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Knock, knock.
"Come in."
Oh hell no! What the hell is he doing here?
"Hey Bells, How ya feeling?"
"Eh."
Good job Bella. Keep everything in single syllable answers so maybe he will get the hint and leave.
"You're probably wondering what I'm doing here."
I just raised an eyebrow at him, letting him know that I was indeed interested in why he was here, but not interested enough to actually voice the wonder.
Screw single syllable answers…I'm going old school and giving him the silent treatment.
"I guess I deserve the silent treatment." Damn right you do. "I just came by to see how you were feeling. I got a call from the hospital because I'm still on your contact list for cases of emergencies."
I raised another eyebrow at him because I was failing to see the point of his visit.
Just because he got the phone call didn't mean that he needed to come down and see me, after all, we were no longer together, but I guess that was lost on him.
Sigh…
Did he just sigh? What the hell is he sighing for? Why should he be the upset one? It's not like he was the one that got cheated on or was lying in a hospital bed.
Stupid Jake!
The silence was starting to become slightly awkward, but I was going to stand my ground and not engage him in conversation.
"Bella Please." He sounded so desperate.
But that bastard was tricky and knew exactly what he was doing. He has done this before, start sounding all sad and desperate trying to make me feel all guilty so that I would just give into whatever he wanted.
But not this time, hell no, not this time. I was going to stand my ground and not fall for his shit.
"Baby please, let me come home so we can work this out…" he started to choke up and I could tell the water works were about to start.
And if I didn't know him so well, I might have actually believed him and fallen for it.
"I need you so, so much and I miss you so damn much. I just don't know what to do with out you in my life."
I had a few suggestions of things for him to do without me in his life and some of them would not be pleasant.
But I was still on my no talking thing, so I didn't offer my suggestions up, no matter how much fun it would have been to see the look on his face.
"Bella, I love you, I love you so much, I just don't know what to do with myself when you're not around."
This time I didn't have any suggestions of things for him to do all I could come up with were some sarcastic remarks that even Angela would have proud of.
"Baby I love you and still want to marry you."
Yeah, okay now it was time open the verbal floodgates and let him have it so he can get the hell away from me.
"Bella I have good news for…" He said as he came jogging in.
"Edward!" Jake and I said at the same time. Only Jake's came out more as a sneer while mine came out as a breathy sigh of relief.
Recognition quickly flickered across Edwards face and then was replaced by shock.
"Jacob Black? From Forks High? It's good to see you again." Edward held out his hand to Jake so they could shake hands, but it became clear that Jake wasn't going to take his hand.
Instead, he crossed his arms across his chest defensively and asked, "What the hell are you doing here Cullen?"
I slapped the palm of my hand to my forehead and internally asked my self why I was with Jake for so long. He could be such a jerk.
"I'm one of Bella's doctors and the one who brought her in here earlier today."
"I thought Ben was the one who brought you in, Bella."
Even though I was happy to have Edward here I was still not talking to Jake and it seemed like Edward picked up on the whole not talking thing.
Brains and beauty, my Edward has it all.
"Ben was there too."
Jake pretty much ignored Edward and kept looking at me expectantly like just because Edward was here I was going to start talking all of a sudden.
Not going to happen buddy, I'm okay with being immature in front of Edward.
The room fell into another awkward silence, but even with my sexy doctor in my room, I was not going to start talking and break the silence.
Besides, with Jake in the room, I don't think some of my topics of conversation would go over so well. And, well some thoughts, lets just say it's too early in the relationship with Edward to share.
"So, is there is a reason your still here Cullen, I was kind of in the middle of talking to Bella."
Ah good 'ole Jake, always the polite one…but at least he broke the awkward silence.
"Right, Bella, I just got the okay for you to be discharged. So you can go home now."
When did he end up right next to my bed, oh well, it would be stupid of me to complain about him getting closer to me, hell he could be on top of me and I wouldn't have cared.
Before I could show my gratitude for being able to leave, stupid Jake had to go and open his stupid big mouth.
"That's perfect! Bella has just forgiven me for a little misunderstanding we had and is letting me back into the house. This is perfect, since I'm on my way home already, we can go together."
Oh, hell no, he did not just say that.
I looked around the room, Jake looked smug, and Edward looked slightly heartbroken.
Why would he believe what Jake had to say just a couple of hours after me asking him out on a date?
My sexy brainy doctor can be clueless sometimes.
Well since this turned into one major cluster fuck, the silent treatment ends now!
"Actually Jake, nothing has been forgiven or will be forgiven and you aren't allowed back into my house at all. And if I find out that you have been inside the house or near the house I will call my Dad and have him handle you."
Jake looked pissed, and I mean pissed. His face was contorted oddly and is whole body was shaking.
If I didn't know any better, I would have sworn he was going to transform into some type of animal.
I looked back at Edward and in my sweetest voice I said, "Edward, I mean Dr. Cullen, I'm not feeling so well, I think we need to run so more tests, just to make sure everything is okay. I have good insurance, so lets have tests A through Z done, I have an important engagement coming up soon and I need to be in top condition."
"Bella, honey, can we talk about this more at home?"
"No. Bye now."
After Jake stomped out of the room looking like a little kid who had just been told he couldn't have dessert after dinner, the enormity of what just happened came crashing down on me.
I have never in my life talked to anyone like I had just talked to Jake. I wasn't overly mean, rude, or vicious, I was just slightly more vocal and I actually used my Dad, the Chief of police as a threat to someone. I have never done that, I don't do that, it's just not in my nature to be like that, but Jake forced me into acting slightly out of character.
It felt good to stand up for myself and shut Jake up because I have never done it before, even if I had thought about doing it in the past. In all the time I have known Jake I never raised my voice or disagreed with what he said, I never feared him, but I was never completely sure about how he would react, and seeing him now, mad at me for being a different Bella than he was used to, well, it scared me a little.
And then everything hit me like a ton of brinks…
"Edward?" I gasped out. "What does it feel like to have a panic attack?" Each word came out after a pant of breath.
Edward went to work right away, putting his stethoscope on and putting it to my chest.
"Bella I need you to pick out a focal pint and focus in on it. Once you do that breath in and out and steady pace."
I would have focus in on Edwards face, but I thought that might have been too obvious, so instead I focused on the reflection of us on the television. I was looking at myself while Edward worked around me. To me it was a beautiful sight.
I was actually surprised that I was able to form any coherent thoughts, I was having a panic attack and Edward was close, and I mean close to me. Edward being in such close proximity is enough to send my brain to lala land.
Edward alternated between listening to my breathing for the front and behind. He would occasionally mummer, that I was doing a good job.
I was still staring and my focal point and right now I was so watching Edward while he listened to my breathing from behind me.
From behind me…heehee.
After about five minutes of staring at Edward and focusing on my breathing, all was well again. Staring at Edward really helped take my mine off of what happened with Jake.
"So, Bella you mind explaining where all that spunk came from and then where it left to."
"I think it was all the adrenaline leaving my body. I never, and I mean I never talked to anyone like that, let alone Jake, and I have never used my dad as a threat. It felt good at the time because he just made me so mad, but then I realized that I snapped at him and then the look on his face. I have never seen him so mad."
"Bella has Jake ever…" I knew where the question was gong so I had to stop him from asking.
"No Edward, Jake has never laid a finger on me, raised his voice a couple of times, but I yelled right back."
"Good, I'm glad he never…" and just like that the awkward silence was back. Thank god, he broke the silence quickly.
"So, Bella, are you really feeling ill or was the whole sick thing and asking for tests apart of the whole adrenaline rush thing?"
"Apart of the whole adrenaline rush thing and I really wanted him at of my room."
There's that laugh of his again, thank God my heart is learning to behave whenever I hear the sound."
"So, do you have a way home?"
"Yes, I can have Angela come and pick me up, I have some important girl things to discuss with her." And then I gave what I hoped was a flirtatious smile.
By the smile he gave me in return, I think it worked.
"Okay, good. My guess is that we should have all of your discharge papers ready in about an hour. So you should have plenty of time to call Angela and have her get here."
"Okay." I said with slight hesitation and my smile faltering. I was not ready for him to leave yet. I could tell that Edward picked up on my now fouling mood; I really wanted him to stay.
I knew what I wanted to say for him to stay, it was just going to be kind of awkward.
"Thank you." He looked little taken back by my admission, but it needed to be said. After the look of shock crossed his face, he looked at me slightly perplexed. I guess it would be useful if I explained why I was saying thank you.
"I know today didn't start in the ideal why and then I fainted and, well, we ended up here. So thank you for bringing me in, checking in on me, taking care of me and thank you for giving me a chance with the whole, you know." I wish confident Bella would make a return.
I kept my eyes downcast and focused on my clamped together hands. I don't think I can look at him while I clarify my line of thoughts.
Deep breath, "thank you for giving me a chance Edward, I know it sounds a little weird, but thanks for the chance, your giving me and taking a really big chance, considering what we were doing this morning."
Ah, that was just too weird and awkward; he probably thinks I'm some kind of weird-o now.
"Thank you Bella, for taking a chance and stepping out if your comfort zone and asking me out. Today turned out way better than I thought possible, so thanks."
We both knew are time together was over, and it was clear that neither one of us liked it, but I was consoled by the fact that I was going out on a date with Edward.
"I, uh, I'll let you call Angela now, and please don't forget to call me when your home and resting, I have grand plans for us."
"Okay, I'll call, and because I know your in doctor mode and wont believe when I tell you I'm fine, I'm just going to warn you now that tomorrow around noon I will be feeling much better and calling you."
"That sounds wonderful, and I will still ask that you rest, no matter how well you say you feel. I look forward to talking to you tomorrow Bella."
"Bye Edward."
"Bye Bella."
Sigh, my super sexy, overprotective doctor man that I love.
EPOV
When Bella asked me out on date, I was shocked, and then when she started to take it back, I was… sad, but then I was a little relieved that she was taking everything back for my benefit.
Well, what she thought was my benefit. I couldn't help but laugh slightly every time she mentioned 'airport slut.' Not once did she try and correct herself, she just kept saying it like it was Tanya's given name, it was funny and made Bella so adorable in an odd manner.
I also felt a little smug at the underlying jealousy I could hear in Bella's voice, it meant that she could possibly feel for me like I feel for her. That put one big fucking smile on my face.
I could still fell Bella's lips on my fingers as well. They were so soft and plump, so kissable. I always loved Bella's eyes, her long shiny hair that fell slightly over he shoulders, the soft feminine curves she possessed, I basically loved all of her, but now I have a new feature of hers to adore, her gorgeous lips, they are absolutely perfect, like the rest of her.
The day turned out perfect, despite how we started out today, everything ended perfectly, even with the unexpected visit of Jacob, everything ended perfectly.
I was still slightly concerned with Jacob and the role he played in Bella's life. As much as hated to admit it, I knew we hadn't seen the last of him, but hopefully Bella and I would face him together next time, if there was a next time and then we could finally be rid of him.
Our date, I was actually going out on a date with Bella. And I had been such an idiot. I kept talking about this amazing date I'm going to have planned for her, but I have no idea what to do or where to go.
We are in our twenties now; I doubt she would appreciate the perfect date I had planned for us to go out on when we were in high school.
I now needed a new and updated version of the 'Perfect Date,' and there was only one person that I could call on, the only one who will be honest enough with me so I can plan the best date for me and Bella.
I quietly slipped into the on call room so I could call her in somewhat privacy.
As I pulled out my phone to make the call, I realized that this was the first step to having Bella in my life, hopefully permanently.
She picked up on the second ring, "Hello?"
"Hi, Rosalie, it's Edward. I need your help with something."
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