Chapter 9

BPOV

When I regained consciousness the first thing I noticed was the fact that someone had moved me to the sofa in the second living room that we rarely used. Secondly I realised that the Cullens were all staring at me with concerned glances, whilst Jared was sitting on the floor next to the sofa holding my hand.

"Iz, you ok I am so sorry baby, you know I never wanted this to happen again, will you ever be able to forgive me?" the fear in his eyes was evident and it broke my heart to see him like this.

"Jarey, you know I would give my immortal life to make you safe and that you would do the same for me, why would you need forgiving? I love you and nothing you do is going to change that." I looked straight into his eyes not blinking once as I spoke. With that he pulled me into a hug and started dry sobbing into my hair.

"I know, I know" he kept repeating and after a few minutes he stopped and pulled away looking into my face before placing the softest kiss on my lips. I pulled him into a much stronger kiss to show him I wasn't going to break. When we eventually parted I suddenly remembered everyone else was in the room.

"So would someone care to explain what just happened because I for one have never seen a vampire faint before?" Edward asked whilst giving Jared evil looks.

Jared took a seat next to me and I wrapped my arms around his waist and snuggled into his chest, "Well I suppose I should start at the beginning, when I was changed" I spoke slowly, choosing my words very carefully.

"After you guys left, I was a mess, I didn't speak to anyone, I didn't eat, I was barely living. Charlie tried to get me to go out but I didn't want to, I went to school, I came home, I made Charlie dinner then I went to my room and sat and stared at the window" The Cullens faces dropped as I spoke but I continued anyway, determined to let them know I was grateful for their decision to leave me. "Then after a couple of weeks of this non-existence I went for a walk in the woods outside of Charlie's house, not really paying attention to where I was going, after a while I realised I wasn't alone, I heard some odd noises behind me, but then they were in front, I was frightened at first but then I decided I wanted to die anyway so why not this way. I sat down and waited for whatever it was to come get me, after a couple of minutes I heard the leaves in front on me crunch and looked up at my stalker." I stopped not sure how to carry on; did I really want to inflict this upon them, upon Edward?

I took a deep breath and gripped Jared's hand who rubbed his thumb across gently, soothingly.

"It was Victoria" all the Cullens gasped at my announcement, "She wanted revenge for you killing James and thought the best way was through killing me, a mate for a mate she said. I laughed in her face and said 'go ahead I don't care', I explained how you had left me and how you didn't want me to become one of you. As soon as I said that I regretted it, her manner changed and I could tell she had changed her mind. 'Well, well that changes everything; if Eddie doesn't want you to be a vampire then a vampire is what you will become'. I can still remember the pain like it was yesterday, she bit me then left, for 3 days I laid in the woods screaming, hoping that you would hear me and make it better, but you didn't" I looked up at them, they all looked upset by my words, Carlisle and I made eye contact and I gave him a reassuring smile.

"Don't worry, being changed was the best thing that ever happened to me" I said without breaking eye contact with him. I continued my story, "I quickly realised that I needed to feed, but found I couldn't stand the smell of human blood, must be from my human days. I fed on some deer I found then quickly moved on, I wandered the north for a while never settling down. I met a few other vampires on my journeys but all of them had red eyes, a few of them offered me the chance to join their coven but I couldn't. Then one day after 5 years of wandering I found myself with very black eyes having not fed for just over a week and I knew if I didn't feed soon I would be in trouble. I was hunting just north of Alaska when I detected another presence in the woods, I knew it was another vampire but did not know if it was friend or foe. I drew back into the trees to watch the newcomer" I looked at Jared and smiled, reliving the memory. "Jared came into my view and I watched him as he started feeding on a wolf I had spotted earlier. I must have moved because he stood up and looked straight at me."

"She looked so scared, a half starved little creature, me being the perfect gentleman offered her half of my dinner!" Jared said with a smile on his lips, he too had fond memories of our first meeting. I elbowed him in the chest for his comment, "I didn't look that bad!! Maybe I hadn't brushed my hair in a couple of days but I was not a half starved little creature! Anyway, I accepted his offer and we started talking, J told me all about his coven, and how Russ and Marie would be happy to let me join them so long as I was strictly a vegetarian". I looked over at Russ and Marie at this point and saw them smiling at me from the sofa where they sat curled together.

The family moment was ruined by the sound of snorting coming from the other side of the room, I looked up to see Edward's eyes glaring at Jared.

"As lovely as hearing all that is, I still don't understand how you fainted just now!" Edward looked like he was starting to get annoyed now, clearly I would have to hurry up in my story telling.

"Well it mainly has to do with my power" I started.

"Wait you have a power? How come you didn't tell us sooner, what is it? Is it cool?" Emmett jumped in before I had a chance to finish, I laughed. "Well if you gave me a chance I would have explained! I had not noticed before I met Jared and the others because I was never around other vampires long enough to notice. But the first time I met everyone, they went around telling me about themselves and their powers. When Russ told me his I was intrigued, most powers I had come across there is no physical evidence to prove it's there so I asked for a demonstration."

"So what is your power Russell? If you don't mind me asking?" Esme asked quietly, it was the first time I had heard her speak since before the incident with Jared, "I am telekinetic, so long as the object is in my line of sight, I can move it wherever I like" Russ answered politely.

"Wow! I would love a power like that!" Emmett gasped. I giggled, I had missed Emmett so much, he was like a big brother to me and I always felt that he cared for me, unlike another Cullen.

"So, Russ went to give me a demonstration but when he had the chair half way across the room it suddenly stopped and fell to the ground, at first everyone was concerned that Russ was hurt but after several attempts they started to look at me! Hannah tried teleporting upstairs and couldn't, so they made me leave the room and Hannah could teleport again. Turns out I can block vampire powers from being used against me or anyone else I want to protect. After time I have managed to control it better and now my family can use their powers around me. It's also why you can't read their thoughts Edward; I have shielded everyone from other powers outside our coven." I took a deep unnecessary breathe I knew this statement would lead to more questions.

"So why can't you stop Jared's power?" Jasper asked, I looked over to the Cullens and realised I had missed them but they would never be my family. The Field's were my family now and I was slightly surprised to find I was not upset by this realisation.

"We are not sure, but the first time it happened I tried to stop it but found I couldn't so I just sat with him and we chatted about anything and everything and after a couple of hours it stopped, it never spread, it was just contained to his hands. But like Russ said, it has been getting worse recently, again we don't know why but it is connected to Jared's emotions so when he gets stressed or upset" I looked over to Edward to stress my point.

"However I have noticed that when I use my powers I become weak, like by using it I am draining the venom within me. That's why I fainted, Edward". A realisation just hit me. "Did someone give me some blood?" I asked looking at Jared.

"Yes, that was Marie, she went into the fridge and got you a glass of bear blood" He answered looking hurt that he was the cause of my needing it.

"It's what brings me back around" I explained to the Cullens. "Any blood will do but I have always had a preference for bear so we keep a small supply in the fridge for occasions such as these."

The room was quiet, no one knowing what to say anymore. I looked at Edward and noticed he seemed to be trying hard not to shout out.

"What is your problem Edward, you left me remember? I moved on found someone who loved me and wouldn't leave my side, who protects me without hurting me in the process, why can't you be happy for me?" I asked hoping he would understand and leave me and Jared alone.

"I can't, Bella believe me I wish I could say I was happy for you and let you get on with your life but I can't! You say he doesn't hurt you but from what we all just witnessed it seems like he causes you more pain then I ever could! I still love you and I know that you still love me!" Edward looked me straight in the eyes as he said this! I couldn't believe the cheek! How dare he think I still loved him after what he did to me!