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Meredith stood at her front door not ready to open it. Stop crying Meredith it is not worth it. Meredith wiped the tears from her face and took a deep breath and opened her door. Taking off her Jacket and placing it on a hook by the door, she started to look around the front living area. "George you here?"
"Hey Mere how was your night?" George asked walking to her as with a tea towel over his shoulder.
"Please, I don't want to talk about it," she said as she put her hand up as if to block the conversation. Meredith walked over to the lounge room and fell on to the lounge. "Did he get to sleep ok?"
"Yeah he did," George said as he sat down on the lounge next to her. "Are you ok?" Worried that some thing really bad happened to her.
Meredith sighed and pulled her hair back into a pony tail. "Yeah I am perfectly fine," Meredith said sarcastically. "The night started out fine, and then he had to turn up,"
George wasn't sure who she was talking about.
Meredith didn't look over to see the confused look of his face. "He was out of my life for two years, two years George. Why did he have to come back?" Again the tears where back, Meredith tried so hard to hold them back. She didn't want to give Derek the satisfaction of crying again.
George just suddenly realised who she was talking about. "Meredith, why don't you go to bed? I can stay the night and look after Lachlan."
Meredith gave him a sad smile. "Thanks George." Meredith got up from the lounge and slowly made her way up the stairs towards her room. She was pretty tired, and really needed to relax.
Meredith stopped right before her room looked at a closed door. Quietly she opened the door and heard soft breathing. Meredith turned on the light and walked over to the cot, to see a small child sleeping quietly. "Hey little man." Meredith pulled the covers up slightly on to him and leaned over and kissed his forehead stroking his hair before turning and leaving the room before turning the light off and closing the door.
Walking into her room she flopped on to the bed. Looking over to the clock the time read 1:46am. Sighing and looking up to the ceiling she realised that she had to get up in 3 hours to go to work. Lets hope today is a better day. Meredith leaned over and grabbed the phone that was on her bedside table. Dialling a number she held the phone up to her ear. Suddenly the line on the other end answered.
"Hi you've reached Dr Mark Sloan. I'm not here right now, but if you leave your name and number I will get back to you."
The line beeped.
"Mark, it's Mere," Meredith sighed. "He's back and I need someone to talk to, and well…I was hoping you would answer…but I guess that you are either asleep or busy. So I guess I will see you tomorrow." Meredith hung up the phone and placed it back on the bedside table. Sighing again she laid down on the bed. Slowly closing her eyes Meredith feel asleep.
Derek sighed.
It had seemed like he had been up for hours, only getting a couple of hours sleep. There were so many thoughts running through his head. About Meredith, about his son, about what had happened since he was gone. Sitting up he thought of the night before and how he talked to Meredith. He had thought of that night so many times before and the different scenarios they both could possibly have, but none of them ended up how they did last night.
"I have a son," Derek said to him self as he rub his hands over his face and through his hair. Sighing again Derek stood up and started to look around the lounge room. There were a few happy snaps of Meredith and Mark and of other people in the hospital.
"There is one photo that you should look at." Derek looked around to see Mark holding a cup of coffee and wearing sweats.
"What photo?" Derek asked as Mark turned around walked over to a cabinet across the hall and picked up a shinny silver frame.
"Here," Mark walked over to Derek and passed him the frame.
Derek looked at the frame and then to Mark. "Is this…is this." Derek couldn't get the words out to ask what he was looking at.
"Derek that is your son," Mark said pointing down at the frame.
Derek looked at the photo to see Mark holding a little boy; he couldn't be more then 1 or 2. The boy had dark brown thick hair and blue eyes. "Derek looked up to Mark with tears in his eyes. "What's his name?"
Marks lightly smiled looked from the photo to Derek. "Meredith called him Lachlan."
Derek smile and looked back down to the photo. Derek sat on the lounge still looking at the photo. "I am going to try and make up for what I have done."
"How about you leave her alone for a while."
Derek looked up to Mark.
"Just let her get used to you being here," Mark said sitting down across from him and took a sip of his coffee.
"So what else were you thinking of doing today?" Mark asked.
"I thought I would go into Seattle Grace and beg for my job back," Derek said slight laughing, as he stood the photo up on the coffee table in front of him.
"Do you think that Richard is going to give it back to you after you just left like that?" Mark asked as he leaned back into the lounge.
"Well I am the number one Neurosurgeon in the country," Derek said cocky.
Mark laughed. "Well if you want a lift you can give you a lift."
"Yeah that would be great," Derek said smiling sadly, glad that he had Mark as a friend and that he is willing to help him out after what he has done.
"Ok we will leave in half an hour," Mark said as he got up from the lounge and walked down the hallway.
Derek again picked up the photo. "That's my son."
* * *
"Should we wake her?" Izzy asked as she took a sip from her pink mug.
"She had a hard night Iz, I don't even know if she should go into work," George said bouncing the little boy in her arms.
"George we can't make that decision for her, you know Meredith she will want to get lost in her work," Izzy again took a sip from her mug as she let Lachlan play with her fingers.
Suddenly the door opened and there stood Meredith in the same clothes that she was wearing last night. "You do know that I can hear everything you two are saying as you are standing right outside my door?"
"Ahhh Mer we just wanted to know if you are coming in with us this morning?" George asked as he manoeuvred little boy in his arms.
Izzy looked at George and then Meredith as she sucked on the rim of her mug.
"Of course Georgie why wouldn't I be?" Meredith messed Lachlan's thick dark brown hair and walked back into her room and closed the door behind her.
"Well I guess she is coming to work," George said as she walked down the hallway. "Now I think it is time for breakfast, little man. Yes, yes it is."
Izzy sighed and walked into the bathroom behind her and started to get ready for work.
Meredith stood in her bathroom in front of her mirror. Once again she had to tell herself to breath. Today is going to be a good day, today is going to be a good day. Meredith repeated to herself as she slowly breathed in and out as she closed her eyes.
Meredith turned on the tap and then pulled her hair back in a pony tail, she didn't have time to have a shower, so she thought by freshening up she would wash her face. Then she would get dressed. She still hadn't heard from Mark since she called him last night. He usually wouldn't miss her fall calls, or at least if he did he would give her a call usually within an hour of her calling, no matter what the time was.
Once she was done she got dressed in a pair of tight fitting jeans and a dark pink long sleeved shirt and made her way down to the kitchen where George was feeding Lachlan.
"Here comes the aeroplane."
Meredith laughed as George made noises like an aeroplane as the spoon came towards the little boy's mouth.
"Hey Mer are you ready for work?" George asked as he wiped Lachlan's face.
"Yeah I just have to grab Lachlan's stuff from-"
"Done" Izzy said as she put a blue backpack on the table and walked over to the kettle and filled her travelling mug up with hot water.
"Thanks Izzy you didn't have to do that."
"It's fine," she said smiling. "I got up kinda early this morning and had nothing to do. So I came down to the kitchen to have something to eat." Izzy opened the fridge and looked inside. "I ate everything." Izzy closed the fridge and looked at Meredith. "I even ate a tub of butter. I needed to do something nice to make myself feel better."
Meredith looked at George who had a face that screamed OH MY GOD.
"Ok little man it is time to go," George said as he picked up the child who was wearing little pair of blue jeans and a green button up shirt and passed him over to Meredith.
"Well you do look handsome today, Uncle George does have style," Meredith said smiling as she hugged her son.
"Well that is because he is a chick magnet like his Uncle," Izzy said as she nudged George as they all left the house and pilled into the car off to work.
Derek stood outside the door of Richard's office and took a deep breath and knocked on the door.
"Come in!"
Derek opened the door and walked in. "Hi Richard."
"Ahh I see the roomers are true, Derek Sheppard has returned to Seattle Grace," Richard took off his glasses and leaned back into his chair. "So I am guessing that you want your job back?"
"Yes that is what I have come back here to do." Derek crossed arms and tried to look confident.
"Why should I take you back when you left Seattle Grace to go work in New York?" Richard leaned forward in his chair. "Give me a good reason?"
Derek slightly laughed; he knew that this wouldn't be easy. "Richard you know why I left, I had to get away from this hospital; I had to get away from my life here. I needed to do something for me." Derek took a seat down on the lounge.
"So you thought moving to New York and becoming Chief at the Hospital there."
Derek ran his fingers through his hair. "Well I thought it was the right thing, but." Derek shook his head. "Now coming back and seeing the mess I left behind, the hurt that I had caused so many people." Derek looked at Richard. "I want to make up for all of that, I want to…"
Richard stood up and walked over and sat next to Derek on the Lounge. "Now Sheppard if you are wanting your job back just so you can be closer to Meredith then it is a no."
"Richard I want my position back here, I am willing to start work today," Derek stressed to him.
Richard thought for a moment. "Alright." Standing up Richard turned to Derek. "You can have your job back."
Derek stood up and shook his hand. "Thank you Richard." Derek walked towards the door.
"Derek."
Derek opened the door and stopped to look at Richard.
"Meredith, she's been through a lot since you have been gone."
Derek nodded and left the room, breathing a sigh of relief as he closed the door behind him.
* * *
Izzy who decided to drive pulled into a parking spot in the hospital car park.
"George what's the time?" Izzy asked as she turned the engine off.
"6am," George said looking at his watch, then opening the door and getting out of the car.
"Great were going to be late," Izzy said getting out of the car and pulling her hair into a ponytail.
"Do you want me to come with you Meredith?" George asked as he picked up his bag from inside the car.
Meredith started to unbuckle Lachlan's child seat. "No George you go do rounds, I will take Lachlan to childcare and meet you there."
George nodded and left with Izzy to go get ready for rounds before Dr Bailey found out that they were missing.
* * *
Derek made his down to the entrance of the hospital hoping to catch Meredith on her way in. He knew that he wasn't meant to speak to her, as Richard and Mark had made it abundantly clear not to talk or go near her and to give her some space, but he needed to talk to her, he needed to know if he could meet his son.
* * *
Meredith carried Lachlan through the glass doors of the hospital. "Not now," Meredith said as she stopped walking and stood face to face with Derek, who looked stressed.
"Meredith," Derek breathed, not wanting her to walk away from him.
"Derek not now," Meredith said she said softly as she shielded Lachlan and held him closer to her. Her Mothering instinct taking over.
"Meredith we need to talk," Derek said moving closer to her so that he could block her with his body.
Meredith tried to move around him. "Derek please, not now. I don't have the time for this."
"Well when? When will you have the time?" Derek said trying not to seem inpatient as Meredith moved him. Derek turned around to watch her walk away from him.
Meredith stopped walking and looked over her shoulder at him. "Not now." Meredith again started to walk away. She was still not ready to start this conversation, and she didn't want to do it in front of Lachlan.
After dropping off Lachlan at childcare, Meredith rushed to her locker and got changed into her scrubs and met up with everyone after rounds.
"You're late Grey," Bailey said not even turning around from the work that she was doing.
"Sorry Dr Bailey I had to discuss some thing with the childcare workers," Meredith said pulling out her note pad out of her pocket ready to take notes if she needed to. She also wasn't going to tell everyone that she was tell the childcare workers, that she didn't want Derek visiting their son at the childcare centre.
"That's alright Grey, just don't let it happen again," Dr Bailey said in a strong voice, as she turned around. "But I am sorry you have missed out of all the good assignments. So you're in the clinic with Christina."
"Clinic again," Christina said sounding pissed off. "This is the third time I have been stuck down there."
"Hey you will get what your given, and if your not careful you will be stuck down there next shift." Dr Bailey said, sick of her interns giving her lip.
Once Bailey had dismissed them, Christina and Meredith walked towards the closest elevator, so that they could make their way down to the clinic.
"So are you going to spill?" Christina asked as she leaned against the wall and waited for the elevator, obviously over being stuck in the clinic.
"What do you mean?" Meredith asked playing dumb as she really didn't want to talk about Derek. She wanted to talk about him over the 2 years that he had been gone, but now that he was back he didn't want to talk about him.
"Come on Mer don't play dumb, it doesn't suit you." Christina pushed herself off the wall as she heard the elevator ping, and both Meredith and she walked into the elevator.
Meredith walked to the back of the lift so she could lean against the wall and watched Christina press 1 so the elevator could keep moving.
"Grey don't make me hurt you," Christina said as she moved close to Meredith and held up her fist.
Meredith sighed and looked at the top of the elevator doors to see the floors descending. "What's there to tell, Derek and I spoke," Meredith said and she walked to the opening doors as the elevator pinged at there floor.
"Oh come on," Christina said following Meredith through the hospital and through the doors of the clinic. "Mc Dreamy comes back to Seattle, the Father of your child and you guys just spoke."
"What did you expect us to do? And I thought that we said we wouldn't call him that anymore?" Meredith asked as she picked up a chart form the desk. "Mr Thorne," Meredith called, just wanting to get beyond this conversation.
"That's right we gave him the classy name of…" Christina thought for a moment. "That's right McDick," Christina said almost disgusted that, that is what they called him. "I don't know Mere," Christina shrugged answering her question as she also grab a chart. "You could have at least torn him a new one or something."
Meredith slightly smiled as she tried to control her laughter as the man that she called stood in front of her. "Just come this way Sir," she told her patient as she showed him to a bed. "Just take a-"Meredith stopped as her pager beeped. "Damn it." Meredith excused herself from her patient and walked over to Christina who hadn't started. "Christina, I've been paged to the pit can you cover me?"
"What how come I didn't get paged to the pit." Christina said to herself as she checked her pager as well to see if it was working. No still working, she thought as she picked up the chart that Meredith had put on the counter and walked over to the patient. "So you're Mr Thorne?"
The patient nodded.
"So what's wrong with you?" Christina asked annoyed.
Meredith rushed through the door and to Dr Bailey that was standing in a yellow trauma gown in the middle of emergency.
"Ahh Grey trauma 3."
Meredith nodded, not bothering to ask what was awaiting her, and all she hoped that she could get a kick ass surgery. Meredith opened the door and jumped into action. "Ok what have we got?" Meredith asked as she put on a yellow trauma gown.
"30 year old male car cash victim, possible broken bones, possible internal bleeding, and possible spinal injury."
Meredith didn't know who was talking to her with the several nurses and paramedics rushing around her. "Ok let's start him on a saline drip." Meredith walked over into sight of the patient. "Hi my name is Dr Grey, what's yours?"
"I'm Peter…Peter Soy," the patient said his eyes darting around the room in a panic, unable to move his head as his neck was in a brace. "I can't…I can't move, what's wrong with me? Why can't I move?"
"Please calm down Mr Soy," Meredith said politely as she looked up to his monitor knowing that if he started to panic his blood pressure would shoot up. "Are you allergic to anything?" Meredith checked his chart to see if someone had go these particulars before.
"No nothing. Why can't I move?" the man asked again panicked that he couldn't move his limbs.
"Give him 10 of morphine," Meredith said to the nurse that was putting the drip in his arm. Looking back to the patient she slighted smiled. "Mr Soy, from what we can ascertain you have suffered multiple contusions and broken bones. You are currently in a neck brace as we are unaware if you have any spinal damage."
"What would you like me to schedule Dr Grey?" A nurse in blue scrubs asked.
"Schedule CT, x-ray and better schedule a Neuro consult as well." Meredith looked back to the patient. "Mr Soy we have given you some morphine for the pain and we are going to take up for some tests to find out if you have any other injuries. Ok" Moving to the end of the bed where there was a small table, Meredith began to write in his notes of what she ordered.
"There ready for us up at CT Dr Grey and the Neuro consult will be waiting up there for us."
"Alright let's go," Meredith said smiling as they started to push Mr Soy up to CT, Meredith unaware who was the on call Neuro Consult.