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Okay so some said that the last chapter made them a little sad, well this chapter is not going to make things any better. I actually had this chapter ready sooner, but I wanted to leave it on a happy note for everyone, and it just wasn't happening. But I promise one way or another we will all get out happy ending, it will just take a bit of time. so here's the next chapter...

Disclaimer: I DO NOT own Twilight or anything Twilight related. Sad, I know.

"Bella…."

"No, not Bella, I'm Tanya! Don't you remember Eddie? You must still be feeling the effects of your trip, but that's fine, we have our whole lives to figure everything out and you'll always remember my name. So how was your…Edward are you even listening to me? Why do you look like your looking for someone? Hey don't walk away form me get back here."

I was practically running through the airport to get to the outside. I knew Tanya was fallowing me and talking but I could not register a thing she was saying.

When I reached outside the airport I saw the line of taxis, but no Bella.

"Damn it!"

She was gone again. Why does this keep happening me to me? Why does she keep disappearing from me?

And what the hell is Tanya ding here. Crazy ass woman.

"What are you even doing here Tanya? How did you even find out that I left? Hell, how did you find out when I was coming home?"

"Easy silly, I just called you Mom." She said like it was the most normal thing to do.

It was no secret that Esme, my Mom, hated Tanya, but because Tanya and I were together my mother tolerated her so that I would be happy.

I wasn't happy, maybe now my Mom would be mean to her, I think it would be funny to see Esme mean to someone once in my life, she was always so nice to everyone even if she didn't like the person.

But now I really wanted to blame my Mom for putting me in the situation of having to deal with Tanya, but I guess it really was my own fault, I should have told my parents that we broke up.

But of course I didn't. They would have asked questions, and who wants to tell their parents that you walked in on your girlfriend having sex with another man, in your bed, in your house when your significant other doesn't even live with you.

My parents would have listened and been supportive and understanding of my decision, but it's still too wired of a conversation to have with your Mom and Dad, so I didn't have it, I figured I would tell them in time.

While I was trying to think, I continued my search for Bella but let me tell you it was not an easy task to multi task. Looking for someone and thinking at the same time could get tiring.

At some point I'm sure my frantic searching had me looking like mad man, but I didn't care. I was hoping that if I caught a glimpse of the beautiful brown hair I would be able to run to her and explain before I lost her forever.

At some point in my mind I made the connection that I was starting to sound a little desperate, but I didn't care. I knew deep down and in my mind and heart that Bella and I were meant for each other.

She was my life now.

"Eddie, what are you looking for?"

That damn name again, Eddie. My name is not Eddie, it Edward, way is that so hard for her to understand.

I muttered a quick nothing hoping I could just get rid of her and hopefully the sooner the better I needed a way to fix my marriage.

I needed to find Bella.

I just needed Bella.

"Anyways when I asked your Mom where you were at because you weren't at the hospital she told me you and your brothers went to Vegas for the weekend. So I played it off as I had just forgotten about the trip with me being busy with work and everything. So then I asked her if she could tell me your return flight information because I forgot where I had written it down at and I didn't want to bother asking you while you were out having fun. Obviously she gave me the information because here I am." She threw her hands out like she was presenting some grand prize to me and she let out a noise that I think was her trying to make me a just as excited as her a make her sound sexy all at the same time.

I didn't work out. It just sounded like an annoying...annoying...just annoying.

I never thought I would see the day were I would hate a woman, but the day has come. I hate Tanya. Not only is crazy, well no that's more than enough of a reason to hate her. She is one crazy woman, but she ruined everything for me, the one person, the only person I have ever wanted in Bella was finally mine and Tanya ruined it. I hate her; more than I ever thought was humanly possible.

I was making myself angry, I could just feel the tension and anger brewing inside of me.

And then out of nowhere an unusual calm washed over me.

"You forgot that I was out of town because you were busy with work?" I said with a humorless laugh. "Tanya you do realize that I and everyone in my family knows that you don't works so why would you say that?"

The answer to the question was not all that important, but for some reason I just had to ask. It was one of those questions you don't need the answer to and it really doesn't matter what the answer is, but for some reason you just want to know the answer; just out of general curiosity I wanted to hear the answer.

"I just wanted to know where my boyfriend was at and I didn't want your Mom to think that I was just some woman with her son who didn't do anything with her life and tried to live off of him."

After I heard her 'reason' I realized what the calm feeling I was feeling before was, it was like the calm before the storm.

"You wanted to know where your boyfriend was at and you didn't want to look like a lazy woman trying to live off of me to my mother. Wow, so where is your boyfriend at?"

"What do you mean silly, your right in front of me."

Either she's really good a playing innocent or she's really stupid.

I think I'm going to go with the stupid.

"No, no Tanya, I'm your ex-boyfriend, where's the man I caught you screwing in my bed, in my house before I left on my trip. And as far as not looking like a lazy woman to my mother, it's a little late for that, she never liked you and always thought you needed to find a job instead of trying to attach yourself to me and living off of me. Hell, I barely liked you; I don't know why I put up with you for so long you just keep making everything worse for me. "

By the end of my little speech, where I didn't say everything I was thinking, I was pissed and raising my voice.

I barely registered the shocked look on Tanya's face, but I really didn't care.

I have never in my life yelled at a woman, but I guess there is a first time for everything.

At the moment I didn't even care that if I hurt her feelings, I had more important things to worry about.

"Edward, calm down." Damn, what was it with people popping out of nowhere and scaring the crap out of me.

Emmett now had his hand on my shoulder attempting to calm me down, but I found it hard to.

Then in a surprising so not Emmett like thing he leaned in and whispered some of the best advice I had ever gotten.

"Remember who you are Edward, remember the man Mom raised you to be, keep in mind what she taught us, be the man Mom would want you to be. But more importantly be the better man for her, she going to want her husband to be the better person, the better man, the best man. Walk away form this woman now and go get the one you want."

Suddenly the calm feeling was back.

"Tanya, I'm sorry, but you and I broke up, what you did was totally unforgivable and I just cant be with you. So for the sake of everyone, please just let me be."

"Fine Edward I'll let you go again without me, but let me make something perfectly clear to you because obviously you didn't understand me the last time we had this conversation. You and I will be together, no matter what I have to do we will be together and you will realize that you love me and want to be with me forever, trust me on that."

She made it sound more like a threat versus a promise of love, if I didn't have other things I needed to take care of; I would have been a little more concerned with Tanya.

As she started to walk away, I couldn't help but to notice that she swayed her hips a little too much, it was not the least bit cute.

Emmett and Jasper's laughter knocked me out of my train of thought and then Emmett had to go back to being Emmett.

"Damn Eddie you were right that woman is one crazy ass psycho.

Psycho was Emmett code for bitch. He came up with that when we were all in high school. Sometimes, no matter how badly we didn't want to say it, there was no other way to describe a woman, but we both were raised by the same woman and if Esme ever found out we called a woman a bitch she would kill us, and I mean literally kill us. She could be a little scary when she needed to be.

Once Tanya was out of sight I turned around and looked Emmett in the eyes, well kind of, he is 5 inches taller than me. I silently thanked for his early advise with a head nod and then out loud I agreed completely about what he said of Tanya.

It was completely true. She was one crazy ass psycho.

BPOV

I ran out of the airport like it was on fire and my life depended on how quickly I could run out of there.

I jumped into the first taxi I saw and directed him to step on it and take me home, I was going to wait until I was in the privacy of my own home before I broke down and cried.

Either this man drove ridiculously fast or I was just not paying attention to the drive.

I think I was not paying attention to the drive, but the scary thing was that I had no thoughts, my mind was completely blank.

It didn't take me long after I walked into my apartment to figure out why my mind was completely void of all thoughts because I have done this in the past.

Anytime something unpleasant happens in my life, my mind will kind of shut off.

I can still physically function, and comprehend what is going on around me, but I'm like a shell of a person.

The last time this happened to me was when my father, the Chief of Police in the microscopic town of Forks in Washington, was shot at during a bank robbery.

It scared the crap out of me, who could have imagined anyone in Forks owning a gun, let alone knowing how to use one.

My father had been shot at and I nearly lost him. I had no idea how to deal, so my mind and body took care of me by semi-shutting down, since I couldn't protect myself, my body did it for me.

I wasn't okay until he was out of the hospital and at home resting. When I knew he was going to be okay was when my body snapped back to complete functioning form. I was okay and my dad was going to be okay.

And I threw the biggest temper tantrum a woman in her twenties could ever throw when he decided he needed to go back to work. Since he is still the Chief…we know who won, but not a day goes by that I don't wish for him to retire, I can't lose him. Loseing one man in my life is enough for now.

"Miss we're here now."

"Oh sorry, I got caught up thinking.'

The cab driver just smiled a sympathetic smile at me while I paid.

Once I made into my apartment and closed the door it all came out of me, every single tear any person could ever cry came out of me.

My body and mind were now back to 'normal.'

To any other person, it may have been pathetic to cry this much, but to me it was not nearly enough.

For the second time in my life, I lost him.

I lost the one I want for life, I lost the one I needed for life. Part of could never recover from it.

I don't think I will be able to recover because I caused this.

All I had to do was listen instead of trying to over think everything like I always do…I just need to stop for a second and listen. Listen to him so that we could be together and happy, but of course I screwed it up.

But he has someone…so you couldn't have screwed up that much.

We got back from Vegas on a Monday, and Monday night all I did was mourn…again.

By Tuesday Angela wanted to know what my deal was, so I explained it all to her.

Starting from high school all the way until Monday at the airport. She let me cry when I needed to, she didn't judge any more, she just let me get it all out there, it was nice to talk to someone to get it all out and now that Angela knew the whole truth it made it easier to talk about, she really could be awesome when she wasn't being such a sarcastic pain in my ass.

By Wednesday I decided I needed to get in touch with reality again, so I started editing the new book that arrived to my house while I was gone. I sorted threw the mail and paid bill, checked and answered E-mails, then I listed to the voicemails that had accumulated on my house and cell phone. In total I had 62 new voicemails. Three of them were from my dad asking me if it was okay to put foil in the microwave, the next was that he figured out that it was not okay to put the foil in the microwave and then next him asking how I was doing and to call him back when I got a chance.

I made the mental note to call him back later.

There was one message from my mom asking if I got a call from my dad asking if it was okay to put foil in the microwave, what did he do, call everyone he knew, and then she asked how I was doing and that I needed to call her back and soon because no daughter should go this long without talking to her mother.

She always did know how to guilt trip a person.

The rest of the messages were all from Jake, and they all said the same thing. He was sorry, he never meant to hurt me, he loves, he wants to marry me and have a family, he needs me in his life and some more crap along those lines, after I listened to the third message I just deleted all the rest of them.

Sitting on the couch I started to think about everything that was going on in my life.

I finally had everything I had literally dreamed of since high school and in a matter of days I lost it all.

While I was waiting for Edward to arrive from Vegas all I could think about was how I felt for him. How much I loved him and how utterly perfect we were for each other.

Edward and Bella just belong together, like Romeo and Juliet and cookie and milk.

I just had the feeling that he and I were going to work and make it through. I started to believe what he had said back in the hotel room about how this was unexpected, but that the two of together could make it work.

I had myself convinced that as long as we had each other, we could make it work.

Then I saw her, the fake, but nicely done, strawberry blond haired woman with her hands all over my man. She was beautiful, and I felt my self-esteem drop a couple of notches with her around, but then to add salt to the wounds, she kissed him.

Not just any kiss, but the kind of kiss that makes you want to drag the person to bed and have your way with them.

I lost him after only having him for only a day.

We were kidding ourselves into thinking we could make it work. I was right all along and soon Edward would see that I was right and then he could on and live his life happily with the blond airport slut.

I mean really, she could have at least waited until they were in the car before she attacked him.

There was no more putting it off; I knew what I had to do and whom I had to call.

It tool me about five minutes before I actually found he courage to pick up the phone and dial the number for some reason, the phone felt like it weighed a ton.

After the second ting someone finally answered.

"Hello?"

"Hi Ben it's Bella."

"Oh hi Bella how are you?"

"I'm doing well. How about yourself?"

"I'm okay, I'm really excited about the baby, I can't wait to hold the bundle of joy!" I couldn't help but feel a little jealous, Ben and Ang, were going to have it all, and all I ever got was close calls.

"I'm so happy for the two of you, and congratulations again, you two are going to be awesome parents. And I want to say sorry again about the whole Vegas thing, she just wouldn't take no for an answer."

"Don't worry about it, Angela's fine, the baby's fine, everything is good, so let me go get Angela for you."

"Actually Ben, I needed to speak with you if that's okay."

"Sure Bella, what's up?"

"Well I just need you to know that this falls under the whole attorney-client privilege thing, okay?"

"Well Bella you know I deal with Divorces in Family law right?"

"Yeah, I know, that's what I need our help with…"

Well I'm on Spring Break and I want to be able to get more out to all of you before I return to all the craziness, hopefully it works out.

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