Title: Goodbye My Lover
Rating: K+
Pairing: Lan/Moiraine
Summary: Moiraine is dead, Lan is devastated. What will happen now?

Emptiness, emptiness is all I feel right now. I loved you from the first time I lay eyes on you. I found you beautiful. I never thought you'd like me in the same way that I liked you. After all we've been through together; you've left me in this cold world. Here I stand…alone, what will I do? I was supposed to die for you, with you. I was never meant to stand here without you by my side.

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun.
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

I love you. I miss you. Why didn't you tell me? I would have died with you as a happy man. I can never feel good without you. I've felt you inside of my head, my soul, for many years. I had forgotten how it felt to be alone. Now I stand here alone, waiting on my time to die. In death we will be together forever.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

No one can ever replace you in my heart, in my soul. I can never forget you, I will never forget you. I will soon be with you. I couldn't even bury your corpse; I have no grave to sorrow at. All I have are my memories. Memories of your beautiful face, of the time we had.

I am a dreamer but when I wake.
You can't break my spirit – it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me.
Remember us and all we used to be.
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for awhile.
I'd been the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine.
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

I will seek the war. I will seek fight. I don't care what will happen to this world. It's empty without you. I have nothing to live for. You would have wanted me to look after the kids, for the Last Battle. But my heart feels empty. I never realized how much I loved you. I took you for granted, you would always be here. I've kissed you, shared your bed, but always with the knowledge you'd be by my side when I woke up. Now I wake up to an empty and cold bed every morning, if I even sleep in a bed.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

Why am I doomed to live and see the people I love die? My parents never lived so long; they died in the fight against the Dark. I wish I was dead too. I wish you were here with me. When I was with you I felt whole, invincible. I felt stronger, than I was on my own.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

Moiraine…

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I am kneeling at your feet.

The only thing I regret in my life is that I never asked you to marry me. That I didn't tell you how much I loved you every day. That I truly regret. If I could live my life again, I'd never let go of you. If I could I would have taken you to a safe place and never let you out of my sight.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I will miss you…but hopefully I will see you soon.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I will always be faithful to you. When I die I will take as many trollocs with me as possible.

I'm so hollow baby, I am so hollow
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow…

Emptiness, soon. Soon I will be with you, and I will feel full again. We will be together and my heart will be whole again.

A/N: "Goodbye My Lover" by James Blunt

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun.
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake.
You can't break my spirit – it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me.
Remember us and all we used to be.
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for awhile.
I'd been the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine.
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I am kneeling at your feet.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I'm so hollow baby, I am so hollow
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow…