AN: So I had started this chapter pervious to my hiatus then picked it back up I really honestly don't know how I feel about it. So any comments would help to see if I'm doing okay. I wonder if you can find the difference in my stop and restart point. Anyway enjoy!

xoxo Dij

It was like all his sadness and agony was lifted as he walked through the door, closing it behind him to once again leave me alone with my thoughts. I looked out the window into the newly found nightfall. It was dark as night could be, tonight there was no moon. I focused on the clouds that lazily passed by. I could not help but feel regret for saying those words. I didn't need him to be filled with a false hope. I sighed heavily. Everything was becoming so complicated.

"Bella?"

I nearly fell off the couched startled. I still wasn't accustom to my vampire lifestyle but it earned a small giggle out of Alice.

"I'm sorry for sneaking up on you. I couldn't help it…but um Bella…would you like to shower and get into cleaner clothes?"

I looked over to her as she was smiling sweetly. I felt almost like person in the psychiatric ward, I smiled a bit at the unspoken reference towards Alice. I was beginning to get a little fed up with everyone treating me 'special' or with hesitance. But Alice, she was as genuine as they came, she like Esme just wanted my well being.

"Sure, Alice. That would be great."

It was like I said a magic word and my little pixie friend began speaking a mile a minute.

"OmgBellaIhavesomanygoodoutfitsforyoutotryIcan'twaitthisisgoingtobesomuchfun!"

I just looked at her stunned as she began bouncing up and down. She took my hand and led me to one of the many bathrooms in the house. She walked in with me and pointed.

"Everything you need is over there, and take your time. I have work to do!"

With that Alice shut the door leaving me once again alone. I didn't even think of showering or my personal hygiene since being completely caught up in these past few days' events. I looked down really observing my clothes for the first time since I was turned. It was true I looked like hell.

My pants and shirt were covered in dirt, grass stains and had rips in multiple places. It made me feel like a little kid only more extreme. I walked to the counter and Alice had paid no expense. Soaps, Shampoos and other bottles were placed perfectly along the marble counter. I ran my hands along each bottle looking at the shapes and how each one was unique.

Something red in the mirror caught my eye and I looked up. I gasped. A woman I had never seen before was staring back at me. I reached my hand out to touch the mirror and she was doing the same. When my hand made contact with the mirror, so did hers. She wore a shocked expression just as I had. I touched my face and she touched hers. I continued to do an assortment of other movements which she mirrored me exactly. Then it dawned on me. This was no other woman in the mirror, it was me.

I took a step back involuntary. My eyes were the brightest color of crimson I had ever seen. It was alarming. It was unnatural. I blinked hoping it would go away and my eyes would return to brown but no such luck. They bore into me, so lifeless and cold that I shivered. The person in the mirror was stunning or something more…gorgeous maybe. I couldn't believe that it was me. I could easily compare myself to Rosalie. Though my hair was disheveled and looked like I stuck a finger in an electrical outlet, I was still beautiful.

I quickly discarded my clothing after that and stepped into the shower. The water was the perfect temperature. I closed my eyes and let myself try to let the situation fade. I don't know how long I had been in the shower when there was a knock at the door.

"Bella, you've been in there almost two hours. I know I said take your time but this is a little extreme!"

I smiled. I felt renewed and recharged. Nothing bothered me in my shower time it was just the water and I. I slowly turned off the water to signal that I was to come out soon. The last thing I needed was Alice coming in after me. I stepped out and into a plush pink towel. I walked towards the door, avoiding the mirror at all costs. I still found my new eye color slightly disturbing. Just as I placed my hand on the knob it began to turn from the outside. I stepped back slowly.

If I were still human I would have turned the brightest red imaginable. I stood with my eyes glued on Edward Cullen. It only took him a moment to realize I was in the room and only in a towel nonetheless.

"Bella!" He was genuinely surprised. "I'm so sorry!"

His eyes snapped shut and turned quickly around to the door. At the same moment I began to back up against the wall when Alice came from behind Edward. Never in my life had I been so relieved to escape. She took my hand and we ran to her room leaving a shocked Edward behind.

The little pixie wore a huge grin.

"I'm really sorry about that Bella. I didn't see it until it was too late."

"Thanks, now I can go hide under a rock from the embarrassment."

Alice rolled her eyes and muttered something I didn't catch. She led me to a chair and I knew it was time for me to be her Barbie. I thought I was only going to have to endure this in my human life but I guessed wrong. I sat in my towel and looked straight into the mirror. I bit my lip but before I opened my mouth Alice answered for me.

"Please Bella? You really are beautiful. If you just look at yourself I know you'll believe it and when I'm done! You'll be a knock out and even give Rose a run for her money!"

I couldn't object after that. I sat silently as Alice drabbled on about something I tuned out easily. I closed my eyes so I wasn't forced to stare at my reflection. I'm not sure how much time passed but the hand on my shoulder gave me a sign.

"Bella."

Alice's voice was soft. I secretly wondered if she had seen something.

"Bella. When the time comes please don't do it. Please, please say no."

I gave her a puzzled look but nodded anyway. I looked in the mirror and she had put my hair in loose curls and had minimal makeup. She cleared her throat and held a midnight blue dress. I grabbed it and headed into her walk in closet. After shutting the door, I quickly slipped into the dress. It was a halter that rest an inch or so above the knee.

I stepped out of the closet meeting a very bouncy Alice.

"Just wait till Edward sees you!"

I hung my head and the frown I had been avoiding emerged rather quickly.

"Bella? You want to get back together with my brother right?"

I looked up at her trying to see if she could give me the answer. It was the question I had been asking myself since I stepped foot into this house.