Because You Lied
Disclaimer: I do not own Naruto nor do I own Beyonce's Resentment.
The room was dark except for a single spotlight on the stage. Bathed in its light was a jade-eyed enchantress. She walked closer to the microphone and took it in her hands. No one knew what to expect. The enchantress had never sung before to anyone's knowledge but tonight, she had been convinced to do so. You heard someone begin to strum the strings of a guitar and her softly crooning. Her lips parted and the words escaped her lips.
I wish I could believe you
Her voice was sultry and sexy to the surprise of everyone who knew her. It was pleasing and made you long for more of her voice.
She was in pain. Her closest friend knew that. He found himself unfortunately, in an uncomfortable position. He was caught between a friend he loved like a brother and the other who had stuck by his side through it all.
Then I'll be alright
He felt guilty. He had known what was going on but he had kept quiet. He had protected one friend over the other and he was afraid he had made the wrong choice. He glanced over at said friend who was nursing a glass of sake. He wouldn't look up and meet his eyes. It looked as if he wasn't the only one who felt the guilt.
But now everything you told me, really don't apply
He watched as his friend's hand tightened around the glass. Naruto knew he was close to tears. He wanted to get up and leave but he forced himself to stay. She at least deserved that. He forced his gaze upon her pain stricken face. He made himself hear her words.
To the way I feel inside
Sasuke Uchiha sat in the room and for the first time in his life he felt like an idiot. The woman on the stage was hurting because of him. Again. He had prided himself on being a master at controlling his emotions and yet he had thrown caution to the wind and let a pretty face get the best of him. It was all because things weren't right at home. Instead of trying to fix things he had sought escape. Now he hated himself for it.
Loving you was easy, once upon a time
He could feel Naruto's eyes boring into him. He could feel his condemnation. It wouldn't bother him so much if he wasn't already condemning himself. There was no way to rationalize his actions. He was quite simply, wrong. An apology wasn't enough. In fact, at this point it was laughable. He destroyed the best thing that ever happened to him. Now here he sat in a dark room where every man in the room eyed the woman that used to be his. Waiting to pounce on her like a bunch of vultures.
But now my suspicions of you have multiplied.
The scene was replaying in her mind. She had come home early from a mission. A smile graced her lips. She couldn't wait to see the man who held her heart in his hands for so long. She was in for a surprise though and not a pleasant one. Had they not been otherwise occupied they would have sensed her presence. She had no idea how long she stood there and watched him make love to her. The passion on his face, she hadn't seen in years. It was then that she realized how bad off they had been. She was happy but, apparently he was not.
And it's all because you lied.
His name escaped her lips in a breathy whisper. If she could actually get past her heart break she'd admit to herself that they looked good together, better than them anyway. His name was then called by two women. One in ecstasy, one in despair. His head whipped around catching site of the woman he professed to love. The woman he lived with. The woman he swore he'd never hurt again.
I only give you a hard time, cause I can't go on and pretend like
"Sakura." It was the first time she had ever seen surprise on his face. No one catches Sasuke Uchiha off guard. Except for when he's screwing another woman. She stared at him blankly. She gave a brief glance to his companion then turned and left the room.
She walked. She had no idea where she was going but somehow she ended up at the memorial stone. She raised her hand and trailed her fingers over the names engraved there.
I haven't tried to forget this, but I'm much too full of resentment
She let out a bitter laugh. Sakura's heart should be engraved there because it was surely dead. She couldn't cry. She could only stand there and hurt. That was worse than all the wailing in the world. Maybe if she could cry then the pain would ease a little afterwards but of course that would be too easy. Things just did not come easy for Sakura Haruno and Sasuke Uchiha. She laughed again, harder, hysterically.
Just can't seem to get over the way you hurt me
That was how he found her. Laughing. It was a terrible sound, her laughter. Full of bitterness, hate and anger. He grabbed her and shook her, trying to gain her attention. "Sakura!" He said. He watched as her eyes focused on him. The laughter died away slowly. "Sasuke." She said all traces of mirth gone from her features. This was a stranger. He wasn't sure how to deal with this side of her.
Don't know how you gave another who didn't mean a thing
"I'm sorry." She didn't reply to his anguished statement. Instead she just stared at him as if she didn't know him. She supposed to a degree she didn't. "I'm so sorry Sakura." The man she knew would have never done this to her.
No emotions flickered over her face.
"It's okay Sasuke. Just let me go." She meant that in more than one way. Her heart was a stone wall. She couldn't let him in again.
"I can't."
"Why?" She asked woodenly.
"Because if I do I'll loose you forever. That's not…I can't accept that."
"Sasuke obviously I'm not what you want. I understand. Truly, I do."
He shook his head. "No, you don't. Let me fix this Sakura. Give me a chance to fix us."
The very thing you gave to me
She agreed. Maybe because she wanted to pretend she never saw him with his lover. That there was something left between them that could be fixed. He pulled her into his arms and held her tightly soon lifting her into his arms and carrying her home.
She looked around when he brought her inside because the place looked different to her now. It felt as if something was missing or maybe she just felt that she no longer belonged there. He started to carry her into their bedroom but she let out a shrill cry of protest.
"No! Don't take me in there." He froze in the door frame then slowly backed away from the room. A pain flashed in his chest at her cry.
I thought I could forgive you and I know you've changed
He took her into one of the guest bedrooms and laid her in the bed and lay at her side.
"Go, just leave me alone. Please Sasuke." He didn't utter a word of protest. He slid off the bed silently and left her alone.
After that he began to do all that he could to gain her trust once more. He told her he'd wear a freaking bell if she wanted so she'd always know where he was. He barely got a smile out of her with that one and he was serious about it. It was especially hard when she left on a mission without him. She always came home showing a distinct lack of trust and a lot of barely subdued rage.
It was all his doing. He made her that way. That was what he had to show for his ill thought out actions.
As much as I want to trust you, I know it ain't the same
Tears streamed her cheeks as she stood on the stage and poured out her heart. Her eyes looked out at the audience and looked at him. She had to make him understand. Understand that she couldn't do this anymore. She couldn't pretend. She couldn't forgive.
The first time he made love to her after the incident she cried. Afterwards. During. She would have cried when his lips first touched hers and she realized his intentions but she forced herself not to. She made herself try. Her mind's eye was an evil thing though. All she could see was him and her in their bed together. She was never able to move back into that room. She didn't even get her clothes. He did that for her.
And it's all because you lied
She could even see that since then he was a better man. He was the man she deserved to have initially. She should have been happy. For a while she felt she was coming to terms with the past. That was until he left on a mission…with her. The mission was supposed to be a week long but it extended longer than that.
Her mind conjured up all kinds of things. All of which probably didn't happen. It was then that she realized that it was truly over. She'd never trust him again. So she packed her bags and left.
I only give you a hard time, cause I can't go on and pretend like
It was quiet when he returned home. Too quiet.
"Sakura." He called out. Dread filled his chest. He ran up to their room to find it empty. "Sakura!" He opened the closet to find all her things gone. Yet, he didn't give up hope. He went from room to room searching for her but to no avail. She was gone.
He wandered into his living room and sat down putting his head in his hands.
I haven't tried to forget this, but I'm much too full of resentment
She moved in with the only person she felt would leave her alone and give her the space that she desperately needed to heal her heart. Kakashi let her into his home with no questions asked. She thought that more than anything that was what she needed. Time alone from everything and everyone. No prodding questions. No pitying eyes.
She wouldn't let him give up his bed for her. She took the couch. It didn't matter where she laid her head anyway. She didn't sleep much anymore.
I may never understand why, I'm doing the best that I can and I
Sakura's gaze turned towards the door that swung open but she didn't break in her song when she saw who had walked in. The catalyst for the end of her relationship. Their eyes met across the room. Unshed tears shone in both women's eyes. Sakura was the first to look away because she could feel disgust and hate creeping into her being and she didn't want to hate anyone. She wanted to move on.
I tried and I tried to forgive this, but I'm much too full of resentment
He found her at Kakashi's. He knew she was there but Kakashi refused to let him in. Sasuke was sure he didn't know what was going on and he told him so but Kakashi only replied.
"Sakura wouldn't leave you without good reason. Respect her space."
He couldn't though. He couldn't just let her walk away. They were good together. They were like the moon and the stars, like kunais and shurikens, like forever and ever.
I'll always remember feeling like I was no good
He cornered her after work. He waited practically all day just for a glimpse of her but it wasn't until she left work that he saw her. She looked tired and that look intensified when she saw he was waiting for her. She didn't try to ignore him. She just walked up to him and waited for him to say his piece.
"Sakura, come home." His eyes pleaded with her, but she wouldn't be swayed. Not this time.
Like I couldn't do it for you like your mistress could
"No. It's over, Sasuke."
"No it's not."
"Let it go and accept it."
"No."
His stubborn refusal to accept what should have been plain to see infuriated her. Sakura turned on her heel and left the Uchiha in her wake.
And it's all because you lied
Sakura watched as she approached the stage and sat down in front. Her attention was no longer on the man who broke her heart. Rather, it was on the 'friend' who broke her trust.
Loved you more than ever, More than my own life
As she reached the climax of her song she poured all her passion and pain into her words.
But this part of me I gave you, it was sacrifice
Sakura saw her flinch at the outpouring of pain but she continued on. She had to get her point across finally because she knew he wouldn't listen any other way.
And it's all because you lied
I only give you a hard time
Cause I can't go on a pretend like
I tried and I tried to forget this
Sakura gestured toward Sasuke's mistress.
But I'm too damn full of resentment
"I know she was attractive
But I was here first
Been riding with you for six years
Why did I deserve
To be treated this way by you?
I know you're probably thinking
What's up with me
I've been crying for too long
What did you do to me?
I used to be so strong
But now you took my soul
She broke then. When she thought about all the years they had been together. The times that they had laughed. The times that she had cried. When she thought of the essence of them as a couple.
It was all gone now. It was like dust in the wind. She was sitting in the ashes of their aftermath knowing there was no way she could rebuild.
I'm crying
Cant stop crying
Cant stop crying
You could have told me
You wasnt happy
I know you didnt want to hurt me but look what you done, done to me now
I got to look at her in her eyes and see shes half of me
How could you lie?
Sakura lowered the microphone and was confronted with a silent crowd. She walked off the stage and headed for the door.
As she neared the door she suddenly found her exit blocked. "Sakura."
Sakura gave the Uchiha a sad smile as Naruto walked up and put a restraining arm on his friend. Sakura nodded gratefully and exited the building. Sasuke shrugged him off and went to head after his woman but Naruto's words stopped him cold.
"You can't keep fighting a battle you've already lost."
And he was right. So Sasuke let her go. He clamped down on his frustration and let her walk out of his life.
That didn't mean he was going to give up. No, not yet.
He would just fight another day.