Chapter 13
Darkness had began to set and they hadn't returned yet. "Mom, why aren't they back yet?" I asked trying to choke back tears. "Honey, they will be back soon." She said calmly stroking my hair. I turned my attention back to the tv, where Jasper and Emmett were dualing on Tekken. Like always Emmett was winning. "Hey Ness, you wanna play? You'll be a better match than ol' Jazzy boy here." "Sure." I said as Jasper tossed me the controller and let out a small hiss toward Emmett. I scrolled through the cast of characters and finally chose my all time favorite Yoshimitsu and like always Emmett chose Law. After two rounds we were tied, and duking it out to see who would win. Just as I was about take the win, the door swung open and my dad and Jake came walking in. I glanced up at Jake and his once warm brown eyes were still cold and distant. "Nessie, we need to talk." Jake said harshly as he just walked right by and headed straight into the kitchen.
Tossing the controller to Jazz, I slowly got off the couch and followed him to the kitchen. "Jake..." I began but he cut me off. "Listen Ness, Edward told me everything, but I still can't believe it. It is all to much to handle right now. I finally find you after run away and then I'm kidnapped and order, along with your family to be executed. Then we rescue you and this morning you tell me you're pregnant. It is all just to much." He began, I was left at a loss of words. I knew nothing could be said that make things any things less complicated. "Ness, I just need some time to sort everything out, so I have decided to return to La Push for a little bit." His words ripped my heart. I had just got him back and I am already losing him. Not wanting to hear anymore I took off running to my room. This couldn't be happening not now. The rest of the night I stayed locked in my room, with the radio blaring so loud that my ears threatens to bleed.
The next morning I woke feeling better than I have in little over than a week, until the conversation from the last night seeped into my mind and ruined it. Slowly, I pulled myself from my comfy bed, that still had Jake's imprint in the mattress, and went to take a shower. Today I was returning to school again. I wonder what the excuse for our absence will be this time. I know they'll figure it out something. This wasn't something I was looking forward to, having to face the harsh reality that Jake left me. After my shower and in the comfort of my favorite sweats and one of Jake's over-sized shirts he let me borrow, I made my way back to my room and sat on the bed and rub my hand over Jake's imprint. "Ness, we've gotta go." My dad said as he peeked into my room. "Baby girl, don't worry he will return. You know with you're being his imprint he won't be able to stay away for too long. Just give him sometime." He said as his kissed my forehead. I grabbed my bag and walked out behind him.
School drug on, everything for some reason reminded me of Jake. Of course still having Leah in all my classes didn't help any. After the last bell rang I sprinted to the car, hoping that the rest of my family would already be there. I wanted nothing more than to escape back to my room and sulk. No luck. "Renesmee!" Leah yells from across the parking lot. She came running dragging Calvin behind her. "Renesmee, have you seen Jacob?" "He went back to La Push, for a little while." Slowly a smirk cross her face. "I knew that it wouldn't be long before you would send him running. Like mother, like daughter." She began to laugh as she walked away. I had thought that we were passed all the hatred. What did she mean by that. Moments later they finally showed up and we went home.
What Leah said kept tugging at me. I know that they are best friends. "Mom, can we talk?" "Sure sweetie. What do you want talk about?" "You and Jake." A puzzled look swept for a moment. "What about me and Jake?" "Well at school today, Leah told me I was just like you, because I sent Jake running. What did she mean about that?" "It is a complicated story." "Oh I think my young fragile mind can comprehend it." Sarcasm beginning to drip from my mouth. "It was a long time ago, it doesn't matter now." Why don't she want me to know? What happened between them? My curiousity was even more peeked. "Tell me now!" "Renesmee Carlie Cullen, don't raise your voice." "Then tell me what really happened between you and the love of my life!" "Dammit Nessie! Sit down if you must know, but be forewarn you won't like it." I sat down on the couch and listened about how Jake helped her get over my dad when he left and how she fell for him, but her love for my father was stronger. She was right, it wasn't a story I wanted to hear. Who wants to learn that are dating a person that their parent once dated? It is like a demented soap opera. But she did assure me that Jake was mine.
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Weeks passed slowly, days were beginning to blur together and Jake hadn't returned. The hole in my heart grew larger until it nearly consumed it. I was to the point where I refuse to leave my room except to go to school and hunt. Without Jake my reason for existence was nearly gone, execpt for the small version of him growing within. I can't take it anymore, and I know what I have to do. Slowly opening the window, I make my escape. The ground is soggy from the rain, and I nearly fall, but I catch myself. La Push was 2000 miles away and I was determined to make it there before the sun rose in a few hours. But how do I make it when I constantly drained of energy. Sneaking into the garage, I search hoping that one of my family members were forgetful. Yea, Uncle Emmett left the keys in his jeep. Cranking the jeep I slammed it into the reverse and rushed down the drive way. I didn't make it to far before the Jeep came to an abrupt stop. I glance into the rear-view mirror and saw Uncle Emmett glaring at me. Putting the jeep in park, I cut it off and climbed out.
"What the hell do you think you were doing?" "I was going to get Jake back. I can't take it pain is killing me." I said breaking down. "Ness sweetie, don't cry. I'll drive you to the edge of La Push limits. Ok." Shaking my head yes, I climb into the passenger side, and we sped off into the night. We arrived at the edge of La Push. "Be careful ok kiddo, and meet me back here in a hour." He said as I climbed out of the jeep and began sprinting to Jake's house. A place I haven't been since I was about 2 in human years, or 8 in my half-vampire years. Slowly walking around the side of the one story house, and found Jake's room. Like always he was sleeping with the window open. Making my way silently into his room, I stumble crashing hard to the floor, startling Jake from his asleep. Turning on his lamp he, came to inspect the noise to find me lying on the ground staring at him. "Hi." I said sheepishly. "Ness what are doing here?" He whispered. His eyes still callous. "I couldn't take it anymore. I missed you so much that I can barely function." He just stares at me his face indifferent. "Ness," he sighs, "I can't return yet. I not ready. Where's your locket I've got you?" He says trying to change the subject.
I can tell in his eyes he is hiding something. "I gave it Jasmine, in return to help me protect baby Jacob." I say answering his question, still studying his face. "Jacob, what are you hiding from me? What is the real reason you haven't came back?" Letting out a sigh he glances away, not before I catch a glimmer pain radiating in his eyes. "Listen Ness, the real reason I haven't return is." He pauses for a moment to take a deep breath, and looks deep within my eyes. "Honestly, when I left I didn't plan on coming back. I can't handle this life. It is to overwhelming. Always having to look over my shoulder to make sure you're safe, and making sure that one those blood suckers aren't going to kill me, is something I can no longer handle." Tears began to fall. "But I thought you loved me, and what about this baby?!" "I do love you, but I can't live like that anymore. When me and family nearly died because of one leech's sick fantasy, it got me thinking. And I'm sorry." I couldn't blame him, who wants to live a life of constant perils, but it didn't ease the pain any.
"I understand Jake, and I don't blame you. But remember this I'm not the only person you left." I said as I climb back out the window and ran back to Emmett's jeep. "Nessie, what's wrong?" "I don't want to talk about it, let's go home." He quickly turned the jeep around and sped back to Jamestown. Arriving at the house I was met by two angry parents, glaring at me. "Get the answers you wanted?" My dad said coldly. "NO! He is never coming back!" I shouted as I rushed upstairs, with my mom in hot pursuit. I just needed to be alone. That saying better be right. The one that says time heals all wound.
A/N: I getting ready to switch things up a little. I know this is kind of depressing right now, but I promise it will get better. Like always let me know what you think.