AN: OMG NEW CHAPTER!! Sorry for the wait, you guys!!! I'm just caught up in school (which is now out!!!), fanfics that I'm working on with friends (And Then The World Exploded, a Shugo Chara! fic, Alibi, etc), and my ideas for when I end up rewriting this (like the OC I'm going to put in and stuff). Anyway, here's your much-awaited chapter. Sorry it's a bit short, but there's something UBER important in the AN at the end.

Chapter 28: Cranky and UNHAPPYFACE

James' POV:

Padfoot went back to visit Lily a few times over the rest of the holidays, and I never asked if she had mentioned me for fear of the answer. One day, however, I didn't need to ask, as Padfoot came bounding into my room, almost jumping up and down for joy.

"Padfoot, stop jumping about like a three-year old!" In my sorrow, I had become more likely to lash out at people.

"Prongs, guess what? Lily remembers all of us," I gasped when he said that, "and the teachers – Peter, Remus, me, McGona-"

In my excitement I interrupted him, "And me? She remembers me?"

His face fell, as did my hopes. "Well... no, Prongs. I'm sorry. I forgot-"

"You forgot about me too, then? You forgot that I existed, you forgot that Lily DOESN'T REMEMBER ME? That she doesn't know I ever EXISTED? Well, if this is all the news I'll get, don't tell me!" A part of me felt sorry for yelling at Padfoot, but mostly I couldn't stand knowing that Lily didn't know me.

"Prongs-!" Padfoot exclaimed as I rushed out of the room. I slowed as I passed by the living room, where Mum and Dad were talking.

"Oh, James, Sirius mentioned that Lily would probably be moved back to the hospital wing at Hogwarts because she's feeling better! Isn't that wonderful news?" Mum said, glancing up.

I nodded, not trusting my voice, and walked to the back door as quickly as I could. I found myself going once again to the park I had gone to on our first night back for the holidays. It seemed fitting, somehow, as Padfoot and I would be heading back to school tomorrow afternoon.

Though it had been about a week, the thought of Lily's eyes as she said she couldn't remember me hurt me just as much, and I felt sick to my stomach as I lay down in the freezing snow under the swings. Though I tried to let my thoughts stray to other subjects, everything led back to Lily.

I became so overwhelmed by all these thoughts that a sudden wave of nausea suddenly swept over me and I turned and watched as my dinner cascaded onto the snow. I threw up again, and then when my stomach tried a third time, it found nothing left to regurgitate. After using a cleaning spell, I got up and walked away from the spot, feeling a bit guilty.

It was late, so I tried to sneak back in without Mum or Dad noticing, but Mum was still up, folding laundry. "There's milk and cookies in the kitchen if you're hungry," she said without looking to see who it was, "Tomorrow I expect you and Sirius packed and ready to go by noon. Be a dear and bring up this basket, will you? It's the last load for your trunks."

I stuck a cookie in my mouth and another in my pocket, grabbed the basket, and trudged up the stairs. Padfoot had fallen asleep, his head on his trunk, reading a muggle magazine that appeared to have lots of bikini-clad muggle girls. Removing my clothes from the basket, I finished packing but left room for my toothbrush and other such things that I would have to grab in the morning.

Before I turned the light off, I put the cookie on a piece of paper near Padfoot's head, then thinking better of it, scribbled, "Sorry," on the paper.

Thankfully, I had no dreams that night.

AN: Okay, James just needs to go to a muggle doctor and get some anti-depressant meds, seriously...but it's so much fun to write characters when they're in pain!! Except I'm kinda tired of trying to come up with more ways to describe how crappy James feels. On a different note...this story is becoming increasingly more difficult to write, in that I'm getting a little tired of it. I DO want to finish it though, and I do have ideas, but I also kinda want to rewrite it to make the beginning better (cause the first 5 chapters or so (maybe more) are really crappy), but then again I want to finish it before I start rewriting or else I'll never finish it. So, in light of this fact, I have decided to ask you (my readers) to help me answer this question. THE QUESTION: Would you all be okay if I brought in the OC that I want to add when I rewrite it in now, late in the story, but before I rewrite it? I would provide a bit of bkg info so you could all get to know her a bit, and it might just end up being little snippets of her, but it would be nice to have the option available if I'm feeling stuck. Before you make your decision, here's a little bit of information about her: her name is Hazel Marinia, both her parents were wizards but her grandmother was muggleborn, she is very short, changes her hair color frequently, and is clumsy. :) Thanks!

...wow, sorry for the long AN.