"its just so hard ya know? I had to pay off social services just to keep cori here. Gracie's in foster care, but I just want my sister back. But taking care of two kids? When one isn't mine?" she cried.

"wait…ash I thought both were you sisters…" She looked like a deer caught in the headlights. "okay…another conversation for another time." I said reassuring her. I already figured cori was hers. She couldn't be Gracie's because she's only around 15. She smiled and hugged me tighter.

"c'mon, we better go get her. She can watch a movie with us." she said standing up. I followed suit and we walked to the room across the hall. I heard a barney song playing out of a karaoke machine, as her little voice came through the speakers.

When we walked in, the cutest scene presented itself in front of my eyes.

"I wov ooh

Ooh wove me

Wets hang bwarnie

Fwom a twee

Wif a knife in te throught

And a bwullet in te head

Wets thank gwod that

Bwarnies dead!"

She sang the dirty version, undoubtedly taught by ash, in front of her Barbie and stuffed animal audience. "Yay!" screamed Ashley, running to cori, scooping hr up and holding her upside down, "again! Again!" cori yelled excitedly.

"no, c'mon corr, were going to go watch a movie with Spencer okay?" she said.

"otay." cori got down and came over to me, holding out her little hand for me to take. "okay." I say.

And were off.

The credits were rolling down the screen, and no one was getting up to shut the DVD player off. Not because we didn't want to. But because cori was laying across our laps and we couldn't move sleeping beauty here. "Ashley Danielle Davies." I said quietly "um…okay?" she said confused.

"nothing, just admiring how pretty it sounds."

"thanks Spencer Erin Carlin, yours too." she replied.

"mommy…mommy! No, no, no! please don't go!" yelled cori in her opened her tears stained eyes and said, "ashwee, I want mommy."

"I know sweetie." she said and lifted cori up to her chest as she nestled into her neck."ill go." I get up when Ashley stops me.

"please don't the nanny's gone for the weekend." she asked me to stay the night so I did.

"I won't leave you ash, I promise." I say right after I called my mom of course…who wasn't happy to actually make human contact with me. But was happy to get rid of me for the rested her head on my chest as cori still rested hers on Ashley's.

"when did you have her?" I ask out of the blue. "I was raped when I was 14, but I didn't have her till a few months after my 15th birthday. She's almost 3, just 2 more weeks." she told me.

"im glad you told me." I began. "you seem very proud to be her mom."

"I am…she's my baby girl." she says softly.

"you're a good mom, even if you're a sister." I say smiling. in response she leaned in a kissed my cheek.

"thanks" she said.

"anytime." The weekend went by quickly. Too quickly, if you ask me.

And for sure, im so in love with cori. When I left Sunday night, she totally started sobbing and saying: "don't!" and "please don't leave me!" so I promised to come over today, Tuesday. I couldn't yesterday because I had to baby sit these twin brats from across the street. Grr what monsters.

Im in Spanish class right now, its so boring. Not to mention that the teacher keeps staring at me…wait a sec! Every body is. Geez didn't there mother ever tell them not to stare. "miss carlin!"

Oh shit, did I day that out loud? "sorry" I mutter. The bell rings and I bolt out of here, I run into the bathroom and look in the mirror, nothing in my hair…nothing on my face…nothing on my…

.GOD!

Someone taped a sign on my back saying:

I MAY BE GAY BUT ILL FUCK ANYTHING WITH TWO LEGS

Can you believe that? Who ever did this is going to pay…big time! Ugh! I cant even think straight.

I rip the sign off, fold it up and shove it into my back pocket. When I walk out, people start laughing and pointing at me. I rush out the doors of the school.

Im running.

And running.

I find myself a the bus station and I know right away where im going to go. Ashley's house. Its 11:30 so I have 20 minutes until Cori's nap is over. What? I need to talk to someone, why not a 3 year old who understands me more then my own mother. Besides…I miss her.

I arrived at Ashley's house. Lets just say the nanny wasn't very happy to see some 16 year old girl, wanting to see a 2 year old…who isn't even hers. After an hour of interrogation, she let me pass. At least cori's nap I over. I walked into the room to see her sitting up and rubbing her eyes tiredly. Awe poor baby, she must of just got up. "cori!" I sing songed into the room.

"spencey!" she screamed and ran towards me. She crashed into my arms and hugged me tight. "hi baby, I came to play with you today. " I say still hugging her "I wov ooh." she said quietly.

" I love you too sweetie." I said smiling.

"Spencer…can you please, please, please! be my new mommy.?" she asked with wide eyes.

" we'll have to talk to Ashley okay?"

"otay."

For hours we played babies, watched barney, and even baked brownies…which of course ended in disaster. At 3 we were in her play room talking and giggling. About everything. That little 2 year old was, what I thought, the most beautiful little girl in the world. We heard the front door open and my ears picked up yelling, then a pause. Ashley must be mad at someone on the phone.

(on the phone)

"I don't care what the fuck you do, you will find out who did that, and then your going to kick their ass."

-pause-

"no, no, no. listen to me, if you don't find out who did that to Spencer, her rep could be ruined.

-pause-

"okay…"

-pause-

"alright…c-ya soon." I heard footsteps and then a gasp outside cori's door, across the hall.

"cori?" Ashley panicked. By that time I was sure she was going to have a heart attack. I picked up cori and walked out the playroom. Ashley was still calling cori's name, when I walked behind her. "Ashley…cori is right here." I say trying to stifle a laugh.

She turned with a smile.

"what are doing here?" she asks. I reached into my pocket and pull out the wrinkled note, handing it to her.

"do you know who did this?" she demanded.

Ooh, demanding. that's definitely hot. Ugh…answer her question dummy…friggin horn dog.

"I don't know…I saw it...then people started laughing at me…I came here." I saw her angry face, great. She's mad that I came over here uninvited. "sorry." I put cori down and started for the door

"wait! Im sorry. Im just so mad someone would do this to you." she says gently. she's not mad I came here? "your not mad im here?" I ask doubtfully.

"of course not."

Cori, who was watching from a distance was getting fidgety. "what's up with you cori?" ash asked her.

"canspencerbemynewmommy?" she asked at sonic speed. "um…what?" Ashley looked confusedly at me.

"please Ashley…please…!" cori whined gently. Almost sent me to tears seeing her like this. Ashley smiled slyly

"only if Spencer will be my girlfriend." she whispered.