Okay so I totally forgot the disclaimer for the first 2 chapters, but here it is:
I DO NOT own Twilight; I do however own very dirty thoughts about Edward Cullen!
So this chapter gives a little more info on Edward and his life and it is also their arrival in Vegas…so her it is!!
EPOV
I must be the sick one if I thought that we could go the whole way to Vegas without Emmett making fun of me,
The whole trip was him taking cracks me. Over and over making jokes that I'm not man enough to please a woman. What ever I am man enough. I just want to wait for the right person before I start having sex.
I tried explaining that to Emmett be he just doesn't get it…maybe because he and Rosalie are such sexually active freaks.
That fact is while I have found women to be extremely beautiful and attractive I just haven't found the one that I'm pulled to, the one that is so beautiful and attractive I want to do nothing but worship her perfect body.
That's a lie, I have found her, and she just doesn't know I'm alive.
Emmett thinks I just need a fuck buddy so I can relieve the stress that is associated with my job. He thinks that I have pushed myself too hard the past ten years, but the truth was that I needed a distraction, it hurt too much and I had to have a plan and so I graduated high school my junior year went to Dartmouth and then went to John Hopkins for medical school. At 26 years old I work at the Seattle state hospital in the ER.
I had to do something to avoid her and forget the pain that she unintentionally caused. I don't think I ever got over hoping that one day we would me eat each other and fall head over heals in love, but that just isn't going to happen…Shit listen to me I sound like a fucking woman.
Tanya was supposed to be the one to help me forget, but it didn't happen, I could never forget the one I loved from afar.
It pleased everyone that I hard started dating towards the end of medical school, it relived Emmett to know his brother wasn't gay, Alice was excited to have another girl in the family and my parents just wanted me to be happy.
So Tanya and I dated, but with the stress of school there was just no time for sex, I was always too tired. And then I graduated and moved back home to Seattle I saw her once with the same guy she was with back in high school. That guy has no idea how lucky he is to have her.
My family doesn't know about my feelings for her, I could never tell them, Alice and my parents would feel sorry for me and Emmett would just make fun of me for not being man enough. Which he was doing anyways.
As much as I hate to admit it Emmett was right… I wasn't man enough, I never gathered the courage to tell her how I felt and ten years later I'm still in love with her and I haven't seen her in just as long. I wasn't man enough because I tried to use Tanya as a replacement and that completely backfired on me; I knew I should have broken up with her when Alice said she didn't like her. As crazy as Alice is she is really great with people and I should have known then that the sham of my relationship was not going to last when the two of them could not get along.
I kept telling myself and everyone else that this Vegas trip was taken so that Tanya's short memory span would kick in and she would forget about me and move on, but seriously, who was I kidding, the ending of the non-relationship thing I had with Tanya was just another reminder that all those years ago I wasn't man enough to tell her how I felt and I went on to live my life without her.
If I could only go back I would do things different so I wouldn't live my life wondering what could have been.
This trip I'm going to get wasted and act like a normal 26-year-old man on vacation with his brothers. We are going to drink and gamble and maybe visit a strip club…that is if Alice doesn't have one of her freaky vision things and puts a stop to it.
But most importantly this trip I am going to drink myself numb so I can forget the pain of knowing I will never have her and I cant have her because its been ten years. I'm going to numb the pain that is associated with not having her and the fact that ending things with Tanya was another reminder I never had her and never will.
My original plan for numbing the pain was to have a girlfriend and that totally backfired on my ass, I never knew she could be so crazy. I guess it's best to figure that out now before I truly lost my mind and gave in to fully being with her…lord only knows how things could have ended then.
We had already arrived in Vegas and were waiting for our bags when Jasper got a phone call.
"…Yes baby I know, no strip clubs… okay baby I'll see you in a few days…okay I'll let him know what Rosalie said…. bye Ali."
"What the hell man, how can your wife whose is like the size of my freakin' shoe scare you so bad and put an end to our fun before it even starts with her being hundred of miles away? I don't care what Alice says we are going to a strip club this weekend and we are going to enjoy it…and you Whitlock are just going to have to man and face my tiny sister!"
Wow…that was the longest speech ever given by Emmett…and it happened to be about going to strip clubs…Mom would be so proud.
"You know what Emmett shut the fuck up or else I'll tell you what part of your body my sister, you know the tall blond who can scare the shit out of you from a hundred miles away who also happens to be your wife, threaten to cut off if she found out we went to a strip club!"
With that Emmett went to cover his…package and wince.
"Okay man point taken…no strip clubs, put WE will drink and gamble, we're in Vegas, it's like a rule."
We were already in the limo on our way to the hotel when the two stopped arguing. Of course the silence could not last and now the both of them were making fun of me and the relationship thing I had with Tanya that just ended.
All I could respond with was that they both were scared of their wives, but in all honesty I wanted that, someone to threaten me when they thought I was going to do something they didn't want me to.
Damn it here I go again sounding all girly…what the hell is wrong with me.
Maybe Emmett is right and I do just need to get laid.
After the not so playful banter we shared on the way to the hotel I could not wait to start the relaxing process. I couldn't help but think that if I drank enough this weekend I could just over her and forget how fucking crazy Tanya is and settle down with her, I mean I'm not getting any younger, and it's not like she's that crazy.
Okay so she is that crazy…all of this Vegas air is starting to mess with my mind…damn I need a drink.
While we were checking into our rooms I heard it the one thing that cleared up all the messed up thoughts the Vegas air had created.
"Bella hurry up we have to get to our room and then start getting ready!"
"Okay Angela I'm coming, relax it's only 3 we don't have to start getting ready to go out now."
Oh my God it's her…
Okay so there it is the next chapter; I hope you enjoyed it and please review it. I would love to hear what you thought of it.
Okay and next chapter we will be hear from Bella and how she landed in Vegas. I hope to have that chapter up by tomorrow night or Sunday the latest…so I'll see you all the next chapter!