Chapter 9 of This is Life
"Love is life. And if you miss love, you miss life."— Leo Buscaglia
Author: Lily
Disclaimer: I do not own Gossip Girl or any characters. Gossip Girl belongs to Cecily Ziegesar, Josh Schwartz, Stephanie Savage and the CW.
Summary: Post 1.10 — Takes place after Chuck sees Nate and Blair kissing. What would have happened, if Blair hadn't slept with Nate and Chuck would have apologized to her?
Rating: T / PG-15
Pairing: Chuck/Blair
A/N — A special thanks to Anki for her BETA. *hugs*
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"I don't wish to be everything to everyone, but I would like to be something to someone."
Javan
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"Dan!"
"Serena, come in." He kissed her chastely and closed the door behind her.
"We have the entire Humphrey loft to ourselves?" Serena smiled happily.
"Yes, except for-"
"Dan, have you seen my cell? I can't find it anywhere!" Jenny walked out of her room. "Oh, hi, Serena," she smiled at her, before continuing to look for her mobile phone.
"No, I haven't." Dan answered his sister and looked at Serena meaningfully. She shrugged her shoulders and followed Dan into his room.
Then Serena noticed the quaint dinner table before her with lighted candles and glimmering silverware. Well, it wasn't exactly a dinner table, more like an ottoman on floor level, that Dan had transformed into a table, with pillows thrown across the rug covered floor to serve as seats.
She looked at him pleasantly surprised.
"Aw Dan, this is so romantic!" Serena clapped her hands, squealing and hugging him.
"I'm happy you like it." Dan smiled back, squeezing her lightly.
"Are you kidding? I absolutely love it!" She turned around and placed a kiss on his lips.
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Dan watched Serena picking at her food with her fork listlessly and sighed, putting his cutlery beside. "Look, you haven't said a word, since we're eating. Is… is anything wrong?"
She shook her head, looking up to him. "No, it's just… I have a lot on my mind right now."
"Well, let's try this; why don't you tell me what's on your mind? Then it can be on our minds. And our minds can worry about what's on your mind… together."
"I have no idea what you just said," Serena looked at him confused, "But I'm worried about Blair."
Dan groaned.
"What's wrong with her? Is it about Nate? Oh… don't tell me, she is trying to win him back?"
"Actually quite the opposite."
"What?"
"I… I can't tell you, Dan. Blair is going to be furious at me, when she finds out that you know about this, too."
"Come on, Serena. Who would I tell? And who would believe me, anyway?"
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Jenny sighed, feeling disappointed. Gossip Girl didn't even care to blog about her. Even Dan was on her site now, thanks to Serena.
She paused on her way to her room, when she heard Serena talking with Dan about Blair.
"Thanks, Dan. I really appreciate your help. Blair is so worried about destroying Chuck and Nate's friendship. And I know, how much her relationship with Chuck means to her."
"Don't worry, they'll make it. They are Chuck and Blair. Wow… I still can't believe they are really together. Watch out, world." She heard Dan letting out a laugh.
Jenny froze.
Chuck and Blair?!
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"Mhm…"
Chuck planted soft kisses on Blair's exposed neck, while she paddled in the water happily.
"How did you know, that I like lavender and not vanilla?" Blair smiled, leaning back into his embrace and cocking her head to one side to give him better access.
"I'm Chuck Bass," he smirked and turned her around, so that she was straddling him.
"Oh right, I forgot." Blair grinned, moving forward to kiss his lips. After a long, heated moment, they both broke away, breathing hard.
"When is Serena coming back?" Chuck asked.
"I don't care," she whispered, before wrapping her arms around his neck and pressing her lips to his again. Her fingers started playing with his neck hair.
"I don't think, Serena would approve of coming home to an empty room," he explained.
Blair sighed and leaned back to grab her phone, checking the time.
"Ten minutes." She answered, pouting.
"You look cute, when you do that." Chuck grinned, placing a soft kiss on her shoulder, "Come on, and let's get you dry."
She sighed and stepped out of the tub. Chuck followed her, wrapping a towel around her slim body.
"Are we taking the limo to school tomorrow?" Blair asked.
"Yes, with Serena and Eric."
"How romantic." she replied sarcastically and slipped into one of her silky nightgowns, drying off her hair with the towel Chuck handed her.
"If you don't mind Serena and Eric watching us-"
"Gross, Chuck! Don't you dare finish that sentence!" Blair exclaimed indignantly and threw the comb in his direction. He laughed and ducked away easily.
"B? Where are you?" Serena's voice came from the hallway.
Blair sighed, handing him the wet towels. "I guess I'll see you tomorrow, then."
She kissed him goodnight and exited his room.
Chuck looked after her, barely conscious of the smile plastered on his face.
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Two weeks later…
"Blair…"
Blair shut the door to her locker, just to see the face of a certain ex-boyfriend of hers in front of her.
Great. Her day couldn't get any better, could it?
"What do you want, Nate?" Blair asked him dismissively, balancing the books in her left hand, while searching for her cell with her right hand.
"I was wondering, if you wanted to hang out with me after school? I mean… you seemed pretty busy lately and I thought it might do you good to just… relax and talk to someone. About your problems maybe…?"
Except you don't know you are the problem, Blair thought annoyed.
S - emergency!! need u now, at my locker. - B
"No, I really don't have time for something like that today, Nate." Blair replied, faking an apologetic look.
"Then maybe tomorrow? I…," Nate sighed. "I've really missed you lately." He finished, looking at her sadly, his blue eyes boring into hers. The same blue eyes she had fallen in love with, when she had first met him at the age of six. It was then that she had decided, that Nate had to be her boyfriend.
But she wasn't six anymore and these eyes… they were beautiful and swoon-over-ish, but they didn't have the warmth in them, the softness, when they met hers. They weren't… dark enough.
"Nate, I've told you already - you've made your decision about us, and so did I."
"But I love you." Nate said, his eyes pleading.
I love you. Blair's heart hammered in her chest. What would she have done to hear those words a month ago, to have him looking at her like this, tears in his eyes and pleading her to love him back.
"I don't," Blair replied simply. Not anymore. "And don't you think those words sound a little bit worn out coming out of your mouth?"
Nate sighed. "Serena was a mistake, I'm sorry, I-"
"B! I need you now, it's an emergency!" Serena seemingly appeared out of nowhere, grabbing her arm. "Sorry Nate!" Serena added with an excusing look, pushing Blair away from him and towards the exit.
Finally, Blair rolled her eyes.
"Serena, what took you so long?"
"Sorry, sorry. Dan and I were hanging out and I didn't realize I got a message."
They made their way through the students to the steps.
"So Chuck still hasn't told Nate?" Serena asked.
"He wanted to, really. He tried - everyday! But it never seems like the right moment," Blair huffed, pushing some younger students aside. "Why is it that Nate finally realizes he loves me, when I love someone else?"
She sat down on the bottom step.
Serena paused, looking up to her open-mouthed. "What?"
Blair gasped when she realized, what she had just said. "Did I just-"
"You said you loved Chuck, yes." Serena nodded. "Oh my god, you said you loved Chuck!" she repeated after a moment of amazement, squealing in excitement.
"Pssh!" Blair chided her best friend. "Do you want anyone to find out about us?"
"Oh, I'm sorry, but that's just-" Serena squealed again, clapping her hands. "You have to tell him, B!"
"Oh no, no, no. No." Blair shook her head. "And don't you dare say a word to him either." She shot Serena a warning glare.
"Fine, fine." The blonde replied, taking a sip from her coffee. "But you are going to tell him, right?" She continued eagerly.
"I don't know…"Am I going to? Blair remained silent for awhile.
"Why not?" Serena eyed her best friend confused.
"What if he doesn't feel the same way about me and doesn't say it back? Or if he says it back, just not to hurt me?" Blair's insecurities were back in a second.
"Blair…"
At that moment they spotted Katy, Izabel, Penelope and Hazel making their way up to them, followed by Jenny.
"Hey, B." They sat down beside her, continuing their chatter.
"Little J, could you do me a favour?" Blair smiled at Jenny sweetly.
"Yes, sure." The blond looked at her surprised.
"Move down a couple of steps."
Jenny hesitated for a moment before getting up, taking her bag, and sitting down a couple of steps below.
Blair smiled in satisfaction, without giving Jenny much more attention, and took the fruit box out of her bag.
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The bell rang and Blair grabbed her bag, things already packed in, before skipping down the steps to find Chuck's limo already waiting for her outside of the school building.
She thanked Arthur, who opened the door for her and hopped in.
"…and the papers are as good as signed." Chuck said, holding his cell in his hand, and signalling her, that he was talking to Bart.
Blair nodded, and the limo started to move.
Chuck finished the call and bent over to her, kissing her softly.
She slid up to him and he pulled her into his lap. And suddenly she felt those three words on the tip of her tongue.
"Chuck?" she moved back a little, looking down to his face.
"Huh?"
"I…" she started, her heart hammering excitedly in her chest. "I…"
He looked up to her confused.
"I just had lunch and I have puke breath." She finished in one breath.
He smirked before pulling her back down to her.
Great, she thought.
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To be continued
A/N: So, I decided not to go on hiatus :P - thank the lovely people out there, who left me such amazing reviews and sent me PMs :).
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I have been on vacation until today, so I am sorry for the delay. Oh, and it looks like we will get more of Nate whoring around next season. The hot, blond model is for him. ;) Have you seen those lovely de lovely Chuck-and-Blair-holding-hands pics yet? Aww, they are so cute!
Reviews would be amazing, as always. :)