I AM SO SORRY! my 1 month hiatus is over for good. there's been so much drama with moving into a new apartment and my parents getting a divorce. But it's a good thing so no worries here. XD I hope this update is good enough for ya, it would've been like double the length but considering its almost midnight on a Monday…well im sure my mom will walk in any minute telling me to…

I gotta go. :|

I couldn't think straight, cori was hugging my leg tightly as she fortunately cried as quiet as possible.

"cori…hide in the closet okay? And be very quiet." I whispered. She followed my instructions and quickly hid in the linen closet.

"um…Im sorry s-sir you h-h-have the wrong ad-dress." I stuttered. Just then he ripped through the door sending me to the ground in shock.

"bitch! I know ur lying. Where the slut's kid!?" he screamed at me. I jumped at Ashley's defense when he slapped me hard across the face. "don't you dare stand up to me." he sneers at me while he holds me up by my hair.

"please…don't hurt me! I swear, I don't know where cori is." I pleaded and begged but a noise in the closet snapped me back to reality and I saw his enraged eyes look at closet while knowing smile made its way onto his face. "oh cori.." he said in a cheery harmonistic voice.

Being the little naïve girl she is, she came out with a slight smile which disappeared when she saw the position I was in. he threw me on the ground. I heard cracking in my chest as I gasped in pain. He laid her on the ground and got on top of her as she whimpered and pounded on his chest with her little fists. "this only hurt for a little while pumpkin." he said with a fake caring voice.

"no please youre going to hurt her!" I screamed but it was too late, he was forcing his fingers into her, as she screamed in pain and agony, ripping her innocence out of her. I quickly got up and stumbled slightly as I threw myself at him causing him to fall. I grabbed the crying child and held her close to my chest . I kicked him in the head, causing him black out. I took this chance to run, so did.

I ran the 10 blocks to the hospital and am met with a very confused clerk. Cori had blood dripping down her leg as her hands cupped herself where she was violated. "please…can you help….us." I wheezed, as felt my ribs ache crack more.

"momma…my peepee hurts." cori cried as she was trying to wipe away the blood that was till pouring out of her.

"oh god, sweetie, ma'am, were getting help right now." the clerk says while rushing out to get a doctor.

We sat down and cori was hysterical. She was fidgety and screaming for Ashley and I, all I could do was hold her close and hope for a miracle. Oh god I need a miracle…

I was put on a stretcher right away, as cori was taken by the doctors. I winced and flinched repeatedly as they poked and prodded at my rib cage. They told me I broke my entire left half of my rib segments. No wonder it hurt like hell. I blacked out a few times but when I finally came to I would immediately ask where ash and cori were. The last time I blacked out was medical induced. They put me to sleep while they surgically removed the rib bone from my lung, almost causing it to collapse.

"uuuugh…" a mumble escapes me as I opened my eyes to see that I was in a hospital room.

"cori?" panic set ina nd I looked to the door. "ash?!"

"Spencer its okay. Im right here." someone said from beside me. I looked to my left and saw another bed in the room. Ashley was sitting up and reading a magazine as Gracie was sitting in a chair beside her, a bored expression in her face.

"where's cori?" I asked fearfully, thoughts went through me and my breathing started to thin out.

"she's getting some stitches…he ripped something important with his finger nails.." she said quietly anger replaced my fear and sadness overlapped both of them.

I looked at her with tears falling from my sad, worn eyes. " im so sorry ash…I should of protected her more. There's no excuse why I didn't." I said. Looking down ,I played with the flower designs on the off-white bedspread.

"Spence its okay, u do have an excuse. You broke an entire rib cage segment. I wouldn't be moving to fast either." she said. She slowly got up and hobbled over to my bed and sat down by my side.

"u know, even though she has gotten hurt Spence, it doesn't mean that I blame you. I should of known he would come back for her." she began. "when she was 1 I had gotten anonymous letters saying he would come back for her. So I should have been prepared." I look up to her and the tears stopped abruptly when she smiled at me.

"its not your fault Spence." she whispered to me again. I nodded my head and laid back down. I guess I fell asleep because next thing I know I wake up to the soft singing of a beautiful little girl.

"I wov ooh

Ooh wove me

Wets hang bwarnee fwom a twee…" i open my eyes and cori is sitting on my lap and petting my hair like a dog. Nice cor-cor.

"hi baby." I say softly. Her brown eyes light up suddenly and im being embraced into a hug. "mommy, guess what? I was put in this machine and I had to stay very still. And then it went in a tunnel and I cud not talk." she rambled. "and then they put me to sleep with a needle." she pouted at that part and kissed her little bottom lip

"wow honey that's a lot…are u okay?" I asked She looked at me and smiled softly, looking just like her mom. She knew that I wasn't talking about the I.V

"im okay mommy. But my middle hurts a real lot." she said and pointed in between her legs. She sniffled bravely and kissed me cheek chastely

"I bet it does sweetie." I look over and Ashley is signing papers , the seat that Gracie sat in before was now empty

"Where's Grace?" I sit up more and grunted from the pain that ripped through my chest. When I was finally in a good position I was out of breath with a red face.

"she left with her foster parents." she tells me and purses her lips eyeing my condition. She winks at me with a small smile and goes back to papers she held.

"what are u writing?" I peered over at the stack of papers on her lap, a blue pen sitting in hr left hand…humph. She's Left handed? Focus Spencer!

"the release forms, we get to go home on Tuesday. All of us." she said. "and this one is a permission form for security out side our room…you know, just incase." I nod my head and smile brightly. "I cant wait to go home." I whisper with Cori's head nodding in agreement.

I hear ash make a small noise in response and lick my lips. "you're alright… right?" my voice was small, and I immediately chastised myself fro sounding insecure and vulnerable. I should be the strong one. For her.

She sighs and bites her lip, her golden eyes shut tightly and she swallows almost painfully. She lets out a shaky breath and looks back to me, her eyes shed unwanted tears and I wish I could walk over and wipe them away.

"I will be." she whispers and takes a glance at the blonde little girl who still sat on my lap. Her hands and eyes were busy tracing the pattern on the hospital bedspread while humming a tune to herself. Her blond curls bounced and I was immediately filled with protectiveness for her. For both of them.

My girls.

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