Some people were saying that they wanted to see what Mady would be like as a new born, so here is a little one shot of the first time Mady was alone with Nessie.

The next chapter will pick up once Mady is past this new born faze, and can actually be around people. That chapter will be posted no later then Tuesday evening. Promise. =)

I was sitting in front of the TV, watching the colorful characters dance across the screen.

This was our third day in Alaska, and I was still yet to leave the house. I didn't mind sitting in front of the TV for hours on end, but having nothing to do gave you a lot of time to think.

I think about my family a lot. My mom used to be a nice person, until daddy died. When daddy died, a big part of mommy died too. She blames me and Delilah for the accident. If only we hadn't insisted on having pizza for dinner that night, he never would have been in that car...

I was four when mom met Dave, and my childish mind was under the impression that things would get better, but Dave hated us even more then mom did, if that is possible.

As I watched the cartoon family in front of me sit around the dinner table laughing, I though about how real life is never like that. Its never that easy.

All of a sudden, my mind was ripped from the TV as something warm and sweet entered the house.

"Grandma?" I heard a small voice call out. The scent got closer and closer to the living room, and I didn't know what to do. My mind was a jumble, my instincts telling me to attack her. My throat felt like it was on fire, and the only way to relieve the burning would be to attack the girl.

I knew that was wrong though. I'm not supposed to attack people, just animals. I had been told this countless times in the past week.

"Grandma?" The voice called out again. I jumped up, whoever it was was getting closer. My mouth filled with venom as the sweet scent entered the room. The burning in the back of my throat got even worse. I couldn't fight it. Even though my brain told me it was wrong, the rest of my senses were telling me to attack.

I raced over to the source of the smell, and saw a small girl, maybe four or five years old, with long reddish brown hair, and chocolate brown eyes. Her skin was flawless, and pale white, like mine, but I saw faint pink circles on her cheeks. I could see the blood. How could I possibly resist it, when it was right there, in front of my very eyes.

I recognized the girl from that first night in the hotel room. Renesmee. The daughter of Edward and Bella, who lived in the stone cottage.

Her scent was so appealing that I didn't even care she was a member of my new family, and I raced right at her, not giving a second thought to what I was about to do. Just as I was about to pounce, she turned around, and ran out the door. Subconsciously reacting to her action, I darted after her, chasing her into the green forest.

"Grandma!" Renesmee cried out for Esme, not slowing down.

I got closer, and she began to cry louder. "Please don't hurt me!" She begged.

I felt the adrenaline rush through me as I gained on her. It was like those games of tag we played at school. The feeling of just having to catch the person in front of you.

Finally, I was close enough that I could almost touch her. I pushed off the ground, and threw my self on top of her. I pinned her to the ground, and leaned down towards her neck.

I ignored her cries, and leaned down towards her neck. Just as I was about to sink my teeth into her skin, some one grabbed, and pulled me off. I recognized the scent immediately.

Esme.

She lifted me off Renesmee, and holding me tight in her arms, ran me back to the house, then went to care for the traumatized Renesmee.

As I sat there in my room, the window wide open to erase any last traces of her scent, I realized what I had almost done. I had almost killed some one. I was no better then my mom, or Dave. I was a murderer. It doesn't matter that I didn't actually kill her, I was prepared to.

I was a monster. If I could cry, I would be bawling like a baby. I tried to calm my self down, taking deep breaths, then walked over to my desk. I found a piece of pink paper, and some markers.

Renesmee,

I am very very very sorry. I promise I will never, ever do that again. To anyone. I hope you can forgive me,

Love Madyson.

I quietly crept down the stairs, and handed the card to Esme.

"Can you give this to Renesmee, please?" I asked softly.

"Of course Mady." She took the card from me. I looked up at her, wondering why she wasn't angry.

"I am really sorry." I whispered, "I don't know what happened. Am I going to be like this forever?" I asked, fighting the urge to cry.

"Mady," Esme knelt down next to me. "Everyone goes through this same thing. It's normal. I promise we will be more careful so that this doesn't happen again. And soon you will be able to be around humans, like the rest of us. It takes time though. You'll get it eventually, honey." She hugged me.

"I hope so," I mumbled as I headed back to the living room.

The cartoon I was watching earlier was still on. The bright characters completely oblivious to what had just happened in real life. I wish my life was a TV show. Then I could smile and laugh and dance around all day.

I promised my self I was going to get past this urge to kill. I know I can control my self. I have willpower. More then that though, I have knowledge. I know how it will destroy a family if I kill one of its members. I will not make another family go though what mine did.

I might only be seven, but I'm pretty smart. I know stuff about life that even some grown ups don't know.

Sometimes you want to do bad things, but you can't give into yourself. You know whats right and what wrong. You just have to be strong. Dave wasn't strong, even though he knew the things he did were bad, he still did them. My mom too. I will never be like that though.

I refuse. Esme gave me a second chance, and I will not mess it up.

Hope you liked it. =) Please Please Please Review!!! Sorry if the last chapter was kind of dull, I hope this one was better, and I promise the story will get WAY more interesting. There's a twist coming up. If you review this chapter, I will send you a sneak peak of the next chapter!! Thanks, Love Alice