A/N: Hey guys! So I present you with Chapter 6, I had quite fun writing it and could have kept going but I knew I needed to stop. Heh. Hope you enjoy and if you don't mind, review? I feel like I had quite the follow of readers before, where did everyone go? Thankyou though to those who review, I'm glad to know you all always can't wait for more. It keeps me motavated even through my worst writers blocks.

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The sun had set and already risen before we made it to the house. I had prolonged our walk as long as possible with a few breakdowns on the way. Alice understood though. She held me and told me everything was going to work out fine; that she knew it was going to. Other than those moments we walked in silence. Her pervious self was quickly emerging and I was grateful for it. I didn't need to be the center for anyone's misery but my own.

Finally we had arrived at the house; it was just how I remembered. We walked up the porch and paused at the front door. Alice could sense my hesitation.

"Bella, everything will be fine. They still love you. It will be fine."

She smiled and tapped her forehead. Even with her reassurance I wasn't sure I could go through with it. Seeing the family I wanted to join someday and knowing they walked out on me.

Alice swung the front door open and nearly dragged me in. It was so much worse then I could have imagined. We were standing in the living room where everyone was convened. Carlisle and Esme stood closest to us while Emmett and Rosalie sat on a loveseat and Jasper stood against the wall behind them. As I looked around the room I saw each of their faces, pain and guilt completely consumed them. I definitely didn't need Jasper's power to know that. I began to get the all too familiar feeling creeping back into my stomach.

"Hey squirt."

Emmett's voice lacked all happiness I saw earlier, it was hesitant and flat. I believed it had something to do with Jasper trying to control the situation. I just looked blankly at him when I caught Edward leaning on the wall in the furthest corner. A twinge of pain shot through me as I thought even his name. I looked to Rosalie and Jasper next. Rosalie had her head down in her lap while Jasper was smiling sympathetic towards me. I'm sure he could feel all the pain coursing through my body.

I wasn't prepared when Esme crashed herself into me. She wrapped her arms around me and I returned the gesture only slightly.

"Oh Bella, we are so sorry. We didn't know. I feel horrible knowing you suffered those three days alone. I'm so sorry."

She began to hold onto me tighter. I felt even worse. I had made Esme suffer, the most loving woman I had ever met on the planet and she was in pain because of me. I hated myself for knowing I was the cause of her guilt. I tried to form any word I could but nothing escaped my lips I was frozen in my spot. What Esme said next caught me off guard.

"Bella, honey. Please talk to him. You have no idea how much he's suffered. Please just give him a chance…for me."

I closed my eyes. Having tacked on her last two words made it impossible for me to refuse. I nodded my head in response that I could try. If not for myself for Esme, she deserved anything she could ask of me. She kissed my cheek and let go of our embrace.

"Thank you Bella."

I could hear her taking her leave. I stood planted where I was. My eyes were still closed though I hung my head towards the ground. I knew the sooner I got this over with the sooner I could leave, I couldn't be in this house. It hurt too much being the cause of everyone's misery.

I slowly opened my eyes and lifted my head. Everyone else had left; they must have while Esme was talking to me. That meant only one thing. I glanced quickly over to the corner where he had previously stood and he was still there, he hadn't moved but his eyes were on me. I quickly shot my eyes back to the floor. I took a sharp breath in and walked slowly over to one of the couches.

I gently placed myself on the edge of couch furthest from him. Once again I took my spot in staring at the floor again. I had nothing to say to him, I wasn't going to be the one to break this uncomfortable silence. We were this way for what seemed like hours, though I'm sure it wasn't, my uneasiness was hoping the time was going quicker than it actually was.

"Bella."

Without hesitation I looked up, I couldn't fathom why either. I was able to see him clearly now. His face was just as pained if not worse than everyone else's. He walked to the couch opposite of me and sat. My eyes could not pull away from the tortured expression on his face, I knew him well enough to know he was dealing with some sort of internal battle.

"Bella. I'm so sorry. It is my fault all of this happened."

He paused as to think about what he wanted to say carefully. I could only roll my eyes. Sure I'd let him speak but didn't mean I had to believe a damn word he said.

"I owe you an explanation."

That caught me off guard; he didn't need to explain anything to me. I got the picture perfectly clear, he left, Victoria almost killed me, and only to find out I had been turned into this monster by who knows because they all had left me for dead. What on earth could he possibly need to tell me?

"Stop."

I looked back at him quickly knowing I was glaring at him.

"Please. Just stop. Let me explain then if you wish you can settle with those assumptions."

He could read my mind now. I don't know why but it bothered me to a great extent. I was livid now but I was trying my best, for Esme, to stay calm.

"How can you do that? How can you read my mind?"

I know I was adverting from his original intent but I didn't care at the moment. I needed to know.

"I'm not sure. I can't read your mind all the time. It only comes in small waves and even then it is few and far in between."

I looked back to the ground I was relieved at that fact, so my thoughts were still for the most part private. I didn't say anything, waiting for him to continue.

"Bella, I'm so sorry. I'm sorry I left; I thought I was protecting you. If I had any idea Victoria was out there hunting you…" He paused for a moment, I knew he was probably reliving that day in Maine. "I can never forgive myself for not coming in time to save you."

He acted like I was truly dead, was I not here sitting right in front of him. He was talking himself in a circle. I didn't want to listen to anymore self hate he had built in him. I stood up and began to walk toward the dining room.

"That day in the forest…" I paused with my back to him. "I could see you weren't going to let go. I didn't want to do it but I had to try. I had to try and convince you that I didn't love you anymore. I thought if you saw I didn't love you; that I had moved on, you could do that same."

I was frozen. The memory I kept at bay launched at me. I could see his face perfectly and his words. It was like it was stinging me all over again. I took a deep breath.

"But Bella, I thought about you ever moment, every minute, every second I was away from you."

Like my human life, traitor tears began to form. Though I couldn't produce tears, my body began to shake. I was not strong enough to handle these lies.

"I saw it in your eyes, you honestly believes me. You believed that I didn't want you anymore. As if there was any way I could exist without need you."

My shaking began to quicken I knew it was a matter of moments before I had to run or I would end up collapsing where I now stood. I felt Edward rise from the couch and come closer.

"After all the thousands of times I've told you that I loved you. How could you let a few simple words break your faith in me?"

His voice ached with longing for that answer and I didn't know if I could give it to him. I felt his hand on my shoulder. It was like an electric current that burned, but I didn't want it to go away. He leaned towards me.

"Bella, please, I need to know."

I took a deep breath trying to calm myself before I gave him the answer. He let go of my shoulder and I slowly turned to face him. His face still held the pain from earlier but also so much sadness.

"It never made sense for you to love me. I always knew that."

"Bella."

His voice sounded as if it was truly shocked. He took a step closer to me closing any sort of gap that was between us. If my heart were still beating I'm sure it would have exploded through all the emotions that were cursing through me. I was beginning to panic; I didn't know what he was going to do.

Just then he looked deep into my eyes, burning them with his pain and sadness. He grabbed my chin and I knew what was coming. I was terrified but found no way or will to move. I couldn't stop what was going to happen. Then his lips crashed into mine, with such a force that put our kisses when I was human to disgrace. There was so much passion and dare I say it love behind the kiss. I could not help but find myself kissing him zealously back. It was like my anger was lifted for that moment and the only thing in the world that mattered was us.

He finally broke the kiss and with the most sincerity spoke what he had been trying to tell me all along.

"Bella, never for one single moment I stopped loving you."

That was all it took for me to collapse to the floor. The sobs I tried my damndest to keep at bay began to devour my body. He knelt down and wrapped his arms around me, which only made me cry harder. I knew this was going to be a long day as he continued to hold me through each agonizing sob that echoed throughout the house.