Sirius' Secret

Disclaimer: I do not own Harry Potter or any of the characters. They are the property of JK rowling. I only own the new OC's which appear in the following chapters.

Harry tried to be incredibly careful when it came to his possessions and Sirius. Sirius had been nagged by Mrs Weasley for months to do something about Harry's money problem. He honestly didn't think it was a problem but there was nothing he could do. He was sixteen years old and everyone was out to control his life. After many weeks of nagging, Sirius informed her that he would be taking control over Harry's Gringotts account like he should. Now Harry would only get a certain amount of his money for things he badly needed, not that he was all that bothered. Harry Potter never had money until the age of eleven, but he always, always got what he wanted. So, for the remainder of the summer holidays, Harry made sure to keep all adults out of his room, which wasn't all that hard. If he came down when he was called, there would never be a problem… Though, when one has their heavy metal music playing a bit too loud and can't hear anyone knocking loudly on their bedroom door, then they're in for trouble.

'Harry, what on earth is all this?' Tonks had abandoned all acts of politness and decided to barge in. Mrs Weasley had told her to ask Harry to turn down his music. Afterall, she was too scared to get too close to that racket.

'What?' Harry asked innocently, ignoring the liberal amount of magazines, clothes and electronic devices strewn everywhere across the room. He went to turn down the music, but left it loud enough to hear every lyric.

'How do you live like this?' She asked, looking at the mess, 'And where did you get this stuff? I thought Sirius was keeping an eye on your money.'

Harry sighed, 'Yea, for some strange reason people think I can't spend my own money-'

Tonks laughed humourlessly, 'Oh no Harry, quite the opposite. Everyone knows how great you are at spending money.' She paused picking up one of the nearby guitars, 'It's just Sirius thinks you're not spending it wisely… When did you get all this?' She nodded her head at some DVDs that lay on the floor, while attempting to play a few chords on the guitar.

Harry glanced over to where she was nodding, 'When we went to muggle London.'

'Harry.' Tonks began, a frown on her face. She just couldn't grasp this logic, 'Sirius gave you the money for the guitar, the tongue piercing, and your school things.'

Harry shrugged absentmindedly, 'I suppose he gave me a bit extra.' He was a pro at lieing. And wasn't about to be caught out by anyone.

'I was there and he didn't.' Tonks shook her head, looking thoughtful. She put her guitar back down and walked to Harry, a sly grin emerging on her face, 'Harry, have you been nicking things from shops?'

'Tonks, please.' Harry said with an exquisite look of disbelief of his face, 'I'm not poor anymore. And I'm not a child. We grow out of those kind of things… But even if I was nicking things it wouldn't matter because the shops still aren't even making a loss. It would just be very…'

'Whatever it is Harry, you better stop-'

'Stop what? I'm not doing anything.' He probably should have been mor thankful it was Tonks that caught him, because if it had been any other occupant of Grimmauld Place he'd probably be receiving a lecture from Remus now, '…Fine, I'll stop.' He rolled his eyes but she seemed content with his confession and backed out of the room, reminding him to turn down his music or else he'd have Mrs Weasley banging on the door.

The time had come to go back to school after the Summer holidays. Overall, there was a very mixed reaction to what had happened during the summer, and it was obvious that Sirius was the most upset by everything. He had met a side of his Godson he would have preferred not to, Lorena wasn't as he imagined either and to top it all, Lupin was going to have a baby. All he could think about was another Harry that the whole house would have to endure. The only thing that Sirius was looking forward to was his wife getting to come back and live with him, and then, when everyone came home for Christmas, that would be when they would be introduced.

'Sirius.' Remus said pleadingly one night after the teenagers had all been put on the train and sent to Hogwarts, 'I never meant for Tonks to tell you. I don't know what she was thinking.'

'Do you not… Think this is strange?'

'Well… Yea.'

'It feels like Lily and James all over again, and you know I hated that.'

Remus nodded at his old friend. He knew how Sirius hated the fact Harry had been born, not that he would dare say that to Harry now. Lupin remembered how jealous Sirius had been, but he also remembered how he warmed up incredibly soon to Harry.

'It all worked out for the best though didn't it?'

'Did it Remus?' Sirius asked, 'I mean. Look at him for God sake. He doesn't need anyone. He wasn't around for years, and now when I finally have him back he's completely messed up.'

Lupin stayed silent. Not knowing what to say back to his friend.

'Do you ever think all this messes up the Marauders?'

'Sirius, we're not in school anymore. That's what people do when they leave school, get married, have children… Die.'

'I never wanted children.'

'And you don't have to look after any. Remember, you said Harry doesn't need anyone…' Remus suddenly became frustrated, 'Sirius, what exactly are you trying to say?'

But that was the end of the conversation. Sirius was in no mood to talk about this. And honestly, neither was Lupin. With Harry and Lorena gone, Sirius did feel a bit lonely. In a way he greatly enjoyed what they got up to, but he also hated how he was the adult. Guiltily he remembered back to what Lily said to him… And what Sophie said to him… That he had to act more like an adult before he could touch their children. It was said as a joke, but Sirius could tell there was some sort of truth in what they were saying. Now Sirius was confused, he didn't know if he was missing the times that he could act like an ass in school, or if he was missing the times when he could influence Harry and Lorena in a huge way… Now they just sort of drifted around him, wrapped up in their own lives, hiding stuff they couldn't say to Sirius because he wasn't young enough to confide in. Possibly he was jealous of Lupin, who was the same age as him, but got a chance to do all the baby stuff again.

There was a short knock on the living room door and Sirius looked up in surprise. His wife walked through the door.

'Oh.' She said quietly, 'I didn't know if you were in here with someone.'

'Nope, just me on my own Penny.'

Penelope Black, Manchester as she was known as before the marriage was a pretty woman, with short black curls. Her cheeks were slightly pink, and Sirius noticed that cute dimple when she smiled with relief and walked over to him. She was hiding from everyone pretty much. She didn't think it was the right time to let Harry know about her.

'How did everything go this summer? They all gone back to school?' Penny kicked off her shoes and sat down beside her husband.

'Yea… They just make me feel so old…'

Penny chuckled, 'That's what they'll do to you my dear, that's what they'll do.'

'Lily and James have been dead for… Way too long. And Harry is just like I remember James, and it's like he never died, but I can't talk to him the way I talked to James.' Sirius rubbed his eyes, 'It's- It's like I'm stuck in a pensieve or something. And I'm looking at James… And then, I'm also looking at Sophie. And… Penny I can't take it, this is much too hard. Lorena looks like my dead sister and Harry looks like my dead best friend…I…' He broke off and stared at his hands. Not wanting to look up in case a tear fell and his wife saw him crying. Penny put a hand on his head to rub his hair.

'I know Sirius, I know.' Penny whispered, 'I haven't been able to bring up the courage to talk to Harry because of James… I hope by Christmas I'll be ready. Lorena isn't as much of a shock to me because I saw her while Sophie was alive, and the similarities were just obvious since then. But with Harry… I mean, it's been fifteen years since I saw him…'

The two sat there for hours, no longer talking, just holding each other. Both were obviously thinking about the past, about Lily and James, and about when Harry and Lorena were born, and everyone was so happy. Always happy. And Sirius realised, he didn't miss being as school, he simply missed being happy. And when he saw Harry, he knew his Godson wasn't happy. He knew his niece wasn't happy. They looked pretty happy on the exterior, but Sirius could tell that after all that happened to them they weren't as happy as they made out. Sirius had noticed, definitely with Harry, he had this cool kind of vibe off him, whatever happened he wasn't too bothered. Sirius guessed that was just after so much time of being alone, he learned not to get too excited or attached to anything or anyone. Lorena was similar, but Sirius felt with Harry, the feeling was much stronger.

'Does Harry play Quidditch, Sirius?' Penny asked, 'Like James did?'

'Yea.' Sirius smiled, 'He plays seeker… And he's much better than James ever was. I saw him playing in his third year… You know, if there are any matches on this year, I'm going to see them.' Sirius decided.

'Lorena plays too you know.' Penny nudged Sirius playfully in the side, 'She plays chaser. I remember… Didn't Sophie play as well?'

'Yea. Didn't want her to play either.' Sirius growled, 'She was very small… Stupid Slytherins sending bludgers her way every five seconds.'

'Yea, well, she was tough. And so is Lorena.' Penny smiled, 'You know, I'll go to any matches too. I want to see Harry play… And Maybe Lorena will get on the Gryffindor Quidditch team. It'd be weird to seeing them both playing. It'd be like James and Sophie are playing again.'

Sirius sighed at the mention of James again. He decided to confide in Penny what was going on in his mind.

'Penny, do you think James made a mistake appointing me as Harry's guardian?'

'Of course not, Sirius, why on earth would you say something like that?'

'Because, look at him!' Sirius said angrily, 'Look what's happened to him because of me. Just the other day, in Diagon Alley he lit up a cigarette for fuck sake. And what could I do? Nothing.'

'He's sixteen. I'd like you to name a sixteen year old who hasn't tried smoking. He was just unfortunate enough to keep going. Sirius, that has nothing to do with you. If Lily and James were alive I'm sure he'd still be smoking.'

'You should have seen him the night of his birthday Penny,' Sirius said, shaking his head.

'Why?'

'He does drugs as well. He's not addicted, but he still does them.' Sirius sighed, 'Maybe James should have made Lupin his Godfather… I was in prison for so long I never even got to see him grow up.'

'Yea… Well, you got to see him reunited with Lorena,' Penny laughed, 'It's like when they were babies again. '

'And another thing, he's been having sex since he was thirteen. Where the hell are those cute, innocent girlfriends that you're supposed to have at that age? If he had someone to look after him none of that would have happened.'

'How do you know that he had sex at thirteen?'

'He told me.'

'Do you really think Lily and James are looking down at you thinking what a bad Godfather you are? If he's telling you stuff like that, he mustn't really see you as a guardian at all, more like a friend.'

Sirius didn't look too convinced.

'Do you think Lorena would tell her father something like that?'

Sirius grinned to himself. Maybe he wasn't as bad as he thought. But he still really had to do something about Harry spending his money on God knows what. It was time he started controlling a bit of Harry's life and stop letting him use the word 'orphan' as an excuse for everything.

'Sirius?' He looked up to see his wife staring hopefully down at him from a kneeling position on the couch.

'Yea?'

'Do you think we should have a baby?'

'…Do you want to?' Sirius asked uncertainly.

A/N: There! The end of the summer holidays. I wanted to make it as long as possible but Harry doesn't get nearly enough time with his Godfather. Thanks for everyone who read so far and hope you'll want to read my school chapters.