Chapter 5: Notes
That night I dreamt about Edward and the note. I dreamt he was there with me but he was running away from me. I called to him but he never heard me and as fast as I ran I could not catch him like the dreams I used to have when we first met. I thought about the note. Was it from him? If it was what did he want?
The next day I just wanted to put the whole note business behind me and forget about it. But this person had other things in mind. Charlie had gotten up early and was gone by the time I got up. I thought this note person would just leave me alone; they had had their fun, they got to see me breakdown. I thought they would leave me alone but I was wrong. I walked downstairs and the doorbell rang. I answered it and there was another note just lying there on the doorstop.
The notes kept coming. Everyday a note would appear on the doorstep and it would say the same thing as the last, two words 'Be Safe'. It was really beginning to get annoying but of course I never told anyone, they would most likely just think I was planting them to get attention or something. So I kept my mouth shut; this was my problem, I would deal with it.
Weeks past, then months. Everyday a note would be delivered to my doorstep. Then one day they stopped. I went outside to retrieve the note before Charlie had woken up like I do every morning. To my shock I found nothing, no note, no nothing. I walked inside wondering why had they given up, whoever they were, what was so special about today.
I looked up at the calendar in our kitchen to see what day it was. Something I had forgotten about had hit me, it was our anniversary, it was the anniversary of Edward and I. Two years ago today we had confessed our love for each other in our meadow. Was that why the notes had stopped? Were they leading up to today? But why if it really was him, why torture me for months to lead up to our anniversary?
I didn't know what to do, I needed to be alone, my emotions were taking over. So I wrote a note to Charlie that said I was going out for a while and I would be back soon. I ran I didn't even know where I was going til I had arrived. I had run to our meadow, it was like an invisible pull had hold of me and had lured me here.
As all the memories came flooding back I began to feel weak and fell on the ground crying. The sky dimmed and I decided it was time for me to start heading home. I was surprised Charlie hadn't sent out a search party by now considering the time. He probably just guessed I needed some alone time.
When I got home Charlie had ordered pizza for dinner since I was not home to make anything. He offered me some but I told him I wasn't hungry and went straight to bed.