AN: Yes, i know I've been lacking in updates, but i was trying to find a route for this story. I hope you will all bare with me for this chapter, it will make sense when the next one is posted. like a Arc we must take
Ch 14
"Rory" Logan says walking into his office surprised to see me sitting in his chair behind his desk.
"We need to talk" I state and he walks to the desk and drop his briefcase there.
"Does Finn know you're here" he questions and I shake my head no.
"Rory, I know I was out of line at the party last week, but it's just something about you with Finn that kills me inside" he says sitting on the edge of the desk.
"When I found out you were getting married, with the note from Shira, I feel apart. I was at the darkest place inside me. It felt worse than losing the baby, because it was so final. I knew then you and I would never have the chance to fix what went wrong. To see if we really were meant to be together" I say twisting my ring on my left hand.
"You're engaged to one of my best friends and I have figure out how to look at you without wanting you, to look at him without hating him, I don't know if can do" he says and I look up at him.
"Finn's gone" I state and he's taken back. It's present on his face. "He left, I came home from work yesterday and he was waiting for me. He said that he was leaving and not to look for him. That he'll contact me when he's ready. He just walked away without giving me the option of going with him like he did" I tell him.
"Where did he go" he questions.
"I'm not sure. I called everywhere and I can't find him" I say shaking my head.
"So you came here" he asks still con fused and I nod.
"Like you said you're one of his best friends Logan, you know him better than I do. Colin is already crazy with prenatal care for Steph this morning that I didn't want to worry them just yet, but I came here, not as his fiancé, not as your ex girlfriend, but as a friend for your help to find him. I'm not sure where or what he's up too, but I'm scared. It's not like him to just leave and be so cold to me Logan. He tells me everything" I say controlling my urge to cry.
"Did you two fight, have argument" he questions pacing and trying to think.
"No, he's been quiet since the party" I tell him.
"Finn being quiet is something to worry about more than him leaving suddenly. Ace, he used to do this at Yale, he would just take off for a few days and then come back" he says and I nod. I do remember that.
"So you think I should just wait it out, wait for him with no questions about where he went" I question and he shrugs.
"If your relationship is as strong and committed as you think, he would have told you, I'm just saying so don't get mad. Normally Rosemary was the only one that knew, just in case she had a sudden urge to give in to him. Did you try her" He says and I lift his phone and call her cell.
"Hey its Rosemary, I'm currently busy with someone else. Leave a message and I'll call you back" the voicemail says.
"That's odd, it never goes straight to voicemail" he says.
"You think I don't know that, you think I'm not sitting here hating her right now because of the mere chance he's there. That he can run off with Rosemary without thinking about me" I yell and he looks at me.
"Rory, that means nothing. This is Finn we're talking about. Why would he spend so much time getting you to fall in love with him and then go to Rose? That's not him, if he loves you as he's told us repeatedly, then there's no way he would do that, why would he?" he says to me.
"For payback, to make me feel horrible for what happened at the party. To punish me for even being with you" I state.
"Ace, I love you but you need to stop watching those crazy nighttime soap operas" he laughs.
"Wait, what did you say?" I question.
"That I love you" he says looking at me.
"How can you, look at what you did to your life without me. How am I supposed to get over any of that? How am I supposed to stand here and know that you love me? I wanted that so much Logan for months, but nothing" I say standing up.
"You need to know that before you make the same mistake. I married Keira out of responsibility and we're divorced now because the baby isn't mine. I don't want you to make the mistake of marriage someone that your heart doesn't belong to" he says and I laugh.
"I do love Finn Logan. I do want to spend the rest of my life with him, if he needs space I'll give him that" I state.
"Why do you love him, maybe it's something I don't see" he states sitting down in his chair.
"When I'm with Finn, it's like I don't have to be perfect. I don't have to show people that I can be society Rory, or stars hollow Rory or New York Rory. I can just be me. He doesn't judge when I do something stupid. He accepts that I need to function in more than one world. And I accept him when he's being Finn. When he goes crazy in a bar or comes up with these crazy schemes of his, because that's who he is" I state.
"I didn't fit in did I" he says looking at his tie.
"You will always be the man that showed me that there was more in the world that what I saw. You will be the one that I took a chance on and it opened my eyes to world around me. Being with you Logan, was incredible and I would not change a thing. Even with all the fighting and breaking up, it was still everything to me. But I'm not prepared to do it again. But, we're not talking about us, we need to find Finn" I say and he lifts the phone calling Colin.
Half hour later we're all in Finn's apartment looking for clues as to where he is. Steph and I begin in the bedroom and she bursts out laughing at the painting.
"Well that's something Logan never got" she laughs.
"There were quite a few things that Logan didn't get Steph" I smirk as the boys walk in. Logan glances up and then at me.
"You know what, I don't want to know" he shakes his head.
"We found this" Colin says adding me a pencil shadowing of the pad from the den.
"Why would he go to Australia and not tell anyone, especially me?" I question sitting on the edge of the bed.
"Do you think it could be something with his family?" Steph questions as she sits down next to me and rubbing my back.
"If it is, it seems he doesn't want any of us there including me" I state standing up and pulling off my engagement ring and placing it on the night table.
"Ace, think about what you're doing, before you regret it" Logan says and I laugh.
"That's quite comical coming from you" I laugh walking out.
"Rory, wait" he yells and stop as I hit the hallway by the elevator.
"Rory, there has to be a logical reason why he didn't call you, don't give up something because of one mistake he made. You gave me so many chances to prove myself to you, maybe Finn needs one now. Give him time and he'll come home. Then talk, give him one of those Gilmore Lectures and he's realize what an ass he was" he says and shake my head.
"Logan, I learned one thing from you, little mistakes are common, but huge ones like this are most likely unforgivable and unforgettable" I state as the doors of the elevator close.