So yea.. I've had major writers block for this but I think it finally started to come back to me. Don't hate me. Sorry for the long wait. I know I have a lot of making up to do. Hopefully this is good enough for starters!!!!

Imprisoned Solitude

Chapter 8: Desires

Usagi stared out the window of Trunks' bedroom. Her soft eyes were fixated on the rising sun, signaling that dawn was approaching soon. With a sigh, she tightened her arms around her legs, which were brought up against her chest. She turned her tired gaze to the sleeping figure wrapped in the sheets of the bed located in the center of the room. Soft snores emitted from Trunks as she watched the saiyan-jin sleep. Staring at him, her thoughts began to consume her once again.

Trunks was strange. Even though he knew her internal dilemma, and of her past, he was still there for her. Even though certain individuals were hesitant around her, for example the Supreme Kai, the lavender haired saiyan-jin still defended her and treated her like a normal person; a feeling she'd forgotten since her last battle with Chaos and becoming lost in her isolation as Queen of the Cosmos.

She lowered her head to rest on her knees, causing her silver hair to fall like a curtain over her eyes. She let a sigh escape her as she closed her eyes.

"What are you doing up?" The soft voice met her ears causing her head to snap up and stare at Trunks, who was now sitting up on the bed.

"Nothing. Just thinking. " She said with a soft smile as she watched him slowly approach her.

"About what?" He said with a sigh, now standing directly above her. His blue eyes stared down at her and gave the silver haired woman a small smile.

"About everything." She whispered softy as she turned her gaze back to the window. Trunks shrugged his shoulders and dismissed the topic, obvious that Usagi wanted to avoid it. Instead of pressing her further, he perched himself on the window sill bringing one knee to his chest, while his other leg barely touched the cool floor. He turned his head toward the window and stared as the early rays of sun began to peek through the clouds.

"I miss them Trunks. I miss all of them." Usagi suddenly whispered. The saiyan-jin turned his gaze to her, looking at her with soft features. He knew whom she was referring to.

"I know you do Usagi. But I'm sure they'd all want you to keep living and fighting."

Usagi lowered her eyelids as Trunks spoke.

"I know. But I don't know if I can. I try and get over it every day. I try and forget. But it just keeps haunting me. And he…" she turned her distant gaze to the palms of her hands, which were pale. "He keeps taunting me. He knows what I want. He can see it inside of me."

Usagi was so lost in her words she did not see Trunks move to stand beside her once again. She hadn't noticed until she felt his large hands grasp hers tightly and bring them against his chest. Usagi looked up at him.

"Maybe you shouldn't forget. Maybe you need to remember to stay strong and remind yourself of why you're fighting. Remembering them just keeps them in you heart, and there they make your desire to live stronger." Without thinking, Trunks leaned forward and pressed his lips against Usagi's forehead.

"And what about Chaos. He's still inside of me. It's hard fighting him, especially when he manages to tell me the things he can bring me… like the life I used to have." Trunks grip on her hands tightened. "But it's so hard because I want it. I want to give in and see them again. But it's not right."

"Usagi…." Trunks lifted her chin so that her soft eyes stared directly into his. "I understand your desire to give in to him. But you can't. You can't do you hear me?" He placed another kiss on the bridge of her nose. He released his hold from her hands, only to encircle his arms around the girl tightly. He pressed her against his hard body, causing Usagi to finally notice he was shirtless.

"But Trunks. What if I can't? I know yesterday I said I had everything under control but what if the Supreme Kai is right? What if my best isn't enough? Then everyone wouldn't trust me." She shuddered under his embrace, causing his arms to encircle her waist and hug her tighter.

"I trust you and that's all that matters." He whispered in her ear. Usagi tilted her head up to look into the saiyan-jin's eyes. The two had become lost in the depths of each others eyes, so lost they didn't noticed the distance closing between their lips. Before he could catch himself, Trunks brushed his lips across Usagi's softly. He felt her stiffen under the contact for a moment before she parted her lips, inviting his own to her sweetness. His hold on her tightened as he kissed her fully, slowly memorizing the feel of her soft lips against his own. Without thinking, Usagi wrapped her slender arms around Trunks' neck, deepening the kiss.

The saiyan-jin brushed his tongue against her bottom lip, causing her to open her mouth further to give him total access. Trunks pushed her body against his with more force as their tongues collided in a battle for dominance. The passionate kiss seemed to freeze time before they both snapped out of their hazes and came back to reality, only to realize they were lip locked and the heat was spreading through their bodies quickly. With their eyes glazed over in passion, Usagi and Trunks stared at one another silently. Usagi brought her hands to her lips, her eyes wide in shock. She slowly backed away from the saiyan-jin.

"Usagi…wait…." Trunks took a step foreword, but before he could utter another word, the silver haired girl turned on her heal and dashed out of the room.

Usagi let a deep sigh escape her as she settled herself on one of the high branches of the tree located in the backyard of Capsule Corp. Burying her hand into her silver strands, the woman allowed herself to dwell on the thoughts of the previous night.

There's no way Trunks could have feelings for me. None at all. He was just feeling sorry for me. I shouldn't even have put him in that position. She thought to herself as she buried her face in the crook of her arm. But the kiss seemed right for some reason. Even better than when she kissed Darien before he and the others……

Her thoughts trailed off at the sound of a door opening. Looking below her, Usagi saw Vegeta step into the backyard a towel draped across his neck. Stopping suddenly, he cast a glance up at the girl and a small smirk crossed his lips.

"You shouldn't trouble yourself so much onna." He whispered as he sat at the base of the tree that Usagi currently occupied. Pressing his back against the bark, Vegeta relaxed under the shade that the tree provided. Usagi looked at him silently from the corner of her eye. Trunks' father was indeed a strange figure. Even with his gravity defying hair and his onyx eyes that seemed to be as cold as stone, Usagi was always able to find the sincerity in him.

"How do you know what I'm thinking Vegeta?" Usagi asked turning her head completely towards him. Looking down at him, she gave the saiyan-jin a small smile.

"All of you woman are the same. You're emotions are easily recognized." He said closing his eyes.

"And what oh mighty Vegeta, do you know of a woman's emotions?" Usagi jumped from her perch to stand directly in front of him. Feeling her presence before him, Vegeta opened his eyes and glared at the silver haired girl.

"That those exact emotions make them weak and helpless little girls." He said with a curt laugh as he stood to his feet.

"And what proof do you have on that? I bet I could beat you." Usagi snapped placing her hands on her hips. Vegeta stopped in his tracks only to turn back at the girl, and raised a dark eyebrow as he stared at her.

"Is that a challenge foolish onna?" He asked darkly, removing the towel from off his shoulders and throwing it to the ground. Usagi's allowed the smirk across her lips to grow.

"No.. it's a promise." She replied. Before another breath of air could escape her, a hard body impaled her and drove her backwards. Staggering somewhat, Usagi regained her balance and stared at the saiyan-jin prince in shock.

"What the hell was that?!" She screamed, clutching her ribcage, the area that received the majority of Vegeta's blow.

"Stop whining onna. I won't deliver anything I think you can't handle. Now get up and fight. Fulfill your promise." Narrowing her gaze towards the saiyan-jin, Usagi clenched her fists at her sides, building up energy. In a flash or white light, Usagi transformed into Sailor Cosmos, allowing the energy to resonate from her so that Vegeta could feel what she possessed.

"Is that meant to intimidate me onna? You'll have to do better than that." He said with a 'humph' as he charged for her again.

Do you see how he undermines you?

'No….Not now….' She thought to herself.

He thinks you're a weakling. He thinks you're worthless. You need to prove him otherwise.

Chaos' words began to stir her concentration as she threw a punch at Vegeta, only to miss completely. The older man raised a dark eye brow at the silver haired girl.

"There is no way you can beat me like that... Concentrate onna." Vegeta said before sending a fist towards her, enjoying the 'oomph' that escaped her when his hard fist collided with her stomach.

You see foolish princess… he mocks your strength. You and I both know you can shut him up for good. You know what you have to do.

Clutching her stomach tightly, she extended her hand out to get, making her staff appear in front of her.

"Do you think that will help you now?" Vegeta taunted as he raised his own hand and sent a few ki blasts towards her. With a swift motion, Usagi twirled her staff in front of her, forming an invisible shield. The ki blasts bounced back towards the saiyan-jin, who merely jumped into the air avoid their impact all together.

Cosmos raised her head to look at the saiyan-jin. Cold Onyx eyes met silver eyes of the same coldness.

"Let's get this over with Vegeta." She whispered more to herself than to him. Closing her eyes, she allowed energy to surround her, creating her large white wings. Pushing off into the air, Usagi gripped her staff tightly.

Do more than get it over with. Get rid of him entirely.

'Leave me be you demon. I could never hurt him. He's Trunks' father for Kami's sake!' She said as she swung the end of her staff outward towards Vegeta.

Foolish girl. Why are you so blind? He knows you are nothing.

'Shut up! You're wrong!!' She yelled at Chaos mentally. Vegeta sent another ki blast towards Cosmos, who only used her staff to deflect it.

"So onna. You still believe you can beat me?"

"I know I can Vegeta." She taunted. Vegeta let a smirk cross his lips.

"Even with my son clouding your mind?" He laughed. Usagi stopped abruptly at his statement.

"Wha….What?"

"Did you think I wouldn't notice? I see the way you look at him onna. How your eyes hold some glimmer of hope that something could happen one day."

"You're wrong. Nothing can happen between Trunks and I." She threw a punch at the saiyan-jin prince.

"And does he feel the same way?" He asked, avoiding the contact. He then sent his own bunch towards Cosmos, causing it to graze her cheek.

"Trunks feel's nothing for me. He's just being nice to me because of who I am and what's going on with me." Cosmos placed a hand to her chest, creating a small ball of energy in her palm. Holding it in front of her, she focused her energy into the ball, allowing it to grow bigger.

"You're right. Maybe he does just pity you." Usagi's eyes widened as she looked at him.

You see. I was right my princess. They all view you as weak. Cosmos closed her eyes tightly as Vegeta continued to penetrate her with his words.

"You're a weak and foolish onna… How could my son possibly desire you?"

Prove it to him. Prove to them all that you are more than what you seem.

"You can't even put up a good fight. Trunks probably thinks you're worthless." Usagi gasped as a piercing pain crossed her heart. She lowered her head, causing her bangs to cast her eyes in shadow. Vegeta lowered his gaze on her as he watched the woman begin to tremble in front of him.

"SHUT UP!!!!!!!" Sailor Cosmos screamed as the white orb in her hand turned into a mass of pure black energy and expanded. "You know nothing of me! I am more than what I seem!" she opened her eyes and glared at Vegeta. The saiyan-jin felt his voice become caught in his throat as he stared into the cold, black orbs of Sailor Cosmos. He could make out the faint trace of tears that decorated her pale skin.

Vegeta tensed as she released the orb of dark energy, sending it flying towards him. He powered up in attempts to escape its impact, but it engulfed him and sent him into the ground before he could move. Cosmos floated towards the large crater that formed and peered her black eyes into its depths. Vegeta was on his knees, panting for air. He was visibly trembling as smoke wafted off of his bronze skin. Cosmos stared down at him as he tore the remainder of shirt off, which was nearly disintegrated from the blast.

"You… prince of saiyan-jin denounce me and my capabilities." Cosmos' voice echoed through the sky. Vegeta nearly trembled as her distant voice vibrated through his bones.

"I will prove to you that I am more."

In a whirl of dark energy, Cosmos disappeared from Vegeta's sight and reappeared in Trunk's bedroom.

"Usagi! I was wondering where you were. I need to talk to you about what happened." Trunks began when Usagi mysteriously appeared in his room. He hadn't seen her since their kiss the night before and he had wanted to understand what had happened. He wanted to explain why he kissed her. And he needed to know why she'd returned it.

Placing a firm hand on Usagi's shoulder, he stopped suddenly at the cold aura that radiated from her. She turned around slowly and locked her black eyes with Trunks' lavender.

"Trunks…." The saiyan-jin steeped back as Usagi's voice vibrated against he walls of his room.

"Usagi… you…."

"I'm not as weak as you and the others think Trunks. I'm here to prove it to you." Her voice sent a chill down Trunks' spine. A single tear fell down her cheek. Trunks grabbed her face in his hands and whipped the tear away with his thumb.

"Usagi listen to me." Her black eyes bore into his as he spoke. "Control him. He can't get the better half of you." He demanded. Usagi shook her head free of Trunks' grasp.

"No! I have to prove it. I am not weak!" She said with a sob, throwing herself into Trunks' grasp and desperately pressing her lips against his. Trunks cringed at the coldness of her kiss. It didn't have the same warmth he felt the night before, the same warmth he yearned for.

"No. Stop. This is not you!" He said with a grunt as he pushed the girl off of him. She watched him with wide, pained eyes. Tears began to fall freely as she choked back her sobs. She brought her hands to her chest and took a few steps away from him backing herself into the wall.

You see. He does not desire you. He wants nothing to do with you.

"Usagi…" he reached a hand out to her. She shivered as Chaos spoke to her.

"I understand….." she whispered before allowing the dark whirl of energy to consume her and teleport her back outside into the growing night. She sank to her knees as her tears fell.

"I am weak. I am nothing." She whispered into a sob.

Hai. But in your past you were everything. I can bring it all back to you. Will you allow me to grant you the power to return all those you love?

Usagi bowed her head, allowing her silver hair to blanket her face. She stared at the world before her with dimmed, black orbs. She quieted her cries. She could feel the energy filling her.

She'd been denied by the man she began to love. She'd been viewed as weak. She didn't want this life. None of it. Taking a deep breath, she allowed one word to spill from her lips.

"Hai."

"What is that?" Koibito asked standing to his feet. Everyone had been sitting in the living room when they all felt a sudden surge of dark energy fill the air.

"I don't know…." Goku whispered as he, too, stood to his feet. Koibito narrowed his eyes as he concentrated on the surge of sudden power. His eyes widened in realization.

"Damn! I knew she wouldn't be able to control it!" Koibito yelled as he ran out of the room into the backyard.

"What's going on?!" he heard the others yell behind them. Their question was quickly answered when they saw Sailor Cosmos bent to the ground. An orb of dark energy was around her and it sent sparks of black electricity flying around her body. They watched silently as Cosmos stood to her feet. They all gasped at the sight of her dark eyes and how she radiated pure darkness.

"You're too late. She has already succumbed to my will." Chaos' voice echoed through Usagi's body.

"NO!" Koibito said through clenched teeth. His hands were tightened into fists at his side as he watched Cosmos closely. Usagi brought her hands to her chest, where a dark light formed. Extending her hand, the silver imperial crystal formed in her palm. Koibito's eyes widened at the sight of the jewel. It was no longer a clear glass that radiated pure, white energy. It was now tainted pure black. The power around Usagi grew as a black crescent moon appeared on her forehead. Her silver hair blew widely around her frame as her staff appeared before her.

Gripping it tightly in her hands, Cosmos brought the black crystal towards the larger orb perched on top of the staff. In an instant, the crystal was absorbed into the staff. A surge of power washed over it, turning it into a rod of pure black steel. Gripping it even tighter, she allowed the energy to flow through her own body. In a flash of dark energy, Cosmos' once silver fuku was transformed into one of complete black. As her silver her blew wildly around her, black streaks began to appear. A grin crept across her lips as her gaze grew harder.

"All she wanted was her life." Chaos whispered to them again.

"Usagi…" Goku took a step forward and reached a hand out to her, only to be thrown backwards by a surge of dark electricity that stopped him.

"No one else move forward!!!" Trunks yelled, running to the front of the small crowd. He watched as Usagi's shadow spread to her left and right.

"What's happening?" he breathed out. From the shadows, figures began to rise and take the shape of women. They all had similar sailor fukus, but each had a distinguishing color. To her left, four of the women stood tall; a sandy blond, an aqua marine haired girl, a shorter one with shoulder length, dark purple hair gripped a staff that resembled a sickle, and the tallest one had green hair half tied in a bun and the rest flowing behind her and she gripped her own staff that looked like a key. Cosmos turned her cold gaze to them and smiled.

To her right, another four women stood glaring at everyone with the same iciness as the others. One girl had golden blond, mid back length hair tied with a red ribbon, another had raven hair, one was a brunette who had her hair tied into a ponytail, and the last had blue shoulder length hair. Cosmos turned to them, and gave them the same smile she'd given the others.

"Usagi.. Listen to me!!!" Trunks yelled above the roll of thunder that appeared mysteriously. Two more shadows grew behind her. A tall man formed behind her. He wore a black tuxedo, cape, and wore a white mask over his eyes. He wrapped his arms protectively over Usagi's body.

"Usako…" he whispered causing her to lean into his embrace with a smile.

The other shadow moved to stand in front of her. The girl wore a pink and white sailor fuku. Her pink hair was done up in two cone shaped buns and she gripped Usagi's hand tightly.

"Mama…." The pink haired figure whispered as she stared into the dark depths of her mother's eyes.

The title seemed to strike a cord in Trunks' heart. This was them. The people so close to her that she'd lost in her last fight with Chaos. They were the Sailor Senshi. Her warriors. Her protectors.

Cosmos turned her gaze back to everyone who stood in shock before her.

"You never wanted me. But this…. This is what I desire." Usagi's own voice now vibrated through the air as she spoke to them with black, dim eyes. With a wave of her staff, Cosmos created a dark portal behind her. She and the others turned to face it, prepared to walk through.

"She must be stopped!!!!" Koibito called, throwing his arms forward and sending a large ki blast to the retreating group lead by Cosmos.

"NO!!!" Trunks called as he sent his own ki blast to stop the Supreme Kai's. In a burst of energy, the two attacks disintegrated.

"What the hell do you think you're doing Trunks?" Koibito asked angrily. He stopped at the look on the saiyan-jin's face. He was in pain.

"Usagi…." Trunks choked out. Sailor Cosmos glanced at him over her shoulder one last time before stepping through the portal with the others.

"Wait!" he called, running after them only to have it close completely. Trunks fell to his knees in the spot where Usagi had stood only a few seconds before. Lowering his head, he allowed his eyes to be cast into shadow. He sat there for a few minutes, until he felt a presence behind him.

"That wasn't the Usagi you know Trunks. It's obvious… she's long gone." Koibito's voice was hard as he spoke. Trunks got to his feet slowly and turned to him. His eyes were cold and distant.

"Then I'll get her back." He said brushing past the shorter man.

"Don't be a fool Trunks. She's already chosen what life she wants to live. The only thing we can do now is find her and stop her before she looses control of Chaos power completely. She's a danger to the entire galaxy if she's allowed to roam freely." Trunks stopped, but did not turn around. Everyone watched the two silently.

"You know it. She must be stopped... at whatever the price." Trunks said nothing at Koibito's words. He only continued to the house silently thinking about how to get Usagi back to him.

Don't hate me or anything like that please!!! Don't worry. Spring break is coming up soon so I hope to get more writing done. Hopefully…..

Anyway.. please read and review… it would motivate me a lot!!!