A/N: sorry i haven't updated in ages. Well, here's the next chapter. Hope you like it.

Chapter 9: Where's Bella?

EPOV

As we neared Bella's house her intoxicating scent hit me just like it had on the first day in biology. I could feel the venom as it began fill my mouth. Being with her I had got used to her scent and the awkward feeling of being thirsty all the time, but I have not been near her for a long time my body longed to drink her blood once again. I ignored her scent not wanting anything to distract me from saving her. The feeling quickly dissolved as her scent was washed away and the smell of smoke filled the air. My family all tensed they smelled the smoke and Jasper was too distracted to send calming waves to us. We all sped up racing to find Bella and see if she was okay. The closer we drove to Bella's house the stronger the smell got. I could hear the worry coming from my family as we continued to drive forward even Rose was worried and she didn't even like Bella much. We pulled into Bella's driveway and saw the source of the smoke. Bella's house was engulfed in flames. I jumped out of my car a little to fast for a human but no one noticed. All those that were there were crowded around as the watched the fire-fighters try to put out the flames. I began to run into the flames but I felt two strong hands grab hold of me. I struggled against them as I tried to run and save Bella. I had nearly escaped when another two grabbed hold of me. I turned around growling, I could tell that my eyes would be pitch black by now. Jasper and Emmett both had a strong hold on me. "Let go off me right now" I growled. I saw the hurt in their eyes they obviously where having a very hard time and did not like to tell me what to do.

"Sorry bro, we are trying to protect you" Emmett thought.

"I don't need protecting, I need my Bella" I snarled at him.

"Edward. Try to think logically please." Carlisle begged me.

"I don't want to think logically Carlisle. I just want Bella"

"Edward if she was in there she is already dead. There is no bringing her back and if you go in there you will die as soon as you step through the door. She wouldn't want you to die Edward. She wanted you to be happy"

"I left her Carlisle. She hates me." I said although I assumed that was wrong. Bella could never hate someone, some how she always found a way to turn it back on herself. Maybe I was a special case and she did hate me. I didn't want her to hate me but I knew I deserved it for doing what I did. "You don't know what it is like to have to leave to protect the person you love. What it is like to have to say to her that you don't love her anymore and have her believe it. To not be able to comfort her when she starts to cry at something you did to her…" I yelled at him but not loud enough that the humans could hear me. I looked at my family and saw their hurt. Why did I have to hurt everyone that I love, why couldn't I have been strong enough to leave Isabella Swan alone to live a normal life rather then get close to her and have to break her heart to protect her? Her face flashed through my mind as I had told her we were leaving. Her beautiful chocolate brown eyes as they realised what I was saying to her. That was the worst day of my life, The day I had to tell the worst lie I have ever had to tell, The day I broke an angel.

A police officer brought me back to reality as he cleared his throat. I looked around and saw the fire had now been extinguished. He walked into the crowd and began to speak. "Further investigation will be needed to discover the cause of this fire but we do have some information we can tell you. I am sorry to inform you but two bodies have been discovered to have perished in the fire, one male and one female…" if I had a heart it would have stopped at that moment. Two bodies a male and a female that must be Charlie and Bella. My angel is dead and it is all my fault, I have killed an angel. I looked at those around me they had all moved closer to their families and had begun to cry. At that moment I wished I could cry, just for that moment so I could let out all the sorrow that was building up in my chest. Luckily no humans were paying attention to me so I ran as fast as I could to the woods. I saw Emmett put out his hands to try and stop me but I was to fast for him. As I ran I could hear all the thoughts around me, the thoughts of the townspeople hurt the most. Images of Bella and Charlie ran through their mind smiling and laughing and then images of Bella once I had left. She was so empty and lifeless like an empty shell and Charlie was not the same fun loving person as before not after seeing his daughter so depressed. They were excruciating to watch but I did watch this was a small punishment for all the pain I had put her through.

I arrived at the meadow, dropped to the ground and began to tearlessly sob. She's gone, my love's gone and she's left me just like I left her but she can't come back from where she's gone, she can never come back. Why couldn't I have gone in her place why couldn't a monster be killed instead of an angel? It's my fault, I should have been there to protect her but I left her and she died. She died thinking I didn't love her. If she isn't going to live neither am I. I will go to Italy and demand the Volituri kill me as I had planned when she nearly died in the ballet studio with James.

My phone started to vibrate in my pocket making me jump. Normally I would not jump at anything but I had been in deep concentration and was disconnected from the outside world. I pulled my phone from my pocket and looked at caller ID. I mentally cursed myself of course Alice would see my plan why had I not thought about her.

"Hello Alice" I answered calmly.

"Don't you dare Edward. I had a vision of you and you are defiantly NOT going to Italy." I heard gasps in the background from my family Alice had not told them her vision before ringing me.

"Alice she's gone there's no point of living without her. Imagine how you would feel if Jasper died." I heard her growl at the thought. "Exactly my point there's nothing for me on earth anymore without her."

"But Edward think about us were your family we can't lose you as well as Bella." She pleaded. "We will miss Bella too but we need to help each other through this" They would never miss her as much as me. They would never feel the pain I would have to feel for my existence. My love was gone and it was my fault despite what my family says.

But if I left for Italy I would never know what happened to my Bella, who was responsible for her death. Something was defiantly wrong and I would find out what.

"Okay Alice I won't go to Italy" I sigh pretending to sound defeated, yet I added in my mind.

"Thankyou Edward we will get through this as a family" She said

"Bye Alice I will be at the house in a while" I told her

"Bye Edward" she answered then hung up.

It took a week for the police to finally leave the place where Bella's house used to stand. Everyday and night I stood in shadow of the trees only leaving if my family begged me or if I needed to hunt. I stayed maybe hoping to get some information about the fire or maybe hoping that by some miracle Bella would be alive and come to me I don't know which but she never came she was gone forever and I would never get her back. I sat and thought about her, her eyes, her hair, everything. I just stared at the picture of her I had memorised in my mind.

Finally the police left and I was free to come out of the shadows. I came out once I was sure everyone had left, I walked amongst the ruins. Some of the house was still standing, so I crept up the brittle stairs and into Bella's room. I saw the remains of her bed I used to sit every night and wait for her to have her 'human moment'. I would wait patiently for her to come back which felt like an eternity. Then she would walk back into the room and her beauty would hit me once again. But she isn't here and will never again walk into the room for me to marvel at her beauty.

I looked around the room remembering everything that had happened here, like when I used to sit outside the window when she did not know I was there, the first night she knew I was there, every night after when I would sit in the rocking chair and wait for her to wake, how I would listen to her voice when she talked in her sleep and my dead heart would jump when she said my name and when she had a bad dream I would lay beside her and comfort her. I wanted to do all these things again anything that made her happy I would do a million times over.

As I looked around the room thinking of all my memories with her I noticed a small speck of white in the black ashes. I picked it up and read the two words on it, my two words that I left with Bella when I went hunting out of state. It said 'Be Safe' my words but not my handwriting. My suspicions were confirmed, some thing was defiantly wrong.

The wind changed direction so the smell of ashes was blown away from me but another smell took over. The faint smell of an unfamiliar vampire, a vampire had hurt my Bella and was going to pay for what they had done with their life if it the last thing I do.