AN: Hi guys! Well I'm quite on the ball with this aren't I? I have to warn coming sunday this story will probably come to an abrupt stop for about a month because I'm in college and taking higher level classes keeps you busy. So I'm trying my best to pump out as many chapters possible til then. Hope you enjoy and I'm really greatful for all the reviews! I'm trying my best to respond to everyone's and not leave every chapter at a cliffhanger - those are my two new goals for this story.
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The trees flew past in a cloudy haze. Everything seemed to be a haze now that my life had ended. My reason for existence gone. She was never coming back. I lay my head on the cold glass window of Carlisle's car and closed my eyes. I didn't want to do this. I didn't want to leave my angel's grave not for one second. Carlisle's voice pulled me out of my current thoughts.

"Son, we're home. Your mother is waiting, please go visit her."

I didn't make eye contact with Carlisle but got out of the car. My life seemed to be on autopilot now. I only responded when told to say or do something. As I walked towards the front door, flashes of Bella's death engulfed me. Alice's agonizing scream. The looks on each member of my families faces when we knew we lost her. And worst of all, my angel lying cold and unresponsive on the forest floor.

I closed my eyes letting the memory torture me; it was the least I deserved. At that moment I felt a pair of arms wrap around me. I thought of the way Bella used to hug me and wrap her arms around me in a similar way but these arms were not her. I would never get to feel her touch again.

"Edward, darling. I know you've been through so much please; come sit."

Ah, Esme, my wonderful and caring mother. I looked down into her face, she was doing her best to stay strong for me. I could only do what I could to ease her worries and pain. I smiled very small smile but it could have possibly just been a twitch. I let her guide me to the living room.

The family had already congregated themselves and we were the last two to join. I took a place next to Alice and Esme. It was a family meeting, something I had been hoping to avoid.

Carlisle began first. "As well as you all are aware of these past weeks' incidents I believe it is best we do not stay in Forks much longer nor return."

After a few moments the rest of my family agreed but Alice took the most convincing.

"Please, can't I come to visit? Just once and awhile? This has been so hard."

Jasper tried his best to calm the room but it did nothing for me. Alice seemed to come down from her heightened state and Carlisle ended the matter with allowing Alice to visit Bella's grave only under specific conditions.

I didn't try to protest my want because after this I was headed to Italy. I could not deal living in this world knowing my angel wasn't. It disgusted me it had been four whole days already and as each one passed the worse everything became.

Carlisle seemed to have finished and the family slowly adjourned. I could not even begin to tell what this meeting had been about. I was determined to end everything and I knew that someday my family would understand.

Esme and Jasper seemed to linger behind with us. They were truly worried about both of us, and our unresponsive like states did not help our cases any. I focused on a piece of the wall that had a tiny spot on it trying to empty my mind of everything but I knew it was a lost cause.

"Come Jasper let's leave them alone for a bit."

As Esme's words rang in my ear, I couldn't have been more grateful. My poor mother was having to watch her two children go through such suffering and there was nothing she could do to help either of us. I could hear the footsteps began to fade and I was never more relieved to finally be alone.

It was then I was confronted with the most terrifying yet beautiful vision I had ever seen.

There she was, my angel. Her back was to me as she gently touched the angel statue of her grave. She took so much care in touching it. As if I had just said her name she turned around startled. Her clothes were in covered in dirt and torn. And then there, piercing into me a thousand times fold was her deep crimson eyes, staring in complete horror.

I was jolted out of the vision and both Alice and I gasp at the same time.

Jasper was at Alice's side in an instant as Esme at mine. Both of us were stunned into silence. Bella was not dead, she was alive and not only that we had buried her alive. A new wave of sickness washed over me, I could not now find a new way to be more disgusted with myself. She had changed into one of us. I had damned her to eternal damnation and we left her. Those three days for her to suffer and we left her alone. I was derailed from my thoughts by Jasper's frantic voice, I'm sure he had never seen his wife in this state after a vision.

"Alice darling, please. Please, what did you see." His voice was trying to stay calm but had a hint of panic.

Edward please get her to speak. I'm worried.

I could not comply with Jasper's wishes for I was possibly more stunned into silence than Alice. I had so many things going through my head. What did she see to scare her so much, those crimson eyes, her stunning yet beautiful eyes, and the fact she changed alone and had to dig herself out of her grave. If I didn't have a just enough reason to die I certainly found it now.

Esme started to rub circles on my hand soothingly. It did not help and I could block it out easily. Alice's vision kept replaying over and over and each time I was stunned by the look in her eyes and face. Finally after what seemed like hours Esme spoke.

"They will tell us when they are ready. I think it's best if we leave them alone right now. Whatever they saw must have really disturbed them."

I glanced over and saw Esme and Jasper get up and start to walk upstairs. Alice's breathing hitched sharply.

Her voice was shaky and breathless, she struggled with the words. "B…Bella."

I saw Esme and Jasper stop dead in there tracks. Everything seemed to stand still and in an instant everyone was back downstairs.

Alice struggled again, "B..Bella's a..alive. N…n…no. S…s…s…she's one of."

Everyone stared shocked at Alice like they couldn't believe what she had just said. She was trying to finish her sentence but was stunned and shaken so much she couldn't.

"Us."

My voice rang clear through the room. The rest of my family turned to meet my face with horror and shocked plastered on theirs just as Alice and mine were.