favorite shirt and pants.

Letting him dress her and lead her back to their room, Brooklyn settled within Castiel's loving waiting arms feeling his dark wings lightly touch her skin as she prayed for sleep to come soon shivering despite being wrapped in her angel's warm embrace. Castiel felt the young angel tremble within his strong hold and slowly pulled his own larger frame against hers until she went quiet and soon fell asleep.

The seraph leaned over kissing the top of her head and snuggled in closer to her.

"Goodnight, my love…" Castiel sighed as he too fell into a deep slumber.

As Brooklyn slept a troubled sleep, Aiden was standing back in the clearing where only hours ago they had spent their last time together. The vampire could still pick up the faint scent of Brooklyn as he sat down looking upward towards the starlight sky before looking to the Earth keeping his gaze fixed there as he spoke.

"Please do not let what happened destroy Brooklyn and Castiel for they are soulmates and truly deserve to be together. I know I could have stopped but in a moment of weakness and vulnerability we wronged not only Castiel but everyone else as well. I will continue to honor my promise and remain at a distance but that will not stop me from loving the angel."

The sound of heavy footsteps caught the vampire's ear as he turned around to see who it was that approached him.

"You are the last one I expect to find here."

"I couldn't sleep so I went for a walk, now tell me what you are doing here, Elder" Brady demanded training his gun on the vampire. Aiden remained seated and vulnerable as Brady inched closer never taking his eye off the Elder.

"If you were going to kill me you would have done it already. So tell me, Braden, why have you not given me a one way ticket straight to Hell yet?" Aiden turned meeting the hunter's hard stare then looked back at the ground. Brady slowly replaced his gun back in the waistband of his shorts as he cautiously approached the Elder.

"If I told you, Aiden, you wouldn't believe me."

"Try me, Braden, for after tonight nothing would surprise me." Brady was taken aback by the tone of the vampire's voice as he detected sorrow in Aiden's voice. The vampire turned his head to look up at the hunter as if to ask if he was going to sit or not. Brady sat his taller form across from the Elder resting his head on top of his interlaced fingers.

The hunter and vampire merely looked at one another until Aiden stood and faced Brady before leaving.

"Braden, would you do something for me? Be there for Brooklyn as she is in much turmoil right now and I am to blame." Aiden turned to take his leave as Brady continued to sit there watching the Elder sulk away until he blended in with the Arizona night.

Brady sat there thinking about what Aiden said. Well of course he was to blame; after all he did hurt her by whipping her and then damn near turned her! But then as he continued to think about it, Brady also realized it was the manner to which Aiden had spoken to him. It was as if the vampire felt guilt over what he had done like he was feeling remorse. But there was something else that Brady had detected in the vampire's speech, something that he tried to mask but failed in doing so.

Aiden was in love with his best friend! Brady stood running back to the house as Aiden was right about one thing: Brooklyn would need him.

The sun peeked through the curtains streaming into the room landing upon Castiel's face causing the seraph to awaken. Looking over he saw Brooklyn still fast asleep in his embrace as he gently pulled her hair from her face and kissed her on the lips before gently pulling his arm away and rising from the bed as not to disturb her. Her face held an expression of one at peace bringing a soft smile to the angel's face.

Brady was seated in the kitchen as Castiel joined him at the table. Brady had decided not to tell the angels about his encounter with Aiden last night and what he had found out. They had enough to deal with right now with the coming showdown against Lilith and they needed to focus on that and not worry about the Elder. He looked up to see the angel looking back at him as if he was going to say something.

"Everything alright, Cas?"

"I am not sure, Brady. Last night I found Brooklyn in the shower and she did not seem like herself."

"What do you mean she didn't seem like herself? Was she sick? Was she hurt?"

The angel shook his head as he ran his fingers through his unruly dark hair feeling frustrated that his beloved angel refused to open up to him. She never kept anything from him.

"Brooklyn looked anguished and she felt shame like she had committed some great sin. Has she said anything to you, Brady?" Bright blue orbs pleaded with the hunter as Brady sadly shook his head feeling as if he had let his friend down. Brady kept his suspicions to himself as the pieces began to come together for the young hunter. He only hoped that the picture it would create was not what he was predicting it to be.

The sounds of soft footsteps trekked down the hall but stopped when the hunter's and angel's voices could be heard coming from the kitchen. Brooklyn listened in to the clandestine conversation.

"Cas, you know Brooklyn has been through a rough time to say the least. Being kidnapped and sold like cattle can take a toll on anyone. Then to top it all off she was at the cruel hands of Aiden and you weren't exactly a guest at Club Med yourself. You are her soulmate, Cas, and you have seen all the shit she has been put through within the last year. First the whole Dean saga; then Samael got his damn hands on her and let's not forget what Aiden did to her before this recent turn of events. I know her and she is fighting to deal with this on her own terms. But, Cas, continue to be there for her because she will come around. She always has right?"

The angel nodded his head. "But, Brady, she was fine when we went to bed last night. Brooklyn had never been so happy. Well, except for that night in February when I planned that surprise for her…"

Brady shot up a hand. "Before you delve into any details of that little fun filled night, let's get back to the subject. You said she was fine last night, right? But when you woke up she was in the shower and upset. Did she say anything?"

"She said she had a nightmare and woke up drenched in sweat. Brooklyn said she wanted to shower before going back to bed. Why? Do you think the nightmare has anything to do with her behavior?" Brady nodded his head with lips pressed tight for he knew what the nightmare was: Aiden. He knew the vampire's presence was no coincidence and he had something to do with her strange mood.

What the Hell did you do to her, Aiden!? Brady silently thought as he took another drink of his coffee.

"What it had to do with her actions last night, I am not sure, Cas. But I think I may know what or rather who the nightmare was about." The last words slowly leaving his lips seeing the angel's eyes go wide over what Brady was implying.

"Aiden." Castiel simply stated. Brady kept his mouth shut knowing if he told the angel about his late night run in with the Elder it would only upset him.

"Brady, you don't think Aiden has something to do with all this, do you? He swore with blood that he would never come near her again upon punishment of death. I knew Aiden before Judas tainted him and he was always a man of his honor. But once he was tainted with Judas' blood, the door was opened for Aiden to be manipulated by the Betrayer along with the other four Elders."

It was then Brady realized that Aiden was there on his own accord to warn the hunter that Brooklyn needed help; his love and support for his best friend. Aiden was risking death by doing this out of love for the angel.

Brooklyn quietly shuffled into the bathroom turning on the shower hoping to wash away any more traces of her night with Aiden. The familiar anguish rising within her as she once again recited her prayer for forgiveness of her deception.

Forgive me Father for I have sinned…

She harshly scrubbed her body several times over knowing it would never wash away the shame and guilt she felt eating away at her. She scrubbed so hard that her skin began to feel sore and raw against the loofa sponge but she didn't care as she felt this was punishment for her unfaithfulness to her angel. When she felt she had done enough damage to her body, Brooklyn remained under the stream feeling it try to wash away her infidelity but to no avail.

I beg forgiveness for what I did….

Strong tender arms wrapped around her waist as she realized her angel had stealthily entered sensing her pain hoping to ebb it away with his loving embrace. Brooklyn turned to leaning in towards his body as her tears melded with the steady stream rolling over their bodies.

As the angels were together, Brady heard the front door open as Dean and Tariel entered the house.

"Anybody home?" Dean hollered out as Brady hollered back.

"Yeah, Dean, in here." The angel and hunter joined Brady at the table with Dean helping himself to some of Brady's wonderful coffee. The hot caffeinated beverage was what the hunter needed as he looked over at Brady. Dean noted a hint of concern in his large dark eyes.

"Brady, is there something we're missing here? You look like someone ran over your dog." Brady took another sip unsure of how to tell his friends about Brooklyn's odd behavior. Brady involuntarily drummed his fingers on the table which began to irritate Dean. The hunter shot across the table grabbing his friend's hand.

"Okay, dude, quit with the fingers and spill your damn guts now! Because if you don't, I'll sick Uriel on you." Brady jerked his hand back from Dean knowing there was no other way around it. He leaned back in the chair sighing deeply as he fessed up.

"Right, Dean, like Uriel will do anything to me. Look, ever since last night, Brooklyn has been acting strange. Castiel found her showering at 3 in the morning and she claimed she had a nightmare and woke up soaked in sweat. But we think that she is hiding something and won't tell Cas or me. Maybe one of you could crack the Brooklyn Code." Brady looked directly at Dean as he spoke.

"Aside from Cas, Dean knows Brooklyn better than she knows herself. Dean, would you please try to find out what is going on?" Brady felt his voice straining when the last few words came out.

"Brady, you know you didn't need to ask, right? We love her too and I will get her to talk even if I have to tie her down and make her listen to Michael Bolton records until she breaks." Brady cringed at that knowing Brooklyn hated the singer. Brady went back to his coffee when Brooklyn and Castiel appeared clean and fresh. She immediately plastered a fake smile realizing Dean and Tariel were sitting at the table.

"Dean and Tariel, what a pleasant surprise to see you here. I thought that you two were headed to Dallas."

Dean looked up beaming at the angel. "Uh, no, Bobby was already in the area and said he would take the case and we decided to come by for a day or two. Now that wouldn't be a problem now would it?" Brooklyn shook her head keeping the false grin on her face.

"Dean, you two know you never have to ask if you needed a place to stay. But if you will excuse me I will be outside." Kissing Castiel, Brooklyn then turned to step out the back and down the stairs. Brady looked at Dean jerking his head towards Brooklyn's direction.

"Already ahead of you, Peaches." Brady rolled his eyes at the hunter as he sprinted outside.

Brooklyn reached the clearing looking around before sitting down on the large rock. The sun glared down at the angel making her feel as if it too was cursing her for what she did. Brooklyn felt as if even God was punishing her in some way or another which led her here once again to the spot where the deed was done. Slowly closing her eyes, Brooklyn began praying.

"Forgive me Father for I have sinned. I have committed a grave sin and I pray for your forgiveness. I have laid with another that was not my Castiel and harbor feelings for him within my soul. Forgive me for what has transgressed, Father, for I have committed an act of blasphemy. "

Strong familiar hands grasped her shoulders causing the angel to jump and unfurl her wings knocking Dean to the ground. The hunter groaned in pain feeling the sharp rocks digging into his shoulder. Brooklyn stood above him with her hands on her hips as her head was tilted and an eyebrow arched in amusement.

"Dean, what are you doing here?" The angel glared down at the hunter waiting for him to answer.

"It's a beautiful day and I thought I would take a walk." Brooklyn extended a hand helping the hunter to his feet.

"Oh really? I think it's more like Cas and Brady sent you out here to spy on me. I'm not talking, Dean." The angel crossed her arms pressing her lips tightly together as the anger rapidly rose within her. Those two were never going to give up were they!? Well they could send in James Bond and not even he would be able to get her to talk. Dean stood there blocking her way refusing to let her walk away from him.

"If Cas and Brady think that I am going to talk, think again. I am outta here." The angel spread her wings preparing to leave but Dean proved to be faster leaping and tackling her to the cool sand. Dean straddled her hips pinning her arms above her head as the angel struggled to break free.

"Dean…." Brooklyn gently warned. "Please don't make me use my powers to escape for you really wouldn't like that."

"I'll take my chances, Brook. Now damn it what the Hell is going on? Why are you being so damn cold!? You know I won't quit until you tell me…."

"And if I don't, Dean?" The angel challenged him boring her eyes into his. Dean felt the angel's gaze reaching deep within him but used his own mind trick to block her.

"Then you have a date with Michael Bolton." He grinned upon seeing her eyes go wide with horror.

"I'll smite the CD player and I'll tell Markus it was your fault!" Dean shook his head with his trademark grin still plastered on his face. He leaned in closer staring straight in her grey eyes speaking in a serious manner dropping the smirk from his face.

"Brook, what the Hell is wrong with you? Cas is worried sick over you and it's killing him that you won't open up to him. For crying out loud he's your damn soulmate! What could be so awful that you would shut out Castiel?" Brooklyn looked away feeling the hot tears trickle down her face. Dean got up and off his friend helping her up. He held her by the waist seating her trembling body on the large rock and taking the space beside her. Brooklyn realized Dean was not going to give this up so she prepared herself to confess the truth.

"You want the truth, Dean? I'll tell you the truth under one condition. You can never and I mean never breathe a word of what I'm about to tell you. If you as so much even utter a word you will be sorry." Her hard cold tone made Dean realize she wasn't kidding around but the hunter agreed not to say a word.

"Last night, Aiden paid me a visit. He came to say goodbye as he was honoring his blood oath to stay away from me as Gabriel spared his life in Pennsylvania. I led him here to this very spot as I wanted to hear what he had to say." She hung her head down as Dean looked confused.

"Brooklyn, what's so bad about that? I mean he was saying goodbye." Brooklyn held up a hand stopping Dean in mid sentence.

"Dean, you don't understand. Fine, you know what really happened? I slept with Aiden. Yeah, Dean, I had sex with the Elder." Her face turned red as the tears fell unabated from her eyes.

"Now you know why Castiel can never find out. I betrayed him, Dean! I betrayed the one who has done nothing but protect and love me! And now I must pay the price for such deceit." Dean stood speechless as Brooklyn whipped out the small blade and began cutting into her arm hissing in pain with each new wound. Dean snapped out of his trance upon seeing the angel's blood running down her arm to the earth.

"Brook, stop! You can't do this to yourself!" Dean grabbed the bloody dagger from the angel catching her in his arms. He angrily looked to the sky as he shouted at the top of his lungs.

"Are you happy now!? Look at her damn it! She's doing this for your forgiveness! How much more crap does she have to endure from you!? You're one sick bastard, you know!?" He looked down at Brooklyn seeing the angel bleeding in his embrace. He needed to get her back inside now!

"I'm sorry, Brooklyn, but I'm not going to let you do this to yourself. Cas will understand and forgive you. He just loves you too damn much to walk away from you." With the angel in his arms, Dean rushed back to the house shouting for Cas to help.

Looks like Cas may learn about Brooklyn's transgression…..Next chapter up soon! I just keep thinking of more to add to this story! Thanks again to everyone for reading and reviewing! I realize that this getting a bit morbid but please hang in there as I will not let Cas walk away from Brook…