Chapter 9: My Immortal
N/A: This is my summing up for the schooling of the Marauders. There will be dialogue in the end, but be prepared for some paragraphs and random scenes somewhat relevant to the plot.
Can I do it? 3 chapters uploaded in one day? That's what I'm going for.
Wish me luck.
ON WITH THE FIC!
The news of Sirius and Remus spread like a wildfire. Homosexuality was not a huge deal in the wizarding community, but the fact that Sirius Black, voted Most Handsome in their year, was gay, was the real shocker.
Patricia was incredibly angry, for she thought that she would be Mrs. Sirius Black someday. In fact, she was so angry, she sent him a cursed hat. Remus detected the curse and instead, sent it to Severus. It was a very interesting Charms class, as it sent James into hysterics.
Peter and LeAnne stayed together very happily for the rest of the year. Peter, did, in fact, lose his virginity after the Ball. However, James walked in on them accidentally and ruined the moment for them.
Speaking of James, he and Lily ended up on a short break, but got back together at the end of the year, when James publicly apologized and bought her flowers. They have been together ever since. Sirius and Lily became pretty good friends, and she even gave him some great wardrobe tips (which had changed greatly since December).
Now, Sirius was doing great. He and Remus were a completely happy couple. They had their first official date in May, when they went to Hogsmeade. They sat in the Three Broomsticks and laughed at the people who came in and out.
Severus was becoming a full-fledged Death Eater. He had absolutely no memory of what had happened between him and Sirius, all he knew was that there were gaping holes in his mind and he couldn't seem to find any explanations behind them. But he continued serving Voldemort, and as he became more and more well-known, they had to do more and more illegal things. The first time Severus used the Cruciatus Curse on someone, he felt horrible and threw up. Bellatrix later called him a pussy and he sent a hex at her.
While we're on the subject of Bellatrix and Severus, nothing ever came from that except from the loveless sex they occasionally had. If anything, it was hate sex, because they really did feel nothing for each other but contempt. Bellatrix had officialy gone insane (she kept a Voldemort shrine under her bed), but Severus had this feeling of pain and anguish in his heart, and some days, he just needed someone, even if he knew it wasn't the right person.
He sometimes got serious depression and sat in his bedroom and cried. The memory may have been gone, but the pain was still there.
And Sirius saw that. He often found himself wondering if he had made the correct decision. Should he have made Severus and everyone else forget that they had ever loved each other? Should he have flat-out lied to Remus about all of their anger in the past months? Shouldn't he have just done this himself, without the help of Voldemort? It was all so confusing.
Summer came and went. After a major blow up fight with his parents, Sirius ran away to the Potters' house. Remus too, was staying with them, and it was over the summer when Sirius and Remus truly made love for the first time.
They all came to Hogwarts, their faces shining into a smile at the idea that this was their final year. James and Lily stayed a happy couple the entire year, as did Sirius and Remus, but something horrible happened to Peter and LeAnne.
One day in mid-November, Peter was walking along the lake, and noticed some rather unusual rustling in the bushes. He morphed into a rat and went into the bushes to see what was going on.
He smelled LeAnne, then saw her kissing another boy in her House. Peter turned back into himself, ran over to the Whomping Willow, sat down, and cried.
A hand touched his shoulder. "You remember when I told you she definitely wasn't the type of girl you'd like to date?" a man said.
Peter sniffed. "I do. But I didn't want to believe it."
The man laughed. "Wormtail…you also remember when I told you that if LeAnne betrays you, your other friends will, too?"
Peter spun around to face Voldemort. "No! Not James, Sirius, or Remus! They'd never betray me!"
"The moment they find out you're in the league with me, they'll drop you faster than a fly." He hissed.
"They'd understand." Peter answered stubbornly.
"Of course they will." Voldemort said sarcastically. "Just like they did with Remus."
Peter nodded. "Exactly. Just because Remus is a werewolf, that doesn't mean he's evil."
"And just because you torture fully grown wizards out of your own free will, that doesn't mean they'll hate you."
"Maybe you're right." Peter whimpered. "But I need your help. I'm not nearly as powerful as you are, and I want revenge."
Voldemort cackled. "I can never get over all of the pleas for help I keep getting from my servants. I'll let you in on a little secret, Wormtail: You could do it yourself and make me so much prouder."
"But-you could help me, right?"
"Of course, Wormtail. That's what I'm here for. Now, what do you want to do?"
"Make them pay." Peter said in a low voice that wasn't his.
"Now, we're going to have a slight problem. What is it you will give to me?"
"What do you want?" he asked.
"Your full allegiance to me, as well as my mark on your arm."
"Of course." Peter replied. "Your will is mine, Master."
Voldemort smiled. "Good. Then, let's get started."
Peter returned to the Griffindor Tower. Sirius and Remus were making out on the bed, but they immediately saw the look of pain on Peter's face. "Pete, are you alright?" Sirius asked.
"Oh, I'm fine." Peter answered harshly. "LeAnne is snogging other guys, but no, I'm JUST fine."
Remus' eyes popped out. "No way."
"Yes." Peter responded.
"What happened?" Remus asked.
"I just saw them kissing! I ran away! I have no idea what she's thinking!"
Sirius was silent. He was almost feeling sympathy towards LeAnne, for he had feelings for two boys and couldn't make up his mind either. LeAnne may be making a bad decision, but he could understand where she was coming from. Of course, that is, unless, she was just a little slut…which was very likely.
"Sirius, what should I do?" Peter begged.
Sirius sighed. "Peter, you didn't ask her about it or anything?"
"No, I just ran away." He responded, leaving the part out about Voldemort.
"Well, then, you're screwed." James announced as he came in. "What might be the problem, anyways?"
"LeAnne's been cheating on him." Sirius replied.
"WHAT? Where is she and the little bastard? We'll fuck him up more than Snivellus!" James exclaimed.
Peter's lower lip trembled, Remus gave him a mournful look, and Sirius stood up. "I think that Peter ought to talk with her first. It could have been a mistake."
"Unless it wasn't her, there was no mistake. I was a rat, and got a pretty good view of them." Peter answered.
"Well, there's always Karma, you know. It'll come back to her three fold. And we'll be laughing." Remus said.
Peter nodded. "Karma. That could work."
They were all silent. Then Peter spoke up. "What do you guys think of Voldemort?"
"The lowest of the low." James quickly responded. "He deserves a long and torturous death."
"And raped by giants." Sirius added. He was glad he'd never have to speak with Voldemort again.
"He's not really human. I can't believe people actually follow him." Remus chimed in.
"Oh…well, I heard a few people talking about him and I was curious about what you guys thought."
"I'd die before I join up with him." James said.
Peter frowned and tried to contemplate what he was going to do.
The next thing they knew, it was morning. It started out normally, they all went down to breakfast, a few people congratulated James on his big win in Quidditch. James kissed Lily hello and Sirius and Remus decided to go out by the lake.
LeAnne was outside by the lake too, laughing with her friends about something, when all of a sudden, her face went blank and she passed out. Shrieks were heard, and then a few people went running to go get a teacher. Sirius ran up to her and her friends and asked, "What's going on?"
The only girl who wasn't completely crazy answered, "She just passed out! I was talking to her, and then…" she sniffled.
Remus frowned. "Inervate!" he whispered, and a jet of light hit LeAnne, but nothing happened.
McGonagall came running out of the doors, and rushed over to them. "We need to get Miss Brown to the hospital wing. Black, Lupin, if you could, carry her there. I will be there shortly."
Sirius easily picked her up and Remus followed him.
Madam Pomfrey ran to them, and magicked LeAnne onto a bed. "Thank you boys. I'll take it from here."
Sirius nodded and turned to Remus. "We need to find Peter."
"Agreed." Remus replied and they set off towards where they had last seen him, which was the Great Hall.
He wasn't there because he was in his room, talking to Voldemort through a form of telepathy.
"Is she going to die?" Peter asked.
"Yes." He responded.
"Good."
"That's my boy. See, she's experiencing a rather painful death, as her organs are all slowly shutting down. No one can save her, for there is no cure for the disease I gave her."
"I hope she burns in hell."
"My boy, there is no hell. All there is…is merely life and death. And I'm glad you've chosen life."
Peter smirked. "And they've chosen death."
The next few years went by quickly. James and Lily married and had a great honeymoon. They moved into a house and began to work for the Order of the Phoenix, a top-secret anti-Voldemort group that Dumbledore helped found. Sirius, Remus, and Peter also joined, along with several other school friends and Ministry members.
Remus' relationship with Sirius was stronger than ever…until that fateful day….
"Crucio!" A Death Eater roared.
Remus howled in pain. Sirius yelled out and screamed, "Stupefy!"
They began dueling quickly, their wands becoming blurs as they fought. However, another Death Eater entered the room.
"Kill him!" the first Death Eater yelled.
The Death Eater froze. "Both of them?" he asked.
"What do you care? Kill the mice on the floor if you want!" the first replied, sending a curse at Sirius.
Remus blocked the curse and sent a spell at the first Death Eater. HE immediately passed out. "Sirius, take this one to the Headquarters. I can take this one."
"You're hurt. There's no way I'm letting you take this one." Sirius replied.
The Death Eater still seemed to be frozen, but then – "You two think you're so special, helping out Dumbledore. Where does that put you?"
"Alive and kicking." Sirius responded and sent a curse at him.
The Death Eater blocked it, and yelled, "Stupefy!" and hit Remus. Remus was thrown onto the other Death Eater, and passed out.
Sirius spun around to help Remus, and that gave the Death Eater the chance to yell, "Expelliarmus!" to disarm Sirius.
He backed Sirius into a wall. He raised his wand, but Sirius kicked out at him and he stumbled backwards. He made a grab for his wand, but the Death Eater pushed him back. Sirius punched him in the face, grabbed back both wands, and held his wand to the Death Eater's throat. "Don't – make – a – move." Sirius breathed. "You are going to hell."
"Azkaban isn't hell." He answered. "Plus, I'll just get out anyways."
"And how do you plan on doing that?" Sirius asked in disgust.
"The Dark Lord has his ways." He answered.
"You fucking psycho. Who are you, anyways?" Sirius asked, and reached for his mask.
Bad move. The Death Eater saw an opening, grabbed his own wand, and held it to Sirius' throat.
Both men were in a lose/lose position. "Drop your wand." The Death Eater said. "I'm not afraid to kill you."
"Drop yours." Sirius answered.
"No." the Death Eater said.
"Then I'm not dropping mine."
Both were silent. Then, Sirius stood up, still pointing his wand at the Death Eater. "Now who are you?"
"A noble servant of the Dark Lord." He answered.
"I was more looking for a name." Sirius said. "Stand up. And drop your goddamned wand."
To Sirius' surprise, the Death Eater did. "Now, take off your mask." He ordered.
Once again, the Death Eater did as he was told. "Hullo Black."
Sirius' eyes popped open. "Sever-Snape?"
"Yeah." He responded. "Now, I can't have anyone finding out that I actually took my mask off. I just thought you'd like to see the face of your killer."
"No, don't kill me." Sirius answered with an almost smile. "This was bound to happen, and what a more screwed up way than this."
"What was-" Severus started to ask, but Sirius threw his arms around him and kissed him.
The moment their lips touched, Severus felt memories searing through his body. At first, they were good memories and the love they had shared. However, the bad ones began to emerge, the lies, the anger. Severus pulled away in shock. "You – you-" he gasped.
"Severus – please – I'm so sorry! I've been haunted with this for the past four years. I've loved Remus, but I – I love you more." He whispered with the biggest puppy dog eyes any one could ever muster.
"Oh God." Severus gasped and turned around, trying to fight his shock. "You expect me to turn around and love you?"
"You did before!" Sirius yelled. "I've never loved someone like I did you! You were the first person I had ever had sex with! And Severus, I love you! Yes, I'll say it to the world! I say it to anything! I love you!!"
"What do you expect me to do, Sirius?" Severus roared. "There is no way I could leave the Death Eaters to be with you! And what would everyone think?"
Sirius' face crinkled. "I don't care!"
"Well, I do. Sirius, you don't have any idea what He would do if He knew we were – well – you know-"
"He has to know already. He came to me and suggested it. Now that the spell is broken, he's bound to know that I disobeyed the rule and touched your mouth." Sirius responded.
"Oh that's great. And that means I'm done for."
"Not if you pretend to hate us still and turn spy for us." Sirius proposed.
"Well, gee, that's an idea. Why don't I go out and buy a funeral casket while I'm at it?" Severus asked, his voice dripping with sarcasm.
They were silent. Severus breathed a deep breath, and said, "Just go. I won't tell anyone what happened."
Sirius turned to pick Remus up. As he walked across the room, Severus said, "Wait."
Both men ran to each other and kissed a kiss that Sirius had never even dreamed of before.
I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
~End of Chapter 9~
N/A: Yeah, that was angsty and sappy and strange all in one chapter. But I thought it went well. What do you think?
We've got two more chapters! Can I finish this fic AND take 6 tests?
Only time can tell, folks.
Just you wait…ya'll are gonna HATE Remus.
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~Ashii Black