A/N: Hey guys... Sorry it's been so long since I've updated anything at all... I've had a massive year. I was in hospital for some time starting medication and all sorts of stuff. My family started building a house and it's only just almost finished, we'll be moving in soon. I got a new laptop though, a plus I suppose. Life has been hectic and... Well, I'm only just starting to get back to myself after some massive changes to things that have happened around me. The fact that I was in the psych ward in the hospital will help me make this story better though 

My other computer died too... So I had nothing for a while, except the TV and that's... Well... Lol.

Actually, it got me obsessed with Kingdom Hearts and Tomb Raider, I now have Tomb Raider Underworld for the PS2 and am playing that lotses because, well it's a lot of fun  And my boyfriend has gotten me up to the Aladdin Level in Kingdom Hearts, I'm a slow learner though. So he has his hands full haha.

Anyway, enough about me, onto the story.

Disclaimer: I unfortunately don't own... But one day, one can only hope, I will rule the world... I mean Fullmetal Alchemist. :D

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The alcohol,
The Demerol,
These things never could replace,
What a minute with you could do to put a smile on my face...

Dead Skin – Crossfade

The next morning was a slow one; Edward woke his father early so that he could get ready for school without having to worry about the old man not getting up the whole day. He shoved a piece of paper and some money into the man's hands and glared at him.

"Keep yourself busy for the day old man. Go shopping for me and grab those things please. I'll be at school till at least four and then we can go to the hospital to see Al. Visiting hours aren't until then anyway." Hoenhiem nodded his agreement and Ed walked out throwing a spare key on his keychain to his father before heading off to school.

The day dragged on and Ed found himself begging it to end. He pulled himself to every class, wishing that the hours would tick by just that little bit faster so that he could see his brother already. Winry chatted to him in between every class and during every class which made things a little less tolerable. It took a lot to get used to her high pitched girl voice, but Edward tried his hardest for the fragile girl's sake.

Finally the day ended and he stood from his spot behind his table and rushed out, leaving a dumbstruck Winry behind. He ignored her hurt expression and deducted that he would message her later and apologize to her. He reached his apartment and opened to door to find his father holding a beer and watching the poorly tuned television. He shook his head and moved into the kitchen, seeing all the empty plastic bags on the bench he guessed his father did as asked and spent the spare cash on beer. He laughed quietly to himself before starting on dinner. He had work tonight so if he made the dinner now he could go see Al and then come home quickly, eat and then head off. As long as all went well, and he hoped it did. He put the roast into the oven and walked out to his father prodding him with a greasy finger and telling him that he was going to change and then they'd leave. The old man nodded and Edward walked from the room to go change out of his school clothes.

He came out not long after dressed in tight leather pants and a plain black t-shirt with a red hoodie on over the top. He pulled on some plain socks and set off to the door. His father was close behind him, smoothly scoring a five pointer throw as he walked past the bin and dumped his beer bottle inside. They both pulled on their shoes and left the apartment, it was empty and dark. Much like it was when Edward first moved in after him and his father's first fight. Ed shook his head and walked forward, down the steps and away from the cosy place he called home and towards the hospital.

The fifteen years olds hair was loosely tied into a ponytail at the back of his head, his father with a similar hair style. Edward scowled a little, denying that he looked anything like that man, and walked forward through the windy streets. He approached the institute slowly, dreading entry. His father stalked past him quickly and walked through the sliding doors.

Ed felt light headed, his mind swam with thoughts he felt he couldn't control and a throbbing headache came on as suddenly as the nausea. He shook his head (which really didn't help he had to admit) and walked through the sliding doors after his father. They reached reception quickly, Edward still trying to stop the room from spinning, and asked for Al. They were guided through the halls towards the room where everyone gathered and immediately noticed Al sitting and talking cheerfully with Roy and Wrath. He turned at the sound of his father calling his name and stood and ran over.

Ed saw the next bit in slow motion. He saw Envy running out a grin on his face and the stuffed dragon toy Edward himself had gotten him. And then his father push Alphonse away and look stunned at Envy's lithe form moving swiftly towards Edward. And then all of a sudden Ed's father was throwing himself angrily at Envy and tackling him to the ground before drawing his fist up only to slam it into the young man's perfect featured face. Envy's surprise was almost as great as Edward's, but as the younger teen went to move forward he was overcome with a strong dizziness that had him hurtling towards the ground. He tried to push his hands in front of him in an attempt to save himself too much pain. But he felt so heavy... So dead and he hit the ground with a loud thud that stopped everyone where they were.

And as Envy threw Hoenhiem off of him and ran towards Edward the blonde's eyes unfocussed and he was lost to the blackness of his own mind. Lost in the depths of memories that were locked away where they couldn't cause harm.

Pride.....

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A/N: I'm sorry this is so short.. I really just wanted to get it up so that I could say I'd done something Lol. I will try to do more soon. I'm bogged down with moving house at the moment, it's really painful actually lol.