(Bella's POV)

We drove along in comfortable silence to the nearest airport, almost two hours away even at the high speeds we drive at. I was glad we'd changed into more comfortable clothes before leaving. Jasper was back to skinny jeans, a Dropkick Murphys shirt, and a hoodie. I was wearing jeans and a Paramore shirt.

I was excited and nervous all at the same time. I didn't know where we were going, but I knew it would be amazing.

There was another reason for my feelings... Jasper and I haven't "slept" together yet. I wanted to wait until my wedding day and he was willing to wait. He didn't push me to do anything I wasn't ready for.

I'd noticed that for the last couple days Jasper seemed a little nervous but I told myself I was imaging it. Jasper didn't get nervous about anything.

"Where are we going?" I asked for the fiftieth time.

He turned to look at me and smiled. "It's a surprise! I can't tell you. But I'll tell you this, there's gonna be a lot of stops."

I rolled my eyes. "I hate surprises."

He grabbed my hand. "I know, babe. But this one'll be worth it. I promise."

"Okay."

I turned on the radio, hoping to the distract myself. The new Offspring song, "Hammerhead" blasted out of the speakers.

I am the one
Camouflage and guns
Risk my life
To keep my people from harm

Jasper squeezed my hand a little.

I looked up to see him looking straight ahead with his other hand clenched tightly on the steering wheel. "Jazz? Are you okay?" I asked.

Authority
Vested in me
I sacrifice
With my brothers in arms

He didn't answer but let go of my hand and pressed down on the gas pedal a little harder.

By the pre-chorus he was pushing the car to it's ultimate limit.

Through this doorway
What's on the other side
Never knowing
Exactly what I'll find
Locked and loaded
Voices screaming
Let's go!
Come on do it!
Here we go

By the chorus, he had a crazed look in his eye and he really started scaring me.

Oh, take a life
That others may live
Oh, that's just the way it goes
Oh, shut my eyes
It hammers in my head
Where it'll end
Nobody knows

I flipped off the music and suddenly, he seemed to snap out of it.

He veered off course and pulled a sharp right, pulling over onto the shoulder of the desolate road and slamming onto the brakes. Then he shut off the engine and slumped forward with his head buried in his arms on the steering wheel.

I touched his shoulder. "Jazz?" He wasn't breathing.

I unbuckled my seat belt and leaned over so I could put my arm around him.

He let out a huge, choked sob and I started rubbing his back. "Jazz, it's okay. Talk to me. What's wrong?"

I could hear him muttering to himself, "So many memories, so much blood..."

It dawned on me then. His behavior now made sense. The wars, both Civil and the vampire ones, had left him traumatized, and the song reminded him of it all.

"Oh Jazz, it's okay. It's all over now. Shhh. Calm down."

He looked up at me finally and I could see the tortured look in his eyes.

I opened my arms to him and he collapsed there in sobs, crying into my shoulder. "Shhh. I'm so sorry. I shouldn't have turned on the radio."

He shook his head, as if to tell me it wasn't my fault.

"C'mon, let's go for a walk," I suggested. We were next to a huge forest.

Jasper nodded and picked his head up. I got out of the car and went to his side. I helped him out of the car and wrapped my arm around him as we walked into the dark woods in silence.

His sobs had quieted but he still looked sad and unsure.

We walked for awhile before I sat down underneath a huge pine tree and pulled him down next to me. I grabbed his hand and rubbed circles into the back of it with my thumb. "Wanna talk?" I asked, breaking the silence for the first time. I brought his hand up to my lips and kissed it.

He shook his head. I couldn't stand seeing that tortured look in his eyes. I rested my head on his shoulder as I continued rubbing circles into the back of his hand.

"It was horrible," he whispered. His breathing was ragged.

He'd only given me a vague outline of his past when I was human, but now he spilled every last detail. The bloodshed, the bodies, the battles...

Suddenly, it was like I was looking at him in a whole new light. The scars on his face and neck that had become invisible to me over the years now became Jasper's most dominant feature. "Was that why you were so nervous?" I blurted out.

"Huh?"

"Your scars. Is that why you've been so nervous lately? Because you didn't want me to see the rest of them?" I was putting the pieces together quickly in my mind. It all made sense. Why he was so patient with me, why I'd never seen him shirtless, and why he always wore hoodies, despite never being cold. He couldn't hide the scars on his face but he could hide the others.

He was still for at least a minute before he nodded. "I didn't want you to think of me as a monster."

"Oh Jazz." I moved and swung my leg over his lap so I was straddling him. "I don't care how many scars you have or how many people you've killed. That doesn't change the fact that I love you. I could never think of you as a monster."

He didn't look convinced.

I kissed one of the many scars on his neck. "I got used to these scars." I kissed each scar individually, making my way up to his face. "And I'll get used to the others." I pressed my lips to the two scars above his left eyebrow before looking him in the eye.

He looked away but I held his face between my hands so he'd look at me. I said slowly and deliberately. "I. Love. You." I added, "And you of all people should know that, Mr. Empath."

He cracked a small, sad smile at that.

"Are you okay now?" I asked him.

He nodded. "I think so. But, can we just stay here for a while?"

"Of course, Jazz."

He smiled a real smile and wrapped his arms around me tightly. "I don't deserve you," he told me, dropping a kiss on my neck.

"That's crazy," I replied. "If anything, I don't deserve someone as amazing as you."

"There's nothing special about me.

I shook my head and smiled. "Silly Jasper, always doubting yourself. I beg to differ."

He raised an eyebrow and I said, "Well, for one, you're a kickass guitarist."

He laughed and I continued. "And you're a great kisser." I illustrated my point by kissing him then.

I didn't pull back far to speak. "And you always know what to do or say whenever I'm sad. And you're an amazing singer. And... it doesn't hurt that you're damn sexy."

"You're crazy," he muttered.

It was my turn to pull back to look at him and raise an eyebrow. "Oh really?" And with that said, I belted out:

You think I'm crazy because I love you
You think I'm lost and that I'm cuckoo
I may be mental, maybe whacko too
But who needs Prozac when I've got you?

Jasper laughed and kissed me. I smiled. "It worked! You're happy again!"

He laughed even harder and hugged me close. "Yes, I'm happy again." He calmed down and then kissed my cheek. "Thank you, Bells. I needed that."

I smiled and nuzzled my nose into his shoulder. "You're welcome. I could tell something was bothering you that you weren't telling me." I turned my head a bit to kiss his neck.

He got up, holding me securely in his arms. I wrapped my arms around his waist as he carried me back to the car.

Several hours later, after many plane rides and even more driving, we were almost to our destination.

We stopped in front of a small boat tied to the dock and Jasper loaded our things into it before getting in himself and holding out his hand and helping me in.

He took the wheel and steered the boat away from the dock and out into the open water.

The moon shone bright in the sky and casted a glow over the ocean. It was beautiful. Jasper looked over his shoulder at me. "So, what do you think so far?"

"It's beautiful."

He smiled. "Just wait."

After about fifteen minutes, I spotted a strip of land on the horizon. It got bigger as we got closer.

When we were fifty feet away, I could see it was a small island and I spotted a sign that said... "Eme's Isle? She has her own island?"

"Carlisle bought it for her birthday. She said we could use it." Jasper steered the boat to the dock.

He helped me off the boat before getting our bags. I looked around, taking my surroundings. It was covered with lush vegetation and I could hear waves crashing against the opposite shore. It was breathtaking. I closed my eyes and breathed in the warm, moist, salty air.

I felt a pair of arms snake around my waist. "What do you think?" Jasper whispered in my ear.

"I think... that I love it." I opened my eyes and turned to face him.

He smiled and leaned down, pressing a kiss to my lips. "Glad you love it."

We walked side by side to the opposite end of the island, Jasper carrying the bags.

I stopped in my tracks as we approached our destination. It was a small beach house, well, smaller than our mansion at home, but bigger than a normal beach house.

It was beautiful and I could tell that Esme had decorated it.

Jasper ran and put the bags in the house before racing back outside and picking me up bridal style. I squealed a bit in surprise but then relaxed and let him carry me to our room. I admired the inside of the house, nice kitchen (which made me sad, to think no one would ever use it), and the entire house was big and open...

Jasper set me down on the bed and sat down next to me. The three large windows were open and the curtains were billowing in the wind. I stood up and walked to the window.

I could see the ocean, with the bright moonlight shining on it's surface. "Let's go swimming!" I said, turning back to Jasper.

He look of fear crossed his face and I remembered what had happened earlier. "We don't have to," I added hurriedly.

"No!" He exclaimed. "It's okay. Let's go swimming. You go ahead first. I'll catch up."

"Okay..." I walked to my suitcase and opened it up, embarrassment coloring my emotions briefly as I realized that Alice had packed me hardly any real clothes, mostly French lingerie. I got over it and rummaged around for a bathing suit. No one pieces, just string bikinis.

I picked out a red one and went into the bathroom to change, worrying about Jasper a little.

I stepped out with a towel wrapped around my shoulders and sat next to him on the bed. "Are you okay?" I asked.

He glanced over at me and did a double take as his breathing hitched. "You look... amazing, Bella." His eyes roamed over my body.

I smiled shyly. "Thank you. So, you'll join me?"

He smiled back and kissed me. "Of course."

"Okay."

I stood up and ran out to the beach behind the house.

(Jazz's POV)

I took a deep breath and forced myself to get over my fears. Bella would still love me, scars or not.

I pulled out a pair of swim trunks from my suitcase and put them on, leaving my shirt on.

Then I grabbed a towel and ran outside to join Bella.

She was floating in the water, not swimming, just floating on her back. She heard me approach and stood up in the water, shaking out her wet hair before turning to look at me.

My angel smiled and waved. "Come on in, Jazz!"

I smiled back nervously and set my towel down next to hers on the lawn chair set up on the sand.

I took another deep breath before pulling my shirt over my head and letting it drop next to the towels.

I heard Bella's breathing hitch as her lust increased dramatically, putting a smile on my face.

I joined her in the water and she immediately attacked my mouth with her own, jumping up and wrapping her legs around me. "Jazz, I don't know what you were so worried about," she said once we broke the kiss.

I shrugged.

She wrapped her arms around my neck and kissed me again. "Well, I never thought I'd see you without a shirt, and lemme be the first to say, you look even more gorgeous. The scars aren't even noticeable."

I knew I would have blushed if I were still human. "Since when are you so confident?"

She shrugged and smiled. "I don't know. I guess I'm just super super happy."

I laughed and wrapped my arms around her, holding her close as I kissed her passionately. God, I loved her so much, I didn't deserve her, yet she's stayed with me all these years.

We splashed around and swam in the water for hours before collapsing on the sand in each other's arms.

I held my new wife close to me as she rested her head on my chest. She stretched and kissed my neck before snuggling closer to me and wrapping her arm around my waist. "I love you, Jasper."

"I love you too, Bells."

She sighed. "This is perfect." She lifted her head to look at me and she smiled before kissing me.

I stood up suddenly and picked Bella up, never breaking the kiss. I couldn't wait anymore.

She squealed as I ran to the bedroom and well... I think you can figure out the rest.

(Bella's POV)

Hours later, Jasper and I lay in bed, just enjoying each other's company. He held my naked body close and dropped kisses on my shoulder and neck. "I love you so much, Bella."

I smiled and ran my hand over the planes of his stomach. I could feel the multiple scars that ravaged his skin, but I didn't honestly care. I didn't see them anymore, they didn't make Jasper who he was. He'd gotten over his fear of me leaving him over them, and I was proud of him for it.

"What're you thinking about?" He asked lazily, burying his nose in my hair and inhaling deeply.

"About how proud I am of you."

He pulled back to look at me questioningly. "Why?"

"You were so afraid of me rejecting you or leaving you because of something as superficial as your scars. But you got over it. And obviously, I don't care about them." I dropped a kiss on his chest.

He smiled. "Yeah, you're right. It was stupid."

"I'm always right."

He rolled his eyes. "Not always."

I laughed. "Fine. Almost always."

He laughed with me and kissed my nose. "I love you, Bella."

I smiled. "I love you too, Jazzy."

I snuggled closer to him and buried my face in the crook of his neck and he pulled me closer to him. I didn't think I'd ever been this happy before.

We stayed like that in silence for several minutes before I said quietly, "Jazz?"

"Hm?"

"Can you sing to me?"

I could feel him smile against my forehead before he picked his head up. "Sure."

He rolled over onto his back and I moved so my head was resting on his chest and my arm was draped around his waist. He wrapped his arm around my shoulders and kissed my forehead. "What do you wanna hear?"

"Anything. I just wanna hear you sing, you're so good at it."

He thought for a minute before saying, "Okay, I got something."

I smiled and looked up at him.

He smiled back before he started singing:

I've got emotion
Dripping out my pores and I
Thought I would let you know
You are the night light,
Ripping through my wicked world
How you make it sparkle and glow,
Before I lose control
There's just one thing you should know

I smiled, the song he picked was absolutely perfect. I loved how he never picked just any old random song, he picked ones with meaning.


This is for real, this time I mean it
I'm coming clean, please don't let go
I said from the start, that you could take it or leave it
I'd prefer that you keep it
Don't let go
Don't let go
Don't let go

I had some nightmares,
Clawing at my skin and bones
I nearly did explode
You smoked the demons
Gave me back my feelings
Now I am good to go
Before, my face hits the floor
There's just one thing you should know

He didn't get a chance to finish because as soon as that verse ended, I attacked his mouth with my own.

I felt him smile against my lips as he pulled me closer and kissed me back just as passionately.

He never broke the kiss as he rolled me onto my back and well... figure it out yourselves.

A/N: Mmkay, so here's chapter 14! I must say, I think this is 1 of my best written chapters yet. And sorry for the lack of lemons, but I have a hard enough time with writing shit like them kissing so if you want a lemon, write it yourselves! Yeah, if any of you can write a good lemon (nothing overly graphic or gross), lemme know and I might make you my official lemon writer. lol. Anyhoo, so, the first song was "Hammerhead" by The Offspring and I put that in there because I don't think a lot of people have ever addressed how the war would have affected Jasper... and I decided to add that so the song kinda just ties it all together. If you can't tell, the song's about war, most likely the Iraq War but whatever. And the second song was "Prozac" by MxPx. The third was "This Is For Real" by Motion City Soundtrack. Chances are, you've already heard "This Is For Real" but not the others, so listen to em!!

Disclaimer: I own nothing! 'Cept Max, but he never showed up in this chapter...