"Hi, Edward," Bella came skipping to me. It was now Monday, and we were back in school. It was lunch time. "How are you?" She kissed me on the cheek. I feigned happiness and forced a smile, wrapping you in a soft hug.
"Good, my love, and you?"
"Feeling so much better that you decided to stay with me," she smiled up at me and I immediately felt incredibly guilty. Jacob was right. I am a liar. I was lying to myself, Bella, and Jacob. And I was crushing Jacob at the same time.
I'm such a horrible person.
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I drove to Lord and Taylor that day after school, deciding that I might as well start looking at wedding rings, because there was no way I was getting out of this whole situation with Bella. I bumped into none other than you.
"Jacob," I shifted my weight nervously, even though I didn't need to. "Uhm, hi…how're things?"
You glared down at me. "Awesome, thanks."
"What're you doing here?"
"Just looking around," you shrugged, then turned away from me and started walking away.
"Jacob, wait," I called, running after you. "We need to talk."
"We've already talked like three times, Edward!"
"I…uh…please, Jacob. It's so hard to stay away from you." Oh great. Now I was acting like a total bitch.
You groaned. "Alright, fine." And with that, we walked to my car.
We ended up having sex again.
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I sighed longingly as I sat on Bella's rocking chair in her bedroom. She looked up from her desk.
"Edward? What's wrong?"
"Nothing, love. Go back to your homework."
Her eyes narrowed. "This is about Jake, isn't it."
Why the hell was I so readable lately?!
When she saw me gaping, she rolled her eyes. "Edward, you're so…readable. Don't act all surprised. If you really want to be with him, what's holding you back?"
This surprised me. "Wait, what?"
She nodded. "Edward, I can see how unhappy you are, and it's crushing me. I can't stand seeing you so miserable, ok? I love you that much."
Oh God…
"Bella, I'm perfectly happy with-"
"Stop lying, Edward," she smiled sadly. "Go get him, Edward. He's probably waiting for you right now."
I threw my arms around her, squeezing her tightly. She wheezed.
"Edward! Too tight, Edward!" She yelped.
"I love you so much, Bella."