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Ten minutes later Kyle still felt a little overwhelmed. He couldn't get used to the idea that he was now a father. Sure he had thought about kids in the past. Everybody does at some point in their lives. He had imagined that many years in the future he might have children with Amanda. But that was all. Just a few vague fantasies about the future .
Another more minor but quite incredible surprise was how well Jessi took the news. After the first few horrified moments where they were both panicking she carefully took their baby in her arms and seemed to get over her panic and instantly fall in love. He had never seen Jessi like this. So calm and happy. As she took the baby to the bathroom to wash her up and make some clothes to keep warm she couldn't seem to stop smiling and gently caressing her. Kyle had to admit he was feeling both a little jealous and ashamed. When he saw baby in the arms all he could think about how was unprepared he was to be a father. And every time he saw how lovingly Jessi looked at her he felt uncomfortable. Was there something wrong with him?
To distract himself from these feelings he began to research the information but it wasn't easy
"Hey there are you all right? I am going to wash off this slime ok? Just relax it's actually really nice and"Kyle tried to tune out Jessi but it wasn't easy. It was a bit weird to see her talk to the baby. Most mothers Kyle had seen used what he understood was called a baby talk but Jessi had her own unique way as always. And the baby seemed to enjoy it. She was looking at Jessi with wide open eyes and a big smile "All right! See cleaning up wasn't bad. Wait till you see how fun it is in a bathtub. Your daddy even sleeps in one" Kyle was startled by this. To say so in the open seem to make the situation even more real
"Kyle ? Kyle?"
'Ahh yes Jessi?" he really had to start focusing more
"I said did you find out something more about her?" Jessi said with a frustrated sigh which annoyed Kyle a bit. He just found out he was a father. He thought that this entitled to be a little distracted
"Yes. Most of it's technical data on her progress she is very healthy by the way. It looks like she was created a week after they thought they terminated me. Originally the plan was for a boy but the first two experiments in creating a male offspring yielded no results…"
"So she wasn't either" murmured darkly Jessi
" She is technically thirteen months old or four months old as far as regular babies go. Her official classification is Subject 791278. The rest is mostly technical data"
"The bastard didn't even give her a name" said an angry Jessi" Wash your hands."
"What?" asked a confused Kyle
"I want you to hold the baby and you don't hold babies with dirty hands"
"Oh right" said Kyle as he quickly washed his hands. And then he was confronted with an experience that froze him on the spot. Holding his daughter . She was now clean and wrapped up in pieces of Jessi's sweater which fit nicely and kept her warm. She felt so tiny and despite the he knew for sure that she was safe in his arms she still felt uneasy about holding her. What if he were to drop her? But then all calculations about most efficient holding positions and probabilities of injury came to a crashing halt as he stared in the face of the baby girl. And saw Jessi's eyes staring back at him. This really was without a doubt their baby. He could see it in her face. Recognize himself and Jessi in her every feature. He could even feel the connection. It wasn't the strong electric feeling like with Jessi but it was there. He reached out…
"Stop" he abruptly turn to see Jessi sitting on the computer with a worried expression" I don't think it's wise to try and connect with her on such a level Kyle. She is still a baby. I am not sure if her mind will be able to handle a connection with either of us yet"
Kyle stopped disappointed. He knew that she right and that he should have thought of it himself but….he really wanted to get over this fear and panic. He wanted to feel the same connection to his daughter that Jessi somehow effortlessly developed
"You are right" he said and to take his mind of this issue he asked "What are you doing exactly?"
"I brought a little present" she said with what he came to know as her naughty grin while showing a flash drive" It's a special virus I designed. It's almost like a very early version of A.I. It can be masked as any data and activated under specific conditions. It's undetectable. The digital version of the information is stored in an outside location but it's still updated regularly by data bursts and then bounced from server to server each checking out any possible danger until it reaches the final computer"
"Are you sure it will completely destroy the data?" he knew very well how hard it was to destroy any digital information beyond recovery
"No it doesn't work like that. I know Taylor. I suspect the information will be dumped somewhere else as soon the system detects any danger. I can't make a virus who is both subtle enough to pass the security and fast enough to destroy completely all the data before any countermeasures are taken. No I did something better. I decided not to destroy the files at all
"What?" he thought that the whole point of this was to erase all the information about their….about the baby
"I did something better. The virus will cause a massive surge in the electric system which will fry the entire hard drive "she said very pleased "there won't be enough of the computer left to retrieve anything'
"Couldn't this hurt somebody? The electrical surge might cause the computers to explode"
"I don't think we will get that lucky" responded Jessi sadly.
"So are you ready?" he asked hoping that going back on the road would improve things a bit and still feeling uncomfortable with holding the baby
"In a second, we still have to burn this place" Kyle was not exactly happy with committing so much destruction but he knew Jessi had a point
And so a few minutes later they left with the laboratory behind them engulfed in flames. Thankfully Jessi took the baby back while Kyle made sure he moved the guard far enough so that he would be safe
Finally they all got in the car and Kyle prepared for a long trip. This time it was far from relaxing ride. Kyle had a hard time concentrating with Jessi and the baby next to him. Seeing how nervous he was Jessi tried to send him a few encouraging smiles and make some small talk but while he tried to oblige he was way too preoccupied with troubling thoughts .So he switched the radio on the radio and tried to use a few meditating techniques to bring some order to his thoughts. Jessi who was meanwhile busy trying to explain the principles of the internal combustion engine to the baby didn't seem to mind. The baby itself seem more preoccupied with trying to grab Jessi's nose then with her story of what makes the car move
And so for a while Kyle began to relax. The combination of music and the soothing voice of Jessi who proceeded to explain the function of trees, the atmosphere and pretty much anything they saw as well the occasional happy sound from the baby made him calm down and start thinking about the situation. He knew that the first thing he must do was talk with Nicole and Stephen. Then he had to look for Adam Baylin and Foss. They must have some idea on how to deal with the situation. And Amanda ……no he didn't want to think about Amanda right now . He had enough problems to bring up this pain again. No he had to concentrate on this. He wondered if he should call Nicole right now to prepare them …and then as Kyle sneaked a casual glance at Jessi to see how they are doing he lost all thoughts of calling Nicole and nearly lost control of the car as well. Hitting the breaks hard Kyle took a few long breaths to calm himself. Strangely enough the baby seem to really enjoy the sudden stop as she began to laugh
"Kyle what happened" asked a concerned Jessi
"Jessi why are you naked?" asked a very startled Kyle. When he turned to look why Jessi had stopped explaining how the Solar System was formed the last thing he expected to see was her sitting topless.
"She looks hungry" explained Jessi as if this was the most natural thing in the world. Although he guessed it actually was. Still seeing her like this for some reason affected him even more then the shower incident. Probably because he nearly got them killed or because Jessi didn't seem intent on putting her shirt and bra back on.
"You are going to breastfeed her?"
"Yeah. I finally got these working" said Jessi while squeezing her breast. An action that did very interesting things to Kyle's blood pressure and some other parts of him "they not very productive. Although I guess it's partly my fault. I don't think they were designed to be suddenly switched on and work overtime"
Kyle didn't really know what to say to this so he started the car again and tried hard not to pay attention to Jessi feeding the baby. And watching to the road paid off. He saw his salvation
"There is a gas station a few miles ahead. We should stop to refuel and maybe buy some thing for the baby" Kyle suggested eagerly
"Oh good idea Kyle I hope they have some diapers. We might need them soon"
And so ten minutes later Kyle found himself pumping gas and for a few precious minutes alone with his thoughts. With no distraction from the baby or Jessi and her …and Jessi . Now that he finally got some alone time he knew he would be able to concentrate and deal with…
"Kyle!! No way what are you doing here man?" and Kyle turned to see Declan walking excitedly towards him.
"Oh hi Declan." said Kyle without much enthusiasm. Declan was his best friend and normally he would gladly speak with him but when it came to more sensitive issues Declan rarely gave helpful advice "Jessi and I were tracking down a lead and well a lot has happened"
"Road trip with a hottie ? Nice one Kyle. This is even better then my idea to hit that old bar I know" said Declan and then with a grin added "So what did happen?"
"Well…"Kyle started but then he saw Jessi holding tightly the baby in one hand and the groceries in the other going out of the shop so he decided to sum it up with "see for yourself"
Kyle felt a bit relieved that Declan was also stunned to Jessi with a baby. For a while he wondered if he was the only one who thought that this situations was a bit crazy
"Jessi? What are you doing with…who's baby is this?"
"Ours" answered Jessi once again keeping her cool.
"What? But we never did.. I mean we just kissed and…." Kyle knew he shouldn't laugh but he couldn't help but be slightly amused at how much Declan was freaking out.
"No I mean mine and Kyle's" said a slightly confused Jessi
"Oh wait you two? Seriously?"
"Yes. It's a long story…"Kyle never got the chance to finish as a long screech nearly took out his hearing
"OH MY GOD" squealed Hillary who appeared seemingly out of nowhere "Kyle 'boyscout' Trager and Jessi 'bad girl' Hollander have a secret love child!!! This…."
"I am not a bad girl'
"I am not a member of the boy scouts"
But both Jessi and Kyle's objections were ignored by Hillary who seemed to be in a very happy place
"…is the greatest day of my life. I never thought that I personally would stumble upon such a juicy piece of gossip" and before Kyle could react or even think of what to say Hillary walked away literally with a skip in her step and started texting with an almost inhuman speed
"Well there goes the secret" said an amused Jessi while tickling the baby's tummy.
'Sorry man I should have told you I brought Hillary along" said Declan feeling a little guilty about the consequences of involuntarily letting Hills anywhere near this
"It's ok. But we should talk about this later. I wouldn't want the Tragers to find out about this from a text message" he really didn't and he just hoped that gossip didn't "spread as fast as the light" like Lori used to say
And after a quick goodbye they headed for the road again.
Fifteen minutes into the trip they were very grateful for the newly bought diapers as the baby made it's first gift to the cycle of nature. And Jessi surprised him again when instead of cleanly disposing of the dirty diaper she wrapped it in a ball and hurled it straight at a van parked at a restaurant near the road. Her aim was impressive as the diaper splattered quite spectacularly.
"Jessi why did you do that?" asked a very puzzled Kyle. This was weird even for Jessi
"There was something about the logo on that van that really annoyed me" said a scowling Jessi
"You mean ABC Family? You know…now that you mentioned it there is something annoying about it" he didn't know what it was but the mere name invoked images of sheer stupidity.
After that little incident they quickly made their way to home. Just like they expected they found it empty. The family had still not returned from their trip to the college Lori was interested in.
And so he ended up waiting with Jessi and the baby in the kitchen. Somehow the situation seems more even more strange now that they were at home. Even Jessi looked tense. The awkward silence was interrupted by the sound of the baby crying. Jessi quickly anticipated it's desire and began feeding it again. This time Kyle wasn't freaked out. The sight of Jessi feeding the bab….their daughter with so much love in her face was really beautiful. For the first time since this whole mess started Kyle felt strangely at peace
'I am sorry" Jessi suddenly said. She seemed even more tense now. The peaceful expression from before was completely gone. Luckily the baby didn't notice and just kept feeding
"For what?
"For the way I behaved" said Jessi while avoiding eye contact with him
"I don understand what you…."started a confused Kyle
"Look I am not that naïve Kyle. I understand that with a baby your life will never be the same, I understand how Amanda will react, I understand that nothing will normal again…but I was so happy I just wanted to pretend that everything was all right for a while." Kyle felt very uncomfortable hearing this . He wanted to believe that he was a good guy who will always do the right thing but …was this why he was so disturbed by the whole situation? Not because of the baby but because his life would never be normal again? Was this why couldn't bring himself to see her the same way Jessi did.. Because if he accepted this baby with all his heart it would be the end for Amanda ? Because any resemblance he had of a normal life would be shattered with this constant reminder of how different he was? He hated thinking that he was that selfish but a small part of him just couldn't help it. He loved his life, he loved Amanda. Was he ready to give all this up for a baby that wasn't even really his but an experiment from Taylor?
"She means a lot to me" continued Jessi with the same sad expression "and I will never abandon her. But you have your own life and you never asked for this. It wasn't your choice it was just another one Taylor's plots. I….will understand if you chose to live your own life…. I can lie. I will tell everybody that it's just my kid. Declan would cover for us and we can always convince Hillary that she misunderstood the situation. Nobody would believe that you would have a kid with me anyway "she added quietly and then taking a deep breath she looked him straight in the eyes and said with confidence that seemed a little too fake to Kyle she said " I can do this by myself"
'Jessi I…" Kyle started but he didn't know what to say. He knew what he should say. What was the right thing to do but a small part of him was tempted by Jessi's offer. To be normal again, to have Amanda back , to have his old life. Would it be so wrong? He would still be there to help Jessi after all. Did it really matter if they kept one more secret?
But then before he could finish his internal debate they heard the door open and soon enough they saw the Tragers come in and abruptly stop at the sight of Jessi.
"Holy crap that's a baby" said Lori in her "freaking out" voice as Josh called it
" Jessi what….why…where did this baby come from?" Nicole was trying hard to keep her professional demeanor but it was obvious that she was also stunned
Stephen didn't say anything. He just stood and watched with a horrified expression. He had grown to like Jessi. Having such an honest teenager around was a dream and seeing her standing with a baby like this was bringing old nightmares reserved exclusively for overprotective fathers
As for Josh he reacted in what should have been a predictable matter concentrating not so much on the baby as on….
"Boobs" said a very wide eyed and happy Josh
Kyle sighed. This day just couldn't get any worse
Wow. I didn't expect this story to get such a positive response. Thanks to everybody who reviewed. It's nice to see people enjoying my story. Sadly I am not sure when I am going to post the next chapter. I still haven't decided on what way to go. If Kyle should dump Jessi and the baby(in a very polite way of course ) and get back with Amanda of if he should get over his fears and tried to make his strange new family work. So it may take a while since either decision would have a major impact on the story. That and I am not sure about a name for the baby.
In the meantime don't forget to join the effort of Saving Kyle XY. Sign the petitions, send the letter, call them on the phone and of course write your own fan fiction so we can show these guys that Kyle XY fans are not only loyal but creative :)
By the way I don't encourage in any way or form to use diapers or anything else against ABC family and their property but I had a vent a little . I am still very annoyed at what they did to the show :)