Okay so here's the next chapter, it's all Bella's point of view and I lied when I said we would see her arrival in Vegas in this chapter, I promise it will happen next chapter. I also want to apologize for posting so late, I had the chapter ready Saturday night but there where technical difficulties with the site so I was unable to post, but here it is!
Next I want to thank everyone who has reviewed and added this story to the alerts. You all rock my socks and I appreciate all the support.
Okay so I'm going to stop rambling now and let you get to the next chapter. I hope you all enjoy!
Before I forget: Twilight and all of its awesomeness does not belong to me! Sad I know!
"Oh honey I'm home!" That's so lame to say but it's not like we have much else to say to each other.
"Jake where are you at?" I wonder where he could be?
Well that answers my question he's sitting in the living room looking all sad and broken.
I shouldn't sound so sarcastic when I say that something could be wrong. Oh my God something is wrong.
"Oh my god Jake what's wrong is everything okay? Oh my God is it Billy, is he okay? Oh my God it's Charlie isn't it? Is he okay? What hospital is he at?" I sobbed out while he just sat there motionless with his face in his hands.
He looked up at me with blood shot eyes; he had dry tearstain down his face.
"No Bella Billy and Charlie are fine, but there is something I need to talk to you about."
Well that revelation sobered me up.
"Okay, what is it? Are you Okay?"
"No I'm not okay. I messed up Bella, I messed up bad and I don't know how to fix it."
"Just talk to me Jake I'm sure we can figure something out. After all I am going to be your wife that's what married couple do, right?" I threw the wife thing in there to make him happy, for some reason me being referred to as his wife always made him smile. But this time it didn't work.
"Jake you're starting to freak me out, just tell me already!" I demanded from him.
"I cheated on you'" he whispered out. He said it so low I almost didn't hear him, I asked him again so he could clarify for me.
"What did you say?"
"I cheated."
I backed away from him, I couldn't look at him. How could he? Everything I have done in my life I did for him. I gave on the one dream I ever had for him. And then he goes and does this to me. I asked the question before I even thought about it.
"Why? How could you? Why would you want to hurt me?"
"That's not all."
"What do you mean 'that's not all'? What more could you possible do to me?"
"Bells…I'm so sorry. It just happened. I was just so frustrated with that fight we had a couple months ago. I wasn't thinking. You have to believe me when I say I did not plan for this."
I remember that fight clear as day…like it was yesterday. It's the same we've had since high school. The 'why wont you have sex with me' fight.
Believe me when I say I want to have sex…lord do I want to have sex, but I have always wanted to wait until marriage before sex, I know it's old fashioned but that's just how I felt.
But now I was beyond the hurt of him cheating on me, I was just pissed, it sounds like he's trying to blame me for him being a cheating ass hole. But he said that the cheating wasn't all, God what more could there be.
"You said that wasn't all, what else is there?"
"Bells, I was suppose to be a one night stand, I was never suppose to hear from her again, and then she showed up at the shop telling she had something important to discuss. I wasn't suppose to happen this way, you have to believe me Bells."
"What exactly wasn't suppose to happen?"
"The woman, that I slept with, she's pregnant."
"She's what? How did that happen?" Well that was a stupid question I know how it happened I was in biology the day they explained the human mating process.
"Never mind don't answer that last question. I don't think I want to learn how it happened."
"Bells what are you thinking? Where does this leave us?"
"Where does this leave us? Are you serious? You cheated on me and got the other woman pregnant. This leaves as two separate people. There is no us anymore Jake."
He sat there motionless for what seemed like hours, but in reality turned out to only be minutes.
"Bells we can make this work, you and I we can still get married and have our own family. I want you Bells, Forever. That's what we always said, forever. You just can't throw away the past ten years over a simple mistake. We can make this work, I know we can."
"Make this work, how can we make this work you cheated on me and in the process of cheating on me you got another woman pregnant, and all because you could not wait until we got married to have sex. You fucked another bitch because I wouldn't screw you. I'm not throwing 10 years away over 'this,' you throw those 10 years away when you cheated on me."
"Bells…"
"Don't call me that my name is Bella, B-E-L-L-A, not Bells."
"But I've always called you Bells."
"I know and I've always hated it!" I yelled at him with much more passion then I knew I had.
"Bella can we talk about this?"
"No we can not talk about this get whatever crap you have left here and get out!"
"Bella…"
I cut him off. "I said get your stuff and leave!"
With that he went upstairs to get whatever he had left here. I never wanted to see him again.
After he got all his stuff he stopped and the front door and said, "Bella I always have and always will love you, I really think you and I can get past this and live together happily ever after. I can give you the perfect ending to the perfect fairy tales life you always wanted. I'll call you in a couple of days to see where you and I are at, Okay?"
He reached out and attempted to cup my cheek in his hand, but I flinched, I didn't want his dirty cheating hands on me.
The flinching seemed to hurt his feelings, but I could careless about his feelings, he didn't care about mine when he was fucking some random whore.
But before he left I had to let him know. "Jake?"
"Yeah Bella?" He asked some what hopefully.
"Don't bother calling me. I'm not going to change my mind about us." And then I slammed the door in his face.
I fell to floor and cried. I cried everything I have been holding in for the past 10 years. None of the tears I shed were over Jake and what we had. All my tears were over what Jake and I represented. They represented that I settled for Jake and the life I have, well had, with him when I couldn't have the one I truly wanted.
That night I cried myself to sleep mourning the loss of a love I never really had and not once did I shed a tear for what Jake did, only the reminder he brought over the one I never had and never will have.
My failed relationship with Jake shed light to the fact that I have failed in life because I have nothing I want and now I don't even have what I settled for.
Call me selfish, even after all these years, but I still want him, the one I can never have, mainly because I have no idea where he is at, but he never knew and I never knew the love that could have been truly great.
I can forgive Jake for cheating, but I don't think I can ever forgive him for all the reminders he has brought up. I'm here because of him and I almost hate him for that.
Okay, so the ending is a little dramatic on Bella's part, but all will be explained in the next chapter and she will arrive in Vegas with her BFF Angela.
So… can you all do me favor…Please…review! I love to read what you all think!