Imprisoned Solitude

Chapter 7: Distrust

"Mom!! Did Usagi come back?" Trunks stormed into Capsule Corp. his face full of worry. The Blue haired woman eyed the tall, lavender haired saiyan-jin with a raised eyebrow as she watched him run up the stairs with haste, only to run down again, searching for the blonde frantically.

"No Trunks…I thought she was with you…" Bulma's blue eyes filled with worry as well.

"She was…." Trunks stopped abruptly and looked at the past version of his mother. "….then she got her memory back."

"Really? Oh that's wonderful….isn't it?"

"I don't know anymore. She ran off on me. She wouldn't even let me near her…" The man closed his eyes and clenched his fist tightly. He had searched everywhere for her, but she had completely disappeared. Trunks let out a deep sigh. She had acted so strangely. First she remembered everything then she didn't want anything to do with him.

He had to find her. He had to talk to her. He wanted….no, needed…. to talk to her.

He slumped on the couch and closed his eyes. There was nothing he could do. He could only sit and wait for her return.

The drops of rain beaded her pale skin, moistened her flesh, and caused her dress to cling to her slim body. As Usagi rested her body against a tree trunk, she allowed her eyes to become lost in the darkness of the sky.

The brightness in her eyes faded as she turned her gaze to her hand. In one surge of energy, a ball of fire formed in the palm of her hand. The black voids of her eyes suddenly flared to life, reflecting the multi-color flames. Gripping the ball firmly in her hand, another surge of energy washed through her and gathered in her palm, turning the blazing ball into one of hard, cold ice.

Her eyes flashed a fierce green as a surge of electricity flew into the crystal ball, causing it to burst into nothing more than dust. The blonde closed her hands into fist, digging her nails into her pink flesh. She closed her eyes and allowed the reawakened elemental powers of her senshi to rush through her veins.

She remembered everything.

Her life as Sailor Moon. Her friends fighting by her side as the other senshi. The final battle with Sailor Galaxia. The senshi sacrificing their star seeds. Her transformation into Sailor Cosmos. Meeting the Z-warriors. Chaos….

Yes, she remembered everything. And it was those thoughts that caused her to choke back a sob. Realization was hitting her hard. It was her weakness that caused the senshi to sacrifice themselves in their fight.

There was no other explanation for their loss. But it was something that had to be done. Right? It was the only way to save the galaxy.

'Why do you still fight me?'

Usagi raised the heavy lids of her eyes.

"Because Chaos… you're evil and I don't side with the likes of you."

'You don't? I would have assumed other wise…It was you who granted me entrance into your very soul.'

"A mistake I wish I could take back. I was broken and you just took advantage."

'Hmmm. You do know I am not one to pass an opportunity.'

"Get out of me. Please. You've already taken everything away from me. What more could you want." A warm tear slid down her cold cheek.

'Nothing you say? What if I told you I can give you everything? I can you know. I can give you back everything you lost. You're friends, your family, you love, your very life.'

"You're lying. You took everything away from me. And I could never get it back. No matter how much I want it."

Usagi slid to the wet ground, brought her knees to her chest, and wrapped her slender arms around them. She buried her head into her arms and sobbed quietly. She felt a tingling sensation on her forehead. The black crescent moon appeared and began to pulsate with power. The blonde tightened her eyes shut and began to shake her head vigorously.

"NO! YOU WILL NOT CONTROL ME CHAOS!!!"

'Do you really believe that Sailor Moon?'

She could feel Chaos' dark energy growing inside of her. She could let him take control of her. If he did…..nothing good would come from it. She'd only endanger her new friends.

She stood to her feet and wiped the tears that stung in her eyes.

"I'll make sure of it. I'll do everything in my power to get you out of me." Her eyes had a sudden determination. She walked back into the light drizzle of rain. She gripped her hands tightly as she searched within her for the purity of her heart. Looking past her memories, past her heartache, past the bloodshed and loss she'd come to know, and past Chaos' darkness, she could feel the surge of lunarian energy within her. Calling it forth, she allowed it to wash over her in a powerful wave.

Instantly, her golden blonde hair turned into pure silver and her damp clothes changed into her silver sailor fuku. Her soft white wings expanded from her back and shielded her from the light drizzle of rain. The goddess allowed her eyes to harden.

"They'll worry about me soon…" Usagi said to herself, her voice barely above a whisper. In one swift movement, Sailor Cosmos expanded her wings and flew off into the air.

"Where the hell could she be?!" Trunks' patience had completely depleted. He'd been waiting for Usagi's return for nearly five hours. He took a quick glance at the clock mounted on the far wall. 1 a.m. It was one in the morning, and there was no word from the blonde beauty.

"Trunks I'm sure she's fine." Bulma whispered staring out of the window as the light raindrops fell on the glass.

"Hn. Let the boy worry onna. It's sort of amusing." Trunks heard Vegeta's husky voice shout from across the room. He had a small grin on his lips as he stared at the lavender haired saiyan-jin.

Even he wasn't that blind. He caught the look in the boy's eyes and they indeed held more than worry. In fact, if Vegeta knew any better, he could have sworn he saw a flash of love for the blonde girl whom he'd been spending every waking day with. Vegeta's grin widened at the thought of his son giving his heart to possibly the last surviving member of the lunarian race.

"I'm going up stairs. I'll be up… let me know when she gets in." Trunks whispered as he ascended up the stairs to his room. Turning the corner, he let a deep sigh escape him before pushing his bedroom door open and stepping inside.

He stared at the sight in front of him with wide eyes. Staring out of his window, a silver haired Usagi, clad in a familiar silver sailor fuku, stood gazing out of the window. His eyes were captivated by the sight of the woman whom he'd been worrying about for the past five hours. She turned a pair of crystal blue eyes at him.

"You're here…"Trunks finally managed to choke out as he closed the door softly behind him and leaned his suddenly heavy body against it. Usagi was still silent as she stared at the saiyan-jin. "Where… where did you go?" Usagi gave the saiyan-jin a weak smile and pressed her hand to her chest. In a flash of white, her elegant sailor fuku dissolved. In it's place she wore her sun dress which was once soaking wet.

"I had to get away and sort things out for a little bit." Usagi cast her eyes down as she went and sat on the edge of Trunks' bed. "It all came rushing back to me." Trunks mustered up a little bit of strength as the worry slowly began to leave him.

"You remember… everything?" Trunks asked in a whisper as he took her former place by the window and leaned against it, staring intently at her. She shook her head solemnly.

"Everything..." She whispered wrapping her arms tightly around her body. Trunks took a seat next to the silver haired maiden and placed a hand on her shoulder.

"Tell me everything." Usagi gave Trunks a distant look before reliving her past to him. Once her story was finished, Trunks was at a loss of words. After a long moment of silence, Trunks finally broke the tense silence.

"Well… at least now you can start over." Usagi looked at him with a questionable glance.

"Start over? Start over with what Trunks? I have nothing left." Usagi said barely above a whisper.

"You're alive Usagi. That's all you need to start over." He said with a small smile. Usagi stood to her feet, her eyes stained with tears, and shook her head vigorously.

"You couldn't possibly understand! You haven't lost anything. You still have you family and friends. You can see them, touch them….talk to them." Tears streamed down her cheeks freely as she lowered her head. "You could never understand what I've been through."

"Enough!" Trunks voice was harsh and Usagi snapped her head up as she heard the saiyan-jin's voice tremble. She stared at him as his muscled flexed underneath his shirt in anger. He clenched and unclenched his fist as he attempt to control his anger but failed.

"You're wrong." Trunks glared at the silver haired woman in front of him, whose body tensed under the dark glare of his usually soft eyes. She could feel the energy within him growing as the wind slowly picked up around him, causing his shoulder length lavender locks to sway furiously.

"You say I could never understand. But you're wrong. I am probably the only one who remotely feels what the hell you're going through. I understand the worst of heartache and the loss of loved one and friends." Trunks trembled as he spoke, finally registering that his energy level would soon hit that of super saiyan-jin had he not took control. He breathed heavily as Usagi gave him a questioning stare. She approached him and placed a gentle hand on his arm.

"What are you talking about? You have everyone…"

"Not where I'm from Usagi. Where I'm from… I watched my friends and family die trying to protect earth right in front of me. And it hurts because I couldn't save any of them. That's why I came back; to change the world I've come to know. I came back to make everything as it should have been in the beginning. But even now I wonder if I'm still doing my job. I still wonder… that if I were to return, would everything still be the same?" As he spoke his eyes no longer held his anger, but instead reflected his own sadness and heartache of living a life where those he'd come to know and love died. He felt warm fingertips touch his cheek. He turned his gaze to Usagi, who looked at him with a pair of warm eyes. Her hand grasped his a tear threatened to spill from her eyes.

"I'm sorry." She whispered above her cry before falling to her knees. Trunks kneeled on the floor with her and hugged her tightly. As she cried from not only her own heartache, but Trunks' as well, she clutched the saiyan-jin's shirt in her hands.

"Shhh.Shhh." He whispered into her hair, at the same time rubbing small circles in the middle of her back with his hand. "We both have lost Usagi. We can only hope we can change our past."

As he spoke, his voice washed over her in warm waves, causing her to slow her sobs and hug the man tighter. He closed his eyes as he pressed the girl closer to his body. He buried his head in her shoulder and closed his eyes before speaking again.

"And if we can't change it… Then we'll make our own future."

The silver haired maiden stepped briskly into the living room the next morning, closely followed by the lavender haired saiyan-jin, both of whom were greeted with the stares of the other occupants of Capsule Corp.

"You had us worried last night Usagi-Chan." Bulma said softly as she went and gave the girl a hug.

"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to make everyone worry. I just had to get some things off of my mind." Usagi said with a smile. As she spoke, she felt summon staring at the back of her figure.

"Supreme Kai.. I see you still have some questions for me…" Usagi whispered as she turned on her heel to face the man who had not removed his gaze from her form. Her eyes lowered at Koibito's intense glare. Supreme Kai stood silently as she stared at the woman in front of him, his eyes lowering.

"Enlighten me Koibito. What do you have on your mind?" Usagi asked, now turning fully to him with a small smile on her face. Koibito's gaze darkened as his fist tightened.

"Do you remember everything now?" Koibito's voice was somewhat harsh.

"I do." She whispered somewhat sarcastically.

"Even Chaos?" Usagi eyes flashed a darker blue as she too clenched her fist.

"If that's what you're worried about... I have everything under control." Usagi's voice was cold and distant. The group of Z-warriors stared intently at the two who stared each other down in the middle of the room.

"How can you be so certain Cosmos? Wasn't he the cause of the death of your friends in your past? It was because of him that they sacrificed theselves."

"You're wrong!" Usagi's voice was harsh and full of anger. Her fist tigthtened, causing her nails to dig into her skin. "It was because of my weakness that they sacrificed themselves. It was just Chaos who let me know it for sure. But I assure you Supreme Kai, I HAVE everything…."

Before Usagi could complete her sentence, a ki blast was sent her way. In a surge of energy, Usagi surrounded herself with a grayish colored light. Her hand extended toward the energy shield, allowing her internal energy to hold the shield in place. In another burst of energy, Usagi was clad in her silver sailor fuku and her hair spun wildly around her, and her eyes were pool of black.

"Supreme Kai! What the hell do you think you're doing??" Trunks questioned placing a firm hand on his arm, which had just released the ball of energy towards the now transformed Sailor Cosmos.

"Just look at her. She's taping into his power." The Supreme Kai said coldly. For the first time, trunks stared at Usagi. He felt his heart clench in his chest at the sight of her. Her lips were together in a small frown; her eyes were pools of pure black. He wasn't used to her like this, especially with her normally giving him a warm smile with sparkling blue eyes.

The energy around her was immense. Trunks stared at the girl in front of him.

"Usagi…" he whispered her name. Her eyes only grew darker as the energy around her began to turn from grey to black.

"Usagi!!" Trunks yelled louder as he took a step towards her. As his smooth voice penetrated Usagi's consciousness, her eyes returned to their normal color and the aura around her dispersed. \

"Leave us." She said coldly. Her eyes were still low as she stared at the unmoving saiyan-jin prince. The small band of onlookers left the room, unsure of what to think. Trunks stopped in the doorway and turned to face the two again. Letting out a final sigh, he turned on his heel and reluctantly left the room.

Once the room was clear, Usagi calmly spoke.

"You need to trust me."

"Trust you? How could I possibly do that when you have the most evil of all beings harboring inside your very soul?"

"You have to. It's all I ask of you. I promised myself to try my best and get rid of chaos."

Koibito lowered his gaze and slowly began to walk towards the door. Before stepping completely out, he stopped in mid-step, but refused to stare into the soft face of the woman.

"Sailor Cosmos… I want to trust you. But my duty lies in protecting this world, even if it ends up being from you." He turned his head at an angle where he could see Usagi staring at him through the corner of his eye. "And frankly...I don't trust you…and 'your best' would never be enough."

With that Koibito walked out of the room leaving Usagi clutching herself tightly, wondering if she really would have the energy and power to relinquish Chaos from her soul.

Sorry for the delay. I've officially moved out of my house yesterday, and now I'm jammed in with my relatives till the new place is ready. Gosh I hate moving!!! Lol.

But anyway.

How'd you like this chapter? I'll be honest.. I'm not satisfied with it but I felt I had to put something up.

Reviews are greatly appreciated.