Chapter 16
Nessie's P.O.V.
Dr. Bugress arrived at Rachael's house in a matter of minutes. I could definitely see where Calvin got his good looks from, he was the spitting image of his father. I followed Paul and Dr. Bugress to the spare bedroom and stood by my dad as I watch them examine Jake. My heartbeat was erratic and so were my thoughts. Gently squeezing my hand, my dad tried to let me know that everything would be alright, but I wouldn't believe it until I saw his brown eyes flutter open. "Well doc?" Paul asked, as all of our eyes went straight to the doctor. "He'll be just fine, just let him rest. This is all from stress." A slight rush of relief swept over me. At least he would be alright. "Let me go tell Rachael." Paul said as he excused himself from the room. "Come on Ness, let's get you home. You need your rest." My dad said as he tried to pull from me the room. With my feet firmly planted on the ground I was nearly impossible to move. "Just let me tell Jake bye first." He nodded in agreement. I walked over to my sleeping giant and placed my hand on his cheek. Before the first the thought could flow, a small smile tugged at the corner of his mouth. At least he still felt something for me. "Jake, I have to go back home, but I'll be back first thing tomorrow. I promise. I love you with all my heart. Remember I am just a call away." I told him mentally.
That night sleep evaded me, as I laid there worrying about Jake. I know he was dealing with alot and all I wanted to do was help him cope, let him that eventually everything would be alright. But something told me right now he just needed space. That this was something that he wanted to deal with his own. Maybe this time he won't shut the world out. Slowly rolling from my bed, I got dress in a comfortable pair of sweat pants and a large shirt. My new clothes that Alice bought me last week were already to small. . As I walked down the stairs I could hear my family whispering about something. It was hard to understand, the only word I caught was Jake. I felt my heart sank as I rushed down the stairs. "What about Jake?" I ask breathlessly. "Honey, we didn't hear you get up." My mom said, avoiding the question. "I've been up for a few minutes. Now what about Jake?" They all lowered their eyes to floor. Emotions began to sweep over, and tears began cascading down my face. "Listen sweetie, Jake woke up some time last night and took off." My mom said with a heaviness in her voice. This was just like him, every time that life threw him a curve ball he would run. "He'll be back right?" No one answered, but their eyes said it all. I felt the barely mended hole in my heart, rip wide open. Not knowing what else to do, I did what I did best. I ran back to my room and locked the door. If he could forget about the world, so could I.
Jake's P.O.V.
After a few hours, I awoke with still a heaviness that I have never known. I knew one day he would slip into the great unknown, I just didn't expect it would be so soon. A time when I still needed him. I know that I promise myself that I would fix all the wrongs in my life, and become the man my dad worked hard to turn me into, but I barely recognize myself. I had drastically change within the past seven years, and the person I have became barely feels like me. There was only one thing to do, go discover myself, and return when I figure out who I truly am. Quietly, I leave the house and take to my sanctuary. The forest had became a place of thinking, reflection, and security. Running full speed through the woods, I felt free and relaxed. I had no cares. If I could feel like this forever I would never phase back to being a human, but I couldn't always run from my responsibilities and life each time something didn't go my way. After about a hour of running, I finally came across my and Nessie's favorite clearing; a place I haven't visited since she ran away trying to protect us. Just like always this place was so tranquil. Slowing my pace, I trotted into the middle where the rising sun began casting its golden rays. The sun was definitely was rare beautiful thing for this small place and I love how it warmth could ease my worrying mind. Phasing back, I laid down on the grass and began my long deep reflection.
Hours pass and the sun was high in sky. Still I haven't figure out who I was. The only thing I could think of was Nessie and my dad's passing. It was an ironic twist of fate that me leaving my own child, still needing a father, that my dad would pass away, with me needing him. Life has away of opening your eyes when you don't listen to it. Unfornutately it doesn't have a sense of mercy or compassion. "Jacob William Black, who are you?" I ask out loud, ready to answer my own question when I hear a small voice coming up behind me. Quickly turning around I see Nessie, her stomach was small and round. I hadn't realize how much she has changed and how much I have miss. "Hey." She says as a small smile quickly crosses her lips. "Hey, what are you doin' here?" I said as I feel my heart flutter and it felt so good. I have miss this reaction. "I should ask you the same thing. I needed some air, so I went for a walk, and this is where slowly gravitated to. You?" "Basically the same thing and a little self discovery?" I answer as I pat the ground next to me. Slowly she closes the distance between us and sits next to me. I can't help but to smile, and neither can she. How could I of thought that I could go through life avoiding this feeling.
"Any luck on the self discovery thing?" She ask her brown eyes staring compassionately into mine. "No." "You want to talk about it?" She ask innocently. "Sure. See in the past seven years I have change drastically from the care-free the person who ceased life, to someone I don't even recognize." "Like you have gotten older and your priorities have change. You're still the person from my mom's youth and my infant months, You're kind, loving, compassionate, generous, stubborn, pig-headed, funny, playful, youthful, trustworthy, loyal, aggressive in a good way, a leader, and so much more. In the past seven years all of our lives have change and we have all under went so form of growth. It is all a part of life." She was making sense. It was almost my dad talking to me. "I guess I haven't change really all that much. I've glad you were here.'' I hear her heart begin to race. "Ness angel?" "Yeah Jake?" "I'm sorry that I ran and abandon you. It was a stupid irresponsible thing, that I have always regretted. I promise that from this day forward I will always be there for you." Tears begin welling up in her eyes. Wrapping my arms around her I pull her into my lap and kiss her gently. The rest of the day we spend catching up of the past month of her pregnancy until the sun began to fade behind the trees. "Come on sweetie, let's get you home. I don't anyone to worry." She nodded and stood up. I could tell that she was exhausted. Scooping her up into my arms, she buried her head into my chest, and I carried her home. Things finally seem right again and almost everything was right with universe. Except for the hole that my dad tore in my heart as he exited the world. I guess that is one hole that will never go away. At least I know he is with mom, and they are both finally truly happy.
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