Fall

Chapter 2

Don't Hide

Lunar: Well, you all asked me to continue this fic... and I planned to anyway, because I have a bunch of songs that would be perfect for it… Today, it's 'Never Too Late' by Three Days Grace. I don't own D. Gray Man.

Kanda raced to the hospital wing, everyone in his way jumped back either for fear of his anger, or they noticed the comatose white haired exorcist. He kicked the door to the wing open, yelling for help, his voice slightly hoarse from the screaming. "HELP, DAMNIT!" The nurse stared horrified at Allen, and then quickly urged Kanda to lay him on a bed while everyone rushed to get what they needed to save his life.

This world will never be
What I expected
And if I don't belong
Who would have guessed it
I will not leave alone
Everything that I own
To make you feel like it's not too late
It's never too late

Kanda never left Allen's side. He didn't notice the dozens of nurses and doctors scurrying around him, struggling to save Allen. Transfusions, blood everywhere. Kanda didn't notice anything but the paleness of Allen's skin, how his hand felt cold. Kanda kept his tears back, unwilling to cry, even if the stupid myoashi was nearly dead. He felt both angry, yet sad at the same time. He was angry that Allen had done something so stupid, that Allen was so willing to die. And yet, Kanda was caught in a vortex of sorrow, which swirled around the questions 'Why didn't I notice? Why couldn't I tell something was wrong? Why didn't he tell me?'

Even if I say
It'll be alright
Still I hear you say
You want to end your life
Now and again we try


To just stay alive
Maybe we'll turn it around
'Cause it's not too late
It's never too late

It seemed like forever, although it was only 15 minutes. They had rushed to save Allen's life, and finally he was stable. Well, as stable as he could be. They left Kanda where he was, gripping Allen's hand, and watching him breathe. It looked as if Kanda was worried that the next breath wouldn't come. Luckily, it did, and Kanda could relax until the worry for the next breath came. Kanda held Allen's hand to his face, wishing that it wasn't so cold. He fought with his tears. An exorcist needed to be strong, he couldn't be weak now. Especially when Allen needed Kanda's strength.

Lenalee burst in tears flowing from her eyes. "ALLEN-KUN!!"

No one will ever see
This side reflected
And if there's something wrong
Who would have guessed it
And I have left alone
Everything that I own
To make you feel like
It's not too late
It's never too late

He was always smiling. He was always kind, and cordial. He rarely lost his temper, and he had so much compassion. You would never know it from looking at him, that Allen Walker was suicidal. He had certainly fooled Kanda. After all, with Allen constantly going on about how his purpose was to destroy akuma, how could anyone figure that Allen wanted to kill himself? Kanda stroked the back of Allen's hand, while Lenalee sobbed over the other one. It hadn't taken long for everybody to find out and rush to see Allen. They were all standing around the bed now, watching him sleep.

Even if I say
It'll be alright
Still I hear you say
You want to end your life


Now and again we try
To just stay alive
Maybe we'll turn it around
'Cause it's not too late
It's never too late

It was a couple of hours, before Allen woke up. Everyone was already asleep, but Kanda was awake. He had been waiting for Allen to wake up. Waiting to see they sky blue eyes open again. Allen's eyes slowly opened. He painfully pulled himself up, and he sighed and looked sorrowfully at his wrists. Only, it didn't look as if he was sad because he did it, but sad that it didn't work. Kanda touched Allen's arm. "Allen." Allen looked at him in shock. " Kanda…"

The world we knew
Won't come back
The time we've lost
Can't get back
The life we had
Won't bleed us again

This world will never be
What I expected
And if I don't belong

Allen looked away quickly. "Kanda…. I'm.."

"Stupid." Kanda finished. Allen looked up. "Excuse me?"

"You're stupid… How could you have done that? How could you be that stupid?" Kanda asked, grabbing Allen's arm. Allen blinked, then looked away again. " You wouldn't understand." Kanda glared darkly, growling lightly. "I… wouldn't understand.. Is that what you just said? " Allen didn't look back, and didn't say anything. Kanda forced Allen to look at him. "Allen…. Of course I don't understand. You never said anything. Never even gave me a hint that something was wrong. I want to understand. Why can't you just tell me?"

"Because it wasn't your burden to bear."

Even if I say
It'll be alright
Still I hear you say
You want to end your life
Now and again we try
To just stay alive


Maybe we'll turn it around
'Cause it's not too late
It's never too late
Maybe we'll turn it around
'Cause it's not too late
It's never too late (It's never too late)
It's not too late
It's never too late

Allen gasped in surprise when Kanda embraced him, holding him closely. " You stupid beansprout. It doesn't have to be just your burden. I can help you. Just let me." He whispered quietly. Allen couldn't fight back the tears as he clutched to Kanda, unable to do anything but hide his face in Kanda's surprisingly warm form. Kanda held Allen as the younger boy sobbed into his chest, revealing a pain that he had hidden for so long. They stood like that long after Allen had finally stopped sobbing, and had fallen asleep again. Kanda allowed one tear to fall.

".. Allen."

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Lunar: There ya guys go, I updated.