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Derek's thoughts: bold and italic.
Penelope's thoughts: italic
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Maybe they're omens, I mean every time you get that bit closer to having 'the talk' something always pops up and snatches it away. That once upon a time scenario getting ever more distance once again, isn't it Penelope?
Penelope got home after leaving Derek's and run a bath and started on the wine, she had felt so ready the moment she had stepped out of Esther and walked towards him. Now there was no way that chat was going to happen for a couple of days and she didn't know if waiting was a good idea. Every element under the sun so far had played against her or so it seemed.
She fell down on the couch with a sigh and saw she had a voicemail, she hadn't heard the phone ring when she was in the bath but then again she hadn't been listening out for it. She stood and pushed play and then reclaimed her seat again.
Hey baby girl... really sorry we didn't get that chat but I really want to have it and we will... the next time the world can wait.
I will see you tomorrow night though goddess. Love you.
Love you... seems pretty ironic now... seriously is that a brotherly love you or is it something else? Penelope you need this sorted out soon... he needs to talk to you, you need to talk to him, its simple! Have the talk!
She looked around the apartment and her eyes gazed over the flowers that were waiting for her, seems her bosses were sorry they couldn't supply a family member so instead had arranged the whole evening the next night so she could have her whole family together, although this time Fran Morgan would be added to the number.
I can see where Derek gets his manners and gentleness at least now... he is so much like his mom... but whoa! He talks about you Penelope... when you aren't around he talks about you... to his mom... and whoa, whoa, whoa his sisters as well! Why would he do that? That seriously is nothing short of embarrassing. I blushed! Oh My God! I blushed in front of his mom! God now that is embarrassment if it ever had to be demonstrated.
Well apart from the blushing Penelope, his mom seems to like you, that's got its ups I suppose. Liked by a woman that knows about you hypothetically speaking and has met you for no more than 5 minutes earlier tonight. It's a good start seeing as tomorrow night you will be out and about with them.
With her thoughts running wild she decided more alcohol would confuse her further so she picked herself up, turned the alarm on, turned the lights off and headed for her bed. In the darkness she lay, her thoughts still on hyper mode, still dancing haphazardly in front of her. There was just no switching them off.
What do you like about Derek? Apart from the obvious being that he a very nice looking man, actually he is the most naturally gorgeous man you have ever seen. He's your best friend too Penelope... that the importance. He knows you too well, he was trying to protect you from Battle, you ignored him despite everything. He took you back. He makes you feel safe. He makes you feel loved. He makes you feel better after a bad case. He looked after you after you were shot. He got your chair level perfectly right when you were still too weak to fix it yourself. He makes you smile the most. He knows you inside and out. You're his baby girl.
And with that finally thing said Penelope smiled and pulled the quilt up more. She was not going to give up on something that was still yet to start.
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'I'm sorry I disrupted your evening son.'
'It's no problem mom really... I love the fact your here.'
'Well Rossi and Hotch got someone for everyone to have for a day or so.' She saw Derek look down and then run a hand over his head. 'Derek what's wrong?'
'Pen... she doesn't have anyone.' Her family was the team, so they would have their real family while hers weren't going to come near her.
Fran looked slightly upset in that instant. 'Aw baby... ring her and ask her round if she's going to be all alone.'
'She won't take the offer mom... but I do need to ring her and reinforce something so I will be right back.'
'Okay don't hurry... take as much time as you need.' She watched Derek stand and take his phone out and then close the door to kitchen as he stepped outside.
Right Derek be normal on this call... don't babble on, you need to have this talk... you both said you need it so you definitely need it. It's ringing... and ringing... where are you baby girl? Damn answer phone.
When he had finished he went back into the house and saw he mom watching him, the question written unasked on her face like it had been so many times before. 'Voice mail.'
'Was it an important chat you two needed?'
Can I shout from the high heavens a yes? 'No it can wait.'
'Derek do not lie to your mother, you know better than that.'
'From my side I guess so but from Penelope... I don't know.'
'Want to talk about it? Fran said as she placed a hand on Derek's knee. 'You know you can offload to me anytime.'
'I don't know.' Derek lies again! It's becoming a habit lately!
'Don't know or don't want to?'
He sighed. 'I... I need to tell her something that's deep even for me.'
'Deep?'
'Yeah too deep that its raw and unforgiving and always there.'
'Is it a feeling you hope to get rid of when you have you talk?'
'No it's a feeling I want to grow and make me feel intense.' Derek you are a deep sensitive man really... bravo for proving that to your mom!
'You're in love with Penelope aren't you?'
Derek looked at his mom with wide eyes. 'How did you guess?'
'Mother's intuition and the way you held her earlier... I'm really sorry I prevented you from getting it out.'
'It doesn't matter anyway... I guess the amount of times it fallen through should be a warning sign shouldn't it?'
'No... no it shouldn't... Derek loves never easy and that's what makes it special. The way she looked at you and took to your hug earlier proved she wants this chat and I think it's on the similar lines as yours.'
'But everything gets in the way.' That screams a downhill spiral... I can't have one chat because life comes in between it all... isn't that a sign?
'But you haven't started it yet.' Fran said to reinforce her point. 'You haven't had chance, its the initial obstacles that make it hard but if you want it you fight, don't give up at the first hurdle.'
'You're the third.' Isn't it usually one too many... isn't three a bit like too far?
'Well still don't give up! If you want Penelope to know you let her know but I've never known my son to give up on things and I don't want to see him start now.'
'You're right.'
'Of course I am... I'm your mother.'
'That you are.' Derek smiled, his mother had helped out once again and because of it he was more determined. When the darkness came later that night and he was alone, he found his thoughts whizzing unhealthily around him.
Derek it's Penelope... you know the woman you've trusted the most in the word for nearly 8 years, the woman who has shown you light when you thought it was impossible... you love her so tell her... your mom seems to like her, surely that's a good sigh? A really good sign... but now Penelope knows you talk about her to your mom... is that a good or bad thing?
Derek... in all honesty what is it you love about her? You knew you would have to ask yourself this question so now's a good time to ponder on it!
I love the way her voice lingers in my head. How her touch seems to be left imprinted on my skin. The way she smiles at me. The way she makes me smile. The way she makes me feel like I'm the most important person in her life. The way she cares. The way she comes in as the saviour, as my savious. I love her eyes, her lips, her entire self. Her entire being. But most importantly I love the fact she's my one and only baby girl.